Taehyung sat curled up on Jeongguk's bed, knees pressed up to his chest as he looked down to the floor, completely silent with dried tears on his cheeks. He listened as the rain was heavily pouring down again, the droplets trickling down Jeongguk's window as the wind howled.

He didn't know why he broke down like that then or why Jeongguk happened to be there when it happened but god-fucking-dammit, Taehyung needed that.

Jeongguk appeared from the bathroom, a towel in hand as well as one on his head. He walked over to Taehyung with a small smile, handing him the towel.

"Here, you should dry yourself off before you catch a cold." Jeongguk gently spoke.

Taehyung nodded, taking the towel from Jeongguk and placed his legs onto the floor, first drying his face then moving up to his hair. The air was tense between the two, the sounds of the boys drying themselves off echoing in the room.

Finally, Jeongguk took a seat next to Taehyung, an empathetic look on his face as he placed his towel to the side.

"What happened back there?" Jeongguk asked, and Taehyung's breath hitched. He turned his head away, lips pursed. Thunder began to roar as the wind increased, rustling against the bushes and trees.

"Taehyung.." Jeongguk trailed, rubbing the stiff boy's back. "Is- is this the first time this has happened?" He began, speaking in a hushed tone. "When you broke down I mean."

Taehyung clamped his fingers onto his towel, he placed it onto his lap before looking at Jeongguk with hesitation. "I- well-"

Jeongguk stared at him intensely, curious and concerned as the rain began splattering even harder onto the windows. Taehyung took a deep breath, breathing out shakily after.

"No, this wasn't the first time."

Jeongguk lightly gasped before he bit his lip, unsure of how to respond. Instead, he pulled Taehyung close, feeling his damp hair brush against his cheek. Taehyung noticeably stiffened from the action, and Jeongguk had to pretend he didn't catch that.

"Tell me what happened before that, how exactly were you feeling then?" Jeongguk mumbled into Taehyung's shoulder, noticing the way Taehyung tensed up again in his hold when he tried stroking his hair.

Taehyung's mouth went dry, he sighed. "I- it's nothing to worry about, Jeon." He tried, his arms by his sides whilst Jeongguk's stayed wrapped around him. "I promise that I'm fine," Taehyung muttered, eyes looking down back at the floor.

Jeongguk resisted the urge to scoff, not believing Taehyung's word for a single bit.

"No, you're not." Jeongguk sighed, refusing to believe the boy.

"I am." Taehyung tried, playing with the sleeves of his shirt.

"You're not-"

"Yes, I am, Jeon!" Taehyung snapped, growing frustrated. He broke away from Jeongguk's warm embrace. "Look, I'm sorry for bothering you with everything but I think you've done enough." Taehyung stood up abruptly. "I'll go now, thanks for everything."

Taehyung turned away to leave but felt a hand grab his wrist.

"Taehyung, you're not fine," Jeongguk repeated before breathing in. "You-you can't just leave after you fucking break down right in front of me and then expect me not to say anything!" Jeongguk cried, a pained look on his face, feeling his eyes begin to well up with tears.

Taehyung tried to leave again but Jeongguk's grip on his wrist tightened but not enough to hurt the boy. "J-just stay here at least. I'm not letting you leave like this, not when you're obviously not okay."

The other merely listened with wide eyes, he sighed once more. "Jeongguk." Taehyung began, saying his name properly. "I told you that I'm fine now. You've helped me enough and there was no need to bring me to your dorm after calming me down, so please-"

"Taehyung!" Jeongguk groaned, eyebrows furrowing. "You told me not to go so I'm not going to! You're not being a burden by letting me help you if that's what you're thinking. You fucking need it." Jeongguk tried, the urge to cry growing stronger.

Taehyung clenched his jaw. "That was then, Jeon! As you can see, I'm perfectly fine now-"

"Stop with that fucking bullshit!" Jeongguk interrupted, vision getting blurry as his voice began to tremble. "No, you're not! Stop lying! You're not fucking fine so stop trying to tell me that you are when you're really not-"

Jeongguk was then cut off by Taehyung harshly freeing his hand from his grip, nostrils flaring. "I'm not lying! Look, I thought I remembered saying that we shouldn't talk anymore because of what happened at the party but look where we are now. Frankly, I think this should be the last time we talk. I'm fine for all it matters but please, leave me alone-"

Taehyung paused when he heard a couple of sniffles come from Jeongguk, his head was hung low with his hands bunched up in tiny fists. "D-do you really think I fucking care about that right now?" Jeongguk started, sniffling after.

"Taehyung, y-you had a fucking panic attack in front of me. Do you even understand how fucking scared I was for you then?" Jeongguk asked, looking down still.

"I- Jeongguk-"

"You were crying your eyes out and begging me not to hurt you and I- I've never seen you like that before that it was overwhelming but I knew you needed someone so I stayed. J-just for you." Jeongguk let out.

The boy finally rose his head up to look at Taehyung, and Taehyung saw it, saw the tears streaming down Jeongguk's face.

Taehyung looked at Jeongguk, shocked that he was crying because of this, because of him.

Why does he always have to mess up?

"J-Jeongguk- Don't cry-"

"I'm not finished." Jeongguk abruptly spoke, voice quivering. "So why are you bringing that stupid party up? I- I remember what you said that morning. I know that you said that we shouldn't talk anymore but do you really think that should fucking matter after you literally have a panic attack?" Jeongguk weakly spoke, and Taehyung was silent.

"W-what would've happened if I wasn't there to calm you down? If you were alone back there in the rain? You-you seriously can't expect me to believe your words and let you leave. I want to help you, Taehyung. S-so please, let me." Jeongguk breathed out, voice shaky.

Jeongguk clasped a hand over his mouth after he finished, trying to muffle his sobs that were desperate to escape his lips because he just couldn't let Taehyung leave. Not after all this had happened.

Taehyung bit his lip before sitting back down on the bed and pulling Jeongguk's head to rest on his shoulder as he continued crying, softly stroking his hair. "J-Jeongguk, please don't cry," Taehyung whispered, feeling a lump grow in his throat.

Jeongguk cried harder, thunder clapping in the distance. "Y-you don't get it, Taehyung," Jeongguk spoke, his voice small. "I fucking saw how you were acting during theatre today, you looked like you were on the edge of a mental breakdown and I- I didn't know if I should've approached you then so I followed you and-" Jeongguk paused looking at Taehyung's expression then laughed at his own words.

"I- I know it sounded weird of me to since you said we shouldn't talk b-but I'm so fucking glad I did because if I didn't- I wouldn't have seen you break down and I couldn't have helped." Jeongguk let out feebly, eyes glistening.

Taehyung gulped down the lump then brought out a hand and wiped Jeongguk's tears with his thumb, smiling, but Jeongguk pulled away. "S-stop. It's supposed to be me comforting you, n-not the other way around."

-But Taehyung didn't listen, he pulled Jeongguk back into his embrace and caressed the boy's puffy cheek with his thumb as Jeongguk continued to sniffle. "I'm sorry for worrying you." He mumbled softly. The rain had started to clear up, clouds shifting in the sky to reveal the sun.

Taehyung didn't know what overcame him or why he did so but he found himself planting a small kiss on the boy's temple, leaving his lips to linger there for a moment before pulling away when he realised what he had done.

Jeongguk looked up at Taehyung with his doe eyes wide and still gleaming, he was just as confused. His hands were on Taehyung's chest as he just looked at him through his thick lashes, not uttering a word.

"S-sorry, I didn't mean to-" Taehyung spoke before he cut himself off when he looked deep into Jeongguk's chocolate brown eyes. How intensely they were staring back at his.

Jeongguk's gaze then travelled to Taehyung's lips as he looked at them intently. Taehyung sucked in a breath, knowing where Jeongguk was looking but like before, he didn't move a muscle.

The sound of their breathing was the only thing that could be heard. Jeongguk could hear everything, the way Taehyung's breath hitched when he had begun to lean in or the way his heart raced with tension.

Taehyung looked at Jeongguk who now had his eyes fluttered shut and lips slightly puckered. Wrapping an arm around Jeongguk's waist gently, Taehyung averted his gaze from Jeongguk, pursing his lips.

He looked back again at Jeongguk, admiring his long lashes which were slightly damp from his tears and then at his lips which were plump and pink.

Jeongguk then opened his eyes again, and gosh did he look so enticing at that moment, gazing at Taehyung with his doe, shimmering eyes, as though he had the whole galaxy reflecting in his irises. Taehyung felt tense as he looked into those gazing eyes and fuck- he just couldn't help himself so before he could think twice, he tilted his head ever so slightly and carelessly pulled Jeongguk into a kiss.

Jeongguk gasped, grabbing Taehyung's shoulders with fumbling fingers as he kissed him back. Their lips moved against one another, Jeongguk slotted himself onto Taehyung's lap, and Taehyung just tightened his grip on Jeongguk's petite waist.

They kissed slowly for a solid minute- thought to become non-existent as their lips melded into one. Small squeaks left Jeongguk's lips, brown tufts of hair brushing onto Taehyung's face as their lips were pressed together.

Taehyung didn't know why but, he felt.. comfort when they were kissing like every thought of tension he had was vanishing. Neither of them knew what they were doing but they just felt better so they continued. So much so that Taehyung decided to take the kiss deeper.

Taehyung gently squeezed Jeongguk's waist, causing his mouth to fall open, allowing Taehyung to slip his tongue and explore Jeongguk's mouth. Jeongguk lightly moaned, this reminding him of the way Taehyung kissed him on the night of the party.

Suppressed whimpers escaped Jeongguk's lips as Taehyung pressed their tongues together, making him cling onto Taehyung's shirt to ground himself. Jeongguk pulled their lips apart, resting his chin on Taehyung's shoulder as his hands fell to his chest. Taehyung occupied himself with Jeongguk's neck, sucking a small hickey.

"T-Taehyung-" Jeongguk bit back a moan when Taehyung swiped his tongue over the mark he had just made before making another. Whimpering, Jeongguk began grinding his crotch against Taehyung's which made the boy groan against his neck.

Jeongguk continued his actions, swaying his hips which caused a pleasurable friction to build up for the both of them. He subconsciously wrapped his arms around Taehyung's neck, who was slightly panting whilst Jeongguk was moaning.

With his actions being driven by lust, Taehyung roughly pushed Jeongguk down onto the bed, kissing him after while Jeongguk entangled his finger into Taehyung's dark locks. Every stroke of Taehyung's tongue sent Jeongguk into a frenzy, he moaned delicately into Taehyung's mouth, this being too much for him to handle.

"W-what are w-we doing?" Jeongguk managed to choke out after Taehyung had detached their lips and moved onto Jeongguk's jaw, sucking lightly. Taehyung paused his actions to look up at Jeongguk, his chin resting on the boy's chest, lips silent.

"Taehyung," Jeongguk spoke, reaching out to pet Taehyung's hair. "Talk to me." He tried while Taehyung was playing with the fabric of his shirt, eventually, he brought his lips back to Jeongguk's neck, sucking and biting.

"T-Taehyung!" Jeongguk repeated, this time in a harsher tone. "Come on,"

Taehyung's lips rested on Jeongguk's neck for about a moment before closing his eyes and sighing softly, giving into Jeongguk's plea. "I've never liked to swallow pills."

"Pills?" Jeongguk asked, whimpering out slightly when Taehyung went back to making marks on his neck. Taehyung nodded into Jeongguk's neck, breathing out through his nose.

Pulling away, Taehyung's eyes travelled down to Jeongguk's trousers, his hands hovering above the hem. Taehyung then eyed Jeongguk, his lips forming a line.

"Please." Jeongguk breathed out when he realised what Taehyung meant, fingers clenching around the bedsheets. He propped himself on the bed, looking up at the ceiling.

Taehyung toyed with the fabric for a second before he slowly pulled off Jeongguk's pants and boxers in the same tug, throwing them off somewhere when he had fully removed them.

Jeongguk tucked his knees into his chest, feeling exposed in front of Taehyung although he had seen him naked before. Chewing at his bottom lip, Jeongguk shifted his gaze when Taehyung got up to take off his own shirt, feeling tense but then he remembered what he wanted to ask.

"Why don't you like swallowing pills?" Jeongguk enquired, slightly shivering from the way the cool breeze was hitting his bare skin. Taehyung stayed sat up, blinking. "I feel like I'm going to choke if I try swallowing them."

Jeongguk nodded slowly, still confused but saw how Taehyung seemed to be looking for something.

"F-first drawer." Jeongguk stammered out, cheeks flushed. Taehyung nodded, retrieving the bottle of lubricant and a condom Jeongguk had when he was still with his ex.

Climbing back on top of Jeongguk, Taehyung slowly spread the boy's legs, making his breath hitch before opening the bottle and lubricating three fingers. "Taehyung, do you-"

"Spread your legs a little wider." Taehyung told, and Jeongguk complied hesitantly so Taehyung could fit himself in between, hoisting a leg up onto his shoulder.

"Do you regularly have to take pills then-? Fuck-" Jeongguk let out when Taehyung began prodding the rim of his hole with his index finger with his hand on Jeongguk's hip, feeling his cock harden up against his stomach.

"Taehyung?" Jeongguk gasped out quickly after when Taehyung pushed in a single digit into his hole, wriggling it around. "You talk far too much," Taehyung grumbled.

Jeongguk huffed, grasping onto the bedsheets as Taehyung thrusted his finger in and out. "I- I'm only trying to help so a-answer my question." The boy gritted.

Taehyung then added a second finger, scissoring both of them into the boy which caused him to wince in pain slightly from the stretch. Jeongguk breathed out shakily, tiny whimpers falling from his lips at the sensations.

"Yeah, I do have to take them normally," Taehyung muttered out, continuing to slide his fingers in and out of Jeongguk which made the boy arch his back.

"But why? What are they for?"

Taehyung tightened his grip on Jeongguk's hip, not wanting to answer that question, to admit that he had a problem. He finally added a third finger, using them to stretch Jeongguk out.

Jeongguk cried out when Taehyung sloppily curled his fingers inside him, brushing against his prostate. Taehyung moved his fingers again, this time nudging right up against the bundle of nerves which made Jeongguk moan loudly.

"Found it?" Taehyung chuckled to which Jeongguk nodded eagerly in response, bucking his hips up. Taehyung continued to press his finger up against that spot teasingly, Jeongguk squeaking out in the meantime.

Jeongguk pulled the collar of his shirt to his mouth, biting into the fabric each time he felt Taehyung's fingers drag against his walls, sliding them in and out to stretch him.

The boy felt too lost in the feeling, too lost to utter anything out. However, when Taehyung finally pulled his fingers out, Jeongguk gained enough sense to talk. "Y-you never answered me before, what do you take medication for?"

Taehyung merely listened but didn't answer, he lowered Jeongguk's legs down before he ripped open a condom, pulling his pants along with his boxers down mid-thigh like always and rolling on the elastic material onto his cock.

"Taehyung-"

"I heard you." Taehyung murmured, covering the vicinity of his cock with lube. He pumped himself a few times before pulling Jeongguk's legs back onto his shoulders. He rubbed the tip of his cock against Jeongguk's entrance, Jeongguk biting his lip to suppress his moans.

"Then?" Taehyung averted his gaze from Jeongguk, knowing he'll have to tell him soon. Jeongguk had a brow raised, slightly panting. Taehyung grumbled a string of incoherent words before glancing over at Jeongguk.

"I- I have to take anti-anxiety pills." Taehyung sighed, both of his hands resting on Jeongguk's hips. The boy looked at him with doe wide eyes, mouth dry.

"Anti-anxiety p-pills-? Ah!" Taehyung cut him off by pushing himself inside, groaning at the feeling of Jeongguk's tight walls around him. Jeongguk choked out a moan, flinching at the slight burn he felt in his rear as tears rose to his eyes.

Gripping onto Taehyung's bicep, Jeongguk looked at him curiously. "W-what? Why?" Taehyung grunted, ignoring the boy as he pressed himself in a little more, making Jeongguk whine.

"F-fuck- Taehyung!" Jeongguk cursed, forgetting what he was asking when Taehyung bottomed out, gripping onto Jeongguk's hips tightly.

"Tell me when I can move."

Jeongguk sniffled but nodded, eyes gleaming once again as Taehyung went back to kiss down his neck to distract him from the pain in his lower half. "B-but what do you mean by that? Why d-do you have to take them?"

Taehyung shrugged. "I've been taking them since I was little- well, I'm supposed to be anyway."

Jeongguk looked up to the blank ceiling, confused by Taehyung's statement. "Y-you don't take them at all?"

"No," Taehyung rasped, feeling Jeongguk clench slightly around his cock, shooting a hot pleasure up his spine.

"But y-you should! Th-they'll help you know-"

"Can I fucking move now?" Taehyung asked with his jaw clenched, slightly annoyed with hearing the same bullshit he's been fed all his life.

Jeongguk froze for a moment before nodding. "Yeah, g-go ahead."

"Thanks," Taehyung grumbled before he began sliding his cock in and out, hearing the whines emitting from Jeongguk.

Jeongguk's doe eyes were glassy from tears as Taehyung fucked into him, thrusts gradually picking up speed as Jeongguk's mouth hung open, soft moans leaving his lips. Taehyung kept his head nestled into Jeongguk's neck as he slammed his hips into the boy, biting his lip to stop himself from groaning out too loudly.

'They'll help, I promise!'

Taehyung recalled those words from Jimin, remembering the time when he had tried to force Taehyung to swallow pills. Taehyung began to feel an anger boil up within him, he started going rougher with his movements, snapping his hips violently into Jeongguk.