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Yet again, your mouth sloppily catches his as soon as you rush through the door.

You don't even remember getting home, it mostly contained Jungkook stumbling awkwardly down the sidewalk with you in his arms.

All that matters is Jungkook in this moment.

A whine softly purrs from your throat as Jungkook pushes you against the wall, lips trembling, hands climbing up the dips of muscle on his stomach.

Your knees buckle as tongues tangle together in a passionate battle, a battle Jungkook wins easily. He tastes like mint and you whimper as he bites your already swollen bottom lip harshly.

"Jungkook," you sigh in content, mind a mushy mess of desire as his fingers dig into the your hips, making sure his body is pressed tightly against yours with no space left.

You're easily hungry for him, his taste, his body, everything. Your cheeks blush as you realize what you're about to allow for the first time, and you're not really sure how to feel. Especially with someone who's not yours.

Not yet.

You squirm, hands pressing against his hard chest as you try to come back to your senses. A squeak escapes as you're hoisted into the air without a word and carried into your bedroom.

As a warning your heart beat accelerates, bracing as Jungkook delicately rests you on the bed, his body hovering over your own as soon as your back sinks against cushion. You gaze into his eyes, dark and needy, glazed, as they stare down at your wet lips in want.

It's now or never.

"Jungkook─ "

"Mmm, if you keep saying my name like that I won't go easy on you," his taunting voice is low, rough, and it almost distracts you from what you were about to say.

You clear your head and match his gaze again. "Jungkook, listen─ "

"Oh, trust me, I'm listening baby," you blush harder as his fingers grip the clasp of your jeans and full panic explodes in your system.

Sucking in a breath, you squeeze your eyes shut. "I like you, Jungkook! More than just a friend."

Not how you wanted to put it but finally you've said it, finally he knows how you really feel. But you realized his response wasn't the positive one you hoped for.

Silence, hard breathy pants, and uncomfortable silence as you finally peep one eye open.

His eyes are dim, all excitement lost and drained as his eyes drag upwards to meet yours, jaw flexing as he carefully analyses your fast-falling expression.

"Shit, what the hell are we doing?" He pinches the bridge of his nose ands heaves a sigh. "I'm so sorry, I was just caught up in the moment and didn't realize what I was doing. This isn't the first time either... "

Is he really going to act like he didn't hear what I just said?!

The warm tingly feeling quickly becomes lackluster as Jungkook pushes away from your body, hands dragging through thick dark locks as he begins to pace back and forth in thought. You sit up slowly, frown firmly in place as you watch him have a silent debate in his mind.

"Jungkook, I thought─ "

"I'm sorry, it's just... "

More awkward silence drags on.

Your gut squeezes seeing how quickly he is to regret this whole thing, something you can't regret even if you try.

"It's weird," you try and guess what he's trying to say and he stops in front of you, biting his lip softly before he sighs.

"Kind of. I mean, it's not like I've never thought of you like that before but─ "

"You don't want us to be more than friends," you finish again but he's quick to deny it, squatting down in front of you with a light blush dusting his cheeks, his ears.

"No! It's not like that, I just─ " Another desperate sigh escapes as he watches tears begin to blur your vision. "This is happening too fast for me."

You scoff, arms crossing as a pathetic tear unwillingly spills over. "Yeah, 'too fast' coming from someone who would fuck a different girl every night if he had the chance."

"It's not that, it's just I never intended to kiss you at all!"

"Gee, thanks," a sniffle escapes as you angrily wipe away another annoying tear that falls.

"No, it's just─ you know how I get when I haven't gotten any in a while so when you kissed me─ "

"You don't like me, I get it, you can stop now."

"No, Y/N!" He huffs another sigh in frustration before resting both hands tightly on your arms, waiting until you finally meet his softened gaze. "You're my best friend."

"Maybe I want to be more than that, you asshole," you grumble back, sounding like a child throwing a temper tantrum more than anything else but you don't have the integrity to care right now.

Jungkook laughs humorlessly, shaking his head slowly. "Trust me, you don't want that. I'm no good for you and you should know that."

Another bitter tear falls and by this point your caught between humiliation and hurt, heart taking blow after blow from his words until it pumps in bruised agony.

"You don't know what I want, Jungkook," your eyes slowly close, taking a deep breath through your nose as your cheeks begin to heat up.

You put yourself out there just to be let down; you've confessed and embarrassed yourself and now you're not really sure how what to do, how to take things from here.

I guess Jimin is right... What do I do now that he's rejected me? Do I quit? Move on?

Jungkook's eyes squint in pain as he watches your face morph into the different emotions that hit you harder with each passing moment. His hands burn your skin where he touches and you fight the urge to flinch away, to curl up into a newly-rejected ball and cry to your hearts content.

"Can we just pretend this never happened?" You voice is drenched in venom and annoyance as Jungkook's mouth pops open into an 'O' shape.

"How the hell do you expect me to do that?!"

You shrug one shoulder, completely going into I-don't-give-a-damn mode. "You're a big boy you'll figure it out," you try to push him away but he doesn't allow it, only holding you tighter in defiance.

"No! Just─ let me just─ " He stutters and groans before trying again. "Just give me some time to think about it."

You're ready to protest, to deny him the time when at this point it's crystal clear he'll let you down in the end.

But looking into his sparkly doe eyes that plead and draw you in, the way his bunny teeth gnaw cutely on his lower lip, his muscles protruding underneath his white shirt freshly messed from your roaming hands. Jungkook is the moon and you're heart is the tide, rising and falling at his will without any say in the matter.

Jungkook wants to think on it, and that's better than him flat out saying no. I have a chance, a slim chance, but maybe that's all I need.

You pause, eyes skeptically dancing between his before you exhale sharply. "I guess so, but I'm still pissed at you."

"Well how the hell did you expect me to react when you just dropped a bomb on me like that?!"

"Oh, I don't know, maybe I thought allowing your tongue down my throat would have dropped a couple of bomb-sized hints!"

"A lot of girls do that! How was I supposed to know what it meant for you?!"

You look him up and down in disgust, upper lip pulling up with your nose scrunched. "You have no conscious, do you?"

"Oh, come on, Y/N! You know how I am! Have you completely forgotten I'm your best friend and you know everything there is to know about me? You know what I─ "

"Can we not talk about this anymore?!" You roll your eyes and stand to your feet, taking Jungkook's hand to drag him out of your room towards the front door, determined to take your mind off of this whole confusing situation.

"Yah! Where are you taking me? We need to talk about this." He eyes you suspiciously, completely baffled by your constant mood swings.

"You're taking me out for ice cream and bring your wallet because you're paying!"

Jungkook scoffs in disbelief before slowly bending down to put on his sneakers. "Seriously? Aish, girls are scary."

Yeah, but falling in love is scarier.

A/N♡:

Honestly I feel so bad for Y/N but I can't lie, I laughed while writing this. 😂

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