"Uncle...Kinza's dad is admitted in the hospital—he is in a very serious condition...they called you but you did not pick the call so" a gasp leaves my lips, the heaviness of his words lingering in my mind and I feel like killing myself for keeping the phone in silent just Because I thought I would take a leave today.

"He—how is he?" I cover my mouth not able to take this guilt and news "I-I don't know abbu went to the hospital you should take bhabhi with you" kinza...how am I going to say this to her?

"Ya allah...give me 10 minutes I will be down" I hold myself together and Ryaan nods and walks away quickly.

I rush towards the washroom to freshen up and get ready. My hands trembling as I walk towards kinza not knowing how to face her or how to say her I sit beside her. Just at the thought of she crying her eyes out is scaring me to death—I can't see her like that—I just can't see her when she cries I feel my heart tightening already...I don't know what is going to happen...I hope uncle is safe.

"Kinza" I gently tap her arm to wake her up but she first groans and then blinks her eyes to open them "wake up" I gently run my finger through her hair but hear her groaning and mumbling something.

"Wake up kinza" I again try and she groans and opens her eyes to look at me "you said I can take a leave today...why are you waking me?" She mumbles her cheeks pressed against the mattress and that makes her cheeks squish "you are not going to college but we are going somewhere else so wake up" she huffs and sits "early in the morning we are going somewhere?" I gulp but nod feeling like shit for not being as strong as I should be.

"Where are we going?" She rubs her eyes and I don't know what to reply "First go get ready wash your face quickly and come out and then I'll tell you..come on get up" I pat her arm and she absent mindedly nods and crawls till the end of the bed before lazy walking towards the washroom.

Till then I open my phone just to see 30 missed calls of Abbu, Kinza's mom and Ryaan's.

Gosh what the hell did I do!! How can I be so careless.

I feel like killing myself for being so careless Kinza's mom must've called me first when everything happened.

Ya Allah!

I hold my head feeling sick of myself after being worthless towards the family whose son I am.

"I am ready" kinza smiles at me and I force myself to return back one "hmm" I stand up my heart thumping against my chest as I take slow step towards the smiling girl. I wish I could go back to sleep snuggling closer into her arms and just stay their and not take the pain and give the pain which I and she is going to feel in few minutes.

She throws her Abaya over head as she questions me "where are we going?" She clumsily wears the Abaya but waits for my answer.

I press my lips together not knowing how to start the conversation "we are umm we are going to the hospital" she stops doing whatever she was doing and eyes me up and down. "Hospital why?" I gulp the lump which formed on my throat.

She wraps her hijaab properly and rushes towards me "you were holding your head when I came do you have fever? Your head is paining??" Worried look takes over her face as she tip toes to check if I am having fever with her palm.

I gently hold her wrist to pull them down, pulling her closer I intertwine our fingers, not knowing where to start or how to start I stand there quietly looking at the girl who looks so innocent when she blinks her eyes confused.

"I-It's not because of me...I am fine" she squints her eyes as If not believing and I uncontrollably lick my lips to not keep them dry. "Then what's wrong?"

"It's—uncle..your abbu is in the hospital he is not well so they took him to the hospital" a loud gasp leaves her lips and before she could stumble I pull her closer keeping her body against "W-what?" Her eyes widens in disbelief and her voice stutters "h-how?—lets go where is he? When did they admit Him? Ya allah were is my phone" like I thought she panics and acts as if she is not breaking from inside from the sudden but I can tell she is scared to death from her trembling voice.

"Hey look at me...he is fine now...stop panicking everything is fine" I cup her cheeks so she could look at me her eyes filling with tears but she doesn't cry and only nods "yeah but let's go take me their" she holds my wrist to drag me out.

I walk beside the girl who is wiping her tears at time to time.

"Kinza—" she cuts me with her trembling voice "ammi...where is ammi? How is ammi?" She squeezes my arm asking an answer "she is fine sweetheart stop crying" when I see non stop tears flowing down her cheek my heart clenches and breaks.

I place my hand on her lower back gently caress it as we walk through the our living where ammi and Ryaan is phasing out.

"I will bring ammi with me" he speaks to which I nod. Kinza who is not in her correct state of mind does not glance at anyone but rushes out.

I follow her and without wasting any more time I sit on the driver seat and she quickly hops in and joins me so I on the engine to drive away.

My hand automatically moving towards her when I see her squeezing her finger out of nervousness and imagining the worst. "Hey calm down nothing is going to happen to him" I give an assuring smile to the girl who squeezes my hand and nods as if telling herself to believe in those words.

My thumb caressing her knuckles as I drive in full speed to reach as soon as possible. And to my greatest surprise the roads are empty even if it's 10 in the morning it gives me more benefits to drive fast.

I carelessly park the car in the first lot and kinza rushes to open the door when we reach and she successfully opens the doors she does not wait for anyone but jogs in.

With a sigh I follow couldn't able to imagine what she will go through when she will see her father in the ICU.

I walk faster to reach her when I see her almost bumping onto people who are on her way and I know how she is not in her good sense to think about her appearance and how she behaves.

When she does not find the right room cause I didn't tell her which room she stands in the middle looking around like a lost girl and that literally tears my heart into pieces so I rush towards her to not make her feel lonely.

"The right, come here" I take a hold of her cold trembling hand, she roughly wipes her tears hating herself for crying so much but who can control tears? Nobody it comes from heart and her tears tell me how scared she is from inside.

I walk towards the otherside, from where she passed and soon we see Kinza's mother sitting on a bench with a guy beside him. I loose my hold on Kinza's hand and that was enough for her to run towards her mom "Ammi" she cries out and hugs her tightly "ya Allah kinza" her mother whose eyes are swollen from crying hugs her with a gasp.

"Ammi where is Abbu?" She cups her face and asks about her dad about whom she must be dying to know "he-he is in the room he got a silent attack again" her mother sobs infront of her daughter who looks at her with wide eyes.

"W-what?" Her lips and trembling and tears are non stop flowing down her cheek. A gasp leaves her lips but soon she cover her mouth to be silent, I move forward not able to see her in this condition but just when I was about to hold her my heart stops and a very familiar feeling of rage fills through my veins when my eyes meets those pair of innocent yet betrayed ones.

My body stiffs on it's place and my jaw clenches when she looks at me with wide eyes looking all shocked. A gasp leaves her lips but she quickly covers her mouth and a trembling "Ayaan" leaves her lips.

My hand automatically fisting on it's own as anger, betray and hurt fills my heart and the humiliation I felt that day all at once erupts my mind.

Kinza who did not see her sister who is standing behind her turns to look at me with tears in her eyes.

But when she finds me glaring at that soul which left an insecure scar in my heart she turns to look but soon stumbles a step back with a loud gasp. Her body bumping against mine "Zaina" she lets out in an unbelievable voice.

With wide eyes she stares at her for a minute and when Zaina was about to open her mouth kinza turns her back and faces me.

"Can-Can you take me to the doctor? I want to talk to him" I lick my dry lips feeling my heart tightening at this suffocating place which is way too toxic for me.

I nod and turn to leave this toxic place only to find my mother glaring at the human who is going to get alot of hate.

"Which doctor is taking care of—" I stop not knowing what to label him since kinza calls ammi as ammi shouldn't I be calling her abbu as abbu "Abbu" the words leaves my lips almost immediately after a pause and I hear the girl who humiliated me gasping and I can tell her eyes our falling off the socket.

"Take the right and there is doctor ken...he did the surgery few hours ago" kinza holds my shirt when the word surgery was heard "surgery?" She looks at him with wide eyes and he passes her a guilty look.

"Yeah—" before he could say something which she is not capable of hearing I hold her wrist pulling her closer "Thankyou we will go meet the doctor" With my hand pressed against Kinza's lower back I ask the girl to walk who is going through a terrible trauma in her head.

"He said surgery" she mumbles and looks up with those teary eyes and my heart completely shatters at her vulnerable stage.

"It's nothing he is fine" I gently caress her waist and she presses her lips together to not sob but act strong.

I open the door of the doctor when the nurse asks us to enter "Good Morning" he greets us with a professional look and we only nod not able to greet him back.

"Yes?" He asks us to speak not knowing who we are and the nurse quickly speaks in a low voice telling him that we are his patients relatives.

"Oh okay" he nods to the nurse and turns towards us "well, you know what happened and we cannot say anything about his health now, we have done a bypass surgery immediately because the silent attack came 2 hours ago and it would have cost death if we did not undergo the surgery. The only thing I would say is keep him in a place surrounded with happiness he has gone under lot of pressure and stress since past few days and that's the result we got today. The stress which his mind was going through was the only reason why he is here. So if he wakes which we wish he should, please take a good care of him and keep him away from any mental pressure" he ends his doctory speech shaking us to the core at his blunt yet truthful words.

"He-he will wake up right?" My wife's trembling voice was heard so I turn to look at her only to see her crying silently, guiltiness can be clearly seen on her face and I do nothing but squeeze her hand telling her that I am here and everything is alright.

The doctor passes her a small smile, used to this scene almost everyday he acts casual unlike me whose heart is shattering into million pieces only if it was a glass everybody could have heard the sound of million trillion pieces.

"I cannot promise that but the only thing I can say is pray that the medicines we gave him should work and some miracle should happen cause silent attack are very dangerous" he only worsen her state with his words but speaks truth unlike me who is lying from the beginning just to not make her worried more than she is.

I stand up to leave this place but sits there frozen still in the state of shock. I hold her by her shoulder and pull her so she could stand, she stumbles on her step but I was fast to hold her close.

I open the door to leave the room which only holds bad memories.

Kinza presses her body against the wall and loud sob filled with pain, hurt and regret leaves her lips seeing the girl who only smiles and jokes around crying like this is killing me.

Hiccup after hiccup leaves her lips when she tries to breathe between her loud cries. Not able to leave her alone I move forward to pull her body against, as if she was waiting for my warmth she hugs me tightly and sobs on my chest.

"Shh calm down" I rub her back but patiently wait for her to calm down.

"I am scared" she mumbles against my chest and I don't know what to reply to that. "Everything is going to fine...you need to calm down" I whisper healthy motivating words in her ears, she squeezes me in her arms and does not let me go. So I do not push her away first knowing how much she is in need of comfort.

With a sigh I look up only to feel my jaw clenching when I spot the girl who I despise the most standing just few steps away from us.

I do not move but look at her whose eyes are swollen and red as she still cries looking painful hurt and betrayed, those eyes which caught my first attention which used to make my heart skip at the only sight does not affect me anymore.

I look at her without any emotion the only pain and hurt I am feeling is because of kinza and no one else.

"Kinza?" Her voice which is still sweet and soft just like Kinza's reaches my ears but feel the girl in my arms stiffing, her lips trembling as she pulls away from me. Her wet swollen orbs finds my empty ones, she stares at me in silence before a breathing sigh escapes her lips she wipes her tears in a roughly manner which might've left a scar on her face if she was wearing a sharp ring.

"Kinza I am so-" before Zaina could complete her pity full sentence Kinza interrupts. "Why did you do this to us? To him?" Even with her trembling voice she questions her. Zaina does not do anything but only cries "I am so—" a gasp leaves my lips when Kinza's hand flies across her sisters cheek giving her a very hard slap which shook me to the core.