Part 15 -

A few weeks later –

After a lot of thinking I decided to move closer to Bill, even though I can't control how close I was with Eddie I could at least keep Bill close this time so we didn't lose contact again

So I moved in a few streets down from him, which he randomly got me a dog as a welcome home gift. A small little black pug called fudge. Even though I hadn't heard from Eddie I couldn't help but think of him. I knew he would've laughed when I named the dog, or even laughed when I dropped all the plates making them all smash right outside the house. Everything reminded me of him and I just wish it would stop

I just hope he was okay. Apart of me is annoyed at Eddie that he hasn't at least tried to reach out to one of us either, if he wanted to stay with his wife fair enough. But at least say something to us about how he is.

As for ben and Beverly, they are living their lives to the max. I would be lying If I said I wasn't jealous. She got the man of her dreams, currently on a luxury boat somewhere whilst I was here alone. Mike decided to finally do something with his life and moved out of Derry to go explore the world that Derry stopped him from doing all these years. Bill as he said, broke it off with his wife and has currently just published a new book which I knew was going to be a success, it was his best material yet. Which leaves Richie, who has become one of the best comedians there is. He used his traumatic experiences to make the jokes even funnier, but still no partner.

I grabbed the last box from the car and placed it in the hall

I sighed and started to unbox all my stuff seeing all the photos id kept

I found the photo booth strip and smiled, walking over to the fridge and putting it on there

"Perfect." Bill said and smiled

"I thought so to! Thank you for all your help I don't know what I would've done without you." I said

He shrugged "It's what best friends are for. However I do have a book to write so will you be okay on your own?"

I laughed "I'm a big girl now billy, besides I have fudge." I said

He smiled "Okay, well I'm just down the street if you need anything-"

"I know I know, go." I laughed

"Okay! Speak soon, bye Fudge!" He shouted and left

I grabbed the dog bowl and poured some food in there and placed it down

"Fudge?" I called but he didn't respond "Fudge dinner!"

But nothing, I hope bill didn't keep the door open

I walked out the kitchen and stopped when I saw Eddie stood there in the doorway

"Eddie... what are you-"

"L-let me talk. Erm, sorry for showing up like this but I cant just leave it how it was. Back at the hospital I felt so bad on how everything happened-"

"It's fine-"

"It's not. It's really not. My whole life I let a woman control me, making me think I had all this wrong with me. Telling me about how I could die by nearly everything. Making me go doctors nearly every day over the slightest things. And I found comfort in that. Until I met you. You made me feel like I could do anything, get through anything. If it wasn't for you then I'm pretty sure Pennywise would've killed me the first time. Then after all that happened, we finally got together. I finally had the girl of my dreams! But then I let that woman control me again. Because I thought if I held onto that part of my life, Pennywise would go away forever. But he didn't. He still came back, even after I let the love of my life walk away. Barbara told me that she told you what I had planned. She wasn't lying I found you. I was going to propose, but I took one look at you and realized I would only mess you up like I already was. You were smiling, talking to a woman who I'm guessing was someone who you worked with. But that smile told me so many things, one being not to go in there and ask you that question. So I left, I left you and I left my chance of happiness. Then I found Myra, a woman who Is basically my mother, and settled for it. I settled for my mother." he chuckled "But she wasn't you. She was never you. When we fought Pennywise the second time I wasn't lying when I said I loved you. And it wasn't your fault for what happened. I heard what you said to me in the hospital, all of it. Richie also filled me in on how myra was being. Im sorry she was rude to you, shes always like that. God I don't know how I did it for so long."

"Eddie what's the point here?" I asked

He sighed and took a step closer

"I left her. I would fight Pennywise all over again in a heartbeat if it meant being with you." He said

I laughed "I don't think that's very wise you barely lasted the last time."

"Exactly, I need you y/n." he said, making my heart race even more just hearing those words I've waited years to hear

"You really mean it?" I asked

He took a step forward, grabbing my hand and pulling me closer

He placed my hand on his chest, his heart going just as fast as mine was

"I really mean it." He said

I placed my hand on his cheek and not wasting another minute longer I placed my lips on his

He smiled into the kiss and lightly pushed me against the wall

"Wait, wait."I said and pulled away

"What? Did I do it wrong?"

I laughed and shook my head "I need to close the front door before Fudge runs away."

He laughed "Fudge?"

I nodded

He walked over and closed the door before walking back over

"Do I get to meet this Fudge?"

I smiled making him wait there as I went to grab him

I picked Fudge up and walked over to him

"Fudge this is Eddie, Eddie this is Fudge." I said

Fudge's tail started to go crazy and Eddie took him off me and started to give him a fus

"He likes you." I said

"Hey buddy."

Fudge attacked Eddie, licking his face

I grabbed his toy and threw it across the room, making him get off Eddie and run after it

"Sorry he's not trained yet." I laughed

"He's so cute." he smiled

"So what-" I stopped talking when he spoke at the same time making us both laugh

"Sorry you go first." I said

"I was just wondering if you wanted to go out sometime?" he asked

"Is the Eddie asking me out?" I asked

"U-urm I guess I am" he smiled

"I'd love to." I smiled and walked over to him giving him a peck on the lips

I put my hands on his face, stroking his cheek

"i-I can't believe this is happening." I said

He smiled "well believe it."

"This isn't a dream is it? Because I will hate life when I wake up" I said

He kissed me again

"I love you. So believe it." He said and pulled me into another kiss

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Eddie stayed for the rest of the day and helped me unpack most things before we both took a lie down on the bed

"What happened after we left the hospital?" I asked

"Well Myra was giving me a lecture about how I showed her up by not calling her name. then she called the doctors in asking if I could move. I tried to tell her no but I wasn't in any state to fight about it. So I was transferred to new York. Anyway after days of her coming and going I missed you like crazy. I was finally discharged and ready to go home and the minute I stepped In that house I knew. That house wasn't my home, it felt weird. Cold and foreign. So I told her, I told her I couldn't take another step in this house without being honest and she didn't seem upset at all. In fact she was more happy about the fact she now will get half of everything with the divorce... but that doesn't mean anything to me, she can have it."

I gave him a little kiss and rested on my elbow looking at him

"I'm sorry, I've messed your life up haven't i?"

He chuckled and pulled me into him

"Y/n you've done nothing like that. Its always been you, before now I wasn't happy at all. Not a single day went by where I didn't think of you and what you were doing."

I smiled and stroked his cheek

"Now if there's anymore negativity out of you I'm going to have to tickle you." He said

"Oh really" I laughed

He nodded and started to do just that

"Eddie stop!" I laughed

"Sorry? I can't hear you." He said

I started to kick my feet and wriggle away but it was no use

"P-please!" I said and he stopped, holding his stomach

"You okay?"

He nodded and gave me a kiss and flopped back down next to me

I went to pull his top up when he stopped me

"Please don't." He said his voice more like a whisper

"Why?"

"I-I don't want you to see me like this." He said

I removed his hand from mine, refusing to listen to him

I pulled his top up to reveal his scar, it was still pretty fresh revealing that there was more scars than one. I traced my finger over them

"I-it's gross I know." He mumbled

"Not gross, more like a hero scar. You're like superman but shorter." I smiled

"Oi, im tall okay." he said

I raised my eyebrow "I do have a question though, why is there a few new scars?" I asked

"I had 3 operations." He said

I sighed "I'm sorry Eddie that I wasn't there for-"

He covered my mouth "I will tickle again."

I removed his hand and smiled

"I know but I still feel a little guilty about it all." I said

"Remember when Stanley became that spider thing and I let him get to you? And I told you I felt guilty?" he asked

I nodded

"You told me there's no reason to feel guilty because your still alive. so listen to your own words, I'm here. Let's live in the moment, make the most of the time we have now and make up for what we've missed out on. Okay?"

"Okay" I said

"and we can start by doing this." He said and kissed me

"oh really..."

He gave me a cheeky smile before kissing me again

I grabbed eddies hand and intertwined my fingers with his

"wait... How many kids do you want?' Eddie asked

I laughed "We only just got together now you wanna talk kids?"

He shrugged "I always wanted them. I'm just curious."

"3" I replied

"I can work with that."

I laughed "Is that so."

I looked up at him and smiled

He put his hand on my face and gave me a smile

"What?" I asked

"Nothing, I just love you." He said and kissed me

"I love you too."

The next day I woke up with Eddies arms around me, I smiled and cuddled in closer

"mmhm" he said and nuzzled in more

We were interrupted when the phone began to ring

"Ignore it." Eddie said and kissed me lightly on the head but the phone continued to ring

"Sorry I cant" I said and looked to see who it was

Mike.

"Urm mike?" I asked, putting the phone to my ear

"Hey sorry, did I wake you?" he asked

I looked at Eddie and smiled "Erm no no you didn't"

"Okay good, I was just wondering if you read the letter."

I frowned "What letter?"

Eddie's face turned into a frown too, both of us confused why Mike was ringing us about a letter

"You'll know when you see it. Take care and keep in touch okay?" Mike said

"S-sure. Talk soon Mike."

"Say hi to Eddie for me." he laughed before hanging up

My face started to burn up

"How did he know I was here?" he asked

"I don't know." I laughed "But I'm curious what letter he means." I said and grabbed my jacket

I walked out to the mail box and checked, to see a letter written to me

"Stanley.." I mumbled

I walked back inside and stood by the window, opening the letter

Dear Losers,

I know what this might seem like, but this isn't a suicide note. You're probably wondering why I did what I did. Its because I knew that I was too scared to go back and if we weren't together, if all of us alive weren't united, I knew we'd all die.

So, I made the only logical move. I took myself off the board. Did it work? Well if you're reading this, you know the answer. I lived my whole life afraid. Afraid of what would come next. Afraid of what I might leave behind. Don't. Be who you wanna be. Be proud.

And if you find someone worth holding onto, never ever, let them go. Follow your own path. Wherever that takes you. Think of this letter as a promise. A promise I'm asking you to make. To me. To eachother. An oath.

See, the thing about being a loser is you don't have anything to lose. So, be true. Be brave. Stand. Believe. And don't ever forget. We're losers and we always will be.

Eddie read the letter at the same time as me and pulled me into him

"Hey it's okay." He said and rubbed my back

I started to cry into his shoulder, knowing why Stanley did it just broke my heart.

"H-he didn't deserve it." I said

"I know." he rubbed my back and pulled me closer, he gave me a kiss on the head

"I love you Eddie."

"I love you too beautiful"