You didn't want to speak. It felt as though a single sound, even the slightest twitch and you would desolve into nothing. Tears welled in your eyes as you looked at Death. They slid down your cheeks in streams, the salt stinging in your reddening eyes. There was no way to cry attractively anyway, so why both wiping them away. You lowered your head and looked at the billowing white skirt of your dress. Your skin was brushed clean of anything and your toes dug into the fragrant soil. Your body looked pure, but your chest felt heavy with grief. Just moments ago, you'd accepted your death, but now you were unsure. You were scared.

"Jesus Christ..." You whispered. "What the hell is wrong with me?"

You tried to laugh but your tone cracked with a gasping sob. Your knees felt weak as you crumbled and grit your teeth together. Your knees hit the soft dirt and you dug your fingers into the earth beneath you. Fat, wet tears plastered on the backs of your hands. You couldn't pin its source, but grief overwhelmed you. A mess of emotion you couldn't decipher or console.

Death was silent, approaching you slowly and kneeling next to you. His slim fingers glided through your hair as he tucked it behind your ear. He spared you any excess grasp, but he seemed comforting in that moment. It was funny, how all life you feared death, but as you looked it in the eye, you realized your fear was nothing but a fear of your own consequence. As life was temporary, death was consistent. It was your karma that determined your infinite fate.

"What's wrong with me?" You repeated. There was no response.

It took a few moments but finally, Death spoke in a melancholy tone. "It's time." He said gently. "I'll be waiting for you here."

You nodded slowly and sucked in a shaking breath. As you opened your eyes, your face was sticky with tears and snot. You laughed, but it was quirt and weak. Hades looked at you with his small eyes, but even he seemed to know what was happening. Frisk still slept curled up. It took all your will to look at him without bursting into tears and holding him.

Pain shot through your side as an image flashed against your eyelids. It was attack, a pointed sliver of bone lanced through your side. You bit down on your lip and iron took to your mouth. As you looked down at your side, red grew rapidly over the wound. Hades cawed, hopping back and forth on his stick-like legs.

You looked at Sans and grinned. "Please, take care of him... do for him what I couldn't..." He was asleep, but ever so slightly he shifted. You meant to wake him, but now, as you moved to meet Death in your field of buttercups, you didn't possess the courage. It only made parting so much harder.

A thud echoed from the door, Frisk shuffling about as it echoed. You cringed, looking at the door then at your opened wound. Now pain laced your body, this time releasing with it a curling gust of loose magic particles. You wobbled to your feet and knelt at Frisk's side. Gently pressing your lips to his head, you pulled away without a word. There was nothing you could say to excuse your actions. Blood trailed your steps as you approached the door. It took longer than you recalled, more and more wounds opening around you. Hades glided just in front of you, as though ebbing you forward. Then finally... the door.

You pushed it open with the little strength you had. Your body fell and unable to catch your footing, you landed roughly over the flowers with an echoing thunk. Your vision swam as Hades screeched. It sounded like distant echoes as a large figure came to you. You decided it was best to assume the infamous sillouhette was the monster king. "Please..." you whispered. You weren't even sure if he could hear you. You just felt soft paws pulling at your body. Glittering magic pulled a large gash against your stomach and you bit down your pain. "Please... Asgore..." You sputtered, blood mixing with the salty tears down your face. "My soul... use it. Before it shatters..."

Hades cawed repeatedly, circling you as the figure tried to speak to you. You couldn't understand. Then it happened. You screamed, a blood-curdling shriek that rung in even your deafened ears. Asgore cringed away and watched in horror as the evidence of Sans' final attack grew over your body. You let your soul crawl from your chest and pushed it against Asgore. "Free him... my brother... please..."

You couldn't hear, but the vague shapes around you were enough. The bright golden hues of the flowers seemed to grow around your face as your head was lowered into the garden. Asgore knelt by you as the soul, your soul, clung to him. His eyes were saddened as the vibrant hue dulled, assimilating to him quickly jist as a new body flung into your vision. They were yelling, pulling at your body and clothes and screaming distant words.

Their expression seemed pained, your vision clarifying on them as Asgore stood to leave. You smiled with the little strength you had. "I'm sorry..." You breathed.

Your eyes felt so heavy. Reality felt so fuzzy to you. He still clung to you. His oversized sweater was stained with your coppery blood. His small eyes were overflowing with tears as he screamed at you. Sans struggled to pull him away, finally unhooking his small fingers from your clothing and cradling him away from from. "I'm sorry..." You uttered. "I... I love.... you... Fris...." Your voice faded as you did, the last thing in your vision bring blinding white as the barrier shattered and a gut-wrenching scream.

"(Y/N)!!!!"

It was quiet again. Your fingertips were frigid with death's kiss and your soul was left to judegment. You sat up in the darkness, looking at your gown of white again and contemplating the hallow in your chest. Your eyes still welled with tears as your memories slowly flickered through your mind. Starting slow, then growing quicker, your life flashed before your eyes.

[FILE SAVE...]

Two buttons floated before you. Frisk, his small petite form crippled as he knelt before the reset. His hand hovered just before it but it was shaking. Your voice was stuck in your throat as you listened to him. He wailed as he tried to convince himself to reset. You smiled a sad grin and sat before him, pulling him into a tight embrace. He hesitated, before wrapping you in both arms tightly. You tried to laugh, but couldn't find it in you.

"Why?" He asked simply, not looking up at like, as though you'd disappear if he did.

"I had no choice." You said plainly. "I wanted my Death to mean something." You cooed.

"You don't have to die! I-I can reset! We can go back! I can save y-"

You pulled him closer, silent as you choked down your tears. "I'm already dead." You whispered. "Please, don't blame Asgore, or Sans or anything else. I was never supposed to come back. I changed the rules so that you could live... this is the cost."

You pushed him away and cupped his wet cheeks in your hands and placed your forehead to his. "Frisk, please, forgive me..."

"Why?" He muttered, barely audible.

"It's time for your happy ending." You said bluntly.

He seemed pained and confused, too slow to act as you grasped the reset button in your hand and shattered it. Frisk cried out "No!" but was seconds too late. You blinked and he was gone. You were alone.

It was dark and cold.

The only sound was your own shallow breaths. Your chest throbbed with grief and you couldn't cope. You felt helpless. "Just take me away already." You pled. "I won't remember right? Just take me away. Make this pain go away. Please..."

Your tears fell to an intangible floor and ripples shifted beneath you. "Waiting still, are we? You must have quite the sins on your head..."

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Death P.o.V.

I watched her die. Where the hell did she go? She was supposed to come here immediately? What stopped her? Or even worse, what took her?

I paced anxiously in the meadow as Hades appeared back to me. He took on the form of a man and bowed to me before looking around. "Where is she? Wasn't she supposed to appear here-"

"Yes! I know how this works Hades! I don't know where she is!" I snapped.

He flinched away. I growled as I bustled about and tried to think. "Where could she have ended up?" I asked, hoping that maybe Hades could contribute anything useful.

"Maybe she appeared before Life again?" Hades offered.

"She would have notified me instantly."

"Maybe her soul is trapped with her friends."

"It couldn't be, Asgore used it to open the barrier. It would end up here."

Hades pondered for a moment before speaking again, his tone more worried than before. "She could have end up back at the loading screen..."

My eyes widened and I instantly flew into action. When I entered the plane, all that remained as a child, sobbing at the remains of a shattered option and another, whole option.

[CONTINUE]

She had shattered the reset. He wouldn't be able to reset the world again. I sighed, but the lack of (Y/N)'s presence still frightened me. My soul throbbed as I tried to find her.

"Please be okay... I can't loose you a second time."

The words felt odd, but they made sense, right? I lost her the first time... it was a lot of trouble... of course I wouldn't want to loose her again.

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You flinched away and looked at the child. It was the apparition from before. The girl you saw in the hospital. She grinned at you, crimson eyes folding as her smile made her appear friendly. She wore a small dress-like tunic, her arms folded behind her back innocently as she rocked back and forth on barren feet.

"You got screwed over too." She hummed as she drifted towards you gracefully. "Death was supposed to save you but he failed and now you're here with lil' ol' me."

"W-Who are you?" You stuttered, drawing a blank for names.

"Hmmm, I don't recall my real name. But I do like the sound of Entropy!" She chirped.

"E-Entropy?!" You gasped. "Isn't that a form of chaos?"

"Is it? I didn't notice." She shook her head and shrugged, tip-toeing closer and leaned towards you. "Let me guess... you just died to sacrifice yourself in hopes it would relieve you of your sin enough to live in eternal bliss..."

"What? No.... I just-"

"So you weren't waiting for Death to come sweep you up and plop you down in your favorite little spot, probably a meadow?" She raised a brow as you blushed.

"Well I mean, yeah, but I don't-"

"He lied to you." She interupted. Her expression was blank as she spoke. "He does that alot. He did to me too, and I've been here a long time because he did. I bet he told you about only having hell if you didn't pick him too."

"Actually no I just-"

"Did he tell you about the other out?" She asked.

You were quiet. She smiled and continued, pacing circles around you and pinning you under red eyes. "You know, the option that allowd you to live with Frisk again, granted in another body but still... To watch over your loved ones... to protect them?"

"I don't want to haunt my friends. I just want them to be happy..." you said gently.

Entropy shook her head with a giggle. "No, I just thought I'd let you in on a little secret." She leaned to your face and whispered. Your eyes widened as you listening, faint hope lightening your chest. "You can be reborn in a new body, with a little help from Death..."

"You're lying." You snapped, a little too aggressively.

Entropy shrugged. "Fine, don't listen to me. It's not like I was gonna show you the loophole or anything."

Your heart, even unbeating, skipped a beat. She knew. The girl, with the appearance of nothing more than a child, offered her hand. It felt like you were making a new deal. It felt wrong. Death had promised to take care of you once you died. But he was nowhere to be found.

"Come on (Y/N)? Don't you want to see your friends again?"