Sans pov

I was walking to the ruins to go see Tori since she is the only one who actually knows me and actually gets me and what I've been through

the real me the true me the guys that Crys himself to sleep the guy that tried to kill himself

the guy hates his job the guy that everyone hates

the guys that's is hated by everyone

the guy who just wants to be loved

the guys that has no soul

the guy who feels like he's getting stabbed over and over again

Everytime they talk about him when they think he's not listening the guy who know one even knows his real name they all just call him 'death' or 'grim reaper' or even 'the evil one'

Everyone thinks that just be cause he's the grim reaper god of death reaper of souls that he is evil the grim reaper who everyone thinks is evil and corrupted and wants everyone to suffer to watch everyone die to feed of there pain and hate and one day kill all the gods and rule the world

I look like I'm happy I smile and laugh a lot but only to please him

My younger brother

Papyrus the god of friendship the brother that everyone loves the brother that has a calm aura of peace and friendship while his brother has a dark aura and scary aura of death and kills anything he touches

I finally arrive at the ruins and start hovering to make sure I don't kill any of her flowers and spot her over in her house making pie

"Hey tori I'm back" I said casually and float into the kitchen to see her taking out the pie

"Oh hello again there sans I did not expect you to be back so soon" she said in her gentle motherly voice while looking at me then putting the pie on the bench

"oh nothing much nothing interesting all I do is avoid everyone reap souls and come see you anything your dying to tell me" I said chuckling at the small pun I made "actually yes there is something I've been wanting to tell you but I'll tell you after you have some pie" she said kindly and handed me a piece of pie

"thanks Tori" I said and gladly took the pie with my gloves hands and took a bite "wow tori this pie is amazing it never ceases to amaze me every time you make a pie" I say and take another bite

* TIMESKIP AFTER EATING PIE NOW IN THE GARDEN*

"So what did you want to tell me tori" I ask float on my back she sighed and sat down near me "well I wanted to tell you how since everything you touch dies I would make something that you can touch that won't die so here" she said he eyes gleaming in excitement and a bright grin plastered on her face as she handed me a stained glass flower

"it's okay you can touch it it won't wilt or die it's okay" she said trying reassure me to touch it I hesitatly take off my gloves and take the flower not wanting to hurt kill her creations again but surprisingly it doesn't wilt or die I gently run my finger along the petels of the flower and broke down crying glowing blue tears carelessly slid down my face

I made no attempt to stop toriel seeing me crying instantly started panicking "oh no sans do you not like it what's wrong I'm sorry I made you cry please stop crying I'm sorry if you do-" I cut toriel off by saying "no no everything if fine i-it's just that no one's ever done this for me before a-and I've never had something like this it's perfect I'm sorry for worrying you tori I'll make sure nothing bad happens to it I'll cherish it forever" I say and wipe my tears away with my cloak and put the flower in there carefully not to damage it or cause a single scratch

She sighed in relief at me being okay "sans" she said quietly

" yeah tori" I said turning to face her "why where your tears glowing blue?" She ask curiosity clear on her face

"well tori my tears were glowing blue because I was happy and when I'm mad sad angry or any other emotion they are black heh funny isn't it and surprisingly your the first person to ever make me cry blue tears ever I've never done that before in my life so congratulations you have officially been made the very first person to make death cry blue tears of happiness" I say to her smiling she laughs and thanks me

"Welp I better get back home before papyrus starts worrying about me see you tomorrow tori and thank you for the flower I promise to always protect and cherish it for as long as I live" I say as I get up "okay then bye sans I'll see you tomorrow" she says waving I wave back and teleport back to the front of the house to see it was just past midnight dang paps must of been wondering we I have been for ages great now I've probably upset papyrus and now I'm gonna have to lie to him again about where I've been I sign and mentally prepare myself for whats gonna happen hopefully he hasn't called the other gods I'm pretty sure there starting to get suspicious as to where I'm going because of all my disappearances lately and why I come back so late

great just great

*Sigh* let's just get this over with

I walk straight in but inside not bothering to knock and walked towards the living room "papyrus!" I called "I'm home" I heard some shuffling and voices in the living room so I put my hood up to hide my face and walked straight in

Oh how I wish I didn't

some of the other gods were all standing there talking to papyrus even the king of gods himself was there comforting papyrus now that's a surprise seeing as he never comes her unless it's important

Asgore the god of sky and king of the gods was standing there crown on his head and weapon in his hand his face blank

Undyne the god of war was standing there her spear on her back and stood there looking intimidating just standing there looking angry

Alphys the god of knowledge was standing over by papyrus rubbing his back

Mettaton the god of technology was also by papyrus trying to calm him down

And papyrus the god of friendship was there on the couch tears streaming down his face his sons echoed around the room only his voice snapped me back into reality

"W-what if h-he's hurt or needs o-our help *hic* we have t-to find him" he said worry and panic in his tone before he starting crying again I teleported mid step over to papyrus scaring all the other gods of my sudden appearance into the room making alphys and mettaton scream and jump and fall of the back of the couch asgore to snap out of his trance and summon lightning while undyne summoned spears and shot them at us

Papyrus screamed as he covered his head trying not to get hurt tears streaming down his face faster than before

This pissed me the hell of

No one makes papyrus cry

I summoned my magic and a dark aura appeared around me and papyrus mettaton and alphys protecting us from the attack while I was making sure we all stayed safe papyrus stopped crying and saw me standing there the attack finally stopped I lowered the sheild the dark aura disappeared I turned to see them staring at me in shock

No one's ever blocked Asgore's lightning attack before

"WHAT THE FUCK YOU GUYS YOU ALMOST HURT PAPYRUS" I screamed at them anger clear in my tone

"WHAT DO YOU MEAN WHAT THE FUCK TO US HOW ABOUT WHAT THE FUCK TO YOU WHERE WERE YOU DEATH WHAT'S SO IMPORTANT TO BE OUT THIS LATE ALL THE TIME AND HOW THE FUCK DID YOU BLOCK ASGORE'S ATTACK" Undyne screamed at me

"THATS NONE OF YOUR BUISSNESS AS TO WHERE I GO AND WHAT I DO AND WHY DID YOU ATTACK US" I Yelled back trying to avoid how I blocked Asgore's lightning attack I can't tell them about toriel and how's she's been helping me control my magic more so it's gotten stronger and much more powerful then it was before

"IT IS OUR BUISSNESS AS TO WHERE YOU GO YOU HAVE BEEN DISSAPEARING TO YOU HAVE BEEN GOING TO WHO KNOWS WHERE AND THEN YOU JUST COME BACK LATE AT NIGHT AND ACT LIKE NOTHING HAPPENED THIS HAS BEEN GOING ON FOR MONTHS DEATH AND HOW DID YOU BLOCK OUR ATTACK NO ONE EVER HAS BEFORE SO HOW DID YOU" They both screamed at me

"YOU DONT NEED TO KNOW WHERE I GO AND WHY ITS MY BUISSNESS AND MINE ONLY YOU DONT NEED TO KNOW WHY I GO OUT FOR SO LONG AND DONT COME BACK YOU DONT NEED TO KNOW" my voice had a dangerous edge to it I was still avoiding how I blocked the attack barely holding myself back soon my eye would start glowing and then they won't stop asking

"YES WE NEED TO KNOW YOU HAVE BEEN DISAPPEARING FOR FAR TO LONG AND WE STILL DONT KNOW WHERE WE CANT EVEN FIND YOU ON THE GODS MAP AND THAT CAN SEE WHERE EVERYONE AND ANYONE IS AT ALL TIMES AND IT DIDNT SEE YOU AND COULDNT FIND YOU EITHER DEATH SO WHERE WERE YOU AND STOP AVOIDING THE QUESTION HOW DID YOU BLOCK OUR ATTACK" Undyne screamed

"YOU ARE SORRY EXCUSE FOR A GOD ALL YOU WANT IS TO SEE EVERYONE SUFFER IN PAIN AND DIE AND YOU FEED OF THAT HATE ALL YOU DO IS REAP SOULS AND LAUGH AT THEM BEFORE YOU TAKE THERE SOULS YOU CANT FEEL ANYTHING ALL YOU ARE IS A WEAK GOD THAT DOSE NOTHING BUT LIKE TO SEE PAIN YOU DONT CARE FOR ANYONE" undyne screamed

"WHY. DONT. YOU. JUST. DIE." she screamed again

That's when I snapped

My magic created a explosion of darkness around us sending Asgore and Undyne flying up against the wall I held them there with my magic before summoning there souls I tightened my magic around them slowly crushing them making cracks in there soul

"YOU DONT KNOW ANYTHING YOU DONT KNOW WHAT IT FEELS LIKE TO BE OUTCASTED IGNORED LIKE SOME PIECE OF GARBAGE TO BE INSULTED BECAUSE ALL YOU ARE IS PRACTICALLY A WALKING CORPSE ALL I WANTED WAS TO BE CARED FOR AND EVERYTHING THAT YOU GUYS THOUGHT I COULDN'T HEAR I DID

EVERYTHING YOU SAID ABOUT ME IS LIKE GETTING STABBED OVER AND OVER AGAIN TO FEEL LIKE THERE IS NO REASON TO LIVE AND YOU TRY TO KILL YOURSELF

AND EVEN YOUR OWN BROTHER IGNORED YOU SO THEN I WAS COMPLETELY ALONE

AND YOU KEEP TRYING OVER AND OVER AGAIN TO KILL YOURSELF BUT YOU CANT BECAUSE YOUR A GOD AND EVERYTIME YOU REAP A SOUL YOU FALL TO YOUR KNEES AND SCREAM HOPING YOU COULD JUST DIE

NOT WANTING TO CONTINUE DOING THIS AND I CRY MYSELF TO SLEEP AT NIGHT

WHILE I KEEP THINKING OF THE SCREAMS OF THE REAPED SOULS AND WHEN YOU DO GO TO SLEEP TO DREAM OF THEM COMING BACK FOR YOU TO TORTURE

YOU TILL YOU DIE ONLY TO HAVE TO WAKE UP AND DO IT ALL AGAIN FOR THE REST OF YOUR LIFE KNOWING THAT EVERYONE HATES YOU AND DOSENT EVEN CARE ABOUT YOU AND ONLY ONE PERSON KNOWS MY REAL FUCKING NAME" I screamed finally letting all my emotions out everything I've kept in finally coming out my eye was glowing and had a black mist coming out of it black tears running down my face

There souls were just about shattered until I heard loud sobbing

Looking over I see papyrus in the corner crying his face full of fear I instantly stop your magic disappeared and you realized what you had just done you looked over at Undyne and Asgore to see them unconscious mettaton and alphys trying to heal i looked at I and a shamed at what i done I ran out of the house huge skeleton wings sprouted out of my back "DEATH WAIT" a voice screamed I stopped for a second to see who it was and it was papyrus his face was full of fear but it wasn't of me it was of me leaving him

I turned to face him

"please don't go please brother don't leave me"

He pleaded

I looked down at my hands then back to papyrus

"I don't want to hurt you to"

My voice was weak and full of regret and guilt

My wings where in full show when the others came out and gasped at me

I took that as my cue to leave I spread my wings and took a quick look back at papyrus

"I love you papyrus take care of them okay"

I said and took off into the night and flew towards the ruins back to toriel finally landed in her garden and she freaked out seeing me in this form I had told he that I would only be in this form if something really bad happened I ran towards toriel and hugged her since she was the only god I can actually touch without killing them

I cried onto her shoulder my sons echoed around the room my wings disappeared as I cried for what seemed like hours but was only 10 minutes

"Calm down sans it's okay now calm down"

She said in her motherly voice trying to calm be down

I calmed down a little my sobbing eased

I let go of her and she whiped my tears with her hand her calming aura surrounding me

"That's it there you go now tell me everything that happened"

*TIMESKIP AFTER TELLING TORIEL EVERYTHING THAT HAPPENED*

Tori let me stay for the night and we walked to the barrier that hides her location

And walked through she led me into the room I would be staying in I thanked he she left me some pie and went to bed I took out the flower that she gave him and pulled out a picture of sans and the other gods when he was actually accepted then and clutched them close to my chest before crying my self into a dreamless slumber

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HOPE YOU GUYS ENJOY AND ALSO THERE IS MORE DRAMA TO COME AND REMEMBER THIS IS UN EDITED K

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