"I don't like him." Ashley said as we lay in the bed.

"You don't have to like him." I said.

"Yes, I do. If y'all hang out and I want to be there we have to get along." I laughed.

"That's funny because I don't like your girlfriend, but you're still with her."

"That's different." He said.

"How is that different?"

"Just is." He said. I rolled my eyes.

My phone vibrated.

Its Adam. It was nice to meet you. I hope you use this number often.

I chuckled. He is so cute.

"Who is that?" He asked.

"No one."

"You're such a liar."

"It's Adam if you must know."

"How does he have you number so fast?"

"I gave it to him obviously."

"For what!"

"Ash, seriously stop with the numerous questions."

"Well, we're leaving tomorrow so hopefully I won't have to here about him." He said turning over.

What is his deal? I mean seriously. I'm to tired to think.

******

Why do I feel like I'm in so much warmth. I started to flutter my eyes open and I saw the unbelievable I was on top of Ashley and his arms was wrapped around me.

I think that was the best night sleep I ever had. Why was I in his arms though?

I slept with him many times and I never ended in his arms.

Oh my god! I feel something on my leg and it's making me hard. I have to get off him.

I tried to get out of his hold without waking him up, but it was to hard.

"Ashley." I said shaking him.

"Hmm-"

"Please wake up!" I yelled.

"Babe, go back to sleep and let me sleep." My eyes widen. Babe? Did he think I was that dumb girlfriend of his. Just when I thought it was the best sleep of my life.

"No, it's me Scar. You have me laying on top of you." His eyes jumped open. His arms let go of me.

"Shit! Sorry Scar."

"It's fine." I said removing my body from his.

"How did I end on top of you?"

"Yeah, I don't know." He said running his hand through his hair. "I'm going to take a shower." He rushed up to the bathroom.

Is it me or is he being weird?

*****

"Are you guys ready?" My mom said. We both were coming down the steps with our things.

"Yes, mom. Where's dad?" Ashley said. I shook my head.

"He went to feel the tank up." My mom said laughing.

"He's not your dad Ash." I said turning to him.

"Of course he is."

"Your dad outside. Let's go." My mom said. She walked outside and it was just me and Ash.

"Hey is everything okay?" I asked with raised eyebrow.

"Yeah, I'm just trying figure things out." He said grabbing his stuff.

"What things?"

"Just things. I'll meet you outside?" He asked I nodded my head. Then he turn around and smashed his lips into mine.

I couldn't help but react. I waited for so long for this. He wrapped his arms around me and I'll pulled him in by his shirt.

Then he pulled away. I couldn't help but smile.

He walked out.

What was that about? I thought to myself.

****

This was our vacation home. My parents and Ashley parents bought home together. We always stayed in one home. Even though my parents friends bought houses next door.

All these bedrooms and Ash and I still share same room. I guess we never asked to sleep in different rooms. Maybe I like staring at him. We didn't speak the whole ride here. It was so awkward.

"We're finally here!!" I said placing my stuff on the bed.

"Yeah we are." He said.

"Where's your stuff man?" I asked unzipping my suitcase.

"I'm not staying in here."

"What?" I looked up.

"Scar were little older now. We should sleep in different rooms."

"But we always sleep in same room. Sometimes in the same bed." I said.

"I know, but people that are couples should do that shit. We're not a couple. I'm not gay I don't want to be couple." He said.

There it was it's like he just said the unspoken words of him not loving me.

All I wanted was him to love me. Damn the tears that's forming in my eyes. He just kissed me but now.

"You don't want to be gay or you don't want to be gay for me?" I asked. I didn't even look up. I couldn't meet his eyes.

"Both. I don't want to be gay. I love my girlfriend. We're just friends." I nodded my head.

"But the kiss?" I asked. He signed.

"It was mistake. I wanted to see if I felt anything for you but I was wrong."

Damn he knows how to break my heart more than once.

"My girlfriend is coming down here. I think we should spend some time apart." He said rubbing his neck.

"What?! Were best friends. We always do stuff together here. Now your girlfriend is coming." I couldn't help what I was feeling. Not only did he kiss me first but then he rejected me. Damn that hurts.

"If I-I known this would happen Ashley I would had never kiss you back. You're my best f-friend. I'm sorry I made you regret something that was so important to me. I- I'll m-make sure not to bother you at all during this t-trip." I said wiping tear from my face.

I went into the adjoin bathroom and locked the door.

I fell to floor with my knees to my stomach and wrapped my arms around them and just cried.

I've never felt more alone. He felt nothing. I felt everything with kiss.

Only if I could be free from this heartache.