[12.7.2022]

i haven't felt connected

to a person in that way

for the longest time. i've

been waiting for that feeling

to come along and i've

been waiting for years.

one day you come with

your perfect silly smile

and witty personality,

saying hi and asking if

we could catch up. how

could i have said no? i've

always had the biggest

crush on you.

from a celebratory wish

to giggling on video calls

at five in the morning. i

cannot believe what i've

let you do to me, only with

that silly sweet smile and

perfect fluffy hair. the

way you gently let me

snuggle into the crook

of your neck at 1 in the

morning while you reeked

of weed and cologne. the

way you left me going

with a simple kiss that

could've gone on for a

lifetime. how i wish it

went on for a lifetime.

you came and stole my

longing heart, only to

break it for your own

irrational fear.