Little Nick

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Charlie:

"Don't be like that" I said as I looked at Nick he was very upset he was throwing stuff around. I don't know why he thinks this but he heard something from someone saying I was dating ben again I don't know who told him this but he believed it and when he got mad at me he regressed and now is having a full on toddler tantrum. "Come on baby you always make daddy proud with how good you are your not being good right now" Everything changed after I said that he stopped throwing stuff and stopped yelling he stopped doing everything and looked at me like I killed someone, shit I wasn't thinking what I was saying little kids take things very personally I know what he's thinking he thinks i'm not proud of him anymore I shouldn't have said that. He starts crying and flops on the floor covering his face with his hands I go over to him and put my arms around him "Baby I didn't mean that i'm always proud of you i'm just taking my anger out of you" he continues to cry. "I want to tell you I never cheated on you I pinky promise cross my heart and hope to die it's just a silly rumour I love my little baby and that's all. my heart is already full with you there no room for another person because I love you more than anything" he looks at me and smiles I run my finger through his hair how about since your calmed down I change your nappy get your bottle and get you some milk or juice put you in a onesie then we can watch cartoons or youtube whatever you want" he nods quickly and I lay him down talking off his old diaper and wiping him down "It's going to be cold ok stay still for dada alright" I wipe him down and he's trying his very best to stay still his very best well it isn't great so I pin down his legs well I do the rest he doesn't like it much when I do this but he tolerates it just letting out little whimpers as he try's to move out of my grip he's much stronger than me but when i'm on top of his legs I have a pretty good grip he usually can't get out of I put on his fresh diaper after he's clean and put on his pjs I lay him in bed well I grab him some juice I come back and give him the juice holding the bottle to his mouth for him as he drinks. After he's had enough we lay down as he puts on cartoons i'm exhausted but can't fall asleep because he trying to talk to me in gibberish so I take his pacifier and push it in his mouth and stroke his head "Shhhh" he lays on my chest accepting defeat after a few minutes his pacifier falls out of his mouth and he grabs my hand and puts my thumb in his mouth I don't withdraw my finger whatever makes him happy is good with me.