I woke up way too hot and unable to move. His body was on top of me and rendering me immobile.

"Baby? I can't move. I have to pee." I said running my fingernails up his side. He grunted and wiggled off of me just enough for me to slip out from under him with a sigh. I went to the bathroom and as I washed my hands I looked at the ring on my finger. So it wasn't a dream. I walked back to the bed and laid on my side facing him. He cracked his eyes open and gave me a small smile.

"Morning babe." He said in his gruff voice. I cupped his cheek and leaned down, placing a gentle kiss on his lips, still swollen from sleep.

"Good morning. How are you feeling?" I asked, running my hand through his hair. He wrinkled his forehead as he looked down at the bed before his eyes went wide. He smacked his hand over his face and laid back into the pillow, groaning loudly.

"I am the biggest fucking idiot ever. I cannot believe I did that." he said, letting out a huff of air. The anxiety I had been feeling only intensified as my heart started to beat harder.

"Oh...are you talking about...." I trailed off.

"Yes. I can't believe I proposed that way. I had a whole big thing planned for a dinner in a few weeks and I ruined it. Ugh I'm so stupid." he groaned, covering his face with both of his hands now.

"So, you really did want to propose?" I asked softly.

"Yeah, just...not that way." he sighed, still keeping his hands over his face. I pulled them off and cupped his face before kissing him passionately.

"I don't care if it wasn't a big or grand proposal Jungkook. It was the sweetest moment and I wouldn't change it for anything. You are my world and as long as I get to have you, I don't care how it happens." I replied, searching his eyes. HIs eyes teared up as he pulled me down onto him, kissing me with so much heart and feeling behind it.

"Let me make love to you, please." he asked out of breath. I nodded as he rolled us over and got on top of me. Before long he was sinking himself into me and moving slowly and sensually, kissing me the entire time. When we finished, we showered and spent the day cuddled on the couch. Later when we were back in bed for the night, I heard him letting out soft sighs every couple of minutes.

"Did you want to talk about it?" I asked, spreading my fingers over his bare chest.

"I just....I just hate that she didn't tell me how she really felt until right before she left. I never got to experience her as a mother. And now, she's gone." he said quietly.

"I'm sorry, Jungkook. I truly am. I would do anything I could to give you more time with her." I said softly. He wiped the corner of his eye before letting out a bit of a chuckle.

"I know you really do love me, because you hated her." he laughed, shaking his head.

"I didn't hate her necessarily. I hated what she did to you and how she treated you, but I really didn't know her to say I hated her." I responded, kissing his chest. He softly rubbed my back and kissed my forehead as he let out another sigh. I knew he had to have been hurting quite a bit, but after the huge meltdown he had, he seemed to be holding it together pretty well. He actually stayed in a pretty decent frame of mind over the next several days, even as he laid her to rest. His mother didn't want a funeral so he kept things simple with just the two of us at her graveside. After that, he seemed to be more at ease. I think it was a sense of closure for him, to know that they were both at peace now.

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"If you don't want to be late to the park, you better hurry, baby!" I called up the stairs.

"I just gots to potty!" he shouted back down at me, making me grin.

"Alright, go potty and then we will go." I called back. After a few minutes he came tromping down the stairs, a big grin on his face.

"Here, sweet boy, you need to put your scarf on. It's cold today and we don't want you getting sick." I said, wrapping the soft, cream colored scarf around his neck.

"I really hot." he said, looking so bundled up in his puffy jacket, scarf and gloves.

"Well, let's go outside now baby. You won't be hot anymore." I laughed, offering him my hand. As soon as the door opened and we stepped outside he shivered before giggling.

"You right, I not hot anymore." He said as he gave a little shiver, walking quickly to the car.

"Are you sure you boys really want to play at the park? Isn't it too cold?" I asked, as I buckled him up.

"No, we stay warm when we runned around." he replied, smiling at me with his big grin. He chattered on excitedly as we made our way to the park. Everyone was already there and as I unbuckled him, he took off, tackling Jimin who was not suspecting it. They both broke into a fit of giggles causing Tae and Jinnie to jump on them as well.

"I'm glad to see him back to normal." Namjoon said as I sat on the bench next to him.

"Yeah, he was pretty rough there for a while." I said, smiling as I didn't take my eyes off of my happy boy.

"You had it pretty rough too. I'm relieved things worked out." Yoongi replied. I looked at them all to see fond smiles on their faces as well.

"I appreciate it a lot. It was really hard there for a little bit. Seeing him in so much pain, and having gone through that myself, I knew how he must have been feeling. I wanted nothing more than to help him through that but when he said he didn't want me, it was like a knife to the heart. I know it was all said in grief but at the time it was heartbreaking." I answered, letting out a sigh at the still too-fresh memory. Hoseok's went wide as he darted his hand out and grabbed my wrist.

"WHAT IS THIS?!?!?!" he shrieked, making the boys all look over in our direction.

"It's ok boys! Uncle Hobi is just being silly." I shouted as they all giggled and resumed playing.

"What the fuck?!" Yoongi asked, his mouth dropping open.

"Is that...real?" Namjoon asked, his eyebrow raised.

"It is. I haven't seen you guys since but...Kookie proposed." I said, unable to keep the flush from my cheeks.

"Wait, wait, wait. Kookie proposed?" Hoseok asked, positively beaming.

"Yeah, he felt really bad for saying that he didn't want me. He just rolled over to the nightstand, pulled out the box and told me that when he was big he got me something to show he wanted to be with me forever. I had no idea what to do, but I accepted and he got so excited saying that Jinnie said that since he wears a ring that means he is going to get married. He then asked if we were going to get married and I told him if he wanted to. The next morning Jungkook was so embarrassed cause he apparently had some big dinner planned but I told him I was happy with my sweet proposal." I said, feeling misty eyed at the thought of how sweet he was.

"That is probably the cutest damn thing I have ever heard in my life. Kookie proposed to you." Yoongi said, grinning from ear to ear.

"I'm happy for you both." Namjoon said, throwing and arm over my shoulders and pulling me into him.

"Daddy, it so cold!!" Jiminie shouted, running up to Yoongi and rubbing his bright pink nose against against him. He sat on Yoongi's lap as they cuddled close, making Jimin grin. We heard loud laughter as the boys ran around the park, Kookie somehow losing his scarf along the way.

"Kookie! Get your scarf, baby! You don't want to get sick." I shouted to him.

"I losed it, Mommy! I dunno where it is!" he said, shrugging. I sighed as we started looking for the scarf, eventually finding it half buried in the sandbox.

"Well, you can't wear it now all full of sand baby. We better get inside where it is warm or you will get sick." I said as I led him back to the benches.

"I no wanna leave! I wanna play with Jinnie and Taetae and Jiminie!" Kookie pouted, jutting out his bottom lip.

"How about we move this to my house so we can all warm up and have some hot cocoa?" Yoongi offered.

"YAY HOT COCOA!" Jinnie shouted, leaping onto Namjoon. We all gathered our things and headed off to Yoongi's to warm up.

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