The thought of Blain knocking on my door no longer scared me, in fact I was looking forward to those random visits.

There had been a couple of more visit after our coffee date. I shouldn't say date exactly more like a coffee hang out. Anyway I was going to say that I still haven't told him the whole story which I feel bad about.

I want to tell him why I keep avoiding those personal questions that he asks. I am going to tell him, it's only fair since he has told me some pretty personal thing about himself.

The knock on the door makes me turn of the computer. I already know it's him.

His smile shines just as bright as always when I open the door.

"" The way my name rolls of his toung is pleasant.

"Hello Blain I am doing fine thank you... I have something to show you." I say after a long pause.

The look on his face is questioning as I run to get the shoebox from under my bed. The box I only open on specific days every year.

"Do you remember what I told you at the coffee shop the other day?" I ask him and he nodds. "Well I only told you half the truth."

With shaking breaths I open the shoebox.

"I'm not gonna sugarcoat it, my mom left when I was seventeen and my best friend killed herself exactly a year after my mother left. Since then I have had problems with trusting people." Tears are burning in my eyes. "The people I loved the most in the whole world left me."

The first tear rolls down my cheek.

"Elizabeth is my best friends sister, she is also the only reason why I am still alive."

I now look up at him and give him a picture. The two young girls could be mistaken for sisters.

"Emily was my everything, but I was to busy pitying my self to see how much pain she was in."

Tears are now pouring from my eyes.

"Elizabeth lost her sister so I had to become her new one, it's only fair because I killed Emily." I cry.

Blain keeps quiet.

I ruined it, I ruined the singel best thing that happened to me in three years. He will leave and never talk to me again. Who keeps talking to the fucked up girl?

Before I know it he wraps his arms right around me and lets me cry again his shoulder.

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I'm getting pissed at myself since my AUs are so bad. Also I am getting sick which is fun.

Hope you like this chapter. Xo Thxldx