I love Janus, I really do. That's why I never tell him when I get.. Needy. Because I know he's asexual and.. Well, wouldn't want to do that. And I'm.. Not exactly known to touch myself.

I didn't think it was a big deal! I mean, if he can go without it, so can I, right..? I shouldn't need it.

.... But I want it. I really, really do...

"Are you okay, Patty?" Janus asks. I realized I hadn't eaten much of my breakfast, as I'd woke up this morning from a naughty dream and couldn't get my mind off of it.

"I'm fine, Janus." I say, a little more snappy than I had meant to. Janus stares at me for a moment, perfectly calm like always, and then walks up to me.

"You're getting snippy with me and you've barely eaten. What's wrong, hunny?" he asks, carding his hands through my hair.

And I hate myself for starting to cry. "Nothing, I'm fine! I don't need it!" I say, pushing my glasses up to wipe my eyes.

Janus stayed quiet, looking at me with a look between confusion and worry. "Need what, darling..?" he asks softly.

"Y-you know... The thing! The- the thing that some people do in bedrooms!" I tell him, trying to stop myself from crying.

Janus's face softened. "Hunny.. Are you horny? Is that what you're saying..?" he asks, cupping my cheeks in that gentle hold of his.

I couldn't bring myself to answer. What if he hates me?!

I took it as a ‘yes’ when he didn't answer me, and frowned. Why hadn't he just said something? I know he doesn't touch himself, as he's too embarrassed to do so..

"Patton, why didn't you tell me?" I ask him in a soft voice. Patton sniffles. "B-because y-you can't do anything to h-help, y-you don't like to! Y-you're-" he stutters.

I shush him gently, putting a finger to his mouth. "Patton, there are other ways of taking care of that problem that don't include touching yourself or sex. I knew what I was getting myself into, hun; I know you're not ace like me, I expected you to get horny sometimes.. Finish your breakfast and I'll help you, okay sweetheart..?" I tell him.

Patton sniffled but nodded a little, so I backed up a bit to let him finish his food. I was still frowning slightly though; it's making me wonder how long he's tried ignoring this topic..

Once he finished eating, I took his hand and carefully led him to his room, locking the door behind us before kissing him briefly.

"Strip." I say, soft but firm. Patton blushes, shrinking into himself slightly before starting to take his clothes off slowly, starting with his cardigan.

I assume he was slow from embarrassment, as this will be his first time doing anything of this sort. Eventually, though, he's out of his clothes, looking down and blushing quite a bit. Also covering himself.

I kiss his cheek gently, trying to reassure him. "Don't be afraid, it's just me. I'm not going to hurt you, I promise. No go lay on the bed, dearest." I tell him. He nods, walking over to the bed and laying down awkwardly.

I follow, sitting next to him and taking one of my gloves off. Patton had his face covered, seeming very embarrassed. I smiled softly; it was cute.

I summoned some lube and rested a hand on Patton's shoulder, rubbing it gently. "Hun, look at me for a sec?" I ask.

Patton blushes, moving his hands to look at his boyfriend, who smiled softly. "I just need you to know this will be weird at first, but I'll be careful, I promise. I also need your consent to continue." Janus says.

"Y-you may.." Patton says, still embarrassed. Janus nods a little, kissing Patton's forehead before pouring some lube onto his fingers.

He carefully slid one into Patton, whose breath hitched at the feeling. "Shhshh, it's okay, you're okay.. Just relax, hun.." Janus coos softly, waiting a moment before moving his finger. Patton squirmed a little under the touch, cheeks flushed red from both embarrassment and pleasure.

Janus adds a second carefully, whispering reassurances to Patton softly as he worked him open.

After a little while, he pulls his fingers out, summoning a cloth to wipe his hand off. Shortly after, he summoned a vibrator, looking at Patton.

"Are you okay, hun?" he asks quietly. Patton nods a little in response. "Okay. Try to stay relaxed, okay? It'll make this easier for you." Janus says softly, lining the toy up with him before pushing it in slowly.

Patton gripped the sheets slightly, trying to stay relaxed as Janus had told him to. Once the toy was fully in, Janus gave Patton a moment to adjust to it. After a moment, Patton let out an almost needy mewl.

"Are you ready, hun? It will be different at first." Janus tells him. "I-i'm okay, Janny, I promise." Patton responded, opening his eyes slightly to give Janus a shy smile.

Janus smiles softly back. "Okay, here it goes." he says, turning it on a low setting to start. Patton gasped quietly and moans a little, eyes falling shut again.

Janus chuckles. "Enjoy~" he coos with a small smirk, watching Patton's chest rise and fall with his breaths.

He turns the vibrator up a bit after a while, making Patton moan slightly louder and cover his mouth. Janus snapped his fingers, and Patton's hands were tied above his head.

"I want to listen to you, hun~" he coos, stroking Patton's cheek. Patton blushes deeper, moaning and mewling from the pleasure. "J-jan~!"

Janus smirks and hums, moving the vibrator a little to try and find Patton's prostate. Patton hicced and moaned loudly when Janus finds it, making him smirk.

He keeps it there and turns it all the way up, turning Patton into a moaning, squirming mess.

"Does that feel good, hun~? Are you enjoying yourself~?" Janus hums, smirking. Patton's moans become increasingly frequent, signaling that he was close.

"J-jan, Janus I-~!" he moaned out. Janus chuckles softly, running a hand through Patton's hair. "Go ahead then, hun~" he coos. Patton came almost immediately after with a moan of Janus's name.

Janus said a moment before shutting off the vibrator and pulling it out, cleaning it and his boyfriend up before untying him.

"Do you want to take a bath now, hun?" Janus asks, having pulled Patton into his lap and started petting him.

"Mmm.. In a bit, I want cuddles.." Patton mumbles, putting his clothes back on with a flick of his wrist. Janus smiles and held him close, continuing to pet him.

"That's the first time I've seen you use the mindscape power." he murmurs. Patton shrugs a little. "I use it sometimes." he mumbles in response.

Janus smiles more and hums. "I love you. Next time you feel needy, ask me for help okay? I'll always help you, hun, always." he says softly.

Patton smiles a little, nuzzling into him and nodding. "I love you too."