I've seen brighter days, kiddos.

I just feel so bad about... Feeling bad. Logan got so upset about it, and I hate it when I make Logan upset.

Everything just seems to be going so badly. Usually, I can see even the slightest bit of the ‘bright side’, but it's just... Not there.

Lately, I've also had a problem with... Hurting myself. I know I need to get help, but I just can't...

I pick up the blade and was about to hurt myself when Logan walked in the door. "Patton, I was just wond-" he freezes and looks at me, and I panic and try to play it off.

"L-logan! Uh, I just... Found this here. That's dangerous, huh? Ahahaha... I'll just go put this somewhere safe and-" Logan walks up to me with a look of disbelief as he gently grabs a hold of my arms.

"O-oh, I just, um... Ran through some barbed wire...?" I try to save myself. "Patton..." he says, but I don't want to admit it to him. "Really, Logie! I'm okay, it's just-"

"Patton." he repeats. "-Not been that long since it happened and I-" I desperately try to convince him. "Patton! This isn't healthy; you need help!"

"-Just... Wanted to feel something again..." I say, relenting my act. I feel myself tear up as I drop the blade. "Patton... Don't cry. Please don't cry..." Logan says, face softening significantly. I couldn't help myself, though. I feel so terrible, and I just feel so... Bad.

How could Patton be hiding something as serious as this? Why have I never noticed until now? What did I do wrong?

Now he's crying. I never thought I'd ever see Patton cry, but he's crying in such a depressed way.

"I can't help it, Logan! I just feel so bad in more ways than one, and I... I don't know what to do anymore..." He tells me as he sobs. I do something uncharacteristically impulsive of myself and pull Patton in for a kiss. He makes a quiet noise of surprise, but slowly starts retaliating.

We break apart and I say, "I'm sorry, I don't know what came over me." Patton looks at me with a face of surprise. "I-"

"Do that again..." He breathes out. "What?" I say, not expecting him to say that. "Please... It made me feel... Good..." he says.

Of course Patton would be seeking emotional pleasure; he's in a state of severe depression.

Before I could say anything in response to his request, he says, "Actually, Logan, there's something I need to say..."

"Please." I say, wanting him to elaborate. Patton takes a breath and says, "Logan, you, and you alone, make me feel so happy every time we're in the same room together. I feel really bad when I upset you or when I can't live up to your standards. I've wanted you for so long, but you always showed a discontent with feelings... I felt like I couldn't ask you out because you would reject me... I'm in love with you, Lo... And you're the only person I'd want to make me feel good... By any means."

I just wanted Logan to cheer me up, no matter what that meant. I've been in love with him for so long now...

"Any means, you say...?" Logan says, thinking about it. "Yeah..." I say. "Would you... Consent to copulation?" he asks me. I laugh nervously and say, "What- what does that mean?"

"The act of sexual intercourse." he says casually.

I felt myself face heat up at that as I respond, "I-i mean, I've never... But if it's with you... Yes..." Logan raises his eyebrows at me and says, "You sound hesitant. Are you certain?"

"I'm hesitant because I've never done anything like that before, Logie. But I trust you, so I'm saying yes." I tell him. "It means a lot to me that you would trust me with this." Logan says, smiling genuinely. I smile back at him as he pulls me in for another kiss, this one having much more meaning from both sides.

Logan licks at the bottom of my lip, and I think that means he wants me to open my mouth, so that's what I do. He puts his tongue in my mouth, which was a weird but strangely okay feeling. One of his hands go to unwrap my cardigan while the other holds me around my waist.

He leads me to my bed, sitting me down and pulling away from me. He starts unbuttoning my shirt as he says, "Patton, I'm so sorry. If I'd have known... I would have tried to help a lot sooner."

He pulls my shirt off and unties his necktie, putting it with my shirt. "Let me show you something, Patton..." he says before kissing my neck. His arms are wrapped around me as he kisses a lower spot on my neck, which felt... Good.

I hadn't realized I made a noise, but Logan apparently picked up that I felt something, though, because I felt him smirk against my neck before sucking on that same spot.

Patton gasped slightly when I got to a spot on his lower neck, letting me know I've found the pleasurably sensitive area of his neck. I suck on that spot, making Patton whine and say, "Lo... Logan... How is this feeling so good...?"

I pull off of his neck and smile at him, unbuttoning my shirt. "Human bodies tend to have a particularly sensitive area on their necks that can create a sense of pleasure when stimulated." I tell him, putting my shirt on the floor.

"But that's not the only place I can make you feel pleasure from, Patton~" I tell him as I push him down and take the rest of his clothes off.

"Wh-wha- ah~! Logan!" Patton moans as I start sucking on his member. He grips onto the bed sheets, panting and moaning as I continue.

I pulled off after a little while, to which Patton makes a noise of disapproval. "Just wait~" I tell him, taking off my remaining clothes. I summon a bottle of lubricant and put some on my fingers, soon pushing one inside of Patton.

A short while later, I add a second, making Patton whine quietly as I continue stretching him. When I add my third, Patton whines again and says, "Logan, please..."

I'm not sure he knew exactly what he wanted, but I did. I pull out my fingers and put lubricant on my member before pushing into Patton.

"Are you okay?" I ask him. He pants a couple times before saying, "Y-yeah, I'm okay, Logie." I smile at him and start thrusting into him at a slow pace, getting faster as we continued.

I was starting to get close, and I could tell Patton was, too. That was confirmed when Patton said, "Logan... !"

I kiss his sweet spot, making Patton moan and climax onto both of our chests, myself following afterwards.

I pull out and clean Patton up, hugging him after I do so. "I hope you feel better, Patton." I say. Patton smiles, kissing me on the forehead before saying, "I love you so much, Logan." He then hugs me tightly, making me smile affectionately at him.

"I love you too."