I had been working non stop for the past week and I finally get a week off to myself.

I looked over at my clock and see its 1:00 and I'm just now waking up

I look at my phone to see I got a message from esha, mommy Sarah, Eli, and James, and kota

I decide to reply to them

👩💖

👸❤

👩💖

👸❤

👩💖

👩❤

👯

👯

👯

👯

👯

👯

I then replied to kota

💄👑

💅💎

💄👑

💅💎😕😕

💄👑😕

💅💎😡🔫

💄👑

💅💎😲

Kota get on my nerves sometimes but that's my best friend, I then started to text Eli

🍆💦

👅💦

🍆💦

👅💦

🍆💦

👅💦

🍆💦

👅💦

🍆💦😑

👅💦

🍆💦

👅💦

🍆💦

👅💦

🍆💦

👅💦

🍆💦

👅💦

🍆💦😠

👅💦

🍆💦

I didn't even bother texting him back and I really didn't feel like texting James so I didn't bother

I got out the bed and went and took a shower

I lathered my body in wild berry body wash and washed my hair with berry wanted shampoo and conditioner

When I finished I got out the shower and dryer off

I put on some lotion and someone started to knock at the door well more like banging

I put on my robe and rapped a towel around my hair and walked to the door

I looked through the hole and seen and angry Eli

"Fuck" I mumble to myself

I opened the door and he pushed me in and slammed the behind him and locked it

" who the fuck is Michael " he yelled in my face

"Don't slam the fucking door" I yelled back at him

" do it look like I give a fuck about that damn door I asked you a fucking question and I want a fucking answer" he yelled pointing in my face

"Stop yelling at me and there is no Michael" I said

" don't fucking play like that I'll kill any nigga who fucks with you and then I'll beat yo ass for thinking you can fuck with these other niggas think I'm playing" he said as he mushed my face

I slapped his hand away and he pulled me to his chest

" you really can't be yelling at me like that I don't like it when you mad at me" I mumbled

"Well you need to stop playing and saying shit like that I'm not a jealous nigga but when something mine I'll be damned if another nigga try and take it" he said kissing my forehead and I smiled

"When you leaving to go see you ma" he asked

"When I finish getting ready" I said and he nodded and followed me to my room

"Where that nigga Dakota at"he asked

" with his boy toy" I said as I looked through my closet to find something to wear

I decided to wear some denim skinny jeans with a peach color spaghetti strap shirt with a cream colored Cardigan and my tan Jesus sandals

I laid my clothes on the bed and walked over to my dresser to get a pair of panties and a bra

"You going to stay with me tonight" Eli asked eyeing me while I put on my bra and panties

"Yea " I said as I walked to my vanity to do something with my hair

"Yo ass looking right in them draws woman" he said as he climbed off the bed and slapped my ass

I laughed and shook my head

"Shut the door" I told him as he pissed with the door opened allowing me to see everything and out of my whole time knowing Eli he has only ate me out twice and I never had to return the favor which means I have never seen his dick before and to say he was blessed is an understatement

When he finished he washed his hands and stood in the bathroom door way and smirked at me

" that may have been your first time seeing it but it won't be yo last because its yours" he said and if I was just a shade lighter I would be as red as a cherry

"Leave me alone" I said and he laughed and laid across my bed

When I finished with my hair I started to put my clothes on

"You ate something yet?" He asked and I shook my head no

"Well we will grab sum then you can go text me on yo way to my house so I can have sum done you want take out or what?" He asked

"Take out is fine and I been wanting some Chinese so let's eat that and how long you want me to stay" I said

"Forever" he said and I just looked at him

"Naw foreal though the whole week" he said and I nodded

"Well ima pack a duffle bag and you can take it with you" I said and he nodded standing up

After I finished we headed out and I put my bag in his car

"Where you wanna eat at" he asked

" a Mexican restaurant " I said leaning on his car

"Damn ima have the shits fucking with you" he said and I laughed

"Ima follow you there" I said and he nodded

I pecked his lips and we got in our cars and left

When we got there we were seated

The waiter took our drinks and our orders and soon bring our food back

"You nervous" he asked

"Yea I haven't seen her in years and I'm scared to hear what she has to say" I said honestly

"Well ima be honest with you I knew of your parents before I knew you but I didn't know you where their child until that day he made you come home then that's when everything hit me the bruises why you were so scared and standoffish all the time but that didn't change how I felt about you I still and will always love you at the end of the day and I think this will be good for you your mom may have did some hurtful shit to you but at the end of the day you only get one so cherish this time you get with her lay it all on the table, forgive you many never forget what she did but always forgive because that's what god wants us to do and its the right thing to do hey look don't cry baby" he said as he leaned across the table and wiped my face

"I'm sorry" I said

"Its OK to cry I just don't like it when you cry cause you look ugly" he said trying to make me laugh which worked but also caused me to mug him

"Shut up cause you not funny but I do appreciate you and what you said" I said which caused him to smile

"Do you still sell drugs" I questioned

"Yea why" he asked

"Because I never see the drugs or you dealing them" I said leaning closer to him and eating a chip with some sauce

"Well first of all never keep drugs on you or where you lay your head baby girl only the amateurs do that shit second ima kingpin I don't get my hands dirty unless I need to which means I get people to sell for me and I hand business when people less expected I'm handling business right now " he said smirking

"Nice to no so you wouldn't ever handle drugs around me right?" I asked

"Right " he agreed and I nodded

"I really need to get this off my chest while we are talking OK" I said and he nodded

" I love you but I'm just not ready to get in a relationship I wasn't even to get in a relationship with James and it turns out I should have went with my instinct because that nigga had a whole family and played me" I said as I felt my self getting a little angry

On my way to the restaurant I decided to read James message and he told me he had a wife and a son but him and his wife were having some problems and took a little break and he decided to get with me but he didn't think he would fall in love which I think is complete bull shit

"That nigga got another thing coming if he think he going to get away with pulling some shit like that but I get what you saying and willing to wait as long as you only fuck with me like I told you back then we don't need no title as long as i got you and you got me and we know what we got then that's all that matters now if you not ready for a relationship then we could just chill and you can be my lil boo thang" he said reciting his very words making me smile

"OK let's go" he said standing and I stood up also

We walked out and he walked me to my door

"Good luck and I love you to" he said kissing me and I kissed him back

I just realized that he didn't say I love you back till now but at least he said it

"See you later" I said and got in the car and drove off putting the address esha gave me while back in my GPS

When I got there I looked at the small two bedroom it looked......decent

I walked up to the door and knocked and soon heard locks turn and talking

The door opened and she stood there with her mouth slightly parted and her eyes water and so did mines

I thought she would look bad but she looked beautiful

"Y-You came" she said as she choked on her voice

"Yea" I said softly

"I kinda thought you changed our mind come in" she said as she stepped to the side and let me in

It was so clean and neat and well put together I was so into looking at her house I don't even notice the little girl looking up at me

"Your rweally pwretty" she said

"Thank you your pretty as well" I said as I eyed her feature

She was a mixture of me and my mom but she had my fathers eyes nose and eyes

I looked at my mother

"How old is she" I asked

"Four" she said and i nodded

"Carter go play with your toys while mommy talks to your sister" she said and she ran off to the back

"Umm you can have a seat" she said and I sat don't on the love seat and she sat beside me

"I'll go first I have some questions and I just want the honest truth OK" I said and she nodded

"Why did you let him hurt us when I was younger" I asked

" I met your dad in high school and I thought he was perfect we eventually started to date but I had to move away the night before my family moved your dad came to my house and woke me up he bring me down stairs and I seen my family tied down to chairs and he brutally killed each one of them in front of me and burned the housed down it was burnt so bad and my family was hurt so bad they weren't able to identify the body's and when I asked him why he did it he said it was because they were trying to take me from him he then started to get really abusive and I tried to leave trust me but he beat me so bad I thought I died so I stayed and I also didn't have anybody else, he would go around and rape people as in women and little girls but when I got pregnant he was so happy until he found out we were having a boy and he beat me till the baby died I was six months pregnant when he did that not even three months after that he got me pregnant again and we found out we were having you I tried my hardest to protect you I promise I did but when I realized no matter how hard I tried he would always be stronger and one step ahead so i then started to do drugs anything that would make me forget and make me numb anything that would tune out your screams I did it because I knew there was nothing I could do and I hated myself for that and I still do" she said and we were both in tears

"Why didn't you call someone to help like the police" I asked her

"I was scared I would have went to jail right along with him all the drugs I did I know that's selfish but baby I'm so sorry I didn't won't you there I tried that why ever time you would ask to go places I would say yes just to get you out the house I always prayed and hoped that you would be better and stronger then I ever was and called someone to let them know what was going on" she said

"Why did you treat me like that" I asked

"It was all an act did that so he would think I didn't care what happened I did it to try and get more of his trust because believe it or not he didn't trust me" she said and I nodded

I felt better now that I knew this and even though I was still a little hostile towards her I forgive her and I love her

I leaned over and gave her a hug

"I forgive you for everything and I love you" I said and she let out a big sob as she squeezed me and told me how sorry she was

When soon wiped our faces and laughed a little

"So about carter does he know about her" I asked

"Yea he tried to molest her but I thought of you and we got in that big fight my neighbor took her in while I did my time and I got her back when I got out I got me a job at Walmart and here we are" she said and I nodded

" next step in my journey is to forgive him" I said and she nodded

"I understand that but do you want to get to know carter" she asked and I nodded

"Carter" she yelled and she came running

"Carter this is your big sister empress mommy was telling you about talk to her" she said

Carter looked at me and smiled

"Awre you growing to vwist more now" she asked and I smiled

"Yea and me you and mommy can go out sometime and have a girls day" I said and she started to clap and smile

She had some smooth skin the color of brown sugar and jet black hair that stops just under her shoulder and some big Innocent light brown eyes

"Wanna swee my woom" she asked and I nodded

I got up and walked her to her room

When we got in there I looked around and it was soon plan nothing like a child would want

"Where are your clothes baby girl " I asked and she pointed to a dresser

I walked over and looked in and there was nearly nothing in there

"I don't need you to judge me " I heard my mother say

"I'm not judging I'm just looking but look ima come by tomorrow and pick her up and take her shopping" I said

"You don't have to do that" she said

"But I want to and I am have her ready by 2:30" I said then I looked down at my little sister

"Get some sleep because we have a big day tomorrow OK" I said and she nodded

I kissed her forehead and gave my mom a hug

" love y'all and we y'all tomorrow" I said as I walked outside got in the car and drove off to Eli house

When I got there he already had take out ready

"How it went" he asked and I rolled my eyes

"You and your damn grammar the correct way to say it is how did it go" I said trying to get on his nerves

"Shut the hell up and answer my question before you go to bed hungry annoying ass" he said

It worked

I laughed and took off my shoes and Cardigan and put my hair in a messy bun

"It was good but you won't believe this" I said as I walked in the kitchen behind him and grabbed a plate and put the Chinese take out on it

"What" he asked

"I have a four year old sister and her name is carter" I said and he looked at me shocked

"Damn she hid that good" he said as we sat down to eat

I turned on the TV and flicked through channel's to find something good

"I know but she literally has nothing I was like cater where are your clothes and she points to this big ass dresser so I'm thinking OK she got a lot of clothes and I look through it and she got like three pair of pants shirts and draws and them my mom was like don't judge me why would she even think that " I said ranting

"Baby you can't just go through people shit like that though that's probably why she thought that" he said and I just shrugged

"I'm taking cater shopping tomorrow at 2:30 so I can get to know her while getting her something's at the same time" I said

"That's good" he said

We sat and ate while watching TV

When we finished we straightened up downstairs and head upstairs

I looked through my duffle bag for my PJs and grabbed my shorts and T-shirt

"You won't be needing those" he said snatching my shorts out my hand

I took off my clothes and throw on my shirt

I climbed in the bed and later on Eli chest

"Why you so skinny" I asked him

"I'm skinny swole" he said

I looked up at him confused as to what that meant

"What that mean" I asked

"My body skinny but my dick swole" he said and we bust out laughing

"Your stupid" I said hitting his chest and laughing

He smacked my ass

"This all mine" he said

I went to grab his dick but hesitated

"Grab it guh" he said and I did

My hand couldn't wrap around the whole thing

"Now who's is it " he asked

"Its all mine" I said and he'd he smirked