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Our first day of honeymoon had been less awkward than I had feared. Immediately after checking in our bags to the hotel, we left for the beach and spent the day in the sun and by the beautiful blue ocean.

Well, it took me quite a while to coax Kongpob to come play in the water with me, but once he did and finally let down his guard (or I guess he was still anxious and stressed by how everyone had pressured us to get married so quickly), he was very excited to splash around me in the water and make silly faces at me before disappearing underwater.

For a moment, the water went perfectly still around me and I waited anxiously for Kongpob to come up the water again. The promise of not ruining my freshly blow-dried hair was completely gone out of the window as soon as Kongpob suddenly appeared from underwater, grabbed me and tossed me inside. I yelped and laughed out loud as I hugged him for dear life.

Yeah, I was never a good swimmer, was quite terrified of the deep water, but I loved the beach. And I was with Kongpob, my...husband. Gosh, calling him like that was still a bit awkward... But I felt so happy, since I knew he would protect me for everything, and everyone. He had promised me so during our wedding ceremony, promising me sweet things with such strong confidence I never thought I would hear from him. The cold poker-faced Kongpob Suthiluck had promised me to love and protect me till Death do us apart...

What more could I ask?

Nothing...it was perfect.

"Simply perfect," I muttered to myself as I stared at Kongpob Suthiluck dreamy-eyed.

This was my favorite, happiest day after our wedding ceremony. That's still on the top of my list of happiness so far! :)

And so, our first honeymoon day passed by in that fun, carefree, playful way so fast that suddenly, the sun had set, wind had turned cold and it was time to return to the hotel for our dinner...

...and first night together as a married couple.

Ohoh...my nerves were killing me and as we rode the car back to the hotel, I had lost count on how many times I tried to distract myself from the feeling of Kongpob's lips against mine a while ago.

My mind kept replying the moment earlier when Kongpob appeared from underneath the water, pulled me into his arms and surprised me by placing a soft kiss on my lips. It had happened so fast and Kongpob's face showed no change from his usual poker face, that I almost wasn't sure it had happened, but the sweet sensation on my lips assured me that Kongpob really had kissed me. The pad of my fingers touched my tingling lips, wondering if they're rosier than usual.

And so, I spent the ride back to the hotel in absent-minded state and the awkward silence between us was making me even more nervous.

Oh god oh god...we are going back to the hotel...to the bedroom...and will spend the night together!

It's our first honeymoon night...and...I knew exactly what was supposed to happen.

But...are we really...?

Gosh I was so nervous! Of course, I wanted it to happen...I wanted Kongpob to...I wanted him. Every time he touched me, my body shivered and skin tingled in response, so overwhelmed with excitement and expecting so much more that I had never dared to put into words.

But, I was so so...nervous with so many troubling thoughts circling my poor head.

Are we really going to do it?

H-how should we do it?

I don't know how to...oh god...

Will Kongpob want me...?

I...I don't want to disappoint him.

Oh god, please let me be brave and show him just exactly how much I love him.

Oh god, I want him so bad...

I sank in my seat, all the while counting the bright light posts on the street and trying to calm my nerves and growing excitement.

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I could feel the tension grow between us as soon as the sun set at the beach and it was time to return to the hotel.

I knew exactly what we were both thinking. What we were expecting to happen.

What I wanted to happen...

I could see Arthit getting visibly more nervous, fiddling with his fingers in his lap, and staring half-dazed outside the car window, the faintest flush of red tainting his beautiful pale cheeks.

Gosh, he was irresistibly adorable at the same time.

I could imagine what his crazy mind was thinking, probably the wildest expectations and fears all bouncing around that pabo's mind...

But honestly, I was no better.

My hands were slightly sweaty and gripped the steering wheel like a life support. It's as if I let it go, I wouldn't be able to control myself and kiss Arthit senseless, in the middle of the traffic no less. The anticipation of having Arthit all to myself...

I was so excited, I had to control myself to focus on driving instead of touching Arthit.

He was already my husband, all mine, my Arthit, but showing my true feelings, my care and love for him in a more...emm...intimate setting was a completely different thing, something totally new for me and it made me feel nervous and anxious all at the same time.

I was smart enough to do everything I wanted in my life.

To live alone from my parents, go to university, to quit it to save my dad's company, to re-start my studies for better future, to love Arthit...and to marry him.

I was confident in every one of them.

But...spending the night with Arthit when both of us were clearly expecting...something to happen...

...was driving me crazy.

For the second time in my life, I was nervous and lacked the calm confidence I usually had. So to say that I was a little conscious about my umm...romancing skills was a bit of an understatement.

Will I be good...enough for him? Can I make him feel special? Can I make him feel good...?

Stop overthinking, Kongpob, and focus on the road, I reminded myself when my eyes strayed towards Arthit again, sitting on the passenger seat of the car and clearly avoiding any eye contact with me.

His nervous fingers tapped the hard surface once in awhile and I could see his cheeks flushing even redder as he caught me staring at him from the corner of his eye.

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The traffic light turned red and the car stopped agonizingly slow. A few minutes seemed like an eternity for someone who couldn't wait to do something quite drastic in their life. The silence in the car became so palpable that even the simple intake of breath could be heard bouncing around the car.

Kongpob was startled by the sudden weight on his hand, the one wrapped around the gearshift. He looked up and found Arthit looking at him with a nervous smile. A smile grew on his own face as he released the gearshift and held the other man's hand in his. He immediately felt calmer by holding Arthit's warm hand in his.

But as his nervousness disappeared, a new feeling of excitement grew stronger.

Casting a brief glance at the traffic light, Kongpob asked hesitantly, "Can I kiss you?"

Arthit burst into a fit of giggles and quickly hid it behind his hand, blushing. "...really?"

"I'm trying to make this more comfortable for you," Kongpob squeezed the hand in his and leaned closer to the beautiful man next to him, tugging him closer until their lips pressed together in a soft kiss. His eyes slowly shut and he let himself drown into the warmth and taste of Arthit's lips. They were so sweet and soft, their taste so unique and addictive, Kongpob knew he had been smitten from the first time he gave in to temptation and kissed the loving beauty whom he now called his.

Arthit quickly pulled away at the sound of cars honking behind them. Peals of laughter erupted from their lips as Kongpob stepped on the gas right away. Having felt the shyness and seen the passion in Arthit's eyes, he knew that there was nothing uncomfortable about this. It was exactly as exciting and wonderful as it should have been for a newlywed couple.

And so, the initial awkwardness was replaced by a new kind of tension - the kind that promised lots of intimate touching and a heated night ahead, one that Kongpob was determined to give his loved one.

As soon as they reached the hotel, two well-dressed receptionists led them inside. The hallway lights flickered as they entered the elevator that dinged softly as the doors closed and it began its ascend to the 15th floor where their room was located.

Before realizing what had happened, Arthit had been pressed against the elevator wall with Kongpob staring down at him with fiery glazed eyes.

For a moment, they stood still, noses just an inch apart, breathing heavy and staring into each other's eyes. By now, Arthit had blushed into deep shade of red, hands pressed against the wall behind him, unable to tear his eyes away from Kongpob's.

And then, Kongpob spoke and Arthit was quite sure his heart skipped a beat and more color rose to his cheeks.

"Arthit, I...I feel like devouring you right now," Kongpob whispered low, and Arthit meeped in response, almost unable to believe that the poker-faced Kongpob had actually said such an...erotic thing.

To Kongpob's dismay, the elevator doors dinged open to reveal an elderly couple standing outside and staring at them incredulously as if knowing exactly why both young men were panting as if they'd ran a marathon. Arthit flushed dark red, while Kongpob grabbed his hand and pulled him past the couple, down the hallway, fumbling with the card key by their door, before opening it with an impatient grunt and leading Arthit inside first.

Then, the door closed behind them and they were left in tense silence once more. Neither moved to turn on the lights, they just stood half in the hallway, half in the living room of the suite, in dark shadows, and Arthit wasn't sure how to calm down his now wildly pounding heart.

Should I...say something? Should I...escape in the bathroom and--

But his thoughts were interrupted by a warm body pressing against his from behind and before he could stop himself, he shuddered as Kongpob's breath ghosted over the exposed skin on his neck.

"Arthit..." Came a low husky whisper in his ear and the next second, he was spun around and pinned against the wall, Kongpob feverishly attacking the soft skin on his neck, leaving Arthit absolutely breathless...and excited.

Oh god...

Kongpob's warm body pressed flush against his as Arthit sank back against the wall. Their bodies melded together, separated only by the thin fabric of their t-shirts and shorts, and Arthit gasped when Kongpob pressed a knee in between his legs, spreading them apart and sliding even closer against Arthit's body.

Arthit's heartbeat thudded so hard inside his chest that oddly enough, he could hear the sound ringing inside his ears as his excitement grew and all nervousness seemed to have melt away under Kongpob's passionate touches on his skin.

Then, Kongpob removed his lips from Arthit's neck and placed both hands beside Arthit's head, breathing heavy as he stared into the dark sparkling eyes of his husband. No words were spoken for a while, both of them just staring deep into each other's glazed eyes and breathing heavy into the heated air surrounding them, but Kongpob could feel his self-control crumbling with every passing second, being so close to Arthit and realizing just how damn irresistible his lover was.

I lost control. I just lost it... I want him so much, but I didn't even ask him if he was ready to...fuck, I didn't scare him, did I?

Just when Kongpob was struggling to decide whether to move further or step away from the temptation, Arthit moved an inch forward to brush their noses together in the simplest, sweetest moves and then, as if to say 'it is all okay, I want this', he tilted his head and pressed his lips flush against Kongpob's, relishing in the sweet taste of his partner.

It took Kongpob a second or two to snap out of his daze, before he cupped Arthit's flushed cheeks and kissed him back with increasing passion. The kiss started off soft and gauche until Arthit let out a soft moan that spurred Kongpob on to have Arthit completely ravished in seconds.

With blood rushing to his brain and well, other parts of his body, Arthit wound his arms around Kongpob's neck, pulling him down and closer, closer, more closer, just...closer. The heat emanating from Kongpob's body brought his covered skin with a fiery blaze and he briefly wondered how much more on fire and wild he would feel if they had no clothes on.

Air.

He needed air!

However, Kongpob seemed intent to keep his mouth busy and had moved from ravishing his now slightly swollen lips to enclose over a racing pulse underneath Arthit's chin. He teased, licked and nibbled the creamy skin, and a wanton moan for more escaped Arthit's lips. Growing pleasure hummed through his body, so intense that his knees grew weak and he had to hold onto Kongpob's arms for support.

Now that he got the taste of it and seeing Arthit responding to him so eagerly, Kongpob let his urges run wild with no intention to stop. Blood pumped in his veins, clouding his senses. In the midst of the overwhelming kisses he was giving and receiving, Kongpob wondered how he was able to abstain from touching Arthit intimately for so long. He had never felt such intense feeling of desire, this kind of love and affection.

Long fingers buried through dark brown locks and held Kongpob's head in place. "Say how you want to devour me again," Arthit urged with a dark sparkle in his big eyes and sly smile on his kissed lips, so unlike the usual shyness he possessed whenever looking at Kongpob, and the passionate change in him was enough to push Kongpob over the edge.

"I want to devour all of you...you drive me crazy," Kongpob whispered against Arthit's neck, and Arthit gasped, inhaling sharply, when Kongpob's hands grabbed his hips and pulled him flush against his. With a roll of his hips, Arthit felt immediately just how excited and hard Kongpob already was.

With his lips still attached to the soft skin on Arthit's neck, Kongpob tugged at the hem of Arthit's shirt, lifting it higher to run his fingers over the milky skin underneath it. Arthit was a whimpering mess, completely unaware that they were still in the hallway, pressed against the wall with Kongpob's leg wedged between his legs, rubbing firm circles against his lower region.

Arthit chuckled when Kongpob stumbled, trying to pull Arthit further into the living room, while still hungrily lapping on the skin on his neck. Arthit pulled away and chuckled, positively light-headed and excited as he looked at Kongpob standing in the shadows before him, staring back at him with wild hunger in his eyes.

A shy blush dusted over Arthit's face as he took in Kongpob's t-shirt pulled higher than usual, exposing an expanse of tanned abdomen underneath. Kongpob stepped closer and Arthit felt a lingering kiss dropped on top of his head and his smile explosively grew. His hands were trapped between their chests while Kongpob's arms still held him closely.

"Are we..." Arthit's question was left unfinished as Kongpob sought his lips again, his tongue tracing the crease of his lips. Arthit knew he was stating the obvious, of course it was pretty clear what they both wanted and where this was going, but he hadn't actually meant to ask it as a question, he just wanted to...know. To say it out loud, because by now, there was nothing that would stop him from going forward with this.

"I'll stop if you want me to." Kongpob whispered against his lips, but with a great deal of difficulty. Tonight had been particularly riveting. Arthit mystified him to a point that he couldn't even think straight anymore. There was one thought running in his head, and that is something he didn't want to act upon unless the other gave him permission.

"No," Arthit whispered immediately, then lifted his head and smiled nervously at Kongpob, staring at his nose instead of his burning eyes, "I want this." And then, an even sweeter whisper, so quiet that Kongpob almost missed it, almost. "I want you."

With his heart racing by Arthit's words and actions, Kongpob's body seemed to burn with a desire he had never felt in his life. He wanted this man...he wanted to make Arthit his, but he was also starkly aware of the fact that neither of them had ever done...this before and Kongpob's nerves overwhelmed him before he could stop himself saying it out loud.

"Don't laugh..." Kongpob muttered suddenly, taking a small step back, but keeping Arthit's hand in his, stroking it absent-mindedly.

Arthit titled his head, confused as he stared at Kongpob's face dimly lit by the moonlight shining in from the outside, "Why would I?"

Kongpob dragged a long sigh, "I-I did my own research." A confession he would rather have not let Arthit know. But somehow, in this anxious, yet exciting moment, he suddenly felt like telling Arthit and making them both feel at ease ahead of what was to happen.

The look of shock and amusement spread on Arthit's face in a moment and to both of their surprise, Arthit began laughing out loud.

"Pabo! I said don't laugh!" Kongpob muttered with his familiar authoritative tone, but this time, it didn't stop Arthit from laughing louder, almost teary-eyed as he stared at Kongpob with a wide smile.

"What's so wrong about planning ahead? Hey, Arthit!" Kongpob groaned aloud, truly he had the worst timing. Just when they were about to enjoy their first night of passion together, he had to lead his partner to fits of hysteria.

It was Kongpob Suthiluck after all! The almighty genius who had memorized every book in the library to prepare himself for the most unexpected of situations. Therefore, it shouldn't have come as a surprise that he would take their first night together just as seriously, but still, Arthit was surprised that Kongpob had told him about it, all nervous and unsure, which made him human and even more lovable at that moment.

Hilarious yet sweet at the same time, Kongpob's confession had helped Arthit to forget all his nervousness, relax and simply follow what his heart wanted. After a moment, Arthit stopped laughing and ended up a little breathless, cheeks flushed with a new tint of pink, "Kongpob Suthiluck, you are just too cute~~" Arthit cooed excitedly, cupped Kongpob's face and his smile grew wider, so wide that Kongpob found him positively glowing at this point.

'Cute' was a word he would never associate with himself, it was a word of endearment he used to call Arthit quite often, yet hearing it coming from Arthit's mouth didn't make him feel any less manly. Only for you, Kongpob thought with a smile as he held the hands on his face, luring Arthit's eyes to look into his.

"You're not the only one who wants this," Arthit whispered breathlessly, again displaying that tempting vixen that Kongpob had caught a glimpse of before, and without any more words needed, Kongpob had his lover's lips again.