"Explain what?!" Kendall dragged you inside your dressing room. "What the hell Y/N?! What was that? Tell me!" She said pushing you while hitting you on your body. She's not hurting because you are tryin to block her hands. The model is furious and mad at you.

"I- i can explain! Just calm down!" You yelled.

"Calm down?! You expect me to calm down after that song? WHY Y/N? WHY NOW?!" She asked you, you noticed that her tears are streaming down her face. "What is wrong with you Y/N?!" You pulled her for a hug until she calms down.

"Calm down Ken.. Shh.. Stop crying, i hate seeing you cry." She hit your arm.

"Hate seeing me cry? All you ever do to is to make me cry!" She yelled again, instead of letting her go you hug the model tight while you caress her back to comfort her.

"I- i'm sorry.. Okay? I'm so sorry. I know i shouldn't feel this way, but i--"

"Guys! Are you okay now? Oh shit-- sorry." Bella said and closed the door again.

She pushed you away from her as soon as Bella closed the door, "We need to talk, but not here." she wiped her tears and walk away. "I'll wait for you in your car." You nodded and get your things.

*****

You are running on your way to your car to avoid the paparazzi. You quickly opened your car and head inside. You looked at Kendall waiting for her to talk, she's crying.

"Take me home." She said and you obeyed the model.

You stopped at Kendall's driveway, the whole ride was silence. She didn't said anything, she's just looking at the window crying. You are too scared to talk to her because she might snap on you again but you don't want to be scared about anything anymore. You don't want her to walk away without telling your best friend you love her.

"Ken i love you very much." She immediately looked at you in surprise, "Even more than a friend." You said.

"Why only now? Now that i have someone? You couldn't love me until Ben came our way.."

"No, i've loved you for a long time." You said looking at her.

Her tears started to fall agin, "Really? After all the women you've introduced to me, after all the times you denied kissing me, after everything i've done for you, just so you won't feel that no one loves you. Y/N that's ten years.." She said to you crying. "I closed of my heart for everyone. Remember i'm always telling you that they are not the one for me? Because i want you to tell me that you are the only one for me.. I never loved anybody else because i'm hoping that one day you will love me back.. Even though i know it's pointless, i waited. Because, i love you Y/N.."

"You love me?" You asked the model.

"Yes, i love you."

"S-sorry. I'm sorry Ken.. If you only knew, i've loved you ever since we were kids. But the truth is, i was afraid. I was so scared that i would hurt you, because i knew i wasn't right one for you. I was not the one you needed. Ken i've done so many mistakes-- that i couldn't possibly be the one for someone as perfect as you. I'm a screw up, and i don't think i deserve you. And when i had the strength to tell you about how i feel, it's always a bad timing." You said trying so hard not to cry. Kendall shook her head and held your hand..

"I'm not perfect. And i never wanted you to be perfect, all i wanted was for you to try.." Your eyes are turning red because you are holding your tears, you looked away from your best friend. "Try to set your life straight, until you feel like you already deserve me. But you never tried Y/N.. You never tried for me." Kendall is already sobbing in front of you, "And what really hurts... is you can do it. You can, now." Your best friend covered her face and cry. No words are coming out of your mouth, you are speechless. You couldn't stand to see your best friend crying because of you.

A few minutes had passed, you and Kendall stayed in your car. She's still crying and you can't move on your seat. You are thinking how you fucked everything up, how stupid you are for not seeing that your best friend is in love with you. "Let's not make it any harder. Let's just end this Y/N. It's over.."

Your heart sank in your stomach when she said those last words, "I thought you promised me not to break up with me, ever?" You paused and she looked at you still crying. "I don't want to lose you.." You said and broke down in tears.

Kendall let out a small smile while she's crying and head out to your car. You watched her running towards her house.

After that night, me and Y/N didn't talk. It's been two weeks. I miss her so much, but i'm still hurting. That asshole didn't even tried to call or text me. I don't know why i'm in love with that idiot. I was standing at my veranda looking at the view outiside my house, when i felt arms wrapping at my waist.

"Hey babe.." Ben greeted me.

"Hi." I said.

"Are you sure you wanted to rent that house in Beverly hills? That house is closer to her." He said and looked at him. "I know she's the one you've been talking about. She's the person you waited for a long time to love you, right?" He asked. "I know, i couldn't replace her in your heart--"

"Ben, don't ever think that i don't love you. I'm so grateful that you came into my life, because you found me; i found myself. You don't know how much you've changed my life. How much you make me happy.. and how sorry i am for hurting you. I know you are hurting even though you're hiding it to me." I said caressing his face. "I'm so sorry--"

He caress my face, "Hey.. I know you love me Ken."--"I told you the only thing this wouldn't work is if we don't try. Right? And i see you're trying, thank you for trying so hard. But i could try harder until you move on." I looked down because i don't think i could move on from her. "Or we could try to be honest.." He said and let out a small smile. I looked at him and i nodded. We both looked at each other and gave him a kiss on his lips, i felt his tears streaming down on his face.

He pulled me for a hug, "I want to be honest with you. Because you deserve it and because i love you." I whispered.

"I love you too Ken." He gave me a kiss on my forehead and left.

I arrived at Nobu Malibu to eat dinner with the girls. I just got back from Italy yesterday, i stayed there for a week. It was really exhausting, i missed hanging out with my friends. Ever since me and Y/N ignored each other, i tried to make myself busy so i don't think of her.

"Oh my god Kenny! I missed you!!" Gigi run to me and gave me a koala hug.

"Oh god. Jesus, you're heavy Gi!" I said to her laughing. We met at Nobu malibu, i haven't seen these girls in a week.

"So, how's the single life?" Hailey asked me.

"It's good, a little busy. I missed you guys." I said to them.

"Aww.. We missed you Kenny, even Y/N misses--" Bella hit Gigi's arm. "Jelena you have a fucking big mouth." Hailey said. "I know right? But Kylie's bigger."

"Fuck you Gigi!" Kylie said laughing.

"How's Y/N?" I asked them and they look one another.

"She's-- she's doing good. She misses you very much Ken." Kylie said to me.

"Well if she misses me, why hasn't she called me? Or even text me?"

"We're not in the right place to answer that. Just don't give up on her Kenny."

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