"Do you remember what i promised you when we were in highschool Ken?" Y/N asked me.

Flashback:

"I don't know what i want, or what course i would take when we graduated babe. What about you?" You said to your girlfriend.

"Me? I want to be a model and i also want to be your wife." She gave you a wink and rested her head into your shoulders.

You and your girlfriend are sitting in the hood of your car while looking at the city lights. You and Kendall have been dating for six months now, this is just the way of both of you spending your anniversary together. Your girlfriend is already famous in your school because she is the sister of Kim Kardashian and she is on their family reality tv show call Keeping up with the Kardashians.

"What about a lawyer babe?" Kendall looked at you smiling.

"Nah, i'm not good at debating with people. I can't even win a debate with you when we are arguing about something.." She slightly slap your arm.

You let out a small laugh, "Okay, so what about engineering or an architect?"

"Baby, you know i'm so dumb when it comes to math right?" You laugh together. "I knew it. I'm going to take my MBA here in UCLA. I will try so hard to be a top student so i'm not going to embarrass you to your family." You said looking in her eyes.

Her family didn't know anything about you, only your closest friends knew about your relationship with the model. You are hiding it because you know that her mom will be mad if she knee that her daughter is having a relationship with another girl.

"You promise Y/N?"

"I promise Kenny." You smiled.

End of flashback..

"Well, that was five years ago. Our memories is traitor, nostalgia is a liar in how it montages our best memories while omitting our truths." I said.

"Ken what if we never broke up? What if i didn't lose you?" She asked me.

Flashback:

"Kendall! You are a famous supermodel now, the media will go crazy if they will know that you are gay. You can't do that! You are born a girl, you can't be in love with another girl!" Kendall's mom yelled at her.

"Mom i love her. So what if she's a girl? This is me mom, i am gay. Please stop pushing to be someone i'm not." Kendall cried at her mom.

"No, you are just curious or confused with your sexuality. You can't be gay Kendall. Break up with her or i will disown you!" She yelled and storm out the room leaving her daughter crying.

"Hey babe! What are you doing here? I thought we're going to meet at 12? It's only 9am." You gave your girlfriend a kiss, she's in your apartment.

"Y-yeah n-no. Actually, we n-need to talk Y/N." She said to you. You gave her a confused look.

"Babe are you okay? Is there something wrong?" You asked.

"Y/N we c-can't be together anymore. I- i'm breaking up with you." She said. She's trying not to look in your eyes because she will break down in tears if she looked at you.

"W-what? Y-you're kidding right? Is this a prank babe? Tell me you don't mean that." You felt like your heart sank in your stomach.

"No Y/N. We're done, we are over." Kendall gave you back the promise ring that you gave her on your first anniversary.

You didn't followed her because your knees is already shaking, you are in shock not knowing what to do. You just watch your girlfriend walked away to your apartment. Tears started to fall in your eyes.

"Let's drink?" I asked her and she nodded.

"Sure."

"I missed this, i miss when we were highschool and we used to go home late because we are here looking at the stars and city lights while talking about our dreams. Drinking beer and eating my favorite chips." I said to her. She gave me a smile, her sweet smile that i really missed.

"I missed that too Ken.. Are you ready to go back from the past?" She asked.

"That's not easy to do Y/N.." I said.

"I know, that's why we are going to do it slowly." I let out a heavy sigh.

"What if we saw each other before and we can still fix everything we left?"

You are already working at Amazon as Operation Research Analyst. You arrived at the Nobu Malibu because you are having a lunch meeting with the managers of your company. You looked at the time, you are a little early and your co-workers are not in the restaurant yet. You are busy texting on your phone while you are on your way to your reserved table when you bumped someone.

"Oh, i'm so sor--" Your jaw dropped.

"Y/N?" The girl said to you.

"K-kendall? H-hi." You stuttered.

"Hey, it's been what? Two years?" She asked you.

"Y-yeah, two years. What are you doing here?"

"I'm just waiting for some friends.." She smiled.

"I'm having a lunch meeting here, but i think-- i'm too early." You chuckled nervously.

"You-- you wanna join me? You know.. to catch up? I-if that's okay with you."

"Yeah, of course. I would love that."

You and Kendall talked for 30 minutes, you learned that she's still single after she broke up with you. She apologized to you several times but you told her that it's already in the past. You can't be mad at her, you just can't. She told you about her disowning her mother if she didn't break up with you, and you forgive her.

"Oh, it's already 12. So yeah-- i have to go, i have an important meeting today." You said while you looked at your watch.

"Okay, goodluck to your meeting and take care Y/N." She smiled at you.

You stood up, you don't know if you are going to ask her number or not. You are nervous, your heart is beating so fast and you honestly don't know what to do or say.

"Hey Y/N?" She called you and you quickly turned to her.

"Huh? What?"

"Can i take your number? So we could-- go out for lunch or dinner sometime?" You chuckled and looked at her for a second.

"I was about to ask you the same thing." Both of you smiled at each other.

END..

"Honestly, i didn't know what happened to me. I didn't know why i let you go." I said to her and my tears started to fall.

She wiped my tears away, and smiled at me. "You did for your own sake Ken, and i would never want you to give up your dreams and your family for me."

"What if we are secretly dating each other? What if i didn't told my mom about you?" I asked.

"Why are you missing this family dinner? I thought you are coming over?" Her mom asked her over the phone.

"Khloe and Kylie are not there either mom. I just want to rest, to stay home, i just came back from Paris. I have to go.." She ended the call.

"Babe, you're lying to your mom again." You said to her.

"It's just a white lie Y/N. Besides, it's true i really want to rest. But i want to rest with you." She hugged you and buried her face to your neck.

"I'm sorry you missed you family dinner for me babe. I mean, you don't have--"

"Y/N, i love you. My mom will never understand what we have, this is what i have to compromise because we can't let the world know about our relationship. This is just a little sacrifice that i do for you, okay?" You couldn't help but to smile.

"I love you more and thank you for everything that you do for me." You kissed her lips.

She started kissing your neck, you let out a quiet moan. "I- i thought you want to rest?" You smiled.

"Yup, this is resting babe." Both of you make out and made love to each other all night.

"Yeah, i would love that." She said to me.

"I'm sorry Y/N." I said to her.

"Don't be. It's okay, i understand Ken." She held my hand. "What happened to you after you broke up with me?"

"After i decided to end my relationship with you, i told my mom about it and focused on my career in modelling. It was tiring, and exhausting because i don't have enough rest. I wished that everytime i travel abroad i am with you. I wanted to call you so many times, but i couldn't. I admit it, i was scared.."

"Why? Why are you scared?" She asked.

"I'm scared that you're mad at me, because i broke my promise to you." I said then i drink my beer.

"You should've called me, i was waiting for you to call me. I'm not mad at you, i just missed you."

"But what if, my family loves you? Like they want you for me. That would be amazing. Right?"

"Hi Kenny! Hi Y/N. It's good to see you both." Kris Jenner gave you a hug.

"Hi mom." Kendall gave a kiss to her mom.

"Hey Mrs. Jenner." You smiled.

"I told you, just call me Kris or Mama K." You chuckled.

"So Y/N, how was work? It's been four years since you and my Kenny started dating. Aren't you guys going to settle down?" Her dad asked you smiling.

"Dad, stop." Kendall said to her dad.

"No babe, it's okay."---"Yes Mr. Jenner, we are planning on settling down soon." You said, but you and Kendall didn't talk about your wedding yet. But you know that she's giving you a sign. You wanted to propose to her soon.

"We are?" Kendall looked at you.

"Yup." You winked at her.

"Baby why did you tell them that we're talking about settling down? We never talked about it, not even once." She asked while she was sitting on the passenger seat.

"Really? We never talked about that? Not even once?" You asked.

"Oh my god, yes. Honestly, i'm already thinking that you don't want to be with me anymore.." You stopped the car at the Hollywood hills. The place that you used to hang out when you were in highschool.

"You know that's not true Ken. Come on, i want to show you something." You said and you got out of the car.

"What?" She said looking annoyed.

You pulled out box in your pocket, and you opened it. "This." You smiled at her. "I know you've been giving me signs about how you wanted to get married already. We didn't talk about it because i want you to be surprised. Kendall, i love you. I can't imagine my life without you in it. I want to grow old with you, and spend every second, every minute, ever hour of my life with you. Will you hold my hand. If i ask you to spend a lifetime with me?" You said to her smiling. She's in shocked. Her tears started to fall in her eyes.

She held your hand and squeezed it, "Yes. Yes. I will spend a lifetime with you Y/N." You chuckled, your tears started to fall but your girlfriend wiped it for you. She caress you cheek and pulled you for a kiss. You slid the diamond ring in her wedding finger.

"I love you too Y/N. This is so beautiful." She said looking at the engagement ring you gave her.

I'm crying at the thought of Y/N proposing to me, "Y/N this is wrong. This is just a what if--"

"What if that 'what if' became true Ken?" She asked.

"I wish.. But it's different now Y/N. We are on a different paths. Our life is different." I wiped my tears and drink my beer.

She didn't said anything. I got into my car and started to drove away. After 20 minutes, i arrived at my destination. I started to walk at the Forest Lawn. I put down the red and white rose, and sit down.

"I want to change the world. I want to change everything. I want to turn back time time Y/N. I want to turn everything around, the time when you and i were just a dumb teenager, sneaking and having the time of our lives. I want to turn back time when i did broke up with you, i would've have taken back what i said. I want to turn back time so i could fight for you to my family, so that i could fight for us. I want to turn back time the night that i let you go.. so that you wouldn't be here."

"Ken! I know that you're here! Please talk to me!" You are yelling in front of the Kar-Jenner's house.

"I'm not going to leave until you talk to me. Please, i'm begging you." The door opened and Kris Jenner came out of the house.

"Ma'am please, can i talk to Kendall?" You begged.

"No, go home Y/N. Before i call the security. Just let my daughter go, you don't deserve her!" Her mom yelled at you.

"I- i know i'm not rich as your family, but i will do everything to be successful Mrs. Jenner. I will do everything for your daughter." You said.

"It's not about the money Y/N. What you and my daughter have is wrong, you are a girl and she's a girl. Kendall is just curious, there's nothing serious between the two of you. Now please, get out of here bfore--"

"Mom!" Kendall shouted from afar.

"Kendall go inside!"

"Ken, talk to me please.." You begged once again.

"Mom, can i talk to her? Please?" She asked her mom.

"Okay, but hurry up. I don't want her to cause a scene in our neighborhood!" Kris head inside the house.

"Y/N what are you doing here? I told you not to come here." She said.

"Can we fix this? Please don't leave me. Ken, i'm begging you.." You hold her hand, she looked at you and she was about to cry.

"I'm sorry Y/N. But i have to do this, i don't have a choice.."

"I love you, don't you love me anymore?" You asked.

"I love you Y/N, but we are over. I'm sorry, please stop begging because i'm not coming back to you.." Her tears is now falling from her eyes. You know that she also didn't want this, she doesn't want to leave you.

"Ken please don't.. Please, we can work this out." She pulled her hand away.

"I'm sorry Y/N. I'm so sorry.." She said and she closed the gate. You watched her walk inside of their house.

It's already dark and it's started raining. You are walking on your way to your apartment while crying. Your eyes is blurry because of the tears. You didn't know what to do anymore, you don't know how to start your life without the love of your life. While you are walking you didn't realize that you are on the middle of the road, you saw a bright light and you heard honking but when you looked at the car it's already too late. The car already hit you..

Hello? Who is this?

Y-yes. Why? What happened?

What?! O-okay i'll go there.

Kendall ended the call and she grabbed her car keys and ran outside her room. She's panicking, and she saw her mom at the living room. "Where are you going young lady? It's already 8pm Kendall."

"M-mom.. I have to go, Y/N needs me. Please, just let me see her." Kendall begged her mom.

"No, i won't allow you to see her aga--"

"She got hit by a car mom! She needs me! She is the hospital right now! Please!" Kendall yelled her mom while she's crying.

"What? O-okay. But i'm coming with you, you're not d-driving in that condition."

They arrived at the hospital, Kendall is already panicking. Her mom asked the nurse where is your room. "Y/N Anderson? She's in a emergency room." Kendall didn't wait her mom, she run her way to the emergency room.

She stopped her tracks when she saw you already reviving by the doctor and nurses. "Don't you give up Kid." The nurse whispered to you. You are holding the promise ring that you gave to Kendall. Your hand opened and dropped the ring..

"Time of death 8:34pm." The doctor sighed and shook his head. Kendall felt her world apart. She walk towards your lifeless body while she's crying. "Y/N? Wake up.. I'm here baby."--"Please wake up. Please wake up for me!" She said shaking your lifeless body. She saw the ring that you dropped and she took it.

End of flashback..

"I'm sorry babe. I'm so sorry, i am coward. I didn't have the strength to fight for you. I should've done everything to fight for us. I hope you forgive me for being scared, for being selfish. You will be in my heart and in my mind. I love you so much Y/N."

It's been a year since Y/N died. Up to now, i'm still talking to her in my mind. I'm still imagining that she's still here talking to me, comforting me, hugging me, kissing me and loving me. All of my dreams became true, i became a successful model, i travelled all around the world, i have everything in life that a person could ask for. But, i know there is something missing in me and that is her. My true love, my one great love, and the love of my life Y/N. I will always love her even though she's in a heaven. To make it up to her, i did everything in our bucket list.

She will always have my heart, and i will wait for the time that we can be together again..