Cold midnights

Superficial

Not inside

I wish to feel something

To be alive

And not just a doll

Made of soil

I have a mind

I might not seem like

Someone who hates to smile

Scared of a hello

A body that is too vile

Tainted beyond restoration

Feelings fragile

Yet I have a heart that beats

Mouth that screams

"Forget your mistakes

And for once just breathe."

I want to feel whole

Like i was before it all fell off

I just want to sleep

And dream

Not wake up to nothing

Sheer emptiness petrifies me

In a night of vulnerability

I never thought I would wish for company

Someone to hold me

Someone to build me high

Like a tower

To give their 24 hour