Sitting on my bed I think 10 years back

For a glimpse of the day when

My present wasn't so black

Surrounded by darkness

I think hard

Easier said then done

My memories are scarred

I ask for hurt and glum

Something to remind me

My breath still come

I ask for soreness and pain

Something to tell me

My feet still run

What does it mean to live

And what does it mean to move on

I sit in my bedroom

And think with a frown

My god is dead

Add my future drown

Devil devoured my soul

As i have grown

If love wasn't meant for me

I ask again

Why my heart still beat?