thump...thump...thump...

i flickered my eyes open, pain shooting like bullets in my head. i could hear the sound of blood passing through the narrow veins of my head. almost instantly, my hand clutched the side of my head in agony. i felt pile rise to my throat, and without a warning from my brain, my body shot up to the nearest bathroom where i emptied my stomach.

''thank God,'' i heard a murmur and a soft grip on my hair, i felt. not caring to look who, i concentrated on the pain in my throat as the burning chunk of vomit glided its way out.

''better?'' Nora asked once i sat on the floor. she gently took some tissues and started cleaning my mouth from the residue of my hangover.

i nodded my head, leaning on the wall.

''here, take these, baby. shower and breakfast will be ready once you get out.'' Nora said, handing me fresh clothes from her own closet. i smiled faintly as she handed me her hand to make me stand on my own feet.

as she exited the bathroom, i looked at the clothes i was wearing. it was a night gown, and not the clothes i remember wearing from yesterday.

sighing, i started stripping and hopped in the shower. i let the warm water flow down my body and decided to shut my brain off. there were a lot of thoughts going around, and i was the victim of it all.

stepping out, i wrapped myself with one of the folded towels, and then dried my hair with one. quickly, i wore the other nightgown she had handed me and stepped out.

i hate nightgowns, but for God's sake it's Nora.

when i went downstairs, Nora was in the kitchen plating food on two plates ever so adorably. she was wearing a nightgown herself, but mine was less exposing.

she turned around, ''come, i made pancake.'' she smiled as she sat on the kitchen table. i smiled and made my way to her, taking baby steps, for not waking up my headache.

i laughed, ''did i do anything stupid?'' i looked up from my plate. she stopped her fork halfway to her mouth as she started laughing.

''oh my, where do i begin?'' she teased, causing me to nearly choke on my first bite.

i swallowed quickly, chugged a mouthful of water, and stared at her, ''what did i do exactly?''

her eyes widened in disbelief and she started laughing even harder. when i sent her my prominent glare, she sobered up and chucklingly dried her funny tears, ''okay okay,'' she took in a big breath and continued, ''first of all you asked about Asher,'' i gasped, ''and we were about to lose our heads when you started fantasizing about how much you wanted to get laid.''

''WHAT THE HELL?'' i screamed, standing up instantly. she started laughing again, un-controllable tears flowing down her face. she was basically wheezing. for a beautiful a girl like her, she surely had an ugly laugh.

''it doesn't stop here, pretty girl.'' she warned me, moving her index, ''so after that, and very understandable from Noah's side, he stood up and went to get you--'' i cut her off.

''he did what?'' i sat back down, suddenly interested.

she smiled cheekily before continuing, ''well, it was obvious he got mad, so he went to get you back as you were halfway to the dance floor, but the very calm drunk you are, you seemed to think the most reasonable thing to do was to run.'' she stopped as she started laughing again.

''i don't know what happened when he got to you, but he wasn't happy, though. Carter by then was utterly convinced to send you home as you were getting more persistent on getting laid, making some of us uncomfortable by the fact that this was what you were thinking of.'' she laughed again.

''Nora stay on the main point please.'' i said, my voice small. she covered her mouth with her hand and stayed for some moments before she spoke again.

''alright, alright.'' she cleared her throat, ''he carried you because you were stumbling and stuff, but you didn't like it and demanded to be let down, and well, he didn't budge, so you started crying, and that what did the trick.'' my eyes watered as the missing puzzle started getting together, ''he let you down and you cried some more. he hugged you, you hugged him back. he carried you, and you circled your legs around him and went into deep slumber.'' she finished off with an awe expression on her face.

standing up, i chuckled nervously, trying not to show how much effect her talk had on me, ''well, remind me to never get drunk again.''

''so?'' she questioned, ''nothing? you feel nothing? not even the slightest bit of affection towards him? nothing you want to talk about?'' she challenged.

i shrugged, giving her my back as i walked to the kitchen, ''maybe if you talked without riddles, we would help each other.'' i knew exactly what they wanted to do since the beginning, but if they are acting stupid then let it be.

''we both know you are smart, and that you already grasped our act.'' i heard her stand up. but not a moment after, the bell rang. she huffed out air in annoyance but went to get it non the less.

i opened the fridge and brought myself a cool jar of water. fetching myself a glass from the cupboard, i poured the cool drink and started sipping on it.

upon hearing noises outside, i noticed a few shadows and not long after, the girls entered the kitchen. i sent a glare their way as i continued sipping on my water, obviously choosing to give them the cold shoulder.

''look, before this gets too far. we did this because we love you and we were hurting seeing you like this.'' Della started.

i placed the glass on the counter, soundly, ''see? this is the problem! you were hurting, and i was living shitting my own existence. you decided to push me out of my comfort zone just in order to get something out of me, but not once did you think that maybe, just maybe...you were pressuring into something i wasn't ready for.'' i shouted, losing it all on them.

Abby's eyes watered, and she took a step forward, ''w-we are so sorry...w-we didn't think this through. we wanted you to open up so that you could feel better...''

''you know what, Abby?'' i said in a very broken tone. ''FUCK IT!'' i breathed out harshly, ''i love him alright! i fucking love him.'' tears streamed down my face, unstoppably, it was out of hands at this point. ''i miss him every damn second of my day. his smell lingers my head, heart, everything!'' i noticed tears...falling from my side, and their side.

''shout it!'' Veronica screamed, her face reflecting her pain.

''I LOVE HIM SO FUCKING MUCH!'' I screamed with agony lacing my broken voice. it was pitiful, all of it was bad.

tears flowed with no control, and my voice got lost in between all the tears. i found my body losing balance and i started sliding on the floor, my hands holding together, and my body shaking with loud sobs.

they rushed to my side. all of them. we were crumbled in one big ball. they cooed, soothed, patted, did all kind of comforting manners, but nothing had an effect on me. the thought that i was the reason why everything is fucked up was eating me alive. reminding myself that i couldn't be that selfish was not helping anymore. but also the thought of him hurt because of me was not settling well in my head.

xxx

''FRIENDS or Jane the Virgin?'' Nora asked once she opened up NETFLIX.

we were currently in her living room, covered in a good blanket.

weirdly, i was feeling a lot better after my screaming session, didn't know it would help that much to be honest. thank God, the girls didn't ask any questions and respected my privacy as long as they knew i was better after what happened. i mean that was their aim from the beginning...for me to let everything out.

''pfttt...open Peaky Blinders, bitch.'' Veronica laughed. yeah, she has that fantasy of Thomas Shelbey... well, who doesn't?

''yeah well, can't argue.'' Nora laughed as well as she opened the episode.

in front of us was all kinds of snacks. chips, chocolates, sour candy, crackers, and even drinks.

nothing could have been better, or that was what i thought at this moment of peace.

Abby's phone rang. a smile on her face appeared when she saw the caller's ID. Levi for sure...

''hey babe,'' she sank in the sofa, talking girlishly. i rolled my eyes and focused my eyes in front of the TV.

''oh dear God. do they take turns or what exactly?'' she bit the insides of her cheek. my eyes returned back to her. it was conscious she was troubled.

''what happened?'' Della whispered at her questionably. Abby motioned for her to wait and asked,

''where are you guys?'' she hummed in response afterwards. but soon enough her eyes were wide as cooking pans. she jumped off the couch and opened the speaker.

''come on, boys! after me.'' shouted a voice that sounded so similar to Logan. ''we are soooooo waaaaaasted! we are probably gonna puke our balls out, hehehehehe...'' he trailed off laughing in a slurry tone.

a groan was heard, ''man?'' a squeak then, ''where are my balls?'' shit, it was Carter.

''you probably left them there.'' came the sound of Lucas this time, ''everyone! check the balls.''

t-that was unpredictable.

Abby cleared her throat, having the same look we were having on her face, ''what did you guys do, exactly?'' he voice was shook. i don't blame her.

''i duuno, baby!'' Levi's voice was nothing different from them, ''baby, baby, baby, no-one's like baby, baby, baby, baby, no-one. jfhfgs...'' i bit my bottom lip to stop myself from bursting into laughter. it was like a movie displaying itself in front of us.

''Gimme the goddamned phone, fuck face.'' i stiffened. all eyes turned to me, ''hey, who is on the phone?'' Noah asked, his voice slurry as well, but at least more composed than the others in some way.

Abby's eyes locked with mine, ''uhm, it's Abby.'' there was a long silence after that.

''where is that kinda golden haired girl? she has uhm hazel eyes. they are a killer if you ask me.'' tears gathered in my eyes and i felt a stinging pain in my chest. he continued, ''she i-is feisty, but damn it, she is beautiful.'' he whispered the last part.

''Emma,'' whispered Della, ''say something.''i shook my head vigorously at that. she let out a sigh and came beside me, crushing my form in a genuine hug.

''what more do you feel about that girl, Noah?'' Veronica asked ever so softly. tears blurred my vision, making it harder to keep my eyes opened.

''she is very heartless.'' he blurted out.

my chest tugged painfully. i placed my hand over my chest and gritted my teeth harshly as a lone tear escaped my eye.

''i-i am totally drunk, shit.'' he cursed under his breath and probably handed the phone to one of the other corpses.

''hellooooooo. knock, knock! who is there?'' Carter said cheerfully, ''are you my balls?''

''okay, we have to get them.'' Nora interjected, ''if they are caught by the police, it's gonna be a hell of a problem.''

she is right. they are stupid. we have to do something.

xxx

''okay, okay...i spotted you guys. stand still and act cool.'' Veronica gave instructions to Carter on the phone, as we exited the cab.

Veronica whistled to the driver, ''can you wait please, we are gonna come back after getting those bastards.'' the driver nodded and parked the car near the pavement.

''i am gonna call an Uber. we won't fit in only one car.'' Della was already on her phone doing as she stated.

''alright, each one of us to her one.'' Abby grinned at us, and was about to walk away to the guys, who stood near a building, hardly on their feet with everyone giving them weird looks.

Veronica reached for Abby's shoulders and turned her around, ''who said i have a one?''

Abby chuckled but then her expression turned fake serious, ''you will soon.'' she winked and started jogging to where the boys were standing.

Veronica huffed out air, already knowing which one she was going to. i extended my hand and held her arm softly, ''wanna trade?'' she looked confused, ''you take Noah, i take my freaking brother?''

she thought for a moment before smiling with a small nod, but i could tell her eyes held sadness and disappointment.

''you certainly look sad.'' i whispered as we moved along together. we were the last to arrive to where they were standing, but we didn't mind it. she looked at me and said,

''your brother is an asshole.'' i nodded with a smile on my face causing her to shake her head with a semi-laugh.

''there you are!'' a voice nearly screamed, making the both of us flinch.

Logan twirled Veronica's black hair between his fingers. he towered over her, and from where i was standing there was no much space between them. she grew nervous of the closeness of their bodies, and i took this as my clue to leave. she can handle a drunk Logan while i handle Noah.

i raked my eyes around everyone but he was no-where to be seen. Levi was with Abby, Lucas with Della, Carter with Nora, and i had just left Logan with Veronica. then where the hell would he be?

i walked around the corner of the building we were standing at, hands in my pockets, shivering from the un-bearable cold. it was slightly darker by now, and there was less people around.

i walked on the pavement as i glimpsed a sight of a body on the ground.

it was Noah.

he had his head on the wall of the building, his legs spread out in front of him, but his eyes were opened, though. i felt thickening in my throat as i took rusty steps towards him. his nose was red from the cold, and his lips were dry, and all i could think about was how much i wanted to kiss him right now, bring the redness back to them as they looked pale.

he recognized my presence by now as his silver eyes found my body. he didn't speak, just looked silently. after what seemed like forever, he sighed tiredly and rubbed his hands over his face, and then looked again, as if he was expecting me to vanish into thin air, but i didn't.

he narrowed his eyes at my form and then simply chuckled, shaking his head in disbelief.

''now i see her when she isn't even here.'' he bit his lower lip.

his eyes were shimmering with amusement and i instantly found myself missing him, even though he is right here in front of me. i hunched down beside him, wrapped in my own jacket.

''i miss you.'' a whisper escaped me, and regret shot at me. why did i have to say that? stupid, Emma!

he laughed quietly, but then it ceased as his head turned to me, ''i miss you too,'' he trailed off, ''so fucking much.'' he sighed, ''but i am not gonna tell you that, so don't get your hopes up.''

''didn't you just tell me that?'' i asked, a smile forming on my lips.

''no,'' he simply stated, ''you are not real,'' he whispered, his eyes taking in my features slowly. drinking me in. i loved it.

''what would you like to tell, Emma? i will not tell her a word.'' my eyes held sincerity in them. i know they did.

he stared at my lips, his agonizing grey eyes shimmering again, ''i don't wanna say anything to her,'' he mumbled, and i felt my heart shattering, ''i would much prefer it if i did some things to her.'' hope sparked in me again.

''what would you do to her?'' my voice cracked. i don't know what happened to me, but i was enjoying this when i shouldn't.

naked truths moment...

his eyes returned back to my orbs, ''kiss her slowly,'' he sucked in breath, ''hold her close, so close that my arms hurt,'' he stared at my lips again, ''i want to tell her how much i love her with no hesitation in my voice.'' my eyes went wide.

h-he loves me?!

of course not, he is drunk...

does that mean that everything he was saying right now were lies?

i stood up as quick as if i was stung by a scorpion. it's all on me really, i am the one who is making this harder on him and i.

xxx

'' do they have to be so damn heavy like that?'' Nora groaned as she stumbled with a half dead Carter. she was supporting his weight on her fragile form, which is practically impossible, but miracles happen, guys.

''on your set, ready! go!'' I shouted in the empty house and upon my voice, we let go of their bodies and onto the floor.

they fell like heavy rocks, thudding the whole place, but not once did they blink an eye.

''i just wonder, what did they drink? cow's shit?'' i thought out loud to which they nodded.

Della threw herself on the couch beside above them, ''but they were nice, you know.'' she blushed hard.

ah, Lucas is an adorable drunk, so don't blame the girl if she is swooning. the whole ride back, he kept complementing every single thing about her. starting from her eyebrows to her toes.

''talk about yourself.'' Nora laughed, ''Carter kept asking the driver where were his balls.'' she broke into laughter at her own tragedy.

''what about you, Ver?'' Abby winked at Veronica, who was somehow caught in the act of staring at my brother. the asshole one, you remember?

she sighed, ''well, he was tolerable to say the max.'' i rolled my eyes.

''yeah, yeah, right.'' i teased.

Veronica narrowed her eyes at me, ''tell us, seniorita. what did yours do?''

''Noah was composed, but he said lots of weird stuff.''

''yeah?''

''yeah, he kept talking about how cars fly after everyone is asleep.'' i lied through my teeth without regret. because i know that he didn't mean any of the things he had said to me. he was drunk and i can't take his words evidence, anyways.

Nora ran upstairs and fetched them 3 blankets. she spread them three on their bodies as they were still on the floor, none of them even moved a bone.

after we had made sure they were fine, we decided to call it a night and headed upstairs to get some rest.

however, there was only one question revolving around our heads:

how did they end up drunk together?!

bye,,,,,