i jolt awake crying because i had a bad dream about my past— about something that happened that i could never take back.

mattia: hey you okay?

y/n: (i breathe heavily) yea- yeah just a bad dream

mattia: what was it about

y/n: nothing (i say quickly) it was just a dream that's all.

i wish it was just a dream but no matter how many days have passed, there isn't one day where i don't think about the event. fuck i need to get over it.

y/n: are you going to the pool party later?

mattia: yeah with alejandro and kairi. are you going with justin

y/n: yeah i am

whatever dream she had must been pretty bad. she's acting on edge and different— she was scared. i could see it her eyes and she was trembling like crazy. i wanted to ask more about the dream she has but she interrupted me by asking if i was going to the pool party.

mattia: are you sure you're good ?

y/n: i said i'm fine (she says rudely)

i can tell she immediately regretted her tone so i put my hand on her shoulder and she relaxes right away.

y/n: i didn't mean to say it like that. i'm sorry

mattia: it's okay i know you didn't mean it. i should get home tho. i'll see you at the party ?

she smiles and nods and i climb out her window.

i decided to go get ready for the party and put on my bathing suit under my clothes

justin said that we was almost here so i went downstairs to wait for him

-

justin: hey was your day

y/n: pretty good i didn't really do anything

justin: well that's about to change

we arrive to felix's party and i saw cocaine and other drugs everywhere. mattia alejandro and kairi were already here by the pool and i saw felix and hollis by the outdoor chairs.

felix: hey youre here (he gives me a hug) sup justin

justin: sup

hollis: devin texted me. she's here.

i see devin and vincent walk through the door and then justin goes up to vincent to greet him.

devin: wanna go in the water ?

y/n: sure (we both take off our clothes revealing only our bikinis) justin let's go in

justin and vincent take off their shirts and walk into the pool with us.

i watching y/n take off her clothes as she's about to go in the water.

ale: damn y/n fine as fuck

kairi: you wish you were justin right now

ale: are they a thing?

mattia: no i think so

ale: should i get at her tonight ?

kairi: i mean you can TRY but i don't think justin will be too happy about that

mattia: i don't know ale i don't think it's a good idea

ale: since when do you think getting pussy is a bad idea

kairi: since he broke up with lexi

ale: dude just sleep with any girl here if you're so upset about it

mattia: i'm not upset about lexi

kairi: yeah just horny

mattia: kairi why dont you try getting laid once in a while.

alejandro laughs and fist bumps me.

ale: let's go in

i see mattia and his friends go in and got nervous because he was shirtless. the only he's ever shirtless around me is when we're having .. you know.

i go into the jacuzzi instead to avoid being so close with mattia and justin joins me

justin: you okay?

y/n: huh? oh yeah i'm fine

justin: you wanna go in and grab some food ?

y/n: sure

we get up and grab a towel to wrap around us and head inside. we can sit and talk with everyone at the party until someone says something

boy: you wanna do a line with me (he pushes the tray of cocaine towards me)

y/n: i'm good.. thanks

boy: what happened ? last year i heard that you always did shit like this

y/n: well that was last year

boy: come on just one line

justin: hey she said no

y/n: (i stand up) i needa go to the bathroom

i go upstairs and walk into the bathroom. i look at myself in the mirror and then i see dirt and blood all over my body and face. i jump and realized that i only imagined it. that was last year — that was a long time ago you're good now. no one will ever know

i hear a knock on the door

y/n: someone's in here

they knock again and i repeat myself. the person continues knock so i open the door

y/n: hey i said someone's in her-

their lips smashes their lips into mine, making me back up and they shut their door behind them. i pull away and realize it's alejandro.

y/n: woah what're you doing?

ale: you know what i'm doing

y/n: you know i'm here with someone right ?

ale: you know i don't care right

y/n: ever hear of consent ?

ale: baby i know you wanted it.

if i was being 100% honest, alejandro wasn't lying. he's an attractive boy but i'm not into it.

y/n: well i didn't

he walks towards and makes me back up against the wall

ale: you sure ?

he puts his hand on my waist and stares into my eyes. i gulp and swallow my saliva and stare at his lips not saying a word.

ale: (whispers in my ears) cuz i can make you feel so many things if you just let me.

y/n: (i hesitate but i managed to say: ) i-i i can't

ale: yes you can

he kisses my neck and pulls my body close to him, making our stomach touch.

y/n: alejandro (i whisper) i can't

he removes his lips from my neck and then kisses me and i kissed him back. we make out for a good 2 minutes and he starts rubbing his member into my pussy. i let out a soft moan but snap out of it and push him off lightly.

y/n: no no i can't alejandro i'm sorry. this was a mistake

ale: no it wasn't, you enjoyed it

i didn't say a thing.

ale: are you dating justin ?

y/n: no..

ale: are you dating anybody?

y/n: no..

ale: i don't see what the problem is

y/n: it's just not a good idea

ale: (he sighs) well if you change your mind, dm me mamas i'll always be free for you (he smiles at me)

i smile lightly and walk out the bathroom door to head downstairs

justin: what took you so long

y/n: i just needed to gather my thoughts that's all

justin: (he nods) wanna go grab some drinks ?

i nod and we head over to the mini bar

i see alejandro walk back outside

mattia: what took you so long?

kairi: you needed to shit or what

ale: i was with y/n in the bathroom

mattia: what?

kairi: so how'd it go

ale: uh i kissed her and then she pushed me away and then i kissed her again and we made out for 2 minutes. but then she pushed me away again because she said it wasn't a "good idea"

damn right it wasn't.

mattia: i can't believe you just walked into the bathroom

ale: bro she's such a good kisser. probably the best girl i've made out with

kairi: alright buddy

she's good at other things you'll never get to experience with her too.

justin and i walk back outside and i see devin kissing vincent in the pool. go devin. go devin.

justin went to play golf at the mini course with felix and hollis so i just stared at the view by myself. until i get a text

unknown: heyyyy

who is this?

unknown: you've already forgotten

about me? that's not nice

can u answer the question ?

unknown: where's the fun in that?

you'll find out soon enough. i promise

you that. see you soon babe❤️

what do you mean ?

unknown: don't think it's all forgotten.

i told you that'd i'd be back.

1 year later here i am ..

if you're not gonna tell me who

you are, i'm blocking you

unknown: do whatever you want,

i told you i'm gonna see

you soon. xoxo 😘

terrified, i look around me to see if anyone was pranking but no one was on their phones. who is this ?

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