-alexs pov-

y/n and i both turned around to see aksel standing across from us, with what looked like red and teary eyes.

"aksel, whats wrong man?" i asked him as i walked towards him.

"you and her?? you know how much i liked her man, what the fuck." he scolded, which made a pit in my stomach.

"alex, is that true?" i hear y/n ask from behind me.

flashback to about two months ago

"yeah i really like her, I'm just waiting for vidcon so i can ask her in person." i heard aksel say as i turned down the volume from the vc and nodded.

"mhm, yeah man go for it." i said mindlessly as i texted y/n.

i knew she was one of ani's friends but I've never spoken to her before, and she seemed pretty chill. she was really cute too.

i don't know who aksels rambling about anyways, i wasn't listening.

i remembered that moment, and finally realized that he mustve been talking about y/n.

"y-yeah, i know. aksel i just, i can't help i-" i lied as i tried to find a good excuse.

"no, shut the fuck up, alex. you always do this shit to me. every fucking time." he hissed with tears streaming down his cheeks, "you were such a shit 'best friend'." he finished.

"what do you mean, were?" i asked him, my brows furrowing in confusion.

"we aren't best friends, alex. you were never even a friend of mine. first you take naomi from me, now y/n? i don't know how the fuck you can just do this shit without even feeling like, an ounce of guilt." aksel said, his eyes getting puffy and red as he sniffed.

"aksel, i-" i started, but he cut me off again.

"save it, alex. don't fucking talk to me anymore." he spat and walked away, going in the elevator and going wherever.

i stood there in disbelief, i just lost my bestfriend. i told aksel everything, and id go to him whenever i needed advice and he was always there for me. he was one of the first people who i met when i started youtube and i just lost him due to my selfishness.

i turned around to y/n, who looked at me concerned.

"so, aksel liked me, but you took me from him, is what I'm getting out of all of this." she said as she tried to process the whole situation that had just unfolded before her eyes.

"i mean, yeah, basically. i didnt even know though! i mean i did, but i wasn't even listening. i was literally texting you as he was telling me but i wasn't even listening to him, its not my fault." i explained and tried not to make myself seem like a backstabbing friend.

"yes it is, alex. i know this isn't what you wanna hear but you can't just be a shit friend and not even listen to him about it." she told me, which made me feel even worse. "I'm gonna go check on him, okay? you can go to our room and ill be there when I'm done." she told me as she walked up to me and gave me a quick but gentle kiss.

"I'm sorry this all happened so fast, hermosa." i apologized, looking into her eyes with a little frown before she departed.

"its okay, i just feel so bad for aksel." she said and i nodded, agreeing with her.

"tell me what happens when you get back, okay?" i asked her as she left.

"i will!" she yelled back to me as she reached the elevator and got in, going to see aksel.

saying that i felt fucking awful was an understatement.

i went in the elevator and went down to my floor, and then made my way to aksels room. i could hear his soft cried through the door and knocked softly.

"aksel? its just me." i spoke out for him, my voice calm and quiet as i spoke to him through the door. "can i come in?" i asked, and heard his crying come to a halt as he sniffled. i then heard footsteps coming closer to me, and the door opened to reveal a shattered, heartbroken aksel.

"aksel, im so sorry. i had no idea." i apologized and pulled him into a hug. i felt his hands on my shoulders as he pushed me off of him.

"don't even talk to me, you're dating that fucking asshole." he reminded me sourly.

"i know, aksel, i know. can we at least just talk about it? i don't wanna see you like this." i begged him, looking up in his eyes.

he took a step back and shut the door in my face,

"get the fuck away from me and go make out with your lame excuse for a boyfriend."