I sighed walking into my house. I was being extra quiet since it was only 10 am.

"Y/n?"

I jumped and turned around seeing Travis.

"Why you up so early?" I put my keys down and kicked off my shoes.

Looking up my eyes widened as Travis charged towards me and wrapped his arms around my waist. "I'm so sorry."

I frowned and rubbed the top of his head. "What was that about?"

He pulled away and sighed looking down. "Come on kid let's sit and talk."

I scoffed as he walked into the kitchen and I shook my head following him. I sat across from him and watched as he tapped his fingers on the island.

"I still have nightmares and um...the glass that shattered yesterday kind of scared me. When I got scared I got put in a bad mood. At first, I wasn't mad at you- I never was, but when I saw my real dad I guess...I got confused? I wanted him to be a good guy who took me in and showed me what a real father was like. I was mad at him because it took him so long to come for me but I didn't want him to hate me for speaking my mind so I turned my anger towards you."

"So you'd prefer it if I hated you?"

He shook his head. "I just assumed you wouldn't mind, I didn't mean to say all of that I just needed to put all my anger towards someone and I chose you."

"Travis the stuff you said really hurt."

He snapped his head up and nodded. "I know but everything I was saying was directed at him I just changed my words to be directed at you," he shook his head. "I know it wasn't your fault Y/n, you were trying to help us I just, didn't know how to express myself."

"So instead of cursing out a stranger, you curse out your sister?"

He shrugged looking down. "Maybe...maybe I wanted to hurt your feelings too a little bit."

"Because..."

"Because I wanted you to feel what I felt. It's not fair that stuff keeps happening to me. I just didn't want to be the only one hurting."

I scoffed. "Dude, you have a lot to learn."

He looked up at me and raised a brow.

"Every bad thing you go through hurts me."

"That's not possible since it's not happening to you."

I shook my head. "There's this thing called mental pain- Whenever I saw mom get hit I felt the pain mentally."

He hummed. "I don't-"

"Remember when you cried watching The Boy in the Striped Pajamas?"

He nodded.

"You felt bad right?"

His eyes widened. "Ohhh so you feel bad for me."

I shook my head. "No but yes- I'm your sister and I love you so fucking much. Seeing you in pain brings me pain, not physically like you but...mentally."

He looked down and hummed before nodding. "So, like the pain I felt when I saw mom get-"

"Exactly."

He bit his lip and sighed. "I'm sorry Y/n I shouldn't have said any of that and I completely get it if you want to put me up for adoption or something," he nodded. "I would."

I shrugged and chuckled. "I don't know, you know I hold grudges so I'll think about it."

He frowned before snapping. "I'll make you breakfast."

He jumped up and walked over to the fridge as I smiled softly. He opened it and pulled out some bacon.

He looked down at the package and cleared his throat. "Um, c-can you open this?"

I chuckled and walked over to him. Bending down I pulled him into my arms and kissed his cheek.

"Don't ever look at me like you hate me again okay?"

He nodded hugging me back. "I'm sorry I promise I'll make it up to you."

"It's cool," I pulled away and took the bacon from his hands. "Let's go out to eat."

"Yes!"

-

I knocked on Vanessa's door and sighed scratching the back of my head.

I kind of felt like shit because I've been unintentionally ignoring her calls in texts.

The door opened and she hummed as she met my eyes. "I thought you were pissed at me."

I shrugged. "I'm over it."

Vanessa ran her eyes down my body and stepped to the side. "Come in."

I slowly walked into the house and turned to face her.

"I'm sorry." We both said simultaneously.

We chuckled and I nodded. "Go ahead."

She sighed. "I'm sorry for what I said. I just felt like you weren't seeing my point and I decided to be petty."

I chuckled and nodded. "I'm sorry too because you weren't completely wrong."

"Of course I wasn't." I raised a brow and she chuckled. "I'm joking...Probably."

"I don't like you."

She rolled her eyes and hummed. "So, we're cool now?"

I hummed and bit my lip. "Maybe I'm forgiving people to easily, or I'm just ready to move on with life. So I guess we're cool."

She nodded. "Move on in what aspects?"

I shrugged. "You really wanna know?"

She took a step towards me. "Yeah."

I sighed. "So do I."

She looked down and took a step back.

We stood there in silence for a few seconds before she shrugged. "Wannaaaa watch a movie?"

"Sure."

She smiled. "Cool."

She walked past me and I followed her upstairs keeping my eyes down because...yeah.

Those shorts she's wearing are something else.

We made it to her room and I sat on her bed as she grabbed her remote and walked towards the bed.

"Where's Summer?"

Vanessa sat next to me. "She has another modeling gig."

I frowned confused. "Really?"

Vanessa rolled her eyes. "Sorry, I forgot you know I kind of got use to lying."

I chuckled and nodded. "Right."

"Um, she has a procedure in a couple of days because she has this little machine connected to her heart but it's been acting up."

"Is she going to be okay?"

Vanessa nodded looking nonchalant. "She's a trooper so I'm not worried. Anyways before she has a procedure she has to go through a day or two of physical therapy to strengthen her heart."

I frowned as I processed what Summer has to go through.

Shit must suck.

"Why aren't you with her?"

She shrugged. "I never go when she does the therapy I usually go when the procedure is getting done so she has someone there to wake up to."

"Awww that's so sweet."

She chuckled and looked over at me. "So you ready for the awards sho-"

I groaned loudly. "Please don't talk to me about that. I'll literally commit fork outlet if I have to hear anything about that."

She laughed and shook her head. "Overdramatic ass."

"Shut up," I scooted down her bed and laid on my back. "You wanna give me a massage?"

"You have to lay on your stomach for that."

I hummed and tucked my arms behind my head. "Do I really?"

She met my eyes and I raised a brow. "Um yeah? I need to see that ass."

I laughed and rolled my eyes. "You perv."

She smiled and looked at the tv as I stared at her.

What do we want to do Y/n?

Jasmine wants me but, she doesn't want me and...don't I deserve better than that?

I mean I'm always supposed to want better for myself right? And at this moment, Vanessa seems like the better choice.

I sat up and reached for the remote. Grabbing it I paused the tv causing Vanessa to look over at me.

"What?" She smiled softly causing my heart to skip a beat.

I gulped and nodded. "Your fucking smile shouldn't have that much of an effect on me."

She chuckled. "What?"

I sighed. "Let's not bullshit because I think we're a little too grown to keep playing games at this point," I turned my body to face her. "Do you want me?"

"Yes." She answered without hesitation.

I nodded. "Right however, we both have feelings for two other people which might make things complicated. In the end one or both of us might not want each other anymore but, as of right now I know I want you and you said you want me."

"Yeah, I do."

"Right so, I'll always have feelings for Jasmine you know? I want to make that a hundred percent-"

"I hear you."

I nodded. "I really really fucking lik-love you."

Vanessa quickly nodded. "I love you too."

I smiled slightly. "So, even though I'm busy with the whole awards show thing I have free time tomorrow and I want to spend it with you," I grabbed her hand and raised a brow. "Vanessa Moe, will you go on a date with me? A date that'll be the start of our relationship and not just something we'll do before I go off and get someone else pregnant."

She chuckled and then scoffed. "That while taking charge thing was kind of hot." I chuckled as she reached out and placed her hand on her back of my neck. "I would love to go on a date with you Y/n."

"I'm serious this time by the way. Vanessa, I want to have a relationship with you so, " I shrugged. "Let's date- me strictly with you and you with me. And we'll see where that takes us, deal?"

She hummed. "Damn, I have to cut off my hoes?"

I dropped her hand and went to stand but she gasped and pulled me into her before kissing my cheek. "I'm sorryyyy, I'll cut them all off!"

"Nah fuck that! H-How am I supposed to know I'm not just another hoe?!"

She laughed and I smiled up at her.

She bit her lip looking down at me. "You're my main hoe."

"Same here."

-

"Y/n!"

I shot up as Quincy ran into my room. "Bitch what?"

Quincy panted and shook his head. "He's back."

I frowned. "He...who?"

"Rain."

My heart fell as I remembered fucking Rain.

Jasmine's ex.

The guy she knew before me.

The guy she was in love with.

The guy who actually broke her heart.

Quincy sat next to me and raised a brow. "You ok?"

I sighed and ran my hands through my hair. "How do you know he's back?"

"Jasmine just told me she bumped into him at Wally World. He asked her out and she said yes since your keeping the kids today."

I clenched my jaw and scoffed as I felt my anger rise. "Yo fuck her."

"Woah."

I smacked my lips. "Am I wrong? She fucking "scared" to be with me but she'll go on a date with the guy that broke her heart? The hell is she doing?"

"Maybe she's trying to move on so that-"

"No fuck that, in all honesty, she doesn't have the right to move on. If she doesn't even want to be with me then-"

"Y/n-"

"No! I have the right to feel some type of way about this I mean..."

"You're going on a date with Vanessa tomorrow."

I looked down. "And? I still have the right to be upset."

"You absolutely do but, like you said fuck her. Let her do her and you do you, period. I get your upset but shit, it's Jasmine's life and she may have a reason, she may not, that shouldn't be your concern."

I rolled my eyes and laid back down. I stared up at the ceiling and sighed. "I don't even wanna go over there and get the kids, I shouldn't show up so she's late to her da-"

"Shut your petty ass up," he smacked my stomach. "You love Vanessa am I right?"

"Yeah but-"

"But nothing, it's time you fucking settle down. Go on your date tomorrow and let Jasmine go on her date tonight."

I nodded. "Your fucking right, I'm planning on making Vanessa my girlfriend so what the fuck do I look like being jealous?"

"Exactly- WAIT GIRLFRIEND!?"

"Okay bye, I'm going to get my babies." I jumped up and ran towards the door.

"Y/N GIRLFRIEND?!"

-

I unlocked the door and walked into Jasmine's house. I heard music playing from her bedroom and I sighed heading upstairs.

If I catch her fucking this guy I'll be pissed.

I slowly pushed open her bedroom door to spot her swaying as she walked around the room with Zion in her arms. Zyarie was laying on the bed asleep.

I walked over to the bed and picked up her phone pausing the song. She quickly turned around and playfully glared at me with a smile on her face.

I sat on the bed and looked down at Zyarie before looking back at her. "What's got you all happy?"

Jasmine shrugged walking over and handing Zion to me. "I'm going on a date."

"Oh really? With who?"

She met my eyes and then quickly turned around walking over to her closet. "You don't know him."

I rolled my eyes and pecked my son's forehead before laying him next to his sister. "The fact that your lying about going on a date with Rain says a lottt."

She sighed. "Why'd you ask if you already knew?"

"I wanted to see if you'd tell the truth," I stood and walked over to her. "Why didn't you tell-"

She looked at me and raised a brow. "No."

"No?"

"We're not doing this Y/n."

I scoffed. "Where's he taking you."

"Oh, this new restaurant called nun ya."

I rolled my eyes. "You don't even like restaur- oh haha."

She chuckled and shook her head as she looked through her clothes.

"Why can't I know."

"Because you don't need to worry about it Y/n."

I huffed and crossed my eyes. "Didn't he break your heart by fucking your best friend."

Jasmine glared at me. "Look, if your just gonna question and pry on my grown woman business you can go." I smacked my lips and Jasmine scoffed pointing at me. "Smack your lips again."

I smacked my lips twice more and she rolled her eyes fully turning to face me. "This the shit I'm talking about, you so immature."

"Shut up- the hell you mean, this the shit I'm talking about?"

"What the hell I said," she tilted her head. "You act like that and then wonder why I don't want a relationship with-"

"No no you don't want a relationship because your scared I'll hurt you."

"Exactly!"

"Exactly? Nig- You understand how stupid you sound right? Oh Y/n I don't want to be with you because I'm scared you'll break my heart but-"

"Y/n shut-"

"Oh but wait, i-is that the guy that broke my heart? Oh my God, it is! Why don't I go on a fucking date with him since I'm soooo scared of getting hurt again," I rolled my eyes. "You a dumbass."

She stared at me and then nodded turning back to her closet. "Take the twins and get out of my house."

"Oh, and I'm immature yet you don't wanna talk abo-"

She snapped her head towards me. "You wanna talk Y/n? Okay let's talk," she pushed me. "You are the most immature, selfish, oblivious asshole I have ever met-"

"How am I-"

She held her finger up. "Let me fucking finish," she snarled and I gulped. "You wonder why I'm scared to be with you and I tell you why and then you go and use everything I say against me," she pushed me again. "You can't control your feelings and for that reason, you have two girls in love with you. You only think about yourself when it comes to our situation because if you weren't selfish, you wouldn't be here questioning why I'm going on a date with someone else." She pushed me again and I clenched my jaw.

"Stop touching me Jasm-"

"Or else?" She raised a brow. "Am I hurting your ego by telling you the truth? You jump between me and Vanessa but, have you ever stopped and thought, what do they want? It's always been about you and if you're going to be loved by someone." She pushed me again.

"Jasmine touch me one more-"

"I'm still talking."

I rolled my eyes.

"You want me to be an asshole because I can be an asshole. You come to my house- acting like I belong to you, and then you start calling me out my name?" She scoffed. "You need to remember that I'm not Vanessa and you're not going to talk to me however you want just because you can't control your fucking emotions. Now, remember I don't owe you shit Y/n if I don't want to be with you but I want to be with my ex that's none of your business."

She poked my chest and I quickly grabbed her wrist pulling her into me.

"I said stop touching me."

She stared into my eyes, the anger shining, before she snatched her arm away. "You don't want me going out with him? You win, I'll keep my kids I just want you out of my house. Now."

I looked down and bit my lip as I processed everything she said.

How come- actually I'll speak my mind.

"How come I'm all those things and you not?"

She frowned her brows. "What?"

"Selfish and immature? You sure I'm the only one who can be described with those traits?"

"Please enlighten me Y/n."

"If I'm not mistaken, you led on a guy and allowed him to catch feelings just to shoot him down once he confessed."

She scoffed and shook her head. "First of all, I did that for you-"

"Right right, you wanted me to see you moving on and then realize I should too but...why do you want me to move on again?"

"We talked-"

"Because you're scared. You want me to move on so I forget about you, not for my sake but for your own. Have you ever asked me how I feel about you forcing me to move on? Have you ever asked me how I might feel about seeing the girl I'm in love with going out with some other guy? I don't give a fuck whose business it is, just because your okay with seeing me out with someone else doesn't mean I have to be okay with it."

She looked down and I shook my head grabbing her chin and tilting her head up.

"No, keep that fire. Don't stand here and act like I'm the only person fucking shit up. You're just as wrong as I am and you know it. Your scared to take a risk and be with me without even giving me a chance to prove myself. If I'm not mistaken, that's not very mature of you," I let go of her chin and smiled. "Let that sit yeah? Next time you want to snap on me because I'm reasonably angry, make sure the shit your spitting doesn't apply to you also."

I turned around and grabbed the baby bag that was sat on the bed. "I'll take my kids, you have fun on your date though."

I picked up my babies after slinging the strap over my shoulder. Looking at Jasmine I raised a brow. "Oh and, don't lead him on yeah? That'd be super immature and I know you're far from that."

Without another word, I walked out of her room and out of her house.

Not often is Jasmine left speechless.