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"Ughh all you two do if fuck and make out." Quincy groaned walking into the kitchen causing me to pull away from Vanessa.

"I know you not talking," I scoffed as Vanessa wrapped her arms around my neck. "You and Jimmie are always fucking."

"Well, Jimmie is actually my boyfriend sooo." He stuck his tongue out at me causing Vanessa to chuckle.

"He's not wrong."

"Hush," I smacked her thigh and backed away from the counter she was sat on. "I can't date you when Quincy and I are secretly together Nessa."

Vanessa nodded and frowned. "Yeah, the chemistry you two have is untouchable."

Quincy turned towards me and pecked my cheek causing me to smile widely. "Love you Quinchilla."

"I know."

Vanessa chuckled and pulled me back towards her. My back leaned against the counter as she rested her chin on my shoulder.

"Oh, I never asked how your date was."

I smiled thinking about the time we had.

It was fucking awesome.

Vanessa wrapped her arms around my waist and I reached down grabbing her hands.

Imagine putting a ring on-

Woah.

I can't even make up my mind and I'm talking about marriage?

Chill Y/n.

I jumped as Vanessa blew in my ear. "Huh?"

"Quincy asked you something."

I frowned at Quincy as he shook his head smirking.

I swear I think this dude can read my mind.

"I said why didn't you ask her to be your girlfriend the other night?"

I scoffed. "Ohhh you petty bitch, I already told you why."

"Wow, you told him but not the girl who's actually waiting for you to make her yours?"

Honestly? I'm sooo ready to be with her but of course, I'm still hung up on Jasmine.

Why?

I have no clue since she doesn't even want to be with me but...but you know what? Maybe it's time to just say fuck her and be happy with someone who actually wants me.

I love- I'm in love with Vanessa so it's not like I'd be using her to move on.

And it kind of feels like I'm in a story meant for me and her but the author of the story didn't plan before writing so now it's just a big mess. If that were true I feel like the story would be seventy chapters in and everyone would be like, "where the fuck is Y/n's relationship with Vanessa?"

But that was just a thought and if it were real I just broke the shit out of the fourth wall.

I leaned my head back onto Vanessa's shoulder and smiled glancing at her lips. "Of course I told him before you but only because he's my bitch."

Vanessa rolled her eyes and placed her hand on my neck. "You fucking up Y/n, you could have two bitches."

I scoffed. "You're literally choking me right now and I'm not doing shit about it, if anything I'd be your bitch."

She hummed and leaned down. "Don't you forget it."

"Yes ma'am." I chuckled and leaned up meeting her lips.

See this is the shit I'm talking about. I love this girl yet here I am letting her slip through my fingers because I can't decide between a girl who wants me and a girl who doesn't want me.

I'm a dumbass for waiting this long.

I placed my hand on the back of Vanessa's head going to deepen the kiss but, of course I get cockblocked by Quinbitch.

An apple hit Y/n Jr causing me to whimper and slowly slide out of Vanessa's grip to the ground.

"Ohhh I hate you."

Vanessa laughed and hopped off the counter rubbing my back.

Quincy shrugged and smiled softly. "That interaction you two just had was gay as hell and I'm a homophobe so not in my house."

I flipped him off as he headed upstairs. I collapsed onto my stomach as the pain started to subside. Vanessa sat next to me and shook her head as I faced her.

"Awww you shed a tear," she wiped my cheek. "You okay?"

I pouted. "Nope," rolling onto my back I hummed. "Wanna make me feel better?"

She smiled and rolled her eyes. "Yup your okay."

I chuckled and groaned. "He's a bitch." She hummed and looked away from me. "You okay?"

She smiled, a fake smile might I add, and nodded. "Of course."

I sighed and sat up on my hands coming face to face with her. "You already know your smile is my favorite thing in the world so, did you really think you could slide with that phony ass smile?"

She bit her lip. "Look Y/n I get it, your in love with Jasmine and you're not sure if you should be with me, trust me I do because I was on the same boat as you a while ago," she sighed. "So let me say one thing, I don't think Jasmine is bad for you but, if she can't make up her mind why should you waste your time hung up on her?"

Okay so everyone's just a mind reader today.

"I pushed Sum- someone, away before because I was hung up on someone not good for me. Your relationship is nothing like mines was with...that guy but, it's kind of similar. You're slowly pushing me away without even realizing it because you can't get over someone else."

"Nessa-"

"No listen," she grabbed my hand and met my eyes. "I am soo fucking in love with you and it sucks because it's starting to look like I'll never be with you. Jasmine's good for you but, she's not good for herself?"

"Yeah but-"

"No buts." I smiled softly and nodded for her to continue.

I completely agree with everything she's saying and I feel like it's time to...to move on from Jasmine.

It sucks to say that but I'm not making anything better by being so hung up on her and I'd be dammed if I lost this fucking Goddess.

I'm ready to be with Vanessa.

"I don't want to keep talking and sound like some lovesick bitch but...dammit Y/n I am a lovesick bitch for you and if I have to tell you this every day I will. I want you, I'm a hundred percent sure about it and even though I love Jasmine to death she doesn't know what she wants so forget about her."

"Done."

"No Y/n listen- huh?"

I nodded and cupped her cheeks. "I still love her so it'll take time to get over her but, if your willing to work with me and be a team then I know I can do it. I just wanted to wait until I was completely over her because I didn't want problems to arise."

She bit her lip trying to hold back a smile. "You're in love with me?"

"Hell yeah."

"Then I'll take the risk Y/n, I trust you and the day I lose that trust will be the day we call the relationship quits but right now, I want you and you want me so, let's be a team."

Shit, she's perfect.

"Let's." I leaned closer as my heart raced but, she leaned back? "What?"

"We're talking about trust and being a team so I have to tell you something."

I frowned and gasped leaning back. "You already fucking cheated Nessa?"

She chuckled. "Hush this is serious."

"Sorry continue so I can kiss you."

She blushed and rolled her eyes. "Okay, I was hesitant about telling you this but I don't want to keep a secret I guess you could call it. Summer and I had a thing before I met David, we were um in love with each other but I pushed her away because I was kind of brainwashed I guess. She's still in love with me, I know that, and I have feelings for her I will admit, are they as strong as my feeling for you? No but, they are pretty strong."

I nodded slowly. "So a guaranteed threesome?"

"Y/nnnn." She groaned.

"Sorry sorry," I sighed. "You sure you want to do this Nessa? You have feelings for someone else and so do I, things might get complicated."

"Like I said I'm willing to take the risk as long as you are," she shrugged. "Risk are apart of life and you're always taking a risk no matter who you're getting into a relationship with so, why wait for the obvious risk to be over when we can be together now and fight those risk together?"

"Your right," I nodded. "I just don't want you to get hurt because-"

She rolled her eyes. "Y/n are you willing to take a risk with me?"

"Yeah but-"

"Then shut up and be with me, I won't promise I'll never hurt you just like you can't promise you'll never hurt me because there are a million and one ways to hurt someone but, I can promise you that I will give you every ounce of love I have as long as you promise to do the same."

Can I do that while I still have feelings for Jasmine?

She smiled softly and leaned closer causing my heart to skip a beat.

Hell yeah I can.

"Okay, let's do this mama."

She smiled and nodded. "Now, kiss me."

I chuckled as we both leaned in sealing our lips. The kiss was so fucking soft that it left me craving for more while simultaneously fulfilling me if that makes sense.

She leaned back slightly and bit her lip as she caressed my cheek. "Are you going to ask me now?"

I chuckled and laid my head on her shoulder. "Nope, I have to make it special."

She groaned. "But I want to call you mines nowwww."

I pecked her neck.

"Dumbass I already am yours."

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"Okay, so I got most of the plans situated, um the baby shower will be next Friday if you want we can do a gender reveal since we're the only ones that know we're having twins, and anything else?" Jasmine looked at me after putting her notebook down.

I glanced at the notebook and hummed. "Will there be party games?"

"Of course, you can't have a baby shower without games." She closed her eyes and leaned back onto the couch.

I frowned and rubbed her stomach. "You good?"

She smiled weakly and nodded. "Yeah their just kicking my ass, literally."

I chuckled and leaned down. "Guyssss please be nice to mommy okay?" I leaned back and shrugged. "That probably didn't do anything but it was worth a shot right?"

She chuckled and nodded. "Sure Dino."

I smiled and shrugged. "Well I think we're ready for this baby shower, we just have to invite people."

She nodded. "Man I can't wait to see my mom, having a baby without her would suck."

I nodded slowly. "Trust me I know."

Her eyes snapped open and she frowned. "Hey I'm-"

I smiled. "Don't worry Jazzy, I'm better."

"You sure?"

"Yeah, it still hurts but, I can handle it."

She patted my hand before groaning and gripping her stomach.

I tensed. "Hey, you sure your good ba- Jazzy?"

She chuckled. "Almost slipped up."

I shook my head. "Oh, you caught that?"

She smiled. "You and V are together right?"

I nodded. "Well she's technically not my girlfriend but yeah."

She hummed. "I'm happy you found the right girl."

I scoffed. "Yeah."

She glanced at me and cleared her throat. "Oh! I almost forgot um...help me up."

I quickly stood and grabbed her hand pulling her up. She placed her hand on my chest and nodded.

"Um okay, follow me." She started out of the living room and up the stairs.

I frowned. "Can I just carry you up-"

"Nooooooo for the millionth time." She gripped the railing as she continued.

I walked close behind her. "You should just sleep downstairs or get one of those chair lifts-"

"Y/n I will kick you in the tonsils if you don't shut up."

I smacked my lips. "Excuse me for worrying."

We made it to the top and she threw a smile over her shoulder. "Thank you for worrying Y/n."

I nodded as we started down the hall. "Hey maybe when you have the babies I should move in for a while or you move in with me?"

She shrugged. "I'm pretty sure we'd be cool alone Dino."

"Yeah but-"

She chuckled and placed her hand on the doorknob to her guest room. "You don't have to move in just stay for however long you want."

I nodded as she opened the door. "Alright, that's fine."

We walked into the empty room and she turned to me smiling.

"Well?"

Shit. Was I missing something?

I really don't want her to yell at me because pregnant Jasmine is mean and scary and if she yells...I might cry.

There were paint cans, rollers, brushes, and pans in the corner.

Are we painting...something?

"Wow!" I laughed. "This is great Jazzy!"

She dropped her arms and raised a brow. "You don't even know what's special about this room."

"Y-Yeah I have no clue what's going on."

She smiled and rolled her eyes. "This is going to be our baby's room."

My eyes widened as I facepalmed. "Duhhh," I chuckled shaking my head. "I hope you didn't move the furniture."

She quickly shook her head. "Of course not, Eric helped- well he moved everything because he didn't want me to."

Hmm.

"Oh that was nice of him," I looked around. "You two have been closer, potential boyfriend?"

She shrugged. "Not sure, it's a lot of...things stopping me from catching feelings. Plus if my own problems stopped me from being with someone I'm in love with what makes you think I'd be with someone I don't even have feelings for?"

"Right well, I think you should give him a try, you know to work on your problems."

Fuck that was almost impossible to say.

"I don't want to use him."

I shrugged. "It's not using him if you fall in love."

She looked over and stared at me for a second. "You're really in love with V huh?"

"What makes you say that?"

"You're pushing me towards someone else when I know you have feelings for me."

"Yeah well, for one I want you to be happy and if it takes you being with someone else so be it and also, I need to start focusing on myself, my career, my feeling and I think it's time for us both to move on."

She sighed and looked down. "I'm sorry I have so many issues."

I smiled softly and walked towards her wrapping my arms around her waist. "Don't apologize Jazzy."

She wrapped her arms around my neck and pulled me into a hug- well sort of since her belly was keeping us a good four inches away from each other.

"It's good to see your starting to mature."

"Ew, I'm getting old huh?"

"Hush your still a baby."

"Yeah yeah," I pulled away and walked towards the paint cans. "So what are we painting huh?"

She hummed walking up to me. "Let's be unique yeah?"

I nodded pulling out my keys and went to open the blue paint can before Jasmine stopped me.

She held out her hand and I sighed handing her my keys.

"It's funny how I didn't even have to say anything."

I smacked my lips as she effortlessly popped open the can and grabbed a paint roller handing it to me. "Stop belittling me Jasmine."

"Stop acting like a kid Y/n."

I scoffed and poured the paint into a pan before dipping my brush in. "You just called me mature, make up your mind goofy."

She crossed her arms. "I said starting to mature, pay attention goofy."

I pursued my lips and looked at her. "Oh, so that's what we doing?"

She smirked and shrugged. "You started it, don't start a fire if you don't want no smoke."

I laughed and shook my head picking up the roller. "I won't lie that was a nice comeback."

She popped her imaginary collar. "Duh."

I hummed and walked up to her. "Too bad it was directed at me."

I ran the roller down her cheek causing her to gasp and jump away. "Y/n!"

I laughed. "You look like a s-smurf."

She crossed her arms and tried to hold back a smile. "Oh really?"

I nodded and wiped away a fake tear. "Yeah, b-because your so short and you have blue-"

"Oh wow I didn't know what you meant but now I do because you explained it thanks."

I rolled my eyes. "Well, you cut me off so I didn't get to finish explaining."

She bit her lip and walked closer to me. She glanced down and I followed her line of sight but it was too late.

She quickly grabbed a small brush and dipped it into the paint before lunging at me.

My eyes widened and I screamed as I grabbed her wrist. She tried to push my hand away but I quickly grabbed her hand. I started to push the hand with the brush towards her face and she tried to lean away causing me to wrap my arm around her waist.

"N-no!"

The brush touched her nose and I smiled.

"Boop."

She pouted and dropped the brush causing me to let her go.

"I hate you."

"Bullshit."

I looked down at our intertwined fingers and smiled softly before letting go and backing away.

"Man Jazzy you need to work out more, those babies are making you weak."

"Just paint the damn wall."

I chuckled and walked closer to the wall as she grabbed her roller.

Maybe this won't be as bad as I thought.

Maybe everything will be better.

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