"Well, it was great seeing you Travis." Saiyr's mom pulled me into a hug and I sighed.

Mommy used to hug me this tight.

"Good seeing you too." We pulled away and I walked into the living room as Saiyr said bye to everyone else.

I bounced my leg as my heart started to speed up. Was it that easy? All I have to do is sleep and I get to see mom one last time?

"Hey, you want a late-night snack before I take you back to your sister?" I shook out of my thoughts and looked at Saiyr who raised a brow.

"Of course I do but first I have to go to the bathroom."

I jumped up and she chuckled as I ran towards the bathroom. "Hurry up."

I shut the door behind me and looked at the cabinet. I know she has some pills in here since she gave one to her brother. I hummed and walked up to the cabinet pulling it open.

If these pills are so illegal why does Saiyr just keep them out in the open?

Maybe she's in the mafia.

I gasped as I found three bottles and grabbed them hearing the pills rattle.

Hmmm okay, Tylenol cold relief, no he said these aren't pills for a cold. Advil cold relief, ughhhh no. I sat both bottles down and read the last one.

"I-bu-pro-fen?"

The hell?

My eyes widened. "Pain reliever!" I quickly covered my mouth hoping Saiyr didn't hear. After a few seconds I nodded and turned the cap.

Click.

What?

I turned it again.

Click.

Ugh, looking at the lid I read the barely visible words.

Push and turn.

Bet!

I pushed the lid down and turned it causing the lid to come off.

Finally-

I groaned looking at the seal. "They doing way too much." I mumbled as I used my nail to poke a hole through the seal and rip it off.

Okay, how many do I take?

Well, he only took one from what I saw so...

I nodded and shook a pull out slowly trying to be as quiet as possible. One landed in my hand and I closed my eyes throwing the pill into my mouth and swallowing it.

Ew should've used water.

I kept my eyes closed and waited for something to happen...

...

I smacked my lips and opened my eyes. "Cheap ass pills."

I looked down at the bottle and shrugged throwing my head back and pouring all of the pills into my mouth. I quickly turned on the water and gulped it down along with the pills.

"Yuck," I shook my head and sat on the ground leaning back against the sink. "Now we wait and then we can see mommy."

I smiled and closed my eyes feeling excited. I was so excited that my heartbeat started to slow...wait I thought your heart was supposed to speed up when you were happy.

I let out a deep breath and opened my eyes inhaling deeply. I held my hand up to my mouth because it felt like someone was holding a rag over it.

I inhaled and exhaled quicker reaching for the bottle. I looked at the label and frowned.

Eat before taking a pill.

Ohhh, I probably should've at my food since all I had today were chips. Maybe it's not too late to eat something?

I stood and instantly regretted it as everything went blurry and the floor...started to get higher?

I felt a sharp pain run through my head and I tried to look around the now unrecognizable room.

Is this a good thing? I didn't even sleep yet.

I squinted as I heard a distant voice.

"Travis!?"

Mom?

"Travis hey look at..."

Mom are you really there?

I shut my eyes once more and everything went dark.

I hate the dark.

"Travis stay with me...you'll be fine...dammit..."

Okay, I don't want to sleep anymore can someone please wake me up?

"Travis? Hey Travis?"

W-who?

"Travis!"

I gasped and shot up instantly shutting my eyes again as bright lights surrounded me.

I felt someone grab my hand and I looked down at the hand holding mines. Slowly running my eyes up the hand attached to the person my eyes widened as I met their face.

"Mom?"

"Trav?"

I laughed and lunges into her wrapping my arms around her waist. "I did it mom I'm here!"

I felt her place a hand on the back of my head as tears started to pool inside my eyes. I looked up at her as she smiled softly down at me and lowered to her knees.

"You weren't supposed to take those pills baby." She cupped my cheeks.

I frowned. "B-but I'm here with you now."

She sighed and kissed my forehead before wiping away a tear. "Thank you for wanting to see me but, this is a very bad thing."

"How?"

"Hmmm, this isn't a place for kids Trav, even though there is a lot here they shouldn't be and neither should you."

"But why?"

"Because you're leaving everyone else behind."

"I'm not though I'm just sleeping."

She chuckled. "I love you so much."

"I love you more mommy." I gasped remembering that I have to apologize. "And I'm sorry for-"

"Shhhh like your sister said, what happened wasn't your fault."

"You heard that?"

She nodded. "Y/n wasn't lying when she said I'll always be with you."

"E-even when I'm naked?"

"Wow I missed you," she shook her head chuckling. "Don't worry I only...show when you call."

"So why don't you reply?"

"It's not that-"

Everything went dark and I looked around frowning. "Mom?!"

"Clear!"

I blinked and my mom was back in front of me looking happy. "Good."

"Good? What's going on mom?"

"You're leaving this place."

"No! I just got here I'm not ready to go-"

"Listen to me okay?" She sighed. "I'm fine, I'm happy Travis and I know it's hard for you to be down there without me but your strong right?"

My eyes began to water again. "Yeah."

"Then stay strong for me and your sister. I know you don't want to go but you have to because you have a life to live and people to make smile."

"But I'm just sleeping right?"

She faded as a voice sounded again.

"Turn it up, that's the max?"

"Yeah that's the max."

"Clear!"

"Travis." I shook my head seeing my mom again.

"What's happening?"

"You're going back to your family baby, I don't have a lot of time so let me say this. You can make it without me because you have so many people that love you. What happened to me wasn't your fault at all you have to know that but, if you need to hear it I forgive you. Now go back out there and be happy but not because of Y/n or Quincy or anyone else, be happy because your enjoying life and don't let the pain hold you back."

She started to fade and I shook my head. "Mommy..."

"I'll see you again in the far far far future so until then, remember I'll still always be here whenever you need me, you might not hear me but I'll be there," she rushed out. "Go back to being that happy Travis and don't suffer from sadness because I'm okay I promise. Make sure your sister knows I love her and, I love you baby."

I love you more mom.

I gasped and my eyes shot open as I panted looking around.

"Hey hey calm down your okay." I looked over and made eye contact with Y/n. "You need water?"

I'm back and I guess that's good.

I shook my head and quickly threw my arms around her neck. She sighed and squeezed me before pecking my head.

"What the hell were you thinking?" Her voice cracked as she leaned back. "Why'd you do that Travis?"

I looked down. "W-well I talked to Timmie and he said pills helped him go to another place like heaven or something like that and then you said sleeping would help me see mom so..."

She clenched her jaw looking mad.

"I-I'm sorry Y/n I thought I'd just sleep and-"

"I'm not mad at you Trav you didn't know any better," she shook her head. "Listen I um..." she rolled her wet eyes and looked down. "I got mad at Saiyr and Jasmine had to slap some sense into me literally," she chuckled. "I've been selfish for a long time, with other people's emotions, with my so-called relationships, with your feelings most importantly. I left you after you went through something so traumatic and I'm sorry."

She sniffed and grabbed my hand looking up. "I just need you to know that you don't have to be happy all the time and that you can talk to me about anything. Whether it's how your feeling or about why your body is changing- I don't care just know I'll always be right here okay?"

I nodded and reached over wiping her cheek. "Stop crying sis."

She chuckled and wiped her face. "I thought I lost you bud."

"I'm sorry for scaring you."

She shook her head. "Don't worry about it just, never do it again okay?" I nodded. "Man I told you mom is always here you didn't believe me?"

No.

"Kind of I just, I just needed to be sure but, she told me she's always here so now I believe you."

Y/n frowned. "She did?"

I nodded smiling softly. "Yeah, I saw her sis and she was sooo pretty with all white and I got to hug her."

She smiled softly and looked up. "Lucky you."

"Right but um, she said make sure you know that she loves you." She shut her eyes still holding the smile on her face. "And she also told me a lot like-"

"No," she shook her head. "Keep that a secret between you and mom okay?"

I smirked and "zipped" my lips throwing away the key. "Okay I will- ow." My head thumped and I grabbed it feeling something covering it.

Y/n moved my hand and nodded. "Yeah, you fell and bust your shit."

"Oof it hurts."

She quickly stood and walked towards the door. "I'll go get the doctor."

"Wait."

She turned back around and raised a brow. "Yeah?"

"I wasn't happy and I'm sorry for not telling you but, I am now that I know mom is really okay."

She smiled softly. "That's all that matters just, don't hide your feelings from me anymore yeah?"

"Of course."

"I'll be back and I'll send the guys in to see you."

I nodded and looked down at my hands as she walked out.

She's okay so, I'm okay too.

"I love you mommy." I looked around knowing she wouldn't reply but that was okay because she heard it.

"Travis!" My head snapped to the door as Quincy wiped his eyes.

"Hey-"

He charged at me and Jasmine walked in behind him, her eyes widening. "Careful Quincy!"

Ouch.

-

"Hey Saiyr um, I need to apologize for yelling at you and getting all pissed off when you were only trying to help."

She quickly shook her head and pulled me into a hug. "Hey don't worry about it, you were panicking and I would've reacted the same way if that happened to my brother under somebody's watch."

"Yeah but, thank you for getting to him in time."

"Of course," we pulled away. "How is he?"

I nodded. "He's okay the um doctors said they want to keep him for at least a week because he still has the drugs in his system and that could lead to complications."

"Well, at least he's okay."

I grimaced. "Yeah but, I don't think I'll be able to finish tour because I can't leave him and I know this is an inconvenience but-"

"Y/n don't worry," she shrugged. "That's why you always have a backup. You'll still be getting paid your full amount because you sold tickets and I know the fans will understand. It was a great two months with you and I honestly had a good time." I smiled softly as she continued. "Just promise me something?"

"Anything."

"I'll be the first person you invite on tour when it's your turn to travel the world."

I chuckled and pulled her into one more hug. "Promise as long as we're not at war," we chuckled. "I'll see you again before you leave Oklahoma right?"

"Of course."

"Good because I have to talk to Timmie."

Who the hell talks about popping pills with a nine-year-old?

"What'd he- know what I don't want to know, I'm not a good liar and I don't want to rat you out if the police question me."

I chuckled. "Haha anyways, Travis is up and I think you should go say bye before you go."

She nodded and patted my arm before walking past me. "That was my next stop, I'll see you later okay?"

"Bye."

I sighed and ran my hand through my hair before shaking my head and looking up at the ceiling.

He saw mom? That's shits crazy I was just trying to make him feel better I didn't know...she was actually watching.

My eyes widened. "H-hey mom um, I love you too but, if your actually watching could you close your eyes when I'm naked, or when a female is in the room with me and she's naked...or when Quincy is naked because you don't need to see that-"

I heard someone chuckle and quickly turned around meeting Summer's eyes.

"I just wanted to check on you and now I kind of wish I let Jasmine come check."

I chuckled and scratched the back of my neck as my cheeks warmed. "Sheesh."

She smiled walking closer to me. "You okay?"

I nodded. "Yeah um, thank you for keeping me level headed when I was panicking."

"Anytime Y/n I'm glad your both okay." I smiled and bit my lip looking down as we stood in awkward silence.

Maybe I should say some-

She cleared her throat. "Hey I was wondering if later on when everything is clam when could have a heart to heart?"

"What do you mean?"

"You know just talk about everything that went down between us."

I frowned. "Is there really anything to talk about?"

She shrugged. "Yes actually, I just need to clear some things up you know, but later."

I shrugged and chuckled. "Sure we can have a heart to heart Winter."

She nodded and smiled looking down. "Thanks for giving me the time Thuggy Y/n, I know your busy with thugging or whatever."

I chuckled and pushed her shoulder as we started back to Travis's room.

"Shut up."

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