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I groaned as I headed into the kitchen with a big smile on my face.

"Look who finally left their cocoon," Quincy smiled at me as I sat on the stool next to Travis and ruffled his hair. "You finished your list?"

I nodded. "Fucking finally, I almost cried like ten times."

Travis smiled up at me with cereal running down his chin. "So you finished and we can go on tour now?!" Travis shoveled a bunch of cereal into his mouth and jumped up. "Okay let me finish packing and we can go, I'm almost done."

He went to run and I grabbed him softly. "We don't leave until next week."

He turned around and frowned. "I have to wait for another week?"

I nodded. "Sadly."

He huffed and tried to cross his arms but he was restricted by the cast. "Looks like we're stuck with Quincy for another week."

I chuckled and helped him back onto the stool as Quincy scoffed. "More like I'm stuck with you two, Jimmie and I can't wait to have the house to ourselves," he sighed dreamily and bit his lip. "Running around naked-"

"Aye," I covered Travis's ears. "Don't talk about-"

"Hey, why don't you invite him over and we all run around naked!" Travis yelled before moving my hands.

Quincy burst into laughter and I shook my head chuckling. "Looks like someone's feeling better."

Travis shrugged. "Yeah because your here."

I stared at him for a minute smiling softly.

Gosh, I love this boy.

"Awwww brother-sister moment." Quincy cooed.

I rolled my eyes. "Yeah yeah."

"So Y/n, who are you bringing with you on tour?" Quincy asked.

I hummed. "I was thinking-" The doorbell rang and I smacked my lips. "I got it."

I stood and headed towards the door pulling it open. "Oh hey Nessa."

She smiled up at me. "Hey."

She went in for a hug and I backed away. "Nah, what's wrong?"

She sighed and dropped her arms. "I was hoping you wouldn't notice."

"Well I did," I nodded inside the house stepping out of her way. "Let's talk."

She walked in and went straight to the kitchen. "Hey guys." I heard her say as I closed the door and followed her.

"Nessa!" Travis jumped up again and pulled her into a hug. "I haven't seen you for three days."

She nodded and rubbed his head. "I know it's been toooooo long."

I smiled at them and cleared my throat. "How about you two chill later while I talk to Nessa?"

Quincy chuckled as Travis looked at him.

"What?" Vanessa asked looking at me who shrugged.

"Vanessa and Y/n..." Quincy started.

"Sitting in the tree..." Travis continued.

"All right." I rolled my eyes and pushed a laughing Vanessa towards the stairs.

"K-I-S-S-I-N-G!" They both yelled as Vanessa and I made it into my room.

"Damn their hilarious." Vanessa shook her head sitting at the foot of my bed next to a sleeping Dog.

"Their not that funny," I chuckled and sat on the other side of Dog. "So what's going on? I probably missed out on a lot."

She shrugged petting Dog. "Not that much."

"Okayyy..."

She sighed. "It's just Summer, she's leaving again." I frowned my eyebrows. "You remember when she left for that modeling gig."

I hummed. "Righttt how could I forget."

The day she dumped me.

She nodded. "Well, she left early the first time for me and the caused her to miss out on a lot of work so she had to rush back."

"And now your alone."

"I'm still not okay being alone Y/n."

"I completely understand," I scooted closer to her and Dog. "Well you know you're always welcomed here."

She looked up at me and smiled softly. "Thank you."

I bit my lip as I began to think. I could bring Jazzy with me on tour but, would it be okay for her to constantly travel and get little sleep for three months straight? I looked at Vanessa who was playing with Dog's ears.

"Hold on for a sec." I stood and grabbed my phone walking out of the room.

I dialed Jasmine's number and nodded to myself. "Easy solution, just call her up."

She picked up on the third ring and groaned.

"Why are you calling me so early?"

I frowned and pulled the phone away looking at the time. "Baby it's three in the afternoon."

She gasped and I heard shuffling. "Shit I'm gonna be late um, what's up?"

I chuckled. "Ok so tour, would you want to come with me?"

I heard her stop and she sighed. "I would love to but, three months for me isn't good plus I have a bunch of doctors appointments and then I'm meeting with this choreographer who wants me to teach classes for as long as I can right now and then whenever I can after we have our baby depending on if your too busy and- I'm sorry Dino I can't."

"Damn girl do your thing I'm proud of you."

She chuckled. "Thank you."

I hummed. "Well don't be late to your interview and don't overwork my damn daughter, also if I have to stop working on anything when our baby gets here so you can go ahead and make your dreams come true I got it."

She hummed. "Look at you being responsible."

I bit my lip. "Is it sexy?"

She laughed. "Bye Y/n."

"Bye Jazzy."

I hung up and smiled walking back into my room. My smile got bigger as I spotted Vanessa playing around with Dog.

"Awww you two are adorable."

Dog snapped his head towards me and barked running up. He jumped up on me and I rubbed his face. "You got more sleep than me you beautiful dog."

Vanessa chuckled and sat up on my bed. "You haven't been sleeping?"

Dog got down and jumped back onto my bed lying his head on Vanessa's lap. "Yeah working on my list for the tour."

"Oh yeah Quincy told me about that, you excited?"

"Hell yeah my first tour," I sat back by her and smiled. "But, speaking of tour, would you like to come with me?"

She looked up at me and hummed. "Was I your first option?"

I grimaced. "No?"

She raised a brow. "Who was your first?"

I chuckled. "Jasmine."

"Oh okay, I thought you asked Quincy first I would've felt some type of way."

I scoffed. "I would never ask Quincy before you."

She nodded. "Why couldn't Jay go?"

"Pregnancy and she has this meeting."

"Well, I would love to go with you I don't have anything else to do since I stopped modeling so-"

"You stopped modeling?"

She looked down. "Yeah I just, I can't have people looking at my body right now."

I nodded. "I thought you were doing better."

She shook her head. "No I am with the whole...yeah I don't get triggered when someone touches me but, I guess...I guess I just feel ugly now."

I stared at her and then nodded slowly. "Rate my looks real quick."

She chuckled looking back up at me. "What?"

"From one to ten."

"A fucking thousands, why?"

I shrugged. "I mean if you think your "ugly" then I must be hideous."

She blushed rolling her eyes. "Whatever."

I gently grabbed her chin and turned her to face me. "Your insanely gorgeous mama and, I know that what happened fucked you up bad but, once you start thinking bad about yourself it becomes reality," I scoffed. "Trust me my insecure ass knows what I'm talking about.

We both chuckled.

"Since it looks like it's back to my turn to help you through something, I'll say this. People will tell you to be happy and smile even when your sad but, that's honestly the worst advice someone could give. It's okay to be sad and think bad thoughts sometimes because your fucking human but, you have to know your limit."

I dropped my hand and grabbed hers as she bit her lip. "So did you turn into a therapist after I punched you or..."

"Hardy har har," I nudged her shoulder. "Seriously though, thinking badly about yourself is one of the best yet worst things you can do. When you start to think bad about yourself you either let that beat you up or you "work" on yourself till your happy with everything. A saying that I love is you can't love anyone else until you love yourself and how will you ever come to love yourself if you can't accept and embrace the things you hate?"

She nodded. "Yeah, yeah I get it."

"Do you?"

She nodded.

"Prove it."

She raised a brow. "How?"

"How do you think?"

She looked down biting her lip and I just watched her. I can't lie, she's one of the most beautiful women I've ever met. For her to doubt her beauty is like Will Smith doubting his acting skills or Rhianna doubting her singing skills.

"I'm beautiful."

I snapped myself out of my thoughts and nodded. "Do you believe that?"

She met my eyes again. "I-I think I do."

"That's a start," I used my free hand to push a strand of hair behind her ear. "Now tell yourself that every day and I'll make sure to tell you too."

She leaned into my hand that was now cupping her cheek. "Your great Y/n."

"I know."

She chuckled. "Your welcome."

We stared into each other's eyes and she cleared her throat yet, she couldn't take her eyes away from mine. "D-do um- when is the t-tour?"

Huh?

"What tour?"

She raised a brow glancing down at my lips. "The tour you invited me to?"

"Oh," I whispered not being able to take my eyes off of her. "Yeah, i-it's next week I think."

She chuckled softly. "You think?"

"I'm sorry your really close."

She bit her lip and leaned closer. "Is this too close too?"

My brain turned to mush as I started to forget what was going on. "What are we talking about?"

She shook her head causing our noses to brush against each others. "And I thought you made me nervous."

"Pfft, you don't make me nervous."

She raised a brow and lifted her hand to my cheek. "Really?"

Shit, my heart...fucking make up your mind heart.

Jasmine or Vanessa?

"Why are you being so bold?"

She got even closer. "I honestly don't know it might be my period."

Hmmm, I said this before and I'll say it again. What's the point of having a sword if I don't get it bloody?

"Are we about to kiss?"

Her smile got bigger and she shrugged. "Vanessa and Y/n, sitting in a tree..."

K-I-S-S-I-N-G.

We both leaned in at the same time and our lips met. This kiss wasn't like the last one we shared a month ago, this one was rushed and full of lust. Our breathing was ragged and I gripped her waist.

Maybe I should pull away, I was just flirting with Jasmine and now I'm making out with another-

She slipped her tongue into my mouth instantly drawing my attention back to her.

Shit.

Our tongues fought against each other's and then...a tongue ran up my cheek.

I jumped back as Dog barked playfully. "Geez, it seems like we're always getting interrupted."

Vanessa chuckled and wiped my cheek. "Yuck."

I smiled softly and shook my head. "I'm sorry."

"For?" She grabbed Dog and rubbed his stomach.

"For kissing you, I don't want to lead you on or confuse you, shit I don't want to confuse myself."

"Jasmine?"

I nodded. "She doesn't wanna be with me but she has feelings for me and...it's a lot."

She shrugged. "Well, thanks for telling me, now I know not to get my hopes up." I looked down and she quickly tipped my head up with hers. "Don't feel bad I know I'm irresistible."

I chuckled. "Look at you being confident."

"I know right, that shit felt good."

"Told you."

She smiled and looked down at Dog. "Wanna watch a movie?"

I chuckled. "Sure mama."

She groaned. "Stop calling me that."

"Why should I?"

"Because..."

I leaned towards her and blew onto her neck. "Does it do things to you?"

She gasped and turned to me. "In front of the dog Y/n?"

I scoffed. "Sorry how rude of me," I covered Dog's ear. "Now," I licked my lips and whispered. "Does it do things to you?"

She chuckled and shoved my head away. "Y/n! And you say you don't want to confuse yourself or lead me on."

I groaned and leaned back. "Right, all I know is that I want Jasmine and I really reallyyyy like you and I can't help but flirt and kiss and touch the both of you and it fucking suckssss."

"That's something your gonna have to handle Y/n, figure out what and who you want, if you pick Jasmine I completely understand because damn that girl is sexy-"

"Right."

She chuckled. "She's funny, nice and she really loves you, plus you're having a baby together but, if you randomly pick me then I'll most likely be here because I'm not really in the mood for anyone else."

I hummed. "Noted."

She nodded. "Now excuse me while I go pee." She gently moved Dog and hopped up running into my bathroom.

Damn, what do I do?

I frowned. "Ewww we were just touching all over each other's faces after touching Dog!"

I heard her gasp. "Y/n if I break out I'm killing you!"