"Okay um, we should-"

"Nope," I cut her off and stood up putting on my shorts and shirt. "No talking lets just do, I'll make you something to eat." I said.

"No, we should definitely talk about what happened last night, and this morning, and- and part of this afternoon um, damn that was amazing," she bit her lip and flopped back into the pillows. "You got wayyyy better."

"Thanks, I had a lot of practice," I smiled as she rolled her eyes and slowly sat back up on her knees. The sheets fell exposing her bare chest.

"I just really think that we- seriously? She pulled the sheet up making me avert my eyes. "I shouldn't have to cover my body up like some insecure virgin."

"Damn, what did virgins do to you?" I asked slowly walking around the bed and up to her.

"Y/n your obviously trying to avoid talking about it," she shivered as I slowly pulled the cover down and kissed up her chest. "And you seducing me isn't going to work."

"I know," I whispered kissing up her jaw. "But it's worth a try right?" I pecked her lips and then pulled her closer sealing our lips completely. My heart actually...smiled. I pulled away slightly and closed my eyes.

"See, I don't know what that was but we need to talk about it." She cupped my cheeks and lifted my head.

I shook my head trying to ignore the feelings she gave me and backed away opening my eyes. "Jazzy, it's gonna be just like the first time we had sex, you wanted to talk afterwards and that talk led to us not talking for a week."

"Okay yeah but, that's because we were young, were adults now," she grabbed my hand.

I shook my head. "I'm not legally an adult I'm only 20, I don't think my mind is ready for this talk."

She scoffed. "What are you so scared of?"

You admitting your feelings for me and then me realizing and admitting my feelings for you causing me to be even more confused because at this point I don't know who wants me or who I want, shit I even think Kehlani has a crush on me.

I really need Quincy.

"Nothing I just don't want to fight," I kissed her hand. "Now what do you want to eat?"

"Stop it and sit down," she pulled me to sit on the bed. "I know you so well which means that I know if we don't talk about it you'll start to over think and eventually distance yourself," she sighed and I became nervous, I know that sigh. "I um, I-"

She's gonna say it and I can't let her say it because I don't know if I'm in love with her. That and I know that later down the road she's either going to end up realizing she doesn't want me or I'll end up fucking everything up and hurting her. I'm not meant to be in a relationship and I'm not meant to fall in love, I get it universe just don't fuck with Jazzy's heart. I can't be the one to hurt her and I honestly don't think I'd be able to take it if she hurt me.

"Pancakes you love my pancakes I'll make pancakes," I rushed out and stood up.

She grabbed my hand pulling me back towards her. "No Y/n I-"

I cut her off again by kissing her and she quickly pushed me back. "Fuck Y/n I'm not going to tell you I'm in love with you or anything I just wanted to say that I don't think this is a good idea."

I relaxed and sat back down. "You weren't going to confess you feelings for me?"

"What feelings?" She frowned.

Craziest shit happened when she said that. My body seemed to sigh in relief but my heart, my damn heart didn't like her response at all.

"Right, you have no feelings for me, great," I stood back up. "I'll make breakfast now."

She groaned. "All this damn standing up you doing is going cause you to get a charlie horse, sit down and keep your ass on this bed." I sighed and sat back down looking at her. "Do you- did you want me to tell you I have feelings for you?"

I shrugged looking down at my hands. "Not really, that'll just make shit more confusing."

She leaned closer to me. "How? I'd be the only one confessing unless...you actually have feelings for me, you don't right?"

She wants me to tell her I do.

"No I don't, I just wouldn't want to fuck up our relationship because of a stupid crush," I looked at her just in time to see her eyes flicker with sadness.

Dammit.

"Right," she cleared her throat. "This was just sex and nothing else."

I nodded. "Exactly."

She bit her lip looking down. "But sex could cause feelings which is why we should stop."

"Yeah, we should stop, no more sex from now on," leaning back on my hands I added. "With each other of course, we can sleep with whoever we want."

She nodded. "Just not each other."

Meeting her eyes I decided to steer away from that topic and scoffed. "We didn't even finish our snacks from last night."

She chuckled. "Sadly, good food went to waste." She looked down at the thin sheet covering her naked body and ran her hand up it.

And were right back to that topic.

I raised a brow. "You hinting at something?"

She shrugged. "Just saying how wasteful you were with the food."

I sat up. "You just said we shouldn't have sex anymore, don't tempt me Jasmine."

She bit her lip and frowned her eyebrows. "Your right I'm sorry it's just, dick too bomb."

I threw my head back laughing as she chuckled. "Well thanks for the compliment." After the laughter died down I sighed and leaned into her. "You definitely want to go again right?"

She looked as if she was having a mental debate and then she closed her eyes and nodded. "Last fucking time Y/n, I'm serious."

I smiled and quickly pulled the sheet away from her body. "Right, last time."

She smiled and pulled me into a kiss causing me to pull her onto my lap. After kissing for awhile she pulled back resting her forehead on mine. "Fuck Y/n."

"No way your not fucking me, nothing enters-"

She nudged my head laughing. "Stop making this harder than it already is."

I smirked. "That kiss made me harder-"

"Oh my Godddd." She smiled.

I laid her onto the bed crawling in between her legs. "Okay no more jokes," I kissed her collarbone. "This last time has to be amazing." She hummed as I kept placing soft kisses on her chest. "Relax, I won't waste food this time."

-

"She followed me back hoe!" Quincy yelled as I walked into the house.

"Oh my Gosh Mia Khalifa followed you?" I asked excitedly.

"What- No dude," he rolled his eyes. "Why was that the first person to pop into your head?"

"Because she followed me today," I chuckled sitting next to him on the couch. "This music thing doesn't work out then I'll be putting my wee wee all over the internet."

He laughed smacking my shoulder. "I fucking love you Y/n," shaking his head he smiled. "Normani followed me."

"Oh, your welcome then," I grabbed the remote kicking my shoes off. "She's really cool and fun to hang with."

"I love how your just casually talking about hanging out with Normani," he said.

"I know right, dream come fucking true," I chuckled turning to Cartoon Network.

"Anyway, how has life been, we haven't had a talk in a while." He propped his feet up on my lap.

"Oh um, would it be too soon to talk about Jasmines love life with you?" I bit my lip glancing at him.

"Um not really, it probably would be vice versa, why?" He asked.

"Let's just say I have a fucked up heart, I pretend I don't still have feelings for Vanessa but I do and earlier today I might have lied about not having feelings for Jasmine and then there's fucking Summer," I rolled my eyes. "I'm confuzzled."

He grabbed the remote muting the tv. "Tell me everything."

I sighed. "Starting with who?"

"Maybe my ex." He shrugged.

I nodded. "You know I used to like Jasmine a long time ago and now I feel like some of those feelings have resurfaced," looking down I continued. "I love her obviously and I know her the best, my heart speeds up when we..." looking at him I stopped myself. Keeping secrets are a no no between me and Quincy but, I really don't think Jasmine would be happy with me for telling Quincy that we had sex for hours yesterday and today.

"When we touch and I get little sparks throughout my body, it feels great honestly," I shrugged.

"Well, Jasmine is a great person in general, she's always there for you and you guys know each other better than anyone, like you said, the only thing is you and Jasmine both have trust issues," he sighed. "I'm definitely part of the reason Jasmine has trust issues but even before we started to date she wouldn't date anyone else."

"Yeah because she was in love with you." I said.

He shook his head."See that's not why, she was just scared. You and Jasmine both have trust issues and you both lie to yourselves too much. You don't even know what's a lie and what's the truth because you lie to yourself all the time. It's going to be okay, I don't have feelings for her, I don't care that Summer left, you always lie and it gets to the point where I can't even help you because you won't get your mind straight."

I frowned letting his words sink in. "Your right, I never realized it but your right," I looked at him. "What do I do?"

"Well first tell me about your feelings for Vanessa." He said.

I sighed as my heart sped up at the sound of her name. I said the first thing that popped into my head. "That damn smile, you know I never got love at first sight because I always thought it was just infatuation at first sight but no, that's what I got the first time I saw her smile. I know I have feelings for her, I know I love her, I'm not sure if I'm in love with her but I definitely love her it's just, she has Doby and she's confusing as hell. It's like, she knows what she wants but she's afraid and I don't know why. I have enough problems as it is but Nessa just makes them worse I guess," I shrugged. "I don't know I just know that my feelings for Vanessa are stronger than my feelings for Jasmine and shit even Summer but, she doesn't want me, I think."

"You think?" He asked.

I shrugged. "I don't know, like I said she's confusing."

He nodded. "You don't have to tell me about Summer. My opinion on what you should do is not go for either one, not yet at least. Vanessa is hiding something that much is clear and she does have feelings for you which is obvious as hell but, the thing she's hiding is holding her back which won't be good for you or her in the end. Now Jasmine seems like the obvious choice right?"

I nodded and he shook his head. "But she's not, if you go to Jasmine you'll be settling for her. You have feelings for her but there not as strong as your feelings for Vanessa. You either fall in love with Jasmine, love her more than you love Vanessa, and I don't mean in the caring way I mean in the I want to spend the rest of my life with you way, or you settle for her and hope your feelings grow stronger over time."

"So, I should steer clear of both of them because Vanessa will just fuck me up and I'd just fuck up Jasmine?" I asked.

"Basically," he chuckled. "I guess now you just play the waiting game."

I nodded. "And what am I waiting for?"

"Your waiting to fall in love with Jasmine or for Vanessa to..." he trailed off. "Fix her shit?"

"Yeah," I mumbled. "I'll just sit back and let everything happen," I scoffed. "You didn't even know if you were gay a few seconds ago why am I taking advice from you?"

He chuckled. "Because everyone gets confused, everyone makes mistakes and maybe if I would've talked to someone about my sexuality I wouldn't have been confused. Sometimes all you need is someone else's opinion in order to make the right choices and be sure about stuff."

I hummed. "Wow, your actually making sense."

He smacked his lips and rolled his eyes. "I always make sense hoe."

I smiled and looked at the tv as he turned up the volume. Jasmine, Vanessa, and Summer...I wonder who's next.

"Maybe Beyoncé will fall in love with me next and then Jay Z will call the Illuminati to kill me, but then Beyoncé will protect me and long story short Blue Ivy is actually my daughter." I looked at the tv.

"What have you been smoking-"

"Oh my God did I tell you about that dream I had in Honolulu about you coming out to me?" I asked excitedly.

"Okay, no but I'm sure you'll tell me." He chuckled shaking his head.

"Damn right so..."

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Everybody was talking about how good the smut was last chapter and it's honestly making me want to write some exotic shit 😂