~published on April 24, 2020~

A/N:

I was rereading "Lion by Heart" from POWER universe books. Ming and Phana are together there and two readers shout: "Ming is for Kit only!" Replied by: "So true!" ... something like that.

I didn't reply.

I didn't even know what to say to nice comments, that's why I rarely reply, I prefer updating—I can't keep a conversation with people.

But for those comments I smirk, like... "Bitch, you don't know me."

PS: the picture on the cover chapter... hmmm....

*

Ming wakes up with rushed breath. He shut his eyes tightly. He can feel it. Wet.

He was having a wet dream.

Been a while since he is not having any wet dream. Why now? Why Phana?

Last night he was having a coffee in Phana's room, chat a little more before he left his place. Phana's room is like a hospital—super neat, clean and in all white kind of color.

Ming blinks. He sighs.

Damn. Phana was hot and sexy in the dream. He wished there are some kind of device which he could record his own dream.

He would like to play that over and over again.

Especially when those flustered handsome face moaning his name.

Ming licks his upper lip. Ah. He is still sticky but he got hard again.

Damn.

*

Again in the afternoon, Ming comes with a glass of iced latte for Phana. This time he bought a glass of pinkmilk for Wayo too, but Wayo already has it so he drinks it himself.

Wayo is busy with his senior Moon about the upcoming final performance tomorrow while Ming already got approval from Forth in the monrning, so he has time to sit beside Phana. "Don't you brief your junior Moon for the upcoming final performance?" He asks Phana.

"I tried. He avoids me. But I will drag him after the gathering." Phana says flatly. He is a little annoyed.

Ming chuckles. "Here, to freshen up your mood." He hands the iced latte.

Phana smiles. He folds his book and takes it. "Thank you." He drinks from the straw.

Ming gulps. He remember how those pair of lips sucking his dick in his dream. Seeing it sucking the iced latte gives him dirty mind. He will buy some banana for Phana later during afternoon snack. He want to see....

Phana licks his upper lip where some of the iced latte got into.

Ming gulps again. Fuu...ck. That's sexy.

"Pha! Let's start!" Forth yells from the middle of the auditorium.

Phana gets up.

Ming takes several deep breath to calm his junior down.

*

Later in the afternoon, Ming buys banana and an ice cream cone for Phana.

Phana eats the ice cream first. Some of that vanilla ice cream get into his upper lip. Again, he licks it clean.

Ming watched Phana closely. He unconciously licks his upper lip.

Phana saw that. "If you want ice cream, why did you just buy one?"

Ming gulps. He shakes his head.

"Here, do you want to taste it?" Phana offers.

Ming licks the ice cream while looking into Phana in his eyes. And he licks his upper lip slowly.

Phana blinks.

Just then, Ming can see how Wayo walks towards them but then he changes dirrection after giving a thin smile to Ming.

Ah.

Ming forgot about Wayo!

Ming shut his eyes closed for a good second. When he turns to Phana, he starts earing the banana.

It sends Ming's mind to go wild. But he has to calm down.

He forget why he was here with Phana.

Damn.

He takes a long deep breath. "So, have you give a thought about how a same sex relationship could be?" Ming asks.

Phana chews his banana. "Hm? You still asking about that?"

Ming nods. "It's not for the open debate, I just want to know your opinion."

Phana blinks. He looks at Ming for good enough second before answers. "Love is love. But the same sex relationship has more challenges." He says. "But... if their love is strong enough, they will be able to overcome it."

Ming smiled. "... yeah?"

Phana smiled too. "Yeah."

"Nice to hear it." Ming blinks.

Phana hands the banana.

"Hm?" Ming looks at Phana. "What?"

"Do you want to taste the banana too? It's good." Phana offers.

Ming takes a bite. "Thanks."

Phana smiled. "Hm."

*

Ming sits with Wayo during the gathering. He coughs to clear his throat before asks, "How are you preparing for the final performance tomorrow night?"

"It's great. Everything is settled." Wayo says. "I am going to confess my feeling on the stage."

Ming is stunned. "C-confess?"

Wayo nods firmly. "I choosed the song, prepared my suit. I am going to play the best love song of all time with my piano. A classic. I put all my effort on this. I didn't even care of this could with the competition or not—don't tell my senior Moon tho. But I am going to scream my heart out on the stage." He says with eyes sparked with hope. "How about you?"

"I... am going to perform Muay Thai. With... action movie kind of choreography." Ming says.

"Good for you!"

Ming gulps. "Uhm... Yo...."

"Yes?"

"Phan... I mean, P'Pha doesn't have problem with same sex relationship. For him, love is love. But the same sex relationship has more challenges." Ming says. "But... if the love is strong enough, you will be able to overcome it."

Wayo smiled widely. He taps on Ming's shoulder. "Even better. No... perfect then!"

Ming smiled thinly. "Yeah."

*

"Mingkwan...." Phana walks closer to Ming after the gathering ends. "Do you have plan tonight? Would you have dinner with me?"

Ming blinks. He remembers how Wayo said he is going to confess his feeling and even prepared everything and he can't just....

"Ah, sorry. I... am going to practise my performance." Ming says.

"Ah. Yeah. Sorry... how about tomorrow night then? After the show? Would you like to have dinner with me?" Phana asks again.

Ming pushes himself to smile. He nods.

Phana smiled. "See you tomorrow then. Good luck with your performance." He says.

Ming nods again. "Thank you...."

Phana waves at Ming and then walks leaving.

Ming blinks. What would he do if Wayo got Phana? Can he saw him as his bestfriend's boyfriend?

What should he do??

***

Ming is a little bit frustated before the show.

"Are you okay?" Forth asks him.

Ming nods. "I'm fine, P'."

Forth blinks. He taps on Ming's head. "Hey, Ming... focus. Okay? I don't want P'Kongpob kills you tonight. Everyone is here."

Ming nods. "Krub, P'...."

*

Ming did his performance perfectly. He can deliver it despite of how chaotic his heart and mind are.

He can see how Phana leads the gathering with his perfection too.

And he can see how Wayo's performance touched everyone's heart. He really put his feeling on his play.

Damn. Ming. Be happy for your bestfriend, will you. You know he's a good person and Phana is just perfect for him.

Ming scolds himself.

When waiting for the announcement, Ming sits with Wayo.

"Look." Wayo shows a white gold bracelet to Ming. "I will confess just after the result being announced. I don't think I can beat your performance tho. I think you are going to win the Campus Moon tittle." He says.

Ming smiled. "I wish the best for you, Yo." He says.

Just then Phana is walking towards them.

He stands in front ot Ming and Wayo.

"You are amazing. Good job." He says.

Ming smiled thinly. He looks down while nodding.

Wayo nudges Ming's ribs. He smiled widely to Ming while points at Phana with his eyes.

Ming looks up to Phana again. "Thanks, P'Pha."

Phana flinched a little. What with that sudden back to P'Pha...?

"Pha! They are going to announce the result." Forth calls Phana.

"Ah." Phana nods to Forth and then turns to the juniors Moon in front of him. "See you on the stage."

Ming nods.

Wayo nods while smiling.

When Phana walks away, Wayo pinches Ming on his cheeks.

"Ouch! What was that for?"

Wayo laughs. "You looked too cute. I didn't know you can make that kind of face."

*

Ming stares blankly to Phana who put the Campus Moon ribbon on him. He win the Campus Moon tittle. He should be happy.

But seeing Phana this close and know that after this his bestfriend gonna win his heart, Ming just....

Phana smiled at Ming. "I know you gonna win it. You're perfect." He says.

Ming returns the smile with a sad smile. Well... perfection is Phana.

Wayo was right.

Ming takes a picture with Phana and the Campus Stars. He can see how people cheer for him. He can hear how Kongpob, Forth and the whole Engineering chanting his name.

"Mingkwan! Mingkwan!"

But he can't feel himself winning.

*

"I was right! I always right! You won it!!" Wayo hugs Ming happily behind the stage.

Ming smiled. "Thanks, Yo."

And with the corner of his eyes he can see Phana aproaching. "Ah, goodluck for your confession."

Wayo shows two thumbs up. "Thanks. I will let you know the result."

Ming smiled thinly. "See you around then."

Wayo nods.

Ming walks away even before Phana reaches them. The only way to leave is through the hallway where Phana was coming. So he met Phana on the way. He gives a proper wai for Phana.

Phana blinks. "Eh? Where are you going?"

"I am going to meet P'Kongpob and P'Forth outside." Ming answers.

"How about dinner?" Phana asks.

"Ah." Ming shakes his head. "I don't think we can make it tonight. The boys gonna hang out and I can't miss it. They want to celebrate."

"Owh." Phana blinks. "How about weekend?"

Ming shakes his head. "I got to catch up with SOTUS."

Phana frowns. "Not even weekend?"

Ming shakes his head.

"Can I drop by after SOTUS?" Phana asks again.

"It would be tiring. The second week, we do it all day—since the morning till drop." Ming says.

Phana blinks. "... after SOTUS week then?"

Ming still shakes his head.

"No?"

Ming gulps. "No."

"Ming!!!" Forth yells from the other end of the hallway. "The boys are waiting!"

Ming gives another proper wai for Phana and then walks away, leaving.

*

Before midnight, when Ming still with the boys, Wayo texts him,

"Ming! I did it!!! I have a lover!!! I will treat you lunch as muuuuch as you want! I am soooo happyyy!!!!"

Ming blinks. A set of tears rolls out his eyes.

He wipes it before anyone saw him and then he gulps his booze.

He gonna drink till drop while enjoying the sound of his heart is breaking into pieces inside.

Sounds like a music from the hell.

***

A/N:

If this part is Ming confesing and then he got Phana for himself, the tittle won't be "Smile" and you will see 'The End' at the end of the chapter.