don't fuck with me

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where are you eyes😳😰

can you fucking upload?

fucking giraffe look ass

nah🥺

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sitting alone in my dark bedroom. the time was currently 12:34 pm and i was starting to become more bored by the second. if i stared at the wall for too long, it would start to move and that's when i knew i wasn't doing great. a vibration came from my phone that audrey just posted a picture on instagram and i couldn't help but like it. everyone was so invested in the idea that she's taking a break that they didn't even question that fact that she wasn't even in australia anymore. the photo was uploaded yesterday so it seems my phone must be slowing down much more than i expected it to be. or maybe it's the fact that i just turned it on from shutting it off for a solid 24 hours.

another buzz came telling me she was now live of twitch. i waited a couple minutes to open it because i didn't want to be a first viewer. "what happened?" she read aloud a comment and shrugged her shoulders. "i haven't been feeling super great where my life is at. i wanted to change it a little bit and find myself again." she sat there for a couple minutes and played with her braids. i think that's what they're called. i have no clue about hair stuff. inspecting her hand, i saw the iron band that fit perfectly around her ring finger. "nothing happened between the misfits and i. i'm just a little selfish is all. as far as i know, most of them aren't mad at me."

everything in me was fighting adding a comment on how her friends were feeling, but i deeply wanted to tell her. however, doing it publicly isn't what's right. it's inappropriate. "umm... do i have a boyfriend?" she said and stayed silent for a couple minutes. "yeah. i have multiple. jeez, you guys should know this by now." a small grin grew across her full lips as she spoke "but in all seriousness, i do and he's an amazing, sweet, handsome, weird guy. i'm pretty sure i upset him, but he knows i love him."

everything about her stream just made me more irritated because i knew i couldn't just show up and crash he stream. "is it fitz?" she giggled to herself and shrugged. "i don't know... is it?" i finally committed to commenting something. which the only thing i added was a winky face. he reaction was a quick wink back. how did a simple wink make my whole attitude shift.

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it was currently 8 at night and all i could think about was a nice juicy burger. back in australia i never had the chance to order a real one, but i know a great place back here that has the best ones. ripping open my hotel door, i checked my purse for my wallet and room key. i had everything i needed. as i walk down the dark street, i couldn't help but i keep my posture straight and eyes ahead of me. "you have to be shitting me?" a males voice sounded out on the opposite side of the street. i tensed up and balled my fists. "audrey? is that you?" how come i've only been here one day and someone already knows me? turning to face the man, i saw a face i thought i wouldn't for a long while.

"hey, myles." there was no part of me that wanted to be with him again, but frankly, i know other than the fact that he cheated on his wife, he has a good heart and good intentions. he crossed the empty road and opened his arms as a question for a hug. i obliged and fell into his long arms. "how's it going?" i question. he shrugged and pulled away from me.

"fine. me and the wife are somehow still together." he sighed and rubbed the back of his neck as he stared at the scenery behind me. "but uh... do you wanna go somewhere? just to catch up? as friends." pursing my lips, i nodded my head and checked my phone for the time.

"sure. i was just heading over to the ram. unless you had somewhere else in mind." he shook his and we both began to walk to the restaurant. "you cheated again?"

"nah," he chuckled and messed with his hair. "i'm loyal with her now. i realized how much she meant to me." for some reason it just didn't feel like the truthful answer. "you were the only one." i blushed lightly because of the past thoughts.

he opens the restaurant door and we wait to be escorted to a booth. a woman came walking over and asked how many. "two," i answered. we both sat at the table for a couple minutes in silence.

myles looked up to me and tilted his head. "what's going on with you, miss audrey?" i shake my head with a grin in a way of saying nothing. "don't lie to me."

"ok fine." i knew since i wasn't going to be spending all my time with him, telling him wouldn't be my biggest mistake here. "i moves back to melbourne australia. long story short, i fell in love with this guy. his friends are nice and genuine but telling them me and cameron were together caused a whole outrage in the house for some reason. besides that, many other things have been in the way of my happiness. i came to oregon to get away again."

"i'm shocked."

"me too. i never expected myself to love someone again. after matt i always had doubts about it." when i was with myles, i knew that i liked him. a lot. but i also knew i wasn't in love with him.

"my giant ego and heart has been crushed." he joked and grabbed at his chest.

as time passed, we spent time talking about our lives and how jacked up they are in certain areas. talking about my life made me realize that i haven't had it as bad as i envisioned it. perhaps a month away wasn't what i actually needed. maybe i just needed to tell everyone how i actually felt and how i needed some more love.

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"i want to see her." i confess to swagger as we played on the ps4. "i'm thinking of booking a ticket to oregon." the other guy paused the game and turned around to me. "i'm serious."

"i know you are, and i'm telling you right now, don't fucking do it. cameron, she needed time away from us all. she doesn't want to see us. i've texted her multiple times and she hasn't responded." i knew that the boys were all pissed of and thought she was a bitch, but it was just being perceived wrongly. "i know you don't want to hear it, but your ex is being a bitch."

"she's not my fucking ex, swagger!" i yelled at him with shock. what could even make him think she was? "and don't call her a bitch. she doesn't deserve it now. she's having a rough time."

"and? we all have rough times, fitz! do i go scrambling over to oregon when i feel depressed? no! i stay here and work everything out." i had my fists balled so hard that my knuckles were turning a snowy white. "and she's your ex because she doesn't even wanna talk to you, she doesn't wanna see you, and she most definitely doesn't love you."

"what the fuck do you mean? she does love me!"

"cameron, think about it. her being here spiked up her following and made her whole title become more famous. she's using us all." it didn't make sense. she wasn't like that.

"eric, she didn't want other people knowing we were dating!? how did she want fame from us if she didn't even want our relationship to be public? if she wanted clout, why would she ask you to help her pick out an outfit or to just hang out. if she just wanted more fame, why would she cry over me? why swagger? it doesn't add up."

"i guess you don't see what i see, fitz."

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