I studied cuz I have nothing else to do, then Stella texted me.

I picked her up and we went to the beach, she's so special..we walked together, kissed, talked..had fun basically then we went home...Lana who?

I didn't want to let her go, I swear I feel so disgusting right now I feel like shit!!! I could've kept her for god's sake!!! I could've waited till she graduates.

Why did I break up with her like that?? I'd never have a chance with her again!. I broke her to pieces...but I did it anyways.

I'm still hiring that paparazzi, and he sent me a pic that broke my damn heart

That girl from the restaurant!!! I knew she'd steal her from me!!..who am I to even say that?

I entered the house and saw Juliana staring at me..

"What?" I said

"You really do love her.." she said

"Uh..don't get me started..she let me go..." I almost cried

"Imma help her get you back" she whispered

"What?" I said, i didn't hear her

"Oh nothing..just focus on college okay?"

I nodded and went to my room and slept.

The next day,

I have a lecture today with her, what a fucking disappointment.

I went in the class and closed my eyes as I inhaled her cologne. She saw me..I looked at her as she smiled at me then her smiled faded as she remembered that she doesn't want anything to do with me, wow.

I sat in my seat then shut my eyes trying not to cry. I asked her to go to the bathroom, I went in one of the stalls then sat on the floor and cried so hard..after more than 10 minutes she came..

"Jade Baker come out here!"

She whisper yelled

"No!!! I'm not coming out!"

"You're gonna stay here all day?" She sighed

"As long as it keeps me away from seeing you and trying not to cry in front of everyone while you don't fucking care!!"

"You hate me now for doing the right thing?"

"Oh really? The right thing?? Really?? Breaking my heart?? Lana! You lead me on! You kissed me first!! You said I like you first!! You fucked me first!, And now you want nothing to do with me? Really??"

I came out and tried to pass by her but she pulled me into her, out of habit I laid my head on her shoulder, tried to pull but couldn't, I'm chained to her, it feels good..I feel safe.

"I hate you for leaving me." I sobbed in her shoulder

"Trust me i hate myself ,too..but we just can't!!, and i think you've replaced me already.." she looked away.

"What? Stella?? We didn't even say I love you yet! Lana why can't you understand that I can't live without you??" I pushed her away then went out but came back to her and said one last thing

"If you start to miss me!, remember, I didn't walk away!, YOU let me go!"

She left my embrace which made me feel like my heart was pulled out of its place, Lana why can't you understand that I can't live without you??,

"I can't live without you, too..i can barely breath" I thought

I went back to class and finished the lecture.

Days passed and even months and I'm still trying to get her out of my head, I started seeing her in front of college with that bitch kissing everyday.

I'm trying to distract myself with Stella, but it doesn't seem to work. Today, I went to Starbucks to get me some coffee before I go to college, Stella said she's busy she won't be picking me up.

When I entered Starbucks I saw her there with some girl, she kissed her..god no..please no..I stared at them..and shed a tear, Stella saw me..and gasped as she stared at me.

She came to me and tried to reach my hand

"Don't touch me!!" I yelled.

"Jade!!, listen!" She whispered

"No!! Why did you kiss me?? Why did you say you loved me?? Whyy???!!!" I yelled and everyone was staring at us..I left Starbucks and drove to college, the old mean jade has returned!.

I walked with an angry face..all professors were saying hi to me but I ignored them, Jason tried to Mess with me, he'll regret it!

He pulled my jacket leaving me with my crop top revealing my abs. I turned around and punched him. He grabbed me by my shirt and pinned me to the wall!

"Imma smash your skull!!!" He yelled

"Do ittt!!! Do ittt kill meee i don't wanna live anymore please do it!!" I cried

He just stared at me.

"Do it Jason!! Do it I'm begging you!!"

He was still pinning me to the wall.

All professors surrounded us, including her..she pushed Jason away from me as Megan, my best friend, hugged me.

"Calm down Jade!" She said

"I wanna die.." I cried in her shoulder

"Shhh..don't say that!" She said

I looked at Lana from behind Megan and she was worried. I smiled at her then fainted and slipped out of Megan's arms and fell on the floor which made my head bleed.

"Oh my god, Jade!!" Megan yelled

The last thing I heard was Lana trying to talk to me to see if I can hear her or not.