Today, I was feeling so bad since I woke up, I have no idea why..i stayed in Lana's house , I sat up as she was still sleeping and cried silently..for no goddman reason..sometimes it makes me feel good..

She opened her eyes and saw me, she sat up and hugged me from behind.

"Babygirl?? Are you okay??"

"Yeah I'm fine.."

She turned me and pulled me into her and laid down.

"Shhh..calm down..babygirl..clam down!"

I was still sobbing.. "baby what's wrong?"

"I don't know, I feel so bad right now."

"Is it because of me?" She frowned

"What? No.."

"Babe, you don't have to tell me everything but don't lie to me, okay? Now tell me is it me?" She almost cried

"Lana, id never lie to you...and no it's not you..I promise, I just feel bad...that's it.."

"You wouldn't feel bad out of no where.."

"Baby, it's really nothing..drop it"

"Fine.."

I stopped sobbing and laid back on her chest..

"I don't think we're supposed to be together, Jade.." she said

"What?" I giggled, i literally took it as a joke..

"I'm serious, we need to break up.."

"Wait, are you actually serious??" I looked at her.

"It's for the good of both of us..we're just not meant to be..I want you to have a normal relationship where you can just go out together, announce your relationship, not be afraid to be seen together...I want you to have a normal life..and the same goes for me..and now, please...I want nothing to do with you!" She said

I couldn't believe this, I just couldn't, what the hell?? We've been together for more than a month!

"Lana, I don't want a normal relationship I love you Lana, what do you mean you don't want anything to do with me?? Are you fuckin serious right now???"

"I love you too, I promise!..but we just can't.."

"So I'm not yours anymore?" I sobbed.

"I'm not your babygirl anymore?, Lana is there anyone else??"

"No." She quickly said

"There is!!!" I put my clothes on and left.

I arrived to my sisters' house, got in sobbing and prayed to god they weren't there.

"Jade?? Are you okay?" Ady said

I shook my head

"I mean it's 8 in the morning..." she said as she came closer to me.

"I'm not okay Ady,, I'm not.." I cried

"Jadey what's wrong?" Juliana said as she ran to me from upstairs

"We broke up.." I said shakingly

"What??" Juliana said

"Shhh, babygirl...forget about her, you deserve better.." she hugged me

"I'll never find anyone better than her Jules, I love her, and I'll keep loving her till the day I die!!"

"What did she do to you for you to love her that much Jade?? All she's done to you is pain!!" Juliana yelled as she pulled from the hug

"She changed me...I was mean to everyone else!! And when she showed me what people feel when I'm mean to them, I started stop being mean, even her, I changed her...she was obsessed with me Juliana!! I don't know what happened, I don't know what I did..I just don't know!i don't know if it's me or someone else is taking her away from me, Juliana please..I love her.."

I fell on both of my knees and cried

Jacky went out of her room and gasped when she saw us.

"Jade? What happened??" She came down and held me.

"They broke up.." Ady whispered

Jacky froze and fell on the ground with me.

"Why?" She looked at me.

"She told me she want me to have a normal relationship, I appreciate that she cares about me but I can't find anyone else to love except her.." I looked at the ceiling.

"You know what? I'll act like she never existed" I got up and gave them a fake smile.

They smiled and hugged me.

"Can I go out? I need some fresh air.." I asked Juliana, even though I don't need to ask..because I'm a grown ass woman, but she likes being in charge hehe.

"Yes, of course you can." She said

I went out and got in my car, not the lambo one, there's no need to flex right now..I got in my Mercedes and drove, in the middle of the way, my favorite song came on the radio, I love you by Billie eilish. I sang with it, I remembered her..

I sang till I couldn't sing no more

"You didn't mean to say I love you.." tears started running down my cheeks

"I love you.." i pulled over and cried.

Suddenly someone opens the passenger door and hops in

"Jade?" A familiar voice says

I turned to the voice and saw...Stella..the girl from the restaurant.

"Stella?" I narrowed my eyes wiping my tears

"Come here!" She hugged me.

I cried on her shoulder.

"What's wrong cutie?"

"I..I just broke up with my girlfriend...and I can't stop thinking about her.."

"Hey, I'm here..okay? Don't worry about anything.."

"Thank you."

Our faces were inches apart

"I didn't forget the kiss..it was amazing..and I like you.." she said

I closed my eyes as I kissed her softly and cried, she tasted my tears..

She pulled and our foreheads attached and she stared at my eyes.

"Did you love her that much?" She asked

I nodded slowly

"I'm ready to make you forget all about her...if you gave me a chance." She frowned

I kissed her again and nodded.

She smiled widely.

"Thank you for giving me a chance.." she smiled.

"Wanna go somewhere?" I said as I smiled

"Anywhere you want, baby" she smiled as she said the last word

"Ok." I giggled

I'm very happy she took her chance. We went to a café, drank some coffee.

"Can we get some cheesecake, please?" She begged

"Of course" I laughed

We ate cheesecake and talked for a bit then went to her home. She kissed me before she was gonna get out of the car, I then pulled her arm as she turned to me and kissed her harder.

She smiled and said.

"Bye baby...I'll study a little bit then we can hang out tonight if you want"

"Ok..Bye.." I smiled

She entered her home as she waved at me. I smiled and waved then drove away.

I didn't know where to go, I've always gone to her and get anything I wanna say off my chest, but now I lost her..no!! She lost me!..she'll be looking for me in everyone and I won't be found.