Yesterday after having arrived at Katie's apartment and seeing the drugs I just couldn't relax after that and felt really uncomfortable staying there. Even worst when I had asked her if she was doing drugs before I got there, she had confirmed it and even offered to me. I had to fight the temptation and told her no that I'm clean. She was definitely surprised to hear that coming from me and was curious to know what the hell they had done to me when they took me. Most of us that worked at Alfredo's club were hooked on drugs that I know for sure, so seeing that Katie was still able to get her fix even after Alfredo is gone that didn't surprised

me. It however scared the hell out of me to think what if Lucas finds out. He did told Carter to warn me to stay away from such things. What would happened if he found out that I'm staying in an apartment with another drug addict who is doing drugs right there?

I love Katie, she's a great friend and I would love to and wanted to help her get clean but I'm not sure that is something she wants. Katie maybe a druggie but she was what you could call a conscious drug doer, she wasn't far gone like I was. She could still go for a period of time without getting another fix, while for me I had to get fix almost everyday. I really wanted to asked Katie how the hell she was still able to find a dealer and such but I just thought it'd be best if I didn't know anything much information about it. Sure I was now clean, sure I had gotten rid of my withdrawal symptoms and cravings but that doesn't mean that I won't still get tempted, it doesn't mean that I may not have a momentary relapse at some point. A couple minutes after Katie had brought me to my room and I'd settled in, I decided to left and go look for my mom, that's something I've wanted to do for a long time now. Now that I had the opportunity to do so, I was going to jump at it immediately.

After informing Katie I was leaving, I got a cab and that drove me straight to the nursing home where my mom was residing. Mom was an emotional wreck when she saw me. She was crying tears of Joy now to think of how she was so scared that I may have been hurt when she didn't hear from me in so long and when she was visited by these guys that told her I was with him now and that she wasn't going to see me for a while but I'd be fine as long as I did what I was told. She couldn't rest easy for weeks now. She had been so worried for me and freaking out that the nurses and doctors had to keep monitoring her and trying to keep her calm in case she triggered a heart attack. She thought I was sold to another set of guys into another sex trafficking like before. I told her that I got freed from the drug dealer boss that my stepfather had sold me to. That was the best news mom could've gotten in years, I think she was happier than if she were to be told she had a proper working heart again. Mom always apologized for what has happened to me and felt guilty about the life I had to live all because of her poor excuse of ex-husband. I had to constantly told her it wasn't her fault, she couldn't have known he'd turn out like that. I told her not to worry about it anymore, it was the past now. I was going to try to get a job and I'd get her out of the homes and we could get an apartment together and I'd be able to get her medications there. I spent nearly 6hours there with mom until I had to leave. I was dreading going back to the apartment so I tried stalling as much as possible walking through stores and eye shopping as well as seeing if there was any job vacancies anywhere. After a while I had to board a cab back to the apartment.

Today I was out again seeking a job. The sooner I got a job the sooner o could move out of Katie's apartment before more problems arise. I had fixed my hair in curls falling down my shoulders, gotten dressed in a decent jeans and a grey long sleeve shirt. I did a soft and natural makeup and added a necklace and some earrings. I believe this is the best I've looked in weeks. I needed to look good and decent if I were to go job hunting. So far I had been to three fast food restaurants and still I couldn't be sure I would soon get a job. The all of them had the same thing

to say 'we aren't looking for workers at the moment sorry' and 'You don't have any experience in working at a restaurant'. Katie worked at a 24 hours bar so she had gone to work this morning, she had told me to let her know if I had any luck but so far none. I wasn't done job hunting for today though, I was still going to go other places to see if any help was needed anywhere. I didn't missed working at Lollipop Tease any at all, being there made me felt cheap, disgusting and dirty but at least then I was sure of a small paycheck as well as other provisions made by Alfredo-like paying for the apartment I lived in.

I went to at least four stores and three more restaurants but still nothing was confirmed. I had two persons told me they would get back to me if anything. Since I didn't have a phone at the moment I had gave them Katie's number to contact. I was going to need to get myself a cellphone. When it was four fifty five pm I decided to head back to the apartment. I was exhausted and hungry and down right fed up with this whole job hunting. I spent almost the entire day out and went to several establishment and still no luck. The fact that I didn't have any qualifications or fancy degrees makes this thing a whole lot harder. Even my work experience was a bit low, I couldn't exactly write that I worked at a strip/sex club as a work experience. After taking a cab back home I went straight up to the apartment and collapsed on the couch.

"Hey, how did it go sweetie?" I heard Katie's voice which frightened me.

"Ahh!!' I screamed as I jumped with my hand over me heart. " Katie you scared me, I didn't expect you to be home"

"Sorry, I got off early today. Let Ashley took the rest of my shift. She owes me a favour anyway" Katie said as she came in with a plate with pizza and a glass of coke. "How did the job hunting go?"

"Didn't have much luck" I sighed. "I guess I'll have to go out and try again tomorrow"

"I have an idea" Katie said as she came and sat beside me. "I know you don't particular like the club scene and all after everything but how would you feel about working at the club where I work? I could talk to my boss and see what he could do for you, maybe you could be one of the waitresses or something?"

"Uhm... I guess I'd appreciate that" I said to her. A club would've been the last place I would think to want to work again but right now I was desperately in need of a job. "Thanks Katie, I guess I'd go for it if I got the chance".

"I'll called George later" Katie smiled. "I'm sure he could work something out for you"

"Well I'd be appreciative if he could" I said before snatching the slice of pizza from her plate.

"Hey! That's mine" Katie protested.

"Sorry hun, not anymore I'm starving" I said as I took a bite from the pizza.

"You know I may really reconsider talking to George for you" Katie said glaring at me playfully before getting up. "I'm going to get another slice"

"Just bring the box and another coke" I yelled after her.

"I'm not your maid you know Ams!" Katie yelled back causing me to chuckle.

Moments like this just make me think that maybe living with Katie won't be so bad. As long as I keep strong and stay away from the drugs and as long as Lucas doesn't find out about this then everything should be fine.