After that dinner party back in August, I had distanced myself away from Dele and the 'dream team' as much as I possibly could. I obviously had to talk to them while working but other then that I didn't really talk to them. I did talk to Eric a bit since he and Zoe were seeing each other. As cute as they were together it was kinda annoying. Dele has tried to talk to me on multiple occasions but I always made excuses to get myself out of it.

The whole ruby situation wasn't better either where ever I was she seemed to be. At every match, at every team gathering, at every part she seemed to fucking be there. Tottenham were doing well in the league and were currently above arsenal as I was reminded of everyday.

I couldn't wait for the international break that was in a week. A whole week with out work, a whole week without having to see Dele, sounded like heaven to me.

After getting into work with Mauricio I went straight to the laundry room to get started. As I opened the door my heart almost stopped as I saw Dele.

"You scared the living shit out of me" I said

"Oh I'm sorry I didn't mean to" he said

"What are you doing in here?" I asked

"I wanted to talk to you"

"Dele I really need to start working" i said

"I could help" he said

"Have you ever done laundry before?" I asked

"No" he said

"Spoiled little brat" I joked

"I could learn I'm always up for learning" he said

"Just say what you have to say" I said as I started on the laundry

"Wow Okay, finally" he said

"I've been trying to talk to you for months and you've been avoiding me, I know what happened that night and Ruby was I have to admit being sort of a bitch, you intimidate her, she's jealous of you and that's why she's like that towards you, I'm not trying to defend her in anyway, I know I can't defend what she did, but I'd like to apologise for what she did" he said

"It wasn't enough that she told everyone and made it look like I was a slut but it was that some how conveniently the next day it was on gossip sites Mauricio Pochettino's daughter dating spurs player Harry winks, I don't need anyone going around believing that" I said

"I know it was horrible and I feel so bad, if I hadn't been stupid" he said

"I don't get why she's intimidated by me it's not like you actually like me, it's a unhealthy relationship if you're not allowed to have any female friends" I said

"I am allowed to have female friends it's just she gets jealous because....." he trailed off

"Because What? Why does she want us not being friends?" I asked

"Because she can probably tell that I like you" he said which made me turn around to face him.

"What?" I asked

Before he had time to answer the door was opened and it was Mauricio

"Is everything okay?" He asked looking at me

"Yes I'm just doing some laundry and Dele was just leaving" I said looking back towards the washing machine

"Yes I was, I'll see you" he said before him and Mauricio left.

Why would he say that? Why would he say that he likes me? He probably just meant like friends, he likes me like a friend, right?

I just shrugged it off as I continued doing a bit of laundry. I just had to get trough this week then I'd be off to Paris for a week, back with my friends and away from all of this. I just had to get trough this week, easier said then done.

I was heading towards breakfast and i couldn't believe how stupid I was. I had just told her I liked her. How stupid could I be. I had ruby, I have a girlfriend I can't have feelings for someone else. Why did I decide to talk to her right after having a fight with ruby. I should of know it wouldn't end well, i should of known. After getting my breakfast, I sat down next to the rest of the guys.

"What's wrong with you?" Eric asked

"I did something so stupid" I said

"What did you do now?" Kane asked

"I told Amelia that I like her, why would I do that?"

"What? Why? What did she say?" Winks asked confused

"She was shocked, I don't know why I did it, I apologised for what ruby did back in August and we started talking about ruby didn't want me to have female friends and I told her it was just her ruby didn't want me to be friends with and she asked why and then I said because she can probably tell that I like you"

"I shouldn't of done it, I shouldn't of talked to her at all, she asked me to stay away now look at where we are" I said

"Did she ever give you an explanation to why you should stay away from her?" Eric asked

"No it just came out of nowhere, I felt like it was going well, or she was at least trying to get to know me and opening up, but then ruby happened" I said

"Still don't understand why you're with her" son said

"I love her she's my girlfriend" I said

"There's a difference of loving her and being in love with her" Kane said

"I didn't know you were the love expert" I joked

"Are you in love with Ruby or do you just love her?" Eric asked

I had never thought of it like that.

"Even you just thinking about it for this long just proves that you're not in love with her" winks said

"I do love Ruby" I said

"None of us said that you didn't love her were just saying you're not love with her, if you were you wouldn't feel the way you feel about Amelia, you wouldn't be this desperate for her to like you, I'm sorry to have to say it but it's time to cut her loose" Eric said

"I vote for a change of subject" I said

"That all you do when things get too personal you try to change the subject" Christian said

"How about we talk about the fact that Eric hasn't gotten laid yet" I said just throwing something out there in hopes of changing the subject.

"You guys still haven't had sex?" Winks asked shocked looking at Eric

"Come on that was a low blow" Eric said looking at me and I just laughed a bit while shrugging my shoulders.

"It's none of anyone's business, if I've had sex with Zoe or not" he said

"So you haven't?" Son asked

"No we haven't, I really like her and it's been 4 months every time I feel like it might happen she either comes up with an excuse or she stops it and I don't want to rush her or make her feel pressured into having sex if she doesn't want too, but she left me with blue balls like 20 times and it's getting painful" Eric said which made us all start laughing.

"Have you talked to her? Communication is key" Winks said

"No I don't even know how to bring up such a topic" Eric said

The guys were giving Eric tips on how to talk to Zoe about sex.

I just zoned off and I was lost in my thoughts, was I in love with Ruby? If I had to think about it, wasn't that a sign within itself. Also my feelings for Amelia should of been a clear sign too. Well now Ames knew maybe she'd finally talk to me. I remember she texted me telling me that she wanted space and I didn't really think that meant she wouldn't talk to me for almost 4 months now. She talked to me a handful of times during these 4 months. I was so confused I don't know what had happened was it something I did wrong? I remember telling Eric and he said she had come by Zoe's apartment on that day and she seemed upset.

I was so confused about this whole situation and it sucked because I really like Amelia.

After eating breakfast I was needed in medical. After getting there I was told to massage trippers leg. I was told he had some pain in left thigh.

"How you doing?" I asked as I started massaging his leg

"I'm alright, in a bit of discomfort, how are you?" He asked

"I'm okay I guess" I said shrugging

"Not having a good week?" He asked

"Well I was having a good week until today" I said as I rolled my eyes

"Did anything happen?" He asked

"Yes" I trailed off

"Are you going to tell me or?" He asked

"Can I trust you?" I asked

"Yes of course you can" he said

"Promise not to tell anyone" I said

"I promise, I've kept a secret of yours before" he said

"You have?"

"You and Dele in the closet" he said

"Well funny enough this is also about Dele" I said

"Oh really?"

"So I'm August remember that dinner party where Ruby said she caught me and harry in my room?"

"Yea I remember" he said

"Well she didn't really walk in on me and Harry doing anything, she knew someone was in my bathroom and I said it was harry, but the truth was it wasn't and it was Dele" I said

"Oh"

"Yea, I knew it was wrong, I had kissed a guy who has girlfriend not only once but multiple times" I said

"Multiple times?" He asked

"Yes, but getting back to the story, I asked ruby not to tell but she did and then the next day she wrote to me and we met up" I said

"Oh what happened?" He asked curious

"Well she told me she knew Dele was in the bathroom and she pretty much threatened me, she said she'd make my life a living hell if I ever talked to Dele again, so yea I decided to back off and not talk to him anymore" I said

"What? Have you told Dele about any of this?" He asked

"No and you're not telling him either, I haven't even told Zoe, I know she's my best friend but she'd be so angry and she'd tell Eric and make Eric tell Dele, no it would be a mess, so I'd rather him not know" I said

"Okay so that's why I haven't seen you talk to Dele or any of those guys" he said

"Yes, but today Dele ambushed me in the laundry room and I was shocked and he apologised for what Ruby had done back in August and then from nowhere absolutely nowhere, guess what he says"

"What?"

"That he likes me, why the fuck would he do that after not talking to him for months, why would he do that?" I asked

"Because he likes you?" He said

"But he still has a girlfriend and I'm not going to be some sidehoe, he could play around with and then toss to the side when he wants to go out with his girlfriend" I said

"I don't think he would do that, I think he actually likes you, I think you should talk to him, tell him about ruby, tell him how you feel" he said

"But I don't even know how I feel about him" I said

"Are you sure about that?" He asked

"I do like him I'm not going to deny that but I don't know, they say you lose him the same way you got him" I said

"What does that even mean?"

"Dele cheated on Ruby with me, so if he's so okay with cheating how do I know he wouldn't do the exact same with me?" I asked

"Oh, i don't think he would do that, but I still think you should talk to him" he said

"Maybe I will" I said

"You should just to clear things up" he said

I just nodded, I couldn't believe we just had this whole conversation while massaging his thigh. After being done with him I was left in the medical room all alone thing whether I should talk to Dele or not.

I was in Zoe's apartment and she had yet to come back from class but I made myself feel at home. After have been hanging around for about 20 minuets I could hear Zoe arriving.

"Zo?" I called out

"Yes, Eric is with me" she said as I heard her voice getting closer

I just rolled my eyes, it felt like forever since i was alone with Zoe. I felt like every time I was with Zoe Eric was there and it annoyed me so much I just wanted time alone with Zoe.

"Hey" I said to the both of them as they entered the living room.

"Hey, you okay?" Zoe asked

"Sure, How are you?" I asked

"I'm good and what do you mean by sure?" She asked

"I need to talk to you" I said

"I could leave" Eric said

"No you can stay I'm sure Dele is going to tell you after I talk to him" I said

"So you're finally going to talk to him?" He asked

"Yes, the reason to why I stoped talking to him in general is because the day after the whole me, winks thing happened, I talked to Ruby and she told me that she knew Winks wasn't the one in my bathroom" I said

"Wait So If it wasn't Winks then who was it?" Eric asked

"Dele really hasn't told you? Well it was Dele" I said

"What?" Eric asked

"Yup, but I met up with ruby and she told me she'd make my life a living hell if I didn't stay away from Dele and that's what I fucking did, until today when he fucking tells me he likes me?? Like what the fuck is that?" I said

"I'm so confused" Eric said

"Why didn't you tell me all of this?" Zoe asked angrily

"Because I was scared you'd tell Eric who'd tell Dele, I know I should of told you" I said

"Exactly you should of told me" she said

"Like could we all calm down?" I asked

"What are you gonna do now?" Eric asked

"I need to talk to him, somewhere I won't risk Ruby seeing me" I said

"Invite him here" Zoe said

"Why would I do that?" I asked

"Me and Eric could go to Eric's house and you guys could be here and talk" Zoe said

"Yea I guess we could do that" I said

"I'll text Dele" Eric said

After Eric told me that Dele would be coming here him and Zoe started to leave.

"Please whatever that happens don't have sex on my couch" Zoe said and I just rolled my eyes.

After her and Eric left I spent the next 20-30 minuets just pacing around Zoe's apartment really anxious. Dele didn't know I'd be here he just thought he was coming over to hang out with Zoe and Eric. I didn't understand why he wanted to third wheel but it was what it was, at least he was coming over.

There was knock on the door and I tried to compose myself and just get my shit together before opening the door.

"Ames?" He asked clearly confused

"Hey, Yea it's me, come in" I said as i let him in

"I'm so confused, where's Eric?" He asked

"The reason to why you're here is so we could talk" I said as I sat down on the couch

He just nodded as he sat down next to me.

"I know you've been wondering why I've been avoiding you for 4 months now" I said

"Yes I have"

"I didn't want to tell you this Actually I was told specifically not to tell you why, but your girlfriend Ruby she sort of told me not to talk to you" I said trying to make it not sound too dramatic

"And you just listened to her?" He asked

"It wasn't just stop talking to my boyfriend there were a couple of threats in there" I said

"She threatened you?" He asked

"I don't want to make it sound dramatic" I said

"What did she say?" He asked

"She'd ruin my life but that's not the point" I said

"Why are you only telling me this now?"

"Because you told me that you like me" I said

"So if I wouldn't of told you, you'd keep ignoring me?" He asked

"Probably"

"So does this mean you like me too?" He asked confused

"It's confusing, because I don't know you that well yet I'm so attracted to you" I said

"So what does this mean?" He asked

"I would be willing to see where this could go, but I'm not going to be a side hoe" I said

"So if you are in love with Ruby and want to be with her then I understand that completely, but if you want to see where this could go, then I want to be able to do that with a clean conscious and not go behind someone's back and sneaking around, I think you understand what I'm getting at" I said

"You want me to break up with ruby?"

"If you want to, if you decide to stay with her that means things go back to how they have been, but if you do that means we could explore what ever this is" I said

"I understand"

"I don't want you to make up your mind now, like you need to think about this take your time, cuz just because we'd see what ever this is, it might not work out and that means you would of broken up with someone you love for something that lasted like 2 months" I said

"Yea I'm fully aware of that" he said

"So don't answer now, think about it and if you've made up your mind after the international break then tell me then" I said to him

"What if I have my answer now?"

"No dele think about it, promise me you'll actually think about it" I said

"I promise" he said while giving me a hug

"It feels so nice to have everything out in the open now" I said

"I still can't believe what ruby did" he said

"I was kinda shocked at first too but I guess in some weird messed up fucked up way, she was trying to protect you and herself in the process" I said

"How?"

"She was keeping me away from you and that meant that she wouldn't get 'hurt' if we weren't talking" I said

"I'm so sorry for that" he said

"It isn't your fault....well..." I trailed off

"What do you mean by that?" He asked

"You did cheat on her" I said

Then an awkward silence fell upon us and I regretted saying that.

"I'm glad we got to talk and i got to explain everything, but I need to get going actually" I lied as I got off of the couch

"Yea I should get going too" he awkwardly said

After getting my stuff I walked out with Dele and he offered me a ride home a couple of times but I said to him I'd be getting a taxi home.

After parting ways and waiting for a taxi, I couldn't help to wonder what could possibly happen. Like what if he decided to stay with ruby that would be heartbreaking, but I don't think I would be that surprised. They have been together for so long why would he then chose a girl he barely knows? I had basically set myself up for failure hadn't I...

I should of just listen to Ruby and stay the fuck away from Dele.

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