I woke up and as I took in my surroundings and soon realised that I was in a hotel and not in my own bedroom. Then last nights events started to replay in my head, everything from Dele and I kissing to ruby 'exposing me'. They must of all thought I was a slut, and I felt bad for Winks who got mixed up in all of this. I just knew I wasn't going to go to work today, not after everything that had happened last night. I texted Mauricio telling him that I wasn't coming into work.

I somehow needed to get in touch with Winks just to explain everything to him. The only way I could think of getting winks number is if I'd ask Zoe to ask Eric for me, it was a stretch but I needed to explain. After asking Zoe to ask Eric I went back to sleep or tried at least.

I sat down in the dinning hall next the guys and no one was talking. I could feel the tension in the air, not just between us guys, it was everywhere. After ruby had done what she did last night and Amelia left everyone soon followed.

Harry was getting asked a lot of questions and I knew he was just as confused as the rest of us.

"So we're all gonna just ignore what happened last night or talk about it?" Kane asked

"I vote for ignore" winks said

"Come on, I'm just confused" Son said

"I think we're all confused" Eric said

"Come on if he said he doesn't want to talk about it then let it be" I said to the guys

"You can not tell me that you're not curious, I'm just wondering why? Harry you knew that Dele liked Amelia so why go after her knowing your friend already likes her" Christian asked

Harry didn't say anything he just continued eating, I couldn't let this go on.

"Guys Harry wa-"

"What happened is none of anyone's business, it's not gonna happen again okay end of story So legs just move on" Harry said while giving me look that said 'I've got you'

I just sort of nodded back to him as a thank you.

"Why did ruby have to tell everyone?" Eric asked

"I don't know she's intimidated by Amelia and I guess sabotaging her made her feel better about herself" I said

"Either way it was a real bitchy move" Kane said

"I know, it was and I feel so bad for Amelia she doesn't deserve this" I said

"Have you tried talking to her?" Winks asked

"No" I said

"Wait I'm so confused are you trying to get with her winks or not?" Eric asked

"I am not"

"I'm so confused" Son said

"Can we all drop this conversation?" I asked

And the rest of they guys just nodded agreeing with me.

I was still at the hotel and I had exchanged a few texts with Harry and he was on his way to the hotel to meet me. By this point there was rumours about me and harry flying around, Speculating weather we were dating or not. It all had to be because of ruby I wouldn't be surprised if she was the one to leak all of this. What did she have against me? Okay obviously I kissed her boyfriend but she doesn't know that, right?

I was brought out of my thoughts by a knock on the door and I opened it to see harry.

"Hey come in" I said letting him in

"Wow it's almost 5PM and you're still in pyjamas" he said while laughing

"Oh shut up" I said to him as I lightly pushed him.

"How are you?" He asked

"Not so great, what about you?"

"I'm okay, a bit confused about it all" he said as he sat down.

"That's why I asked if you could come over" I said

"So I'm here now"

"First of all I'm sorry to have dragged you into all of this" I said

"No it's okay, this isn't your fault" he said

"So to understand what happened last night I need to explain what happened on Monday" I said

"When you just disappeared and the starting ignoring us? Yea go on" he said

"Well me and Dele kissed and I know what you're thinking it was just because we were in this closet so close to each other and it just happened okay" I said

"Holy shit, why didn't you tell us? why didn't he tell us?" He asked

"He has a girlfriend and I think that's why" I said

"Okay so what happened last night?" He asked

"So he came into my room out of nowhere while I was in there, then we were talking, we were on my bed and then we started kissing, then there was a knock on the door and to buy me and Dele some time I said I wasn't decent and Dele hid in the toilet. So I let the person in and it was ruby and she was suspicious I could tell and she asked who was in the toilet and I said no one but she was about to enter and i was put on the spot I couldn't say I'm sorry your boyfriend is in there" I said

"Right" he said while nodding

"So I panicked and I said you were in there, you were the first name to come to mind and I said you were getting dressed, so recap before she entered I said I wasn't decent and then I said you were in the toilet getting dressed so if you put two and two together, you figure out what's going on, but I did ask her to not tell anyone and I could just hear it in her voice that it wasn't going happen, so I came and told you to go along with it and I thought she'd come up to us or something like that but she then you saw what she did" I said

"I'm sorry it's a lot, the dele thing and just everything it's a lot to process" he said

"I understand" I said

"Okay first lets just get the ruby situation out of the way, she's a bitch not gonna lie, but she's intimidated by you, she sees the way Dele looks at you and the way you look at him and the smile he gets, she's just intimidated by you and she's trying to show you who's boss and you shouldn't be scared of her" he said

"I look at Dele normally, what do you mean?" I asked

"That's all you heard the way you look at Dele?" He asked frustrated

"No I heard everything else" I said

"Okay so to the Dele thing, you obviously like him and he obviously likes you, so I think you guys really need to have a sit down and just talk and just get everything out there in the open" he said

"He has a girlfriend and I know I'm a slut or a bitch, or whatever you want to call me, for kissing I guy I know has a girlfriend and not even once multiple times. If Dele no longer has feelings for his girlfriend then he should tell her instead of like kissing me or whatever, and if he still loves her and has feelings for her then he should stay with her and he should be honest with her and tell her hey I fucked up and I kissed someone else and the work it out, I really am not trying to be some home wrecker or his side piece" I said

"Have you told Dele this?" He asked

"No" I said

"You need to tell him how you feel, like you need to have this conversation with him and tell him how you feel, because knowing Dele he doesn't express he's feelings too much and you have to pry it out of him" he said

"Yea I should probably talk to him" I said

After talking a bit with Harry he said he had to leave but not before giving me Deles number and telling me to text him.

I took out my phone to see I had a Instagram DM request only to see it was from, Ruby?

Why was she being nice and why would she want to apologise? Isn't this what she wanted? After thinking about it for a while I decided to say yes. After getting a time and place to meet here I looked at the clothes I had packed and tried my best to find something decent. I put on a pair of jeans and a hoodie this would have to do in all honesty. I took the stuff I needed and took a taxi to meet ruby. I was so nervous and anxious, did Dele tell her about the kiss? Or was she actually going to apologise? I guess we had to wait and see.

After arriving I couldn't find ruby, so I just sat down in the cute little cafe and ordered myself an iced coffee.

After about 10 minuets ruby arrived and it was quite awkward as she was seated across from me.

"Sorry for being late, traffic was crazy" she said

"Oh it's alright, you wanna order something?" I asked

"No this is going to be quick" she said in a harsh tone.

I was confused I thought she wanted to apologise why was she being harsh?

"I know it wasn't harry In your toilet last night" she said looking at me with a straight face.

I was so confused, did Dele tell her?

"What?" I asked

"Don't try to act stupid with me, when I came up to your room I had just been downstairs and I had just seen winks downstairs unless there are 2 Harry winks then I'm 110% sure that winks wasn't in your room" she said

"Okay....if you knew he wasn't in my room why did you tell everyone that he was?" I asked

"Because I saw how much you didn't want me telling everyone, I liked seeing you suffer" she said

"Wow I really thought you invited me here to actually apologise" I said as I started to get up

"I know Dele was in your room so if you know what's best for you you're gonna sit down" she said

I contemplated for a second or two if I should leave but I decided against it and sat back down.

"So here's how this is going to go down, so listen and listen good because Im only going to say this once"

She said

"You're going to stay away from Dele, you're not going to talk to him while at work or outside of work, you're only going to talk to him when there's no avoiding him" she said

Who the fuck did she think she was? Bossing me around like this.

"Excuse me? Who are you to tell me who I can and can not speak to?" I said

"If you don't do as your told, I'll make it my mission for the remanding of your time at spurs a living nightmare so if you don't want to deal with me I suggest you do as you're told" she said

"So your saying instead of being angry at your boyfriend who cheated you're taking it out on me?"

"You don't want me as your enemy so do as your told or you'll regret it" she said before getting up

"And don't you dare tell Dele about this little conversation we had" she said right before leaving.

So there I was left in this coffee shop, just been threatened, everyone thought I was dating Harry winks and I had dragged everyone into this mess.

I couldn't help but start tearing up the whole week had just been bad. I wasn't going to cry in a coffee shop so after paying I left and got a taxi to go straight to Zoe's apartment.

I was sat In the back of this taxi with my head in my hands trying my best not to cry.

"Are you alright?" The driver asked

"Not really, Ive had a rough week" I said to him

"This isn't probably what you want to hear, but trust me I'll get better, it always does" he said as he handed me a tissue

"Thank you" I said

After about 20 minuets and making small talk with the taxi driver I had arrived outside Zoe's apartment building.

As I was walking up the stairs I could feel the tears threatening to fall.

After unlocking her front door and walking to the living room, Zoe and Eric were laying there making out.

"Oh my god" was all I could say and the both flew apart

"Sorry didn't hear you come in" Zoe said sitting up

"What's wrong?" She asked after looking at me

"Nothing it can wait till later, I should get going" I said

"Where are you going?" She asked

"Back to the hotel, I'll call you later" I said

"No wait, are you sure you're okay?" She asked looking at me

"Yes I'm all good, I'll call you later" I said giving her a smile

"Okay" she said hesitantly

I knew she could tell something was up but I just said bye to both of them before walking 20 minuets back to my hotel.

After arriving I was so lost I didn't know what to do, I just wanted to disappear.

Maybe it would be for the better? Me staying clear of dele, he did have a girlfriend. A scary one, also a bitch but that doesn't change the fact that he was cheating. I didn't want to be a home wrecker. I looked at the piece of paper that Harry had given me earlier with Dele phone number on it.

I wrote down the number on my phone before texting him.

hey Dele it's Amelia, winks gave me your number

I waited for what felt like forever but was actually jus 5 minuets for him to answer.

hey, how are you doing?

I'm alright thanks, I need to talk to you

yes we do need to talk

I think it would be better if we stayed away from each other

oh okay

I just feel like it would be better for everyone

If that's how you feel then I respect that

so I'll see you around Dele

Yea I'll see you around Ames

I had no idea why that conversation had me feeling like that. I felt so guilty? And sad. I was so confused and conflicted about my feeling.

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