It had been five months, five long, terrible months since Alexander had left him. In those five months, John had passed his lover's desk everyday; Alexander's countless papers strewn across its face and his favorite pen laying, uncapped, waiting for its owner to return and finish the draft he was writing. But, he wasn't coming back. Everything he had started would never be finished, including his life with John.

It took John these five long, terrible months to work up the courage to arrange the papers on Alexander's desk. Alex always hated when people touched his papers or messed with their order, something John had learned quickly, but if he wasn't coming back, what was the harm? He capped his pen and put it in the drawer. He flipped up the top of the desk to sort through the insane amount of papers covered in Alexander's scrawly hand that filled the space. Fighting back tears, tears he didn't even know he still had, he eventually reached the hard oak of the desk, signifying the end of the papers.

John's eyes now burned with tears as he sat on the ground with papers in his lap. He did not bother to wipe them away, his tears had been his tragic companion for the last five months. He let them fall, raining on Alexander's writings; they smeared his words as they flowed down the pages, forming small rivers of ink.

Standing back up, John looked at the inside of Alexander's desk. Something panged his already broken heart as he understood the gravity of the desk's current state of emptiness. As he picked the stacks of sorted papers from the floor and moved to put them back inside the desk, he noticed a small knob off the the side of the desk's cavity. With his empty hand, he tugged the knob and a small drawer revealed itself. He heard the papers in his other hand strike the ground and flow out around him.

Inside the drawer sat a envelop with John's name on it, written in Alexander's best cursive.

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Author's Note

Just a little information...This is a modern AU Lams fan fiction.

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