Niall:

I bit my lip as the words she said floated through the phone. I want so desperately to beg her not to say that, but I also knew that she had every right to say that to me. It wouldn't matter what I said to her over the phone either. I couldn't convince her of anything over the phone. I had fucked up big time and I needed to fix it and I could only fix it in person. "I will fix this, Kiersten. I promise you I will fix this, and we're going to be a family. I'm on my way to the airport right now. I will be there in a few hours. And when I get there I will fix this. We're going to be a family baby. I promise you me, and our baby. I promise you. I love you, babe."

"Bye, Niall," Was all she said before the line went dead. I sighed resting my forehead against the steering wheel as I waited at the stop light. I looked at the seat next to me where the box sat that Kiersten was planning on giving me. Inside the box was a 'World's Best Father' mug, an 'I Love My Daddy' onesie, a tiny little Ireland Jersey that said Horan on the back, a pair of baby Supra's, a baby bottle with four leaf clovers all over it, and a piece of paper that was taped to an avocado that said, Hi daddy! This avocado is about how big I am! Mommy is so excited for you to know about me! She knows you're going to be so happy! Mommy is about four months along which means that in a few weeks you get to find out whether or not I'm a boy or a girl and in about five months you can hold me, daddy! I can't wait to watch football games with you (mommy says it's soccer) and to hear you sing. Will you sing me lullaby's daddy? Mommy says that you have the prettiest voice in the entire world. I'm so lucky to have a daddy like you. Mommy hasn't seen me yet, she wanted to wait for you, but the doctor has seen me and says that I'm really healthy and that I'm perfect! I love you daddy! - Baby Horan. That letter had made me cry when I realized how much of an asshole I had been to a woman who was not only my wife, but also a woman who was carrying my baby.

I pulled into the parking lot at the airport and grabbed the box from the seat next to me before racing inside the busy airport. "I need to be on the next plane to Dublin!" I practically screamed at the girl at the ticket desk while throwing my credit card at her.

She nodded quickly typing on her computer, "Not that it's any of my business," She said as she printed off my boarding pass, "But whatever you did you really screwed up. She was really upset when she came through here earlier."

"I know," I nodded feeling even more ashamed, "I'm going to fix it." I said bouncing up and down with anxiousness.

"Your flight boards in forty-five minutes, Mr. Horan. And good luck, I really hope you fix it. You two are really great together." She said smiling sadly before handing me my boarding pass and credit card.

"Thank you." I said taking the boarding pass and sprinting through the airport. Fans who recognized me tried to stop me and ask for pictures but I shook my head and apologized saying that I was running really late for an important flight. Which was not a lie, it was probably the most important flight of my entire life. If I didn't make that flight to Dublin and fix the giant mess that I had caused my life would be over.

I finally got onto the plane and I just stared out the window the entire flight wishing that I was there and fixing it. I wasn't quite sure how I was going to fix it but I was going to. I knew that for sure. I wouldn't let Kiersten or our baby go. I loved them both too much to ever be able to live without the two of them in my life. I need them.

I climbed into a cab after my plane finally landed at the Dublin airport and I gave the driver the address to my mum's house.

"I just took a lass there early this morning. Don't suppose you know her do ya?" He asked looking at me in the mirror.

"She's my wife." I said flatly. I didn't have time for him to be asking me questions. It wasn't any of his business anyway.

"So I suppose you're the reason she was soaking wet and crying those pretty blue eyes of hers out?" He asked with an edge to his voice.

"Yes and I'm trying to fix it. So, if you could fucking drive that would be great." I snapped. He gave me a look in the mirror but started driving anyway.

We were driving down the block and I could see the house. My heart was pounding as I chucked some random amount of money (way more than he deserved) in the front seat and I was sprinting up the drive to the front door before the vehicle had even come to a full stop. With the box hooked under my arm I started pounding on the door. "Let me in!" I screamed at the top of my lungs as I continued to bang my fist on the door.

The door swung open, "Will you knock it off? She's asleep." Greg snapped, standing in front of me.

"What are you doing here?" I asked pushing my way inside.

"Mum called me." He said with zero emotion in his voice.

"Greg," I started but he interrupted me.

"I don't want to hear it, Niall." He said before walking further into the house and picking Finn up off of the ground where he was playing with his trucks. "You want some breakfast, Finny?" He asked bouncing the now two-year-old boy in his arms.

"Yay! Bekfast!" He cheered making Greg chuckle and my mum come into view kissing Finn's cheek. She made eye contact with me but she just shook her head before disappearing out of my sight once again.

"Mum," I said walking into the kitchen. She didn't say anything she just kept her back to me. "Mum, please." I said my voice cracking a little bit. The fact that even my own mum was upset with me made the whole situation even worse.

She turned around and looked at me, giving me a look I had never seen before and it scared me. "I will always love you, Niall, but I really don't want to look at your right now. I have never been more disappointed in you in my entire life." She said before turning back around to where she was making breakfast.

I sighed running my fingers through my hair trying to keep myself from breaking down right there in the kitchen. "I'm going to fix this, mum. I promise, I will. I need to and I will. I swear. Where is she at?" I asked in a rush.

"She's up in the guestroom, asleep. Do not wake her up." She said in a firm voice, but she still refused to look at me.

"Thank you for everything." I whispered pressing a kiss to her cheek before sprinting up the stairs to the guest room.

I found Kiersten asleep with the down comforter pulled up to her chin. That's how she always slept and it warmed my heart a little bit seeing that she still hadn't changed. I carefully climbed up on the bed next to her, making sure that I didn't wake her up, I didn't want to deal with the wrath of my mother if I did wake her up. Plus I needed a little bit of time to think everything over. I could still see the tracks left over from her tears and my heart broke knowing that I was the cause of those tears. I had never wanted to be the cause of any of her tears. I had promised myself that when we got married I would never be the cause of her tears. I broke that promise big time. I brushed some hair back from her forehead and my fingers brushed her cold skin. Even in her sleep she was shaking and shivering. She was probably going to get sick. I quickly grabbed another blanket setting it on top of her. I knew that she wouldn't mind. She loved having multiple blankets stacked on top of her. She would turn the air conditioner on and crawl underneath ten blankets. When I wasn't home I was almost positive that's how she slept.

"I'm so sorry, baby. I'm so sorry." I whispered running my hand over her head softly, smoothing down her hair. "I'm so sorry, baby, so fucking sorry." I said my eyes starting to water as I looked at her lying there so peacefully.

I sat next to her on the bed for a good hour or so, just letting my fingers softly ghost over her smooth and soft skin. I let my fingers brush over her pink pouted lips and it made her eyes flutter open. "Hey beautiful," I smiled softly. She didn't say anything she just rolled over so her back was facing me. "Baby," I whimpered, "Can we talk? Please?" When I was sitting there and saw that she wasn't just going to run back into my arms like I had actually been hoping she would, I didn't know how I was going to fix it but I would, I had to.

"Do you even understand what you said to me, Niall?" She asked her voice cracking and I knew that she was crying and it made my heartbreak hearing her broken voice.

"I do know, and I regret it so much, Kiersten. None of it was true. You are the perfect wife, and not just because you're pregnant. You are not useless and I know why I am with you. I am with you because you are amazing. You are kind and caring, and funny, sweet, intelligent, clever, stunning, beautiful, wonderful, thoughtful, and so, so, amazing. I am in love with you. I love you so much, baby, so much. And I love this baby, too. I love you both more than you can possibly imagine. I can't live without you Kiersten. I need you. And I know that I fucked up big time, but I hope that you can forgive me somehow because I don't think that I can live without you or this baby, Kiersten. Actually, I know that I can't live without you two." My voice was barely above a whisper and you could hear the desperation in it and I was crying as I reached out to touch her back.

"I just don't understand, Niall. Do you know what you've put me through these past few months? And I don't even understand why! You never did all this before." She said sitting up and looking at me.

I sighed and cautiously grabbed her hand lacing our fingers together. The fact she me hold her hand gave me a little sliver of hope that maybe I really could fix it. "Do you understand how much seeing you in pain hurts me? The pain that I felt from seeing you in pain and having no idea how to help you was so big that I didn't know what else to do. And going out and partying all the time, well it made it so I didn't have to think about the pain. I didn't have to think about much of anything except what shot I was going to get next. I never expected it to spin out of control like it did, and I regret leaving you alone so much, baby. I can't even explain to you how sorry I am, for everything. "

"Can I ask you a question?" She asked softly, after she was quiet for a couple of minutes.

"Of course baby. You can ask me whatever you want about anything and I will happily tell you the whole truth." I said squeezing her hand a little bit.

"Were there any other girls?" She asked quietly.

"No." I fiercely shook my head so fast that I thought I was going to give myself whiplash. "No. None. Never. It was never even a thought that crossed my mind. I would never ever do that to you. I could never do that to you. I don't want anyone but you ever. You know that right?" I asked desperately hoping that she did.

She nodded carefully, "The other night when we were at the same club, I watched you turn down a girl, and it made me feel a little bit better knowing that you weren't out there sleeping with other girls."

"I may have been a jerk and not been around much but I have everything that I need right here." I said letting go of her hand and putting one of my hands on her cheek and the other one on her stomach that did have a visible roundness to it. "Right here baby. Nowhere else. You're all that I need, Kiersten. You and this baby. I don't need anything else." I whispered wiping my thumb across her cheek collecting her tears. I wanted to kiss her but I knew that that would be pushing it so I took a deep breath and kept going, "So," I whispered, "what do you say? Do I get you two back in my life?"

Kiersten was quiet for a minute before she started talking, "I love you Niall. And I love this baby. But I can't just pretend all of this didn't happen. I want you to be a part of this baby's life, to be a part of my life, but you're going to have to prove to me that all of this over. That you are going to be there for me and for our baby. Our baby needs a dad Niall, and you're this baby's dad Niall. They need you, I need you. But I need the real you."

"I will, baby. The real me, I promise. I love you so much. Thank you, thank you." I said grabbing her and giving her a long passionate kiss.

"I've missed you, Ni. The real you. My Niall, this one." She said resting her forehead on my collarbone.

"I know baby. But the real me is here now and I'm not going away ever again." I whispered kissing her again. She pressed her lips to mine a little more firmly then I expected and she slipped her hands up under my shirt pulling it off as her head dropped down to press her lips to my jaw. "I love you, Kiersten." I whispered.

"I love you too, Niall." She whispered as we slipped out of our clothes and made slow and passionate love.

We stayed in bed together and I traced circles on the small bump of her stomach, "So what do we know about our little one?" I asked kissing Kiersten's temple, and I couldn't help but grin knowing that Kiersten and our baby were both in my life for good.

"Not much, I know that our baby is healthy but nothing else. I made it through the first trimester without really even knowing I was pregnant. I had my suspicions but I didn't miss my period the first two months and when it didn't show up the next month I didn't really think anything of it. I hadn't been feeling well, I was throwing up all the time and I was constantly tired. But me, being the idiot I am, was so focused on getting pregnant that I didn't realize that I already was pregnant. I got home and I went in for a checkup and I explained how I had been feeling. So they did the test and then gave me the results. They're in an envelope in my desk. That's all that I really know. I have an appointment for another ultrasound next week. You can come with me, but I was looking up ideas for like gender revealing and stuff and I thought that we could get the doctor to give us the information on the baby in a sealed envelope and we'll take it to the baker and get them to make a cake that's either blue or pink on the inside and then we'll have a party and stuff and everyone will come over and we'll find out if we're having a boy or a girl."

"That sounds perfect." I said kissing the top of her head. "How are we going to tell everyone else?"

Kiersten shrugged, "I don't know but I think we should stay away from sticks that I've peed on." She said making me laugh.

"I'm so happy." I said kissing her.

"Me too," She said then she was quiet for a moment. "But you know that if you slip up once we're gone right? I'm giving you another chance, Niall, but there are no more chances after that. Not with a baby on the way."

I nodded, "I know. I don't need any more chances. I'm so thankful for this chance that you're giving me right now, and I am not going to screw this up again." I said kissing her lips and running my fingers through her messy hair.

She nodded, "Good. Now can we go downstairs, I'm starving and I really want a pickle."

"Kiersten you hate pickles." I laughed.

"Not anymore." She said patting her stomach, "Baby Horan likes 'em." She said climbing out of the bed and putting on clothes. I laughed and did the same before I followed her down the stairs to the kitchen, so she could get a food that she always told me she hated. Guess pregnancy does some weird things to people.

"Are you okay? Is everything okay?" My mum asked running over to Kiersten and checking her over.

"I'm fine." Kiersten laughed, "Everything is fine. Everything is great actually." She said reaching back and grabbing my hand giving it a squeeze.

"Oh I'm so happy!" My mum cheered pulling us both into a hug, "And you're pregnant! And I'm just so happy! Oh gosh! This is just amazing! I think I'm going to go bake something. What should I bake?"

"Cake! Cake! Cake!" Finn yelled making us laugh.

"Alright I can make a cake. Would you like to help Finn?" She asked looking at the toddler.

"Yes yes!" He cheered.

"You really forgave him that easily?" Greg asked from where he was standing in the doorway of the kitchen with Finn on his hip.

Kiersten shook her head, "No we talked about it and he knows that he made a huge mistake and he knows that if it ever happens again I'm gone and I'm taking this baby with me."

"WAIT!" Greg yelled, "You're pregnant?!"

Kiersten nodded, "I thought you knew? Didn't you just hear your mum say that like five seconds ago?" She asked.

He shook his head quickly coming over and giving us a hug before bouncing Finn in his arms, "You're going to have a cousin, Finny!"

"Yay!" Finn cheered but we all laughed knowing that he had no idea what a cousin was.

That night we invited all of my family and friends over to my mum's house for dinner. I prayed for our meal and at the end I said, "And thank you for the newest addition to the family that my beautiful wife and I will be welcoming in the spring."

Everyone said Amen and then they realized what I said and they all started freaking out and asking questions about the baby and how Kiersten was feeling and everything that everyone asks when they find out someone is pregnant.

That night Kiersten and I climbed into bed and she decided to give her family back in Wisconsin a call to tell them that she was pregnant. We were going to tell the boys and everyone else when we got back to London.

"Hi mom." Kiersten chirped from her spot next to me. "I'm doing well, how are you?" She paused to listen to her mom talk for a minute, "Well I was just wondering if it would be okay if Niall and I brought someone with us to Christmas." We were all going to be in Wisconsin for Christmas, my family included. "Well I'm pregnant so you don't really have a choice. If I come the baby comes." She said chuckling as her mom freaked out. "Yeah, I'm about twelve weeks a long." She laughed, "I know, I know four months is a third way through my pregnancy! No, I just found out a few days ago, and Niall just found out last night. I wanted him to know before everyone, obviously." She smiled squeezing my hand as she listened to her mom talk, "Yeah I've got a lot of other people to give a call so I will talk to you soon. I will, mom. Bye, I love you too." She said hanging up before calling a lot of other people to tell them the amazing news.