Kiersten:

I made my way off the plane with Bob, and the rest of my 'entourage' in tow. I didn't even get a chance to stop at the hotel before I was swept off to the Jimmy Fallon show.

"So tonight, a group is being interviewed before you. Then you'll come on. And then The Shins are performing." My tiny little hyperactive tour manager, Carmen told me. I love Carmen to death, but she was crazy. She was constantly moving. Constantly finding something to do or talking.

"What group is it?" I asked as someone handed me a Starbucks drink, specifically the most caffeine filled drink on the menu. I was exhausted

"I'm not sure. They haven't told us."

"Okay." I said as my stylist helped me into my outfit. (http://www.polyvore.com/cgi/set?id=60255944)

I was all polished and ready to go. I was talking with some of the writers for the show, when Carmen ran up to me. "We have a bit of a problem." She whispered pulling me away.

"What is it?"

"The group that goes on before you?" She said and I nodded telling her to continue, "The Jonas Brothers."

I took a deep breath, "Well they don't hate me, sure It'll be awkward but I just have to make the best of the situation." I said and Carmen gave me a tight hug.

"They want to see you, beforehand." She whispered.

I sighed and nodded and she led me over to where the three dark haired boys and their dad were standing. Joe immediately ran up to me and gave me a tight hug, Kevin, who I had never actually met kissed me on the cheek politely.

Nick didn't move. Instead he just stared at me before taking the few short paces that were between us. "Can we talk, over there?" He asked pointing to a vacant couch on the other side of the room.

I nodded and we worked our way over there, both of us too afraid to talk. "Shoot. Hold on a second." I said suddenly remembering that I had to call Niall.

"Bout damn time you called. I was starting to get worried, boo." His deep voice made me relax from the craziness going around me almost immediately.

"Sorry, babe. It's been crazy since I got here. So I have something crazy to tell you."

"You're coming home tomorrow?" He asked.

I giggled, "No. But I miss you already. Anyway, you know how multiple people get interviewed on each show?"

"Yeah?"

"Guess who's getting interviewed with me."

"Demi?"

"No thank God. The Jonas brothers."

"Are you fucking kidding me?!" He yelled.

"Ni, I'll be okay, relax."

"If he tries anything I swear to God I'll kill him."

"Niall, babe. There's like a thousand other people here."

"Okay, baby. I miss and love you. I'm at the doctors so I really have to go."

"WHAT?" I yelled, "Why are you there?!"

"Since we've got a bit of a break from tours and stuff they want me to get my knee surgery done. It's looking like the day after tomorrow."

"You mean the one you were supposed to get done like a year ago?"

"Yup."

"Aww, boo boo. I'm so sorry I won't be there to help you out!"

"It's alright. I think my mum is going to come stay with me, just to help me out and stuff."

"So does this mean we're both going to be on crutches?"

Niall laughed, "I'll be off em by the time you get home. But I'll have a brace on and stuff. But I gotta go. Love you!"

"Love you too, call me later and let me know how it goes?"

"Course, babe. Have fun!"

I hung up the phone and made my way back to Nick. "Sorry about that." I said sitting down next to him.

Nick just nodded, "How have you been? How's your leg?"

"I've been really good! My leg is fine. It's frustrating having to be on crutches all the time, but only a couple more months until I'm off them. What about you?"

"I've been okay." He said shrugging.

"Just okay?"

"Yeah. So you're still with Niall?"

"Yep! We just bought a house and got a puppy named Nando! And we took our families on a two week cruise for Christmas! I thought he was going to propose, but he didn't! And I was sad but now I'm going to be on tour for six weeks and I just miss him..." I faded off at the end as I noticed Nick's face looked like he was in pain.

"Nick? Are you okay? You don't look so good..."

"Yeah. Fine. A house huh? That's nice."

"Uh yeah...it's just outside of London...its really lovely. We're really happy there."

"That's great." He mumbled.

"Are you sure you're alright, Nick?"

"Look, I miss you like crazy! I haven't been with anyone since you, and it's been almost a year! I just can't think of how perfect we were! I can't think of anyone but you. You consume all of my thoughts. I can't write music, because all of my songs are about you. I need you Kiersten, please." He said grabbing my hand.

"Nick...I-I can't. I'm really happy with Niall. I love him, he's the one."

"How do you know?!" He yelled. Everyone looked at us, so he dropped his voice down to a whisper. "I could be the one. I could make you happy Kiersten." He said stroking my cheek with the back of his hand.

"I am happy. With Niall." I said jerking away from him.

Nick dropped his head and cradled it in his hands. He rubbed his hand down his face and then turned to look at me with watery eyes, "Can we at least be friends? I can't be without you anymore."

I took a deep breath, "I um, can I get back to you on that, please?" I asked needing to get out of there and breathe. Nick nodded his head and stood up walking back to his brothers. I got up and found a bathroom. I made sure no one was in there. I dug around in my purse until I found the tiny slip of paper I was looking for. I quickly dialed the number, written in blue ink that was starting to fade.

"Hello?" The sweet British accent rang through my ears.

"R-Reyna?"

"Kiersten?"

"Y-yeah."

"How did you-"

"Look, I just need some advice, I won't tell Zayn I talked to you. I won't ask you any questions. I just-just need my big sister back for a second."

"Aww, babe. What's going on?"

I explained the whole situation to Reyna. "Call Niall and talk to him about it. You'll feel better about wanting Nick back in your life if Niall is okay with it."

"Thanks, Rey. This means a lot."

"You're welcome love."

There was an awkward silence since neither of us really knew what to say.

"How is she?" Reyna finally asked, her voice soft and quiet.

"She's gorgeous, Reyna. She's the happiest baby on the planet, and she's so smart."

"And Zayn? Has he um, has he-?"

"No, he hasn't" I said saving her from having to ask if Zayn had found anyone new yet. "His focus is on Xara, she's his pride and joy."

"And Liam and Danielle are married, now? Are you and Niall engaged yet?"

"Yeah they are. The wedding was beautiful. But no we're not."

"I'm sure it I'll happen soon, love. Um I have to go. Maybe we can keep in touch? I'll call you."

"Yeah, I'd love that."

"Okay, and please don't tell anyone."

"I won't. Bye, Reyna."

"Bye." And with that the line went dead.

I called Niall, "Hey, beautiful! You okay?"

I didn't know how to say it so I just go right to the point. "Y-yeah. Um Nick wants to be friends...and I wanted to know what you thought about it."

"Absolutely not." Niall said.

"Why?!" I asked suddenly defensive.

"Because I don't want him to steal you away from me again."

"Why can't you just trust me, Niall?"

"You know what? Fine. Be his friend. I don't care." And with that he hung up.

I sighed and leaned up against the cool tile wall, quickly wiping away the fallen tears.

I took a deep breath and walked out and saw Nick standing by himself, focused on his phone. "I've missed you." I whispered wrapping my arms around him.

He seemed surprised at first but soon he bugged me back tightly. "Friends?" He whispered.

"Friends." I confirmed.

He grinned at me, "Can we hang out tonight?"

"Definitely."I said and he smiled before someone told him it was time to go out.

"See you out there." He said giving my hand a quick squeeze before going out to talk to Jimmy with his brothers.

It was finally my turn. Jimmy called me out and I made my way out on my crutches.

I went through the curtain and came face to face with a set of stairs. Me, stairs, and crutches do not mix well.

Suddenly I was picked up and then gently set down in my chair.

Bob quickly disappeared and Jimmy looked from me to the spot where Bob had disappeared to, "What just happened? Who is that guy?"

"Oh that's Bob, my body guard."

"Well now that we figured out that. Hi! How are you?"

"I'm great!"

"Really? You don't look like it with that green thing on your leg." He said, "I mean, wow. That's not what I meant. You look great. What happened with your leg?"

"I fell down some stairs in a hotel in July. I had to get surgery and a cast for six months. I am seriously the most accident prone person."

Jimmy and I continued talking about the movie. Every once in a while Kevin, Joe, or Nick would throw in comment.

"So can we talk about a certain Irish boyband member?"

"Why would we do that?" I asked making the audience laugh.

"Here I'll show you." He said pulling up a picture of Niall and I. It was from before I hurt my leg.

We were kissing and my arms were around his neck and his hands were firmly on my butt. It was a deep kiss and you could see a little sliver of Niall's tongue, most of which was in my mouth.

"Oh my, wow. I -uh didn't even know that picture existed."

"Haven't you ever looked at the Kiall kissing tag on Tumblr?" Jimmy asked.

"Uh no? Have you?"

"What?! No, of course! Maybe, okay yes."

"Awkward!" Joe yelled.

We continued talking and before I knew it The Shins were performing and I was meeting them.

I was in my hotel room talking to Carmen, "You have an early morning radio interview with Ryan Secrest and then you're on the View. Get some sleep." She said making a couple notes on her iPad. She said goodnight and left my room.

I was taking off my jewelry when there was knock on the door and I opened it to find Nick.

"Hey, just let me change and then we can watch." I said.

He nodded and kissed my cheek before sprawling out on the couch.

I changed into my pajamas (http://www.polyvore.com/cgi/set?id=60455225) and was in the bathroom when my phone vibrated on the counter.

Crocaniall:

Hey boo. Sorry I freaked out earlier. I do trust you just not him. Please don't be friends with him for me? Love you. Xx

I walked out and sat down next to Nick's feet. I quickly typed a reply.

Kiersten:

I won't. Going to sleep. Love you. Xx

"Come here." Nick said pulling on my arm so I was lying on top of him.

I dropped my phone on the floor and snuggled into Nick as he draped a blanket over us.

I knew lying to Niall was wrong but I wanted to be friends with Nick.

I woke up the next morning still wrapped up in Nick's arms. I groaned and his eyes fluttered open. As I looked into his chocolaty brown eyes I felt guilty. I hadn't even made it one day without Niall before I cuddled up with another guy.

"Morning beautiful." Nick said tucking a piece of hair behind my ear. He reached his head up softly brushing our lips together. I jerked my head back and Nick grabbed the back of my neck forcing our lips together.

I pulled back and slapped him, "What the hell, Nick?!" I asked jumping away from him.

"Come on, babe." He said moving towards me. "We just spent the night together."

"As friends!"

"Friends, don't cuddle like that, I know you feel something." He said crawling towards me again.

"No, no, no! Get out of my hotel room!" I yelled shoving him away from me.

"Please Kiersten! I love you!"

I was crying now and shaking my head, "Please, just get out." I whispered.

Nick looked at me with hurt in his eyes. "No." He said firmly. He started walking towards me and because my crutches were too far away I couldn't move from the couch. He pushed me against the back and kissed me roughly. There was so much passion and force in the kiss that I forgot where I was for a second. My lips moved in sync with his. Nick's hand skimmed the skin on my back where my t-shirt had risen up and the shock of the touch, which was so different from Niall's, woke me up, in a sense.

I pushed Nick away and slapped him with all of the strength I had. "Get out, before I call Bob." I said, the steadiness of my voice shocking me.

Nick stared at me for a minute before finally leaving. The second the door shut I burst into tears. I grabbed my phone and quickly call Niall.

"Good morning, beautiful!" He answered happily.

"I'm so sorry, Niall." I said between sobs.

"Kiersten, why are you crying? What are you sorry for?"

"I lied to you. I told you I wasn't going to be friends with Nick, but we hung out last night."

"Okay...why are you crying?"

"Because we slept on the couch together and he kissed me this morning, and I slapped him...b-but I k-kissed him back, the second time. But then I slapped him and he-he left." I said trying to stop my tears.

Niall was silent. I could hear his breathing but he wasn't saying anything. "Niall?" I asked quietly.

"I need to go." He said hanging up.

I broke down, dropping my phone on the floor and curling up on the couch.

5 minutes later the door opened. "Kiersten! What are you doing?! We have to go!" I heard Carmen yell.

I looked up at her, and she sighed, "Oh honey. What's wrong? Actually you can tell me in the car. We seriously need to go. You can do the radio interview in your pajamas and then change for the view." She said pulling out her phone to call the radio station.

I made no effort to get up so Bob had to be called. Someone grabbed a sweatshirt for me, which of course was Niall's blue one and put it on me. The put on a pair of Uggs and decided that was good enough. Bob carried me to the car so I wouldn't have to use my crutches. I had on a pair of sunglasses and had my hood up with my face buried in Bob's shoulder.

The same happened when we got to the radio station. Usually Ryan did his radio show in L.A. but for whatever reason he was in New York.

I sat down in my chair and put on my headphones.

"Good morning, Kiersten." Ryan said coming in and giving me a quick hug.

"Good morning!" I said trying to seem happy, as Amelia, one of my make-up girls did my make-up.

"Ready to get started?" He asked and I nodded. "Good morning everyone! It's Ryan here in New York! Now, before we get started with music and the hot topics, we've got Kiersten Clifford in the studio with us."

"Hi!" I said wincing as Tori pulled at my hair.

"How are you dear?" He asked.

"I'm great! Got a bit of a late start this morning but my team is amazing, in getting me where I need to be on time and making me look presentable."

"Yeah...I can say we don't have a lot of people show up for interviews in their pajamas."

"First time for everything!"

"So you're in a movie with Robert Downey Jr. and Alexander Ludwig. How was it working with them?"

"It was great! Not only are they both great actors but they are great guys. We had a lot of fun on set."

"And Alexander plays your love interest, how did Niall feel about that?"

"Oh Niall was fine. We both have our careers and we know that there are going to be love interests and male and female fans, but it's part of the job. We love each other and we have a lot of trust in our relationship which is enough to keep us going. Obviously Niall has a lot of female fans and I just have to remember that it's me he loves, and the same goes for my job."

"So you guys are doing well then? I heard a rumor you just bought a house together."

"Actually we did! We got a puppy too!"

"Really what kind?"

"It's a miniature bulldog. Niall surprised me with him."

"What's his name?"

"He needed a name before he could be adopted and Niall was hungry so I now have a puppy named Nando." I said chuckling at the thought of the tiny dog.

Ryan laughed and we continued on with the interview. We finished it up and I changed into my clothes before heading to the View studio.

I sat down on the couch and talked with the ladies of the view. "So, I think the thing that everyone likes about you is that you're someone that it's okay for our kids to look up to."

"I've made a lot of mistakes but I regret the things that happened, and I try to show people that you can come back from your mistakes, and that you don't need to change for anyone."

"See! I love that!" Joy said happily.

I smiled and finished up the interview and then went back to my hotel room, I had a meeting with my stylists in the afternoon but first we were getting some lunch. I slid into my chair next to Carmen and pulled out my phone for the first time all morning. I had seventeen voice mails, fifty-six missed calls, and twenty-four text messages all from Nick. There was text from Samie asking me to call her when I have time and one from Eleanor asking me which flowers I liked better. There was nothing from Niall. I sighed telling Samie I would call her after my six pm magazine interview at Bouley, and told Eleanor that I liked the first set of flowers better.

I ordered my food and tried calling Niall. It rang twice and then went straight to voicemail. He ignored my call. I sighed dropping my phone into my purse and talked to Carmen about the latest gossip about some celebrity couple I didn't really have any interest in.

I heard my phone go off inside my purse and grabbed it hoping it was Niall. It was a text from Josh.

Josh:

Just give him some time. He'll come around. I'm hanging out with him all day making sure he doesn't go to the pub. I'll try and convince him to call you later. You're free later?

Kiersten:

Thank you so much. It doesn't matter what time it is. Please just have him call me. And tell him how sorry I am?

Josh:

Of course. Talk to you later, love.

I sighed and dropped it in my purse. I was thankful for Josh but I just wanted to know that Niall and I were okay. It was really hard talking about him in interviews and how great everything was between us when I didn't really know if everything was okay.

I had a meeting with my stylists and we decided on my outfit and how I would do my hair and make-up for my first movie premiere which was in two days.

I went back to my hotel room and spread out on my bed. I called Samie and she answered sounding like she was crying.

"What's wrong?"

"H-Harry's mom doesn't want us to get married!"

"Are you sure? Did she say that?"

"Yes! And I'm pretty sure she hates me too!"

"Samie, Anne doesn't hate anyone."

"Well I'm pretty sure she hates me!"

"Why do you think she hates you?"

"She just is super cold towards me all the time."