Author's Note: The italics are all Niall's writing. Enjoy! :)

Niall:

I walked down the hallway to the hotel room I was sharing with Kiersten. I had just come from the doctor, who put me on a two week vocal rest for overworked vocal cords. I stopped at a store and found a Batman dry erase board because that was all that they had. But it was okay, because I knew Kiersten would like it. And I picked up some Stargazer lilies for Kiersten, because they're some of her favorites.

I unlocked the door and immediately knew something was off. The TV wasn't blaring the stupid Mexican game show that Kiersten had become obsessed with in our time here, there wasn't any music playing with her obnoxious singing and dancing, she wasn't giggling over Skype with anyone. But her shoes, key card, and phone were all sitting on the coffee table.

I walked to the bedroom and saw her MacBook Pro teetering on the edge of the bed. I grabbed it before it crashed to floor and put it on the arm chair next to the bed. Kiersten was curled in the fetal position in the very middle of the bed. I could hear her soft whimpers from under the heavy blanket. I set the board and the flowers on the pillow and crawled in next to her pulling her to my chest her wet cheeks immediately soaking my t-shirt. I wanted to sing, I wanted to hum, I wanted to talk to her, calm her down but I couldn't do anything, so I just held her to my chest.

After awhile I grabbed the board. whats wrong beautiful? I tapped her shoulder and she looked up at the board.

"Niall why aren't you talking?" She asked after she looked at the board. I pointed to my throat. "Vocal rest?" She asked and I nodded, "How long?"

2 weeks. now stop talkin about me. why are you crying?

"Hand me my laptop." She said opening it after I gave it to her. She turned it towards me and my heart hit my toes.

I scanned the page and pulled Kiersten closer to me with every sentence.im sory bby but its in the past now yea? i love you and that never gona change so keep your head up cuz nothin any1 says is gona matter. i love u so fuckin much.

"Oh my God, Niall give me that. I can't even read it until I fix all of this." She said re writing pretty much the whole thing. "I love you, too." She said kissing my cheek.

I quickly erased the board, and I focused on making sure that my grammar and spelling were right and all of my punctuation was correct.Even though my grammar and spelling suck ass?

"Yes. I'll just have to fix it for you. In two weeks maybe you'll have perfect grammar like me." She said grinning, "But your handwriting is hopeless." She said and I laughed. "Hey look at this." She grabbed Twitter then a smile errupted on her face. I looked at the screen and saw Tweets from tons of celebrities and other people, telling Kiersten not to worry and that everyone still loved her. There was one from Robert Downey Jr., Grant Gustin, Justin Beiber, Chelesea Handler, Ellen Degeneres, Alan Carr, Alexander Ludwig, Zac Efron, Nick Jonas, Joe Jonas, Gordon Ramsay, Julie Chen, Simon, Cher Lloyd, Olly Murs, Ed Sheeran, and tons of other people. There was one from each of the boys, and every one of their family members that had a Twitter. Harry's mum, step-dad, and sister. Louis' mum and sisters, Zayn's sisters, Liam's sisters, and one from my brother that made me grin. Plus all of our friends, like Andy, Maz, Sean, all f the guys in the band, the security guys, the stylist girls, the whole crew basically. All of Kiersten's friends and family. Of course, Danielle, Eleanor, and Samie. Plus countless ones from fans, yes their were some bad ones but the good ones outshined the bad ones and I could only hope that Kiersten thought that too.

There was only one missing and it was mine. I grabbed my phone and quickly typed out my tweet. @NiallOfficial @kierstencliff I love you so much baby. Nothing is ever going to change that. #KierstenandNiall5ever

Kiersten giggled at the 5ever part and my phone buzzed with a text from Paul. Paul: What's the verdict?

Niall: Vocal rest 2 weeks

Paul: Okay, can you and K come down t sound check?

Niall: Give me 45?

Paul: Sure

I tossed my phone on the chair shut the laptop and pulled Kiersten to me. I grabbed my board again, I have a surprise for you.

"Niiiiiiiaaaaall." Kiersten whined but I pressed a finger to her lips. I walked over to the cardboard boxes filled with Supras and reached into a bright yellow pair grabbed a thin navy blue box with a red bow on it. I handed it to Kiersten. She glared at me but opened it anyway. She squealed and jumped across the bed kissing me excitedly. "We're going to Belize?!?"

For 3 days with Liam and Dani. Manatee tour is on the schedule. We leave at 5am tomorrow. I said and Kiersten kissed me again. She always talked about her missions trip to Belize that she went on in high school and how she wanted to go back because she never got to see a manatee.

I pulled her down on the bed so she was straddling me. I tangled one hand in her hair while the other rested on the top of her bum. She had one hand in my hair while the other rested on my cheek.

Half hour later I pulled away. we have to go t sound check now. :(

"Okay. Just let me change and clean my face up." She said slipping off her running shorts and t-shirt and pulling a white lace sundress on. She slipped on a pair of brown sandals and re did her makeup. She took her hair out of the side braid and let it fall in waves down her back. Her hair had gotten a lot longer since the first time I met her. It used just barely reach her shoulder blades on he back and now it hit the middle of her back. But then again I had known her for a year and a half. "Ready?" She asked sliding on a pair of light purple Ray Bans. I nodded pulling my Boston hat on and a pair of black Ray Bans. I grabbed her board and handed her the flowers before I forgot.

She laced our fingers together and we walked out of the room. When we got to the front desk she asked them to put the flowers in a vase and leave them in our room. I'm not sure if they actually did that service, but the guys at the desk seemed very willing to do that for Kiersten. I rolled my eyes and we walked outside with Bob helping us get to the car.

I was sitting in a chair across from management at the venue. I could hear Kiersten laughing outside with the boys as I sat there alone. "This is exactly what we were talking about, Niall. She brings so much drama and bad press. We don't need this on top of you guys. You're on vocal rest. You don't the stress."

She has no control over this. She didn't want to be fucking raped. We hid it from the press but you know how the fans are! And there's no stress! She's fine! We talked about it. So leave her alone! I will call Simon if have to.I pushed the board across the table angrily.

"What's calling Simon going to do? You can't even talk."

I'll have Harry talk for me. And you know he'll blow things out of proportion. I smirked as they sighed knowing that I had won.

"Bring the boys in. We need to talk about performances."

Kiersten too. I miss her.

They glared at me and I just smiled. "Fine. Kiersten too." I grinned and pulled her onto my lap as they all walked into the room.

I was kissing Kiersten's shoulders not paying attention to the meeting when someone yelled, "Niall! This meeting is about you!" I looked up and the managers did not look happy. I can't sing. I can play the guitar still. It's not that complicated. Give my parts to Louis. He should be singing more anyway.

"It's not that simple, Niall. Are you going to just come out when we need to to play guitar?"

"No. He'll be on stage the whole time. Just like the rest of us." Liam said.

"Zayn wasn't on stage when you guys had to cover for him in the States."

"Because I was in England!" Zayn yelled. "Why is it even an option for Niall to not be on stage? He can still do all the choreography! He's not dying!"

"Fine. But Harry and Liam will spilt the solos. And Zayn can take his harmony parts when he's not singing."

I quickly scribbled on my board and handed it to Kiersten, "No!" She yelled, "Louis gets them! Or I'll sing and damage my voice even more so Lou will have to sing them for two months instead of two weeks!" She set the board down and turned to me, "Good?"

I nodded and kissed her cheek. "I love you." I mouthed.

"I love you too." She said resting her head against mine.

"Fine, whatever, Louis you've got Niall's parts. Niall you've been rather irrational and losing your temper a lot. You're supposed to be the carefree one.

Just because I'm carefree doesn't mean I can't get pissed off. And you're pissing me off. I protect the people I love.

"We're sick of fighting with you, Niall. Go rehearse. All of you. Kiersten stay please."

I looked at Louis panicked I couldn't get to my board fast enough before they kicked us out. Who knows what bullshit they'd feed her. "No. You don't get to talk to her." Louis said picking her up and throwing her over Harry's shoulder.

We walked down the venue and rehearsed for a bit until sound check. Kiersten, Danielle, and Eleanor talked with fans and ran around shooting us and each other with Nerf guns, like they usually did during soundcheck. Sometimes they weren't allowed around and other times they just didn't feel like coming.

It was weird performing but not singing. But Louis sang my parts amazingly.

After the concert we all headed back to the hotel. Kiersten and I packed and then went to Liam and Danielle's room. We had to be at the airport at 3:30 so we decided it wasn't even worth it to go to sleep.

"Hey guys!" Liam said opening the door for us. "We were just trying to decide whether or not to do a Twitcam or watch Love Actually."

I pointed to the movie and plopped down on the couch.

"But I really want to do a Twitcam!" Liam whined.

"Why don't we do both?" Kiersten said sitting down next to me.

"Yeah!" Liam said and went to start the Twitcam while Dani started the movie. "Hey everyone! The four of us are going on a holiday for a couple days while we have a break from tour, and we have to be at the airport at 3:30 so we thought we'd talk to you all before we go!" He said excitedly.

We talked to the fans and watched Love Actually. I smiled at Kiersten when she giggled at the kid who had is face painted like Spiderman. After the movie was over Kiersten kissed me. "I love you." She whispered and I mouthed it back capturing her lips in a kiss again. Let's go walk around

"Yeah! Good idea, Niall!" Liam said jumping up and grabbing Danielle's hand. I laced my fingers with Kiersten's and we stepped out into the hallway. I brought Kiersten's hand up to my lips and kissed her knuckles.

She smiled shyly at me and I leaned over and pressed a light kiss to her temple.

Liam stopped in front of Sandy and Joey's room and Kiersten and I walked down to Josh and Dan's room.

I knocked on the door and Josh opened it. "Hey, hold on a second. Niall and Kiersten are here." He said into the phone he was holding between his head and shoulder, "Hey guys!"

Talking to your mum?

"No. Torrey."

"Aww! You guys are still talking?!" Kiersten said grinning at him.

"Yeah. Now leave me alone, so I can actually talk to her."

nice talkin t ya to, ya wanker

Kiersten quickly fixed my grammar and spelling errors making Josh and I laugh. "Bye Joshy! See you when we get back from our vacation."

"Yeah, have fun on vacation." He said making fun of her American accent causing her to punch him in the arm. "Bye, Nialler hope you two have lots of fun." He said winking at me. Kiersten rolled her eyes and walked over to Sandy and gave him a big hug.

Have fun talkin t Torrey

"Hey sorry, babe. They're going on a holiday so I won't see them for a few days." Josh said before waving at me and shutting the door.

I wrapped my arms around Kiersten's waist placing my hands lightly on her stomach. I felt her tense up. "The fans want to know why you're not talking, Niall." Liam said to me.

"Niall's on vocal rest for two weeks." Kiersten said while gently removing my hands from her stomach. But I refused to move my arms away so we just stood there my arms wrapped around her from behind but her holding my hands out a couple inches from her stomach.

I love EVERYTHING about you. Every single thing. I held the board out in front us so she could read it.

She sighed and turned around pressing a gentle kiss to my lips, but I knew this kiss it was the 'I don't believe you but I don't feel like arguing with you so please just shut up.' kiss. I need to talk to K. We'll meet you in the lobby when it's time to leave.

I showed the board to Liam and he nodded, "Okay guys! Kiersten and Niall have to leave because they still haven't packed! Procrastinators, I'm tellin' ya." Liam said shaking his head.

"Bye, guys!" Kiersten said trying to hide her confusion.

I blew them a kiss then laced my fingers with Kiersten's as we walked back to our room. She looked at me when we got to our room, "Niall we're both all packed. Did you forget something?"

I shook my head, telling her no and unlocked the door. "Niall! They're probably going to trend Kiall getting it on, now or something!"

I rolled my eyes and grabbed my board Please just let me do this okay? Don't fight anything. I sat her down on the edge of the bed and walked over to my suitcase and grabbed a box that I had in there just for times like this. I pulled out two vanilla scented candles, a bunch of tea lights, a lighter, and a container of rose petals. I lit the candles and placed them around the room. I scattered the petals on the bed and grabbed my board because I could practically feel how tense she was, I'm not trying to have sex with you. So please just relax and trust me. Do you trust me?

I shut the lights off then walked back over to her. I had exactly two hours and fourteen minutes to do this before we had meet Liam and Danielle. I grabbed the board again, I'm going to kiss everything I think is beautiful. I pulled off her shirt and kissed her shoulder then laid her down on the bed and took off her shorts. I kissed her thighs lightly then sat next to her. I grabbed her hand and kissed each one of her finger tips lightly. I covered her hand in light kisses then continued up her arm and across her collar bone.

By the time I finished she was crying and I had tears in my eyes. I had never felt so much of my love being pushed towards one person in all my life. The raw emotion and undeniable love swirled around us as I finished kissing all over her stomach for the second time. I kissed her lips tenderly before lying down beside her and wrapping my arms around her.

It was times like these where I would always sing to her. I always managed to think of the perfect song too. But I couldn't sing to her. Well I couldn't but a recording of me could. I reached onto the table next to her and grabbed her phone. I clicked on the playlist of me singing her favorite songs and clicked on Your Song.

I listened to the lyrics of the song, "I don't have much money but boy if I did. I'd buy a big house where we both could live."

My lease on my flat was up in January and I had been thinking instead of resigning it for another two years, I'd look into buying a real house. Not just a flat or a townhouse but a house. And a big one. Who knows what's going to happen between Kiersten and I in the next couple of years. I want to spend the rest of my life together and while I wasn't planning anything I was thinking that an engagement was in the nearish future. Not like while we're on tour or anything. But maybe after she did her promo tour for her movie.

"I hope you don't mind that I put down in words, how wonderful life is while you're in the world." Life really is wonderful with her in the world. I looked down at her, she was just lying there with her eyes closed mindlessly drawing shapes on my chest with her finger while a recording of me singing played.

People always ask me how I can love someone 'as big as she is' but first of all Kiersten isn't big, and second of all. Every single one of her imperfections makes her even more beautiful. She is beautiful inside and out. Obviously I was attracted to her beauty, she's gorgeous. Her pale skin and freckles, her blonde hair, and especially those big blue eyes. She had me wrapped around her finger the second she looked at me with those things. When she's happy they're the prettiest color I've ever seen in my life. They become this bright blue color with a burst of green in the center. And when she's shade they're a deep shade of blue, that mirrors her mood. When she's angry they're any icy blue/grey color. But they're always beautiful.

But no matter how beautiful I thought she was, it was her personality that made me fall in love her. From her sarcastic humor and sassy comebacks to how genuinely nice to everyone she is. I don't know how you can't fall in love with her.

I suppose the whole thing is kind of like saying that you love a song because of its title but never actually listening to the lyrics.

I looked back down and Kiersten and smiled thinking about how if she could read my mind she'd giggle and tell me I sound like a fortune cookie.

"Baby, it's time to go." Kiersten said pulling me away from my thoughts about her.

I walked out to the airplane from the small Mexican airport my fingers intertwined with Kiersten's. The muggy early morning air surrounded us as Kiersten rested her head against my shoulder. I could tell she was getting tired. It was five in the morning and she had yet to sleep.

I should've been tired too, but I had an inspiration for a song and I couldn't wait for her to fall asleep so I could start writing random lyrics down as they came to me. Then I'd send them to Tom and we'd work it out and make it into a song.

We were in flight and I was absentmindedly writing things I wanted in our house down while I waited till I was sure Kiersten was asleep. She looked like she was curled up with her giraffe pillow pet she's had since before i met her, but I wanted to be sure. I liked surprising her with songs that I wrote about her.

The first one is about a girl who's dating the guy's best friend, but he knows that he'd be better for her but he doesn't want to ruin their friendship so he keeps his mouth shut until one day when he finally tells her, but she still loves her boyfriend, then her boyfriend hurts her and they end up together. The second one is about a guy who knows he should've chased after his girl when she left. And how stupid he was, and how all the other girls never compared to her. And how he would never stop loving her

I was finally sure she was asleep so I pulled out another piece of paper. if only she could see herself how I see her. I scribbled onto the page, in another corner was more scribbling, When she looks at me with those deep blue eyes I can't help but believe I can fly.