"Hey, where's Alex? He said he would be here." I shuddered at the voice. It was Lisa, I could tell, and I didn't really have a liking of her.

"He's running a bit late, traffic. But he said he'll be here in a couple minutes." Rian answered, looking up from his phone. She nodded and went to sit down next to me. I wanted to shoot myself, but instead a shot her a small smile. She didn't return the gesture.

Ten awfully long minutes later, Alex ran into the room, his hair messed up, and his clothes not matching. God, he still looked perfect.

"Sorry I'm late guys." He said through short breaths. He walked over to Lisa, kissed her cheek, and then sat down. "The traffic was horrible. It's like everyone and their families were in Boston today!" I shook my head, hiding my smile.

Alex didn't know, and he wouldn't know, that I still had feelings for him. He's with Lisa now, so I'm not going to interfere with it. The only other person who knows this is Zack, because he's my best bud. And he sorta kept bothering me by stealing my underwear until I told him.

"Well, people do like Boston." Zack said, setting his bass down.

"Yeah, but it's never usually this busy." I butted in.

"Yeah,yeah, lets just start rehearsing." Zack said, smirking. I shot him a death glare.

"Alex, was there a reason you needed me?" Lisa said, bursting out with her annoying voice.

"Oh, yeah, of course. Just wait, I need your opinion on something."

I looked at the set up for the show tonight while Alex set up. We started with Satellite, then we went to Do It For Baltimore. Seemed like a cool transition, but I wouldn't have started with Satellite. I like when the crowd is pumped up, so I would've chose Dancing With a Wolf.

"Ready guys?" Alex asked. We all nodded.

"We were waiting for you, dingus." I said. Alex smirked, and my knees felt like butter.

I'm such a girl with him I swear.

Alex hit the first note, but it wasn't to Satellite. It was odd, I hadn't heard it before.

What's going on?

He kept playing, and Zack joined in. Then, Alex's beautiful voice began singing.

"Swinging in the backyard, pull up in your fast car, whistling my name..."

My stomach dropped. Video Games by Lana Del Ray. Please don't mean what I think it means.

"Open up a beer and said, "Get over here and play a video game..." He continued to sing, unknowing of my heart shattering.

I set my guitar down, and looked at Rian. He gave me a sad look, and it confirmed all my questions.

Alex was proposing to Lisa.

"It's you, it's you, it's all for you. Everything I do, I tell you all the time. Heaven is a place on earth with you."

I leant back on the wall for support, my heart couldn't handle this.

Alex ended the song, and I looked over to Lisa to see tears in her eyes. Alex set down his guitar, and slowly walked toward her.

"Lisa, we've been together for 6 years, and I have never ever doubted my love for you. Yeah, we may have fought like little babies, but I love you, and I want to spend the rest of my life with you." I looked away. "Will you marry me?"

I heard squealing that sounded like pigs dying, and I looked to see Lisa and Alex kissing. I felt the tears before they came, and I knew I had to get out of there. But I didn't move. If I did, that would've told Alex something, and then my cover would be blown. So I sucked it all up, and stood taller.

I felt a hand on my shoulder.

"Sorry man, I didn't want to tell you because I knew you wouldn't have come if you would've known. He needs you, you're his best friend." Zack said quietly.

"Yeah, we were more than best friends once."

-

We got through the rehearsal very slowly, because now that Lisa and Alex are engaged, she feels the need to comment her opinion on every song we do, even the old ones. She gets all excited saying, "OH THAT WAS THE BEST ONE," and then says the same thing about the next song. She told us once that she disliked Jasey Rae, and now when we practiced it she jumped up and started to cartwheels.

That made Rian, Zack, and I share a look.

Alex and Lisa decided to go hang out, so the rest of us went to Starbucks. It was Rian's suggestion.

"Can I tell him?" Zack asked.

"It doesn't matter anymore." I muttered, avoiding his gaze.

I heard whispering, a slight gasp, and I closed my eyes tight to stop myself from crying.

"Jack I'm sorry dude." Rian's voice said. I nodded slowly, unable to speak.

Have you ever had that feeling where you want to cry so badly, and refuse to, so every movement you make, everything you say, it makes you cry? That's what I'm feeling right now.

"We can go drink after the show tonight. We won't be performing for another two days after that."

"That sounds like the least fun thing to do right now. I just want to crawl in my bed and be a sad white girl for the rest of my life."

"Leave the being a white girl to me thank you. We'll find you another guy, someone better than-"

"Don't say it." I stopped him. I still had my eyes closed, so I only heard a sigh.

"It's been six years, Jack. Even you know this isn't healthy." Zack said.

"But we were together for five. I loved him then, I love him now, even if he loves someone else." That hurts.

"I know the feeling, bud."

Do you? Do you really?

I stayed silence the rest of the time.

-

We were in the middle of the show. We had just finished Kicking & Screaming, and this was the moment Alex decided to tell the fans.

"I'm engaged!" Alex yelled excitedly. The fans yelled back with the same excitement.

"To me." I joked, and Alex looked at me and smiled. This cause them to scream louder and yell Jalex.

"No, no, no, sillies. To Lisa obviously!" Alex said frustratedly.

He didn't like people bringing up Jalex. He even told the fans that. They're right for shipping it, because we were a thing once, and if Lisa hadn't butted in 6 years ago, we would still be together.

After chatting the crowd up some more, and the occasional bra being thrown, we went on to playing Dear Maria. The rest of time flew by, and soon I was back in my hotel room, laying on my bed crying.

My heart was hurting. Seeing the one person you love, and probably the only person you'll ever love, propose to THEIR love, is just heart wrenching.

I decided to go to sleep to get it off my mind, hoping to get some rest.

-

"Good Morning Jacky." Alex murmured in his sleepy voice. I smiled, and snuggled up into his chest.

"Morning."

"Do you want to stay in bed or go get some breakfast?"

"Bed." He chuckled at that.

"I thought so."

I listened to his heartbeats. The steadiness almost made me fall asleep, but Alex's hands were keeping me alert. They were making soft circles on my arm, but they were also going down. I may have had my eyes closed, but I knew where he was headed.

"Zack and Rian are right over in the next room, and these walls are probably paper thin." I whispered.

"Don't worry, you'll just have to stay quiet." Alex replied, his hot breath hitting my neck, making me shiver.

"Alex."

"Jack."

"Ugh fine." I sat up, rolled him onto his back and straddled him. "Better?"

"Only if you kiss me." I smirked at him. I leant down and hovered my lips over his. His eyes were begging, but I was going to tease the fuck out of him.

I bit his bottom lip and let my hands run down his sides. I felt a small moan escape his lips, and that just encouraged me more. I left kisses on his jawline, leading down his neck, and down his torso. He was clenching his fists, and I knew that I had got him.

"Fuck, Jack, c'mon already."

I smirked while running my fingers over his boxers.

"You want it that bad?" I asked.

"Yes."

I sat up quickly. I was panting, and I knew I had a boner. I looked at the clock, and it read 7:30 am.

"Fucking hell." I muttered, running a hand through my hair. "Why?" I whacked my head.

Well I wasn't getting anymore sleep so I might as well make the best of it. I turned on my phone and went to twitter. I saw a bunch messages about the engagement, and how Jalex should be real, and that Lisa was a beard. I laughed at it. Oh, if only they knew.

I tweeted 'Good Morning world, and all who inhabits it.' and then went scrolling through my feed once more. I did this for about an hour before Alex texted me to start getting ready because we have an interview.

I sighed, and got out of my comfy bungalow.

I pulled on some clothes laying around and headed out the door. I wasn't gonna bother with my hair, it could fix itself.

Rian was in the hall waiting, on his phone and Starbucks in his hand.

"Where's Zack and Alex?" I asked, bored. I suddenly became interested in my fingernails.

"Zack should be out any second now, but I'm not sure about Alex." He replied, slightly getting quieter every word. He looked like he regretted saying it. I understood. Alex was with Lisa.

I sighed and sat down on the floor. It's only been one day and I'm so hung up on it. I needed to get over it. He loves her, and she loves him, and they're gonna make little Lisex babies and live happily ever after while I'm stuck here.

I looked up at him and asked,

"Still up for those drinks?"

-

"So, Jack, we know that everyone has girlfriends," The interviewer started, "but we don't know about you. Do you have a special someone?"

I laughed nervously.

"Nah, I'm a lone wolf."

Lone wolf? Really Jack? What an idiot!

"That's too bad! We were really hoping you had found someone. It's been forever since you're last girlfriend." I gritted my teeth.

"Yeah, it has."

Yeah, but it was a boy. The boy sitting by Rian. The boy who I love. The boy who's engaged.

"Since these questions are absolutely boring, let's play a game! How about, hmm, Twister?" The interviewer smirked at us as they said it.

"Yeah, sure." Alex said happily. Then we all got situated, and we began. Rian had Left Hand on Green and Right foot on Red. Zack had Left Hand on blue and Left foot on green. I had Left Hand on Green, Right foot on Blue, and Left foot on Red. Alex had Right and Left hand on blue, which happened to be him bent down in front of me. I held in my breath, afraid of any noises I might make. I could feel myself getting hard since his ass was right in front of me, but I kept quiet.

"Alex, left foot on blue." The interviewer said. We all knew this would end badly.

He bent back, stretching his leg out, and slipped, bumping into me. We fell down, I knocked into Rian, and Zack was toppled over by Rian. Alex was sitting on my lap laughing, and I was so tempted to kiss him.

God, he's so perfect.

I just wish he was mine still.

-

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