《Lost and Insecure (ManxBoy)》Chapter 28
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One Month Later...
As the exhausting weeks passed by, there was no sign of Alexander getting better. He stayed in the same position mostly everyday until a maid would lay him in a different position so he wouldn't get bed sores.
A variety of people came and went as they visited Alexander. I didn't know he had so many friends but I guess he was really respected among his people.
Every day I hoped Alexander would wake up but the longer time passed... I knew it wasn't happening.
The difficult thing was that Max and James were talking about cutting him off life support so he could die peacefully, but the problem was that I wouldn't let them.
So now I slept in the same room as Alexander and never left unless I had to shower, eat or needed some fresh air.
Other than that, I watched who came into his room and talked to Alexander like he was wide awake sometimes. Even though I cried more than actually talked.
Nana wasn't doing any better either. She tried so many times to see Alexander but she would break down before she could even open the door.
One time I found her crying in Alexander's abandoned room with a heart shaped necklace Alexander made for her birthday when he was little.
She held the necklace close to her heart and cherished the small object with all her love. That was probably the most heart breaking thing I have ever seen.
I knew I was being selfish by not letting Alexander properly pass away but I just couldn't do it..
I rocked myself in a chair as I continued to look blankly at Alexander. My mind was going crazy not knowing what to do. Max had every right to decide what should be done to his brother and here I was keeping him away from it.
"Luke, we need to talk." James announced by the door as he entered the room.
He sat on the chair beside me and let out a heavy sigh once he saw Alexander. His eyes were no longer filled with joy but with hurt as he stared at his best friend.
"I know it's rough, Luke. It's the same for everybody here but you have to face the fact that Alex is gone and is basically suffering in those machines. Do you want to keep seeing him suffering like this?" James said and pointed at Alexander.
I stayed quiet and bit my lip to stop myself from crying. Everything he was telling me I already knew.
"Trust me, it hurts like crazy to lose a friend like Alexander but there is nothing we can do but finally let him rest.." James continued and wiped a tear away.
I got up from my seat and walked towards Alexander. I grabbed his limp hand and held it close to me. I looked down at him and pushed a loose strand of hair from his emotionless face.
"It's not fair, James. I was finally happy..." I whimpered out and tried to control myself from crying again.
I felt James beside me and his arm around my shoulders in a comforting way. "Out of all the years I've known Alexander, I have never seen him smile or laugh until they day you suddenly showed up here. In a way you finally made him happy as well..." he replied.
That's when I couldn't hold it anymore and just broke down crying in James's arms. He held me tightly and cried along with me.
"James, I can't to do it. The pain is too strong for me to handle. I need him so much." I sobbed into his chest.
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I felt James rub my back to calm me down but nothing worked.
"Luke, just let us turn off the life support.."
I wiped my face and didn't have the energy to fight or argue anymore. Maybe it was time for Alexander to finally rest..He was probably in pain and wanted to die but I was being the selfish one and not letting him do it.
"O-Okay." I breathed out.
Not long after James informed everybody that Alexander's life support was going to be finally turned off. Maids lined up outside to say their goodbyes and each took turnes thanking him for saving them from horrible homes.
I left to Nana's room and wondered if she heard about what was happening. She layed in bed with a light pink gown on as she looked out the window as if she was dreaming.
"Nana.." I said and stepped inside the room.
She stayed still and continued to look out the window. I sat beside her and finally got her attention. I noticed her eyes were red from crying like mine.
"Nana, James and Max are going to cut Alexander's life support soon..everybody is saying goodbye so you should do it as well. " I gently informed the once sweet old woman.
Nana got up from the bed and sat beside me. "Oh Luke, I always imagined I would die before Alexander did. Nevef did I dream of being in this position suffering like this..." she whispered in a barely audible voice.
I waited patiently as she took in a shaky breath and exhaled. "...I guess nobody in this world will live forever. Not even the strong minded boy I raised to be one of the world's most threatening vampire." she continued with a hint of pride in her voice.
I looked down at my hands and saw how pale they were. I digged my nails into the top part of my hand to stop myself from crying for the tenth time today..
It was quiet as Nana and I just enjoyed the comfort of the silence.
"Luke, you have no idea how happy you made Alexander. I will forever thank you for seeing who he really was and still loving him for it.." Nana said with fresh tears in her eyes.
She embraced me in a tight hug that I returned immediately. We stayed in that position for a good five minutes until she stopped crying.
We left her room and went to where Alexander was staying. There wasn't anymore maids as we stood in front of the door.
Nana didn't want to go inside but she knew this would be the last time she would see Alexander. She gathered her strength and stepped inside with me.
The room was quiet except for the beeping machines that was the only thing keeping Alexander alive. I swallowed hard as Nana approached Alexander's bed side. It didn't even take five seconds before she was crying.
The saddest part was that she still cleaned the side of his face with a tissue like a child. She fixed his hair and gave him a sad smile.
The fact that her instincts to care and help Alexander was a natural thing for her now was just amazing. She was practically his mother and I couldn't imagine how she was feeling at the moment seeing him this way.
"Your Nana will love and miss you dearly my handsome Alejandro, so make sure yo-...you say hello to your mother for me, okay?" Nana told Alexander with a crack in her voice, showing how strong she was trying to be.
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I wiped my tears at her comment and left the room before I continued to hurt myself with Nana's honest words.
This all felt like a horrible nightmare that I couldn't wake myself up from. I stayed outside the room for awhile to compose myself again.
I sat against the opposite wall and glanced to my right when I saw Julie walking towards me. What surprised me was the fact that she didn't have a frown or a single evidence that she was upset.
How could she be so happy knowing Alexander's life support was going to get cut off?
I stayed quiet and hoped she wouldn't talk to me but luck was obviously not on my side, but then again ...when has it ever been?
She sat beside me and even had the nerve to give me a smile. I looked blankly at her and waited for her to say something annoying.
"The water is sweet but blood is thicker, Luke. Don't let them fool you.." she told me seriously.
I turned my head towards the emo girl and looked at her with a confused expression.
What the hell was she talking about?
"Did you hit your head before you got here or something?" I replied and rolled my eyes.
Julie laughed and leaned her body closer to me like we were great friends having a happy conversation with eachother.
"Oh you are just too funny. No wonder Alexander loves you." she chuckled and quickly stood up.
She started to leave but I got up off the floor as well and rushed after her. "Wait! Aren't you going to say bye to Alexander?"
Julie didn't stop walking and continued on like I never said a word.
I watched as she strolled down stairs in a happy mood and stopped right in front of the door.
She turned around and waved a goodbye with a smile that told me she knew something I didn't..
"Remember what I said, Luke..." was the last thing she yelled at me before she left.
I stood by the staircase rail and tried to make sense of what she told me. What in the world did she mean??
'The water is sweet but blood is thicker, Luke. Don't let them fool you...'
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I forced myself to watch as Max stood by Alexander's bed and slowly reached over to turn off his oxygen.
Maids cried hysterically outside the room and Nana held Alexander's hand while James held the other one. I just stood by the window letting the cold air hit my face.
Everything felt so numb as Max took a deep breath and said a couple of words to Alexander before he turned off the machine.
I wrapped my arms around my own body as the noisy machines slowly faded. I closed my eyes and let out a choked sob at not hearing them anymore.
My heart ached and burned with horrible pain, knowing the hope of Alexander getting better was completely gone.
It all went by so fast as an hour passed and I was left alone with Alexander. I layed beside him and placed my arm on top of his stomach.
My head rested on his chest and I frowned when I couldn't smell his familiar cologne he used. I held him tighter and knew they would want to bury him as soon as possible.
"Alexander...I love you.." I cried softly in his chest and no longer felt the warmth of his body. I couldn't help but cry myself to sleep when I didn't hear his heart beat anymore...
I ended up falling asleep next to Alexander and woke up with a massive headache. I opened my heavy eyelids and tried to rub the sleep out of my eyes.
For a moment I didn't know where I was until I saw the familiar medical machines. I forced myself out of bed and even though I just woke up, I felt drained and exhausted.
My neck suddenly burned like crazy and I didn't understand why. I placed my hand over a specific spot and whimpered in pain as I ran to the bathroom.
I turned on the light and tried to see what was causing the pain. Nothing seemed out of the ordinary until I saw that Alexander's bite mark was still there and was bright red in irritation.
Why was it bruising like that? It's been a long time since Alexander marked me as his.
Did this mean that now that he was dead I no longer belonged to him?..
Realization hit me and soon I was on the ground by the wall crying like a child. Everything good was falling down around me and I couldn't do anything to stop it.
I felt very cold and hurt..
'Luke.'
I silenced my crying once I thought somebody said my name. I waited awhile and waited for somebody to speak.
Was I going crazy?
'Luke.'
I quickly got up the cold bathroom floor and made my way back into Alexander's room. He was still laying down and I looked around to see if anybody else was inside the dark room.
It was very quiet and for a moment shivered in fear at having heard my name being called.
I began to walk back to the bathroom to turn off the light but stopped once that familiar voice said my name again.
Right away I knew it was Alexanders...
I turned around and walked towards him and watched for any sign of lip movement. I begged that I wasn't going crazy and Alexander actually was alive and was calling out for me.
I waited almost five minutes, just deeply inspecting for any sign, but sadly got nothing..
Of course I was only daydreaming.
I ran my fingers through my hair and noticed how long it was getting. I smiled when I could still hear Alexander calling me his 'pretty white haired boy'.
Even though the name annoyed me I loved how he said it with so much admiration in his voice and bright eyes.
I looked back at Alexander and had the strangest urge for him to bite my neck once more. Somehow I missed his fangs on me...
I rubbed my bite mark and felt how irritated it was getting.
James seemed surprised when I told him that Alexander marked me as his and even looked a bit upset about it. He told me the mark basically meant nothing, but something about the way he looked at it made me think otherwise.
'Luke.'
I glanced back at Alexander and thought I was going crazy when I saw his lips move.
I leaned in closer and was happy the moon's light was shinning from the window so I was able to see Alexander better.
"Alexander?" I whispered and waited for his reply.
A couple of seconds passed before I almost cried in happiness when Alexander's lips moved again.
"Luke.." he rasped out.
I gasped in shock and my vision quickly blurred with tears. I quickly blinked them away and didn't know what to do.
Should I call Nana? James?
"Alexander, I'll go get James! He's downstairs sleeping on the couch. He'll know what to do." I said and almost started to walk but Alexander's hand quickly stopped me.
"No. Blood..mark." Alexander replied like it hurt to even talk.
I stood confused for awhile and felt upset for not understanding. Alexander's eyes were still closed but I could see him licking his lips.
He was thirsty and wanted blood but I needed James or Nana to give him a bag of it. He needed them but he didn't want to let me go.
That's when my bite mark once again started to bother me. Then I realized Alexander wanted my blood...
I didn't even think twice before I was leaning down and giving him full access to my neck. I watched with the corner of my eyes as he lifted himself off the bed to give himself enough power to bite me.
It all happened so fast as I soon felt two sharp needle like pain in my neck. I bit my lip to stop myself from screaming out and felt Alexander start to suck harshly.
In less than a second, I was the one laying down on the bed and Alexander was on top of me still attached to my neck. Somehow I no longer felt pain but pleasure..
Why was it so different now? I held Alexander close to me and started to muffle my moans in his shoulder from the pleasure that was erupting through my body.
This all felt too good to be real. For a moment I was scared I was going to wake up and Alexander would still be dead so I held on to him tighter.
I suddenly started to feel dizzy and realized Alexander was drinking all my blood and didn't plan to stop.
"Alexander, that's enough.." I begged and tried to push him off of me. He barely moved an inch and continued his assault.
"Alexander, please stop!" I cried out and whimpered once Alexander got off of me in a rush. My whole neck felt numb and sore as I watched him on the floor holding on to his stomach.
He groaned and growled with his forehead on the floor and I thought he was going to turn into some hideous monster.
But what surprised me was that he suddenly stopped and stood up like he wasn't dead just hours ago. He looked better and healthier. I watched him with wide eyes and saw his eyes shine bright.
He wiped his bloody lip slowly with his thumb then sucked on it. I almost ran into his arms when he looked at me with his handsome smirk.
But that smirk quickly faded once James barged into the room with worry clear in his tired face.
"What's going on?!" he yelled and stopped once he saw Alexander standing only a couple of feet away from him.
I was about to tell him the great news until Alexander suddenly interrupted me. I gasped in shock at his comment and couldn't believe what he was saying...
'Surprised that your plan to kill me didn't work, James?'
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