You haven't took my permission?

Meaning of the quotes in picture☝️:

My wounds will also heal,

You do not mention it with the world,

I am fine,

You, Never again worry about me.

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Shahnoor's POV :-

Beep! Beep! Beep!

I heard beeping sound of machine, I wasn't able to open my eyes neither I tried to. I feel numb at this moment, just the sound of duas (prayer) are visible for my senses,

َيخْرُجُ مِن بُطُونِهَا شَرَابٌ مُّخْتَلِفٌ أَلْوَانُهُ فِيهِ شِفَاء لِلنَّاسِ

yakhruju min butooniha sharaabun mukhtalifun alwaanuhu feehi shifaun lin-naas

وَنُنَزِّلُ مِنَ الْقُرْآنِ مَا هُوَ شِفَاء وَرَحْمَةٌ لِّلْمُؤْمِنِينَ

Wa nunazzilu mina al-qurani ma huwa shifaun wa rahmatun lil-mumineen

It was Ammi's voice, She once told me to recite this duaa when someone gets very sick. I can hear her sobs, the lifeless voice.

'I am sorry, ammi.' I said merely in my thoughts.

I can't hear her sobs, so I tried to call her but my numb body and dumb words weren't able to come out. I tried to tilt my head. It works a little as my head shift slightly to left.

"She's awake." I heard ammi's voice holding amusement.

"Abdullah, she's awake call the doctor." she said again.

"Y-yes ammi, I'll tell shahzaib bhai. He will bring the doctor." I heard Abdullah saying with that the sounds of heavy footsteps running is heard.

"Shahno, meri bacchi (my daughter)" Ammi called me while stroking my head and crying non-stop.

"Amm.." I tried to gain courage to speak out and tell her that I am okay but no, there is no use.

"Yes, tell me what you want to say?" She asked.

"Amm.."That was all my reply before I lose the leftover energy and cried while eyes still close.

"Please be aside, let me see the patient." I heard a male voice, maybe the doctor.

"Ji-ji (yes-yes)" Ammi said stuttering and soon her warmth left my side.

I felt the mattress dig in beside me, than the person open my eyes one by one while flashing the light of torch in them. He took hold of my right wrist that was placed on my stomach and checked for a while than left.

"She is fine now, no need to worry. We'll provide energy in her body through glucose. Make her eat fruits and juice time to time." He said.

"Is there anything we need to know about?" The sound of familiar deep masculine voice,

Shahzaib mirza.

"Yes, don't make her stress out too much." The doctor and got up.

. . . . . . . . . . . .

"Shahno~ beta, open your eyes." I heard ammi calling me again.

I slowly opened my eyes, everything was blurry maybe because of the tears forming in my eyes. Blinking my eyes slowly, my vision cleared.

"Shahno." Ammi whispered as she plant a soft peck on my forehead.

"Am..mi.." I whispered.

"Chachi (aunty) let me see her."I heard farah's voice.

Ammi stood up and farah came in my view. She did smile looking at me but her eyes spoke of agony by the pool of tears visible in those eyes. She sat next to me.

"Shahno, how are you feeling now?" She asked. I nodded with a small smile. She kept looking at me for a moment than spoke,

"Sh-shahno, w-why?" She buried her face in her hands while crying.

"I...am..s-sorry." I whispered but she shake her head in negative and sat straight.

"No-no shahno, I am sorry, " She said.

"I am sorry shahno, you are doing so much to save my life but stubborn me made it all hard for you." She said looking at her hand in her lap.

I find my shaking left hand place on hers. She look at me.

"I'll... Pr-protect you..*takes long breath* I'll protect you as much as I can." I said to her.

"No please, stop here shahno. Please for my sake, please do not harm yourself." She said.

"And let you harm yourself?" I ask.

"I don't wanna talk about anything now." She said while refusing to look at me. Before I can say anything ammi cut me,

"Farah is right, let's talk about this later. You were unconscious for almost 13 hours now. You should eat something."

"Okay." I said in defeat as I know my mother is such a sensitive person. She will not stand with relief until she sees me as strong as before.

"Farah beta, please bring the fruit tray here." Ammi said and she nodded while walking towards the table where the tray was kept.

'Ya Allah, how will I eat so much?' I thought looking at the stuffed tray of all kinds of fruits.

"Ammi~ I am not a hulk." I said Making farah laugh.

This is the first time she laughed after my visit here in India. Ammi cut one apple for me, I silently ate half of it but it made me already full. She feed me with her hand. While she brought another piece of apple in front of me, I turned my head.

"Ammi, I don't want to eat anymore." I

said.

"What? Are you saying that you are already full?" Farah asked.

"Yes and I can't eat anymore." I said.

"Come on shahno, please eat some more." Ammi said.

"No ammi, I can't." I said pushing her hand away.

"Shah-"

"OUT EVERYONE!"

We jumped at the voice of none other than Mr. Shahzaib Ahmed mirza. I look at him terrified. Ya Allah, He is looking so scary with red eyes and clenched jaw. His gaze directly connected to mine, messaging me that he would cut me into pieces.

"But-"

"OUT!" His voice again scared us while cutting farah in the mid sentence.

"No! I will not leave my daughter alone with you." Ammi said to him.

"Aunty, I don't like to repeat myself again and again but since you are my soon to be family,I respect you. So, leave without any harm now." He said controlling his anger.

Farah look towards me and I looked at her shaking my head to not to leave me. But soon two of his men came and took them out in no time. Ammi kept pleading but he didn't listen once.

Now its just me and him. My gaze lifted towards his murderous one. He was wearing same white pathani from his haldi function, indicating he didn't change. His pathani has dried blood patches all over.

"I thought you were a smart kid, but sadly you are dumbest of all in the world." He said.

'I am not.' I replied in my thoughts as tears made their way to my cheeks.

"Now, why are you crying Baccha?" He slow heavy steps towards me.

I was beyond scared. Ya Allah, please save me.

"Tell me.." He said in low voice.

"Don't you listen...TELL ME!" He shouted while holding both of my arms in death grip.

"Ah.." I cried in pain.

"TELL ME!"

"I-I..ahh..leleave.." I tried to get out but the hold was too tight.

"Does it hurt?" He asked and I nodded violently as if he would leave me but his grip became more tight.

"Than how did you cut your wrist?Huh!?" He said, I turn my head towards my right.

Getting notice such gesture of mine, he leaved my left arm and grip my chin forcefully making me look at him. His jaw clenched, eyes deathly red and anyone beside me would be here can surely say that he held 'murder intention'.

"You are so selfish." He said.

"I am not." I said while crying, trying to convince but why?

"Oh! Really? But that's not true. I told you my worst past but this is how you react on it?" He said as if he had any kind of hopes from me. I look down while tears trickle down.no

"Don't you know its a sin to end your life like that?" He said and I look at him.

"I-"

"DON'T YOU KNOW?" He yelled at my face.

"I KNOW..I...know..I know..ahh.." I repeated each word with agony and started crying.

"THEN WHY?" He shouted.

"Because I am tired...Not jjust b-because of you but..because of this world, So I wanted to rest..just like.. Your Abba." I said looking in his eyes, his grip loosened at the moment.

He stood up and turn his back on me. For a moment there was silence, I kept looking at his back. He rubbed his face with his hand and ruffled his hair in frustration. He turn towards me, than sat down. I hesitantly shifted a little away. He took a long breath than slowly hold my wounded left hand. I tried to take back my hand but he didn't let me instead he hold my right wrist as well. Stroking his thumb on the bandaged left hand he lost in his thoughts, I look at him with teary eyes.

Shahzaib's POV :-

I am tired of this girl. I haven't seen such stubborn person like her before. She is too much, she may show that she is strong but I am Shahzaib Ahmed mirza and she is nothing in front of me. But right now she is making me weak. How easy it is for her to use my abba's name here. She knows my weakness and now she is trying to use it but I won't let her.

The Mafia king of Red devils won't let his status down in front of any venerable girl.

"You...haven't took my permission." I said looking at her wound.

"J-ji?(y-yes?)" She asked raising her brows.

"I. Said. You haven't took my permission." I said pointing the important words.

"F-for what?" She asked stuttering in fear.

"For dieing." I said and pressed my thumb tightly on her wound.

"Ahh..." She cried in pain.

I clenched my jaw tightly while looking at her crying mess. She tried removed her right hand from my grip and put it on my thumb trying to remove it.

"Sh-shahzaib Bhai... Please..ahh.." She cried and I was stunned. My grip loosened at her words.

"What did you said?"

To be continued...