Niall's P.O.V

Zayn is talking to Harry. He seems to be very happy. I'm so sad when I see he talks with somebody else though. I'm such a mean person. But it is still Zayn's fault. He has turned me into this.

We have been dating for over 2 months and yet, we haven't talked to each other, kissed or done something else together for almost 1 month. I miss that old days when Zayn use to be on my side everyday. I must admit it was quite annoying when Zayn used to be next to me everyday and complain about how I was ignoring him, and now I'm suffering the same thing.

"Zayn, do you feel like talking now?" I ask Zayn. This opportunity is really hard to find since Zayn always spends time with the boys.

"Yes babe? Is there anything?" Zayn speaks nonchalantly. It's hard to figure out we were in love by the way he speaks to me, so friendly but not lover-like.

"I struggle to find a way to get my idea across without making up any misunderstanding between us. "Do you like me Zayn?" I finally picks up my line, feeling my heart skips a beat.

"Yes." It's still the same answer. I ask Zayn the same question several times and he tells me the sane answer numerousof times, but each time waiting for his answer is still the same nervousness. I mean, what if one day he tells differently, that he's not interested in me anymore? Though I think of that more than once, I'm still not ready for that and if that moment does come, I think I'll just die.

I love Zayn more than anything. We starts as a bromance to satisfy the demand of our fans. We whisper, and touch, and... Not just me and Zayn, Harry and Louis, Louis and Liam, Liam and Zayn, Liam and Harry, Harry and me... but I never get this same feeling that I have for Zayn. It is something very different that I've never had in my life, even with a girl, with the lads, with my parents or with myself, it's just very weird. I soon defined it and this feeling is called love... well just maybe...

"Thanks." That's the end of our conversation. I love Zayn so much that I'm afraid if I ask anything further, he would answer something different from what I had planned. I'm afraid he would break up with me. Yes this is not like me. I'm not used to being a coward.

Zayn's P.O.V

Niall asks me that question again. I don't know what he means by that. I really want him to say something clearer, for instance "Show me!" or "Prove your love to me right now!" or "Why don't you talk to me?".

Yes it is true I don't talk to him in the last few days. I want to be desired, I want to be loved. Yes I'm a man, but who says a man is tough? I'm a man and I want to be petted by the person I love. What does it take for him to say something like aforesaid?

...

"Oh hey Zayn!" Harry calls me, I didn't notice he was here, in this bar. I thought he would never come to a place like this. Well then it's proved that he does.

Harry makes his way in the crowd. He stands there next to me on the counter. "A cold beer!" He orders as he turns to face me. "What are you doing here Zayn?"

"My question the same. Thought you were with Louis." I said cheekily.

"Hmm well El swipped him off his feet early in the evening, I guess I'm alone now." Harry complains.

"Poor you! Liam?" I suggest.

"Whataya mean Liam?" Harry freaks out. Yup I know something is wrong between them. Lirry! Though I asked him numerous times, Harry refused to spill his so-obvious-secret to me.

"I kinda understand how you feel, mate!" I laugh. Man I love teasing Haz.

"Yeah I know you do. You got quite plenty experiences with your leprechaun." Harry jerks.

"Shut up..." I say with a weak tone. No one is able to call my Niall like that, except for me. Speaking of it, I haven't seen myself calling Niall with that name since months!

"What's wrong? Do I remind you of your boyfriend?" Harry's laughter is really pissed me off. I don't like being teased, even though it is true.

"Boyfriend my arse!" Yup I said that, but I seriously didn't mean that. Niall is my boyfriend, I know it deep down in my heart, I just don't want to make it too clear that's all. I'll lose my dignity if someone finds out we are dating, and so does Niall.

"Haizzz I can't understand you sometimes Zayn. You're in love with Niall, and he is too. You make it too clear the first month, but when there are rumors, you back off so easily. You know that might hurt Niall." Harry sincerely reminds me.

'Mind you own bussiness, Styles." I hate it when someone tells me what to do in a relationship, MY relationship. And yet, I'm not chickening out, I'm just waiting for Niall's sign.

"Yah I'm just trying to direct you in the right path, that's all. Take care lad!" Then he walks away. I look at him leave and see a girl waving for him. Seriously, that guy, no wonder why Liam doesn't even notice him fancying him. Styles, you've got more work than I have.

Niall's P.O.V

"Morning Liam!" I say loudly as Liam walks past. He is like... the only one can get up this early in the morning.

"Hey Nialler!" Liam smiles. His smile is like a glass of cool water in the hot day. He's my bestest friend, well maybe it's because Zayn, Harry and Louis is also the best. "Whatcha doin in the kitchen? Do you want something?"

"Yup sandwich, please!" I feel comfortable and unaware of me being a jerk sitting around playing video games while Liam has to make breakfast for me.

"So what is it between you and Zayn?" Liam places the sandwich in front of me while he sit himself down.

"What do you mean?" My eyes are widely opened. I could never know Liam know. He's like the most sensitive one, if anyone notices that, it must be him, and if he can't, no one can. I bear in mind the thought that this is only our little secret, Zayn's and mine. "Who told you that?"

Liam smiles. "So it must be the truth, eh? Sorry Niall, Harry told me that!" He laughs out loud as I freeze to death. I might overestimate Liam, but I had underestimated Harry. "So, as Zayn might say now, vas happenin'?"

"Haha," I fake a laughter, "nothing happens. I'm being advoided, that's all!" At first, I was about to say that I was fine, but then as I looked into Liam's brown eyes, I knew I couldn't lie to him. And the words just bursted out!

"Awww come on! Don't cry!" Liam pokes my face, which makes me laugh out loud instantly.

"Hey there Niall!" Harry walks in. As usual, he's the third riser in the house, or sometimes the second after Liam, of course.

"Is there Niall the only one you can notice?" Liam looks at Harry expectedly.

"Oh hi Li, I didn't see you there." Harry smirks while Liam is pissed. I know he was just kidding, they often tease each other.

"Geez thanks!" Liam pushes his lips, pissed.

"Haha!" Harry always knows how to steal the spot light. He grabs Liam by the neck and look at me warningly. "If you are trying seduce my Liam, back off 'coz he's mine!"

Then he bursts out laughing, I smile goofily while Liam blushes like mad. Awkward much?!

"Hey lads! I'm going out!" I suddenly hear Louis voice at the doorway.

"So early, Boo?" Harry shouts as he receives Louis gesturing the phone: Eleanor.

"I thought Zayn is the forth riser at this place?" I concern.

"Last night he didn't come home!" Harry replies frantically. "I saw him at the bar last night. He must have hooked up with a gir- Ouch Liam!" Liam jabs Harry's stomach.

I'm so dull right now. I don't know what to say. Zayn with a girl. Why can't I think of that? This is the reason he ignores me all along, isn't it?

"Oh no Niall. It's not that, babe!" Liam is saying something I can hardly hear. All occupy my mind now is Zayn overnight with a girl. Why am I so foolish not noticing it before? I trusted him!

"Why don't you call it to check him out?" Harry plainly comes up with a 'good' idea.

"Oh yeah? Then tell what? That I love you so muchie and don't hook up with anyone else but me?" Liam snaps. "You have no position for coming up with this suggestion, Styles. You are the one that often vanish with a girl the most."

There's something rather jealous in Liam's voice. I don't know. It's just me. My senses are all frozen. Before, I am afraid of the world knowing about this, but now all that I think about is that I might lose Zayn.

"You got a better idea?" Harry raises his eyebrow, ignorant of the fact that Liam just snapped him something really harsh. Liam frowns, he has never got involved in this kind of relationship ever before. Harry smirks as he knows he has got the boy totally numb. "Serious, dude! When a man know that he is cared about, he'll be very pleased and cuddle up in your arms again."

"You are suggesting that I should call you every 5 minutes to check on you?" It's Liam's turn to raise his eyebrow. Harry widens his eyes as if he had just found something really interesting. Liam stands up and says plainly. "Never mind!" He's blushing, I wonder.

"Hey, wait up!" Harry tries to reach the other boy as he winks at me.

... So is that it? When a man knows he is cared, he'll feel pleased and cuddle in your arms? All I ever want is for Zayn to feel pleased... and maybe cuddling after that.

Zayn's P.O.V

I pick up my stuff. Last night I almost swept away by an unfamiliar girl. She's hot but as Niall's image flashed through my mind, I decided to rent a room and stay there for the night, alone.

"Where are you? - Nialler" Niall's message. Is alcohol still playing around with my head or am I dreaming.

"At the hotel. I'm checking out. -ZM" I replies plainly. I regret not making it longer. I've been waiting for this message ages ago. Why doesn't he text it earlier. Just one. It doesn't cost much.

It takes a while to receive Niall's reply. "You worried me. Need I pick you up? - NH"

"Nah I'm going home right now & you can't drive yourself. - MZ"

...

I get home. I ring the doorbell and immediately, the door swing open. Niall must have been waiting for me, eh?

"Where's everybody?" I ask, looking around curiously. Don't tell me they are searching for me. I'm not that important, or aren't I?

"Lou with El, Haz with Li... And me alone.... I... have no one!" Niall sounds vulnerable.

You have no one, what is that supposed to mean? What am I to you? I want to scream out at the top of my voice that, but I can't. Something stuck.

"I'm here" I suggest.

Niall turns his back, eyes on me sternly. "Are you?"

"Yes? What do you mean by that?" Where will this conversation lead us? No, it should be: Where is Niall leading me to?

"You don't seem to be here, Zayn. I mean...," Niall pauses and i notice a painful expression on his face. "you are my boyfriend, right?"

"Yes hell Niall. You're frightening me. What is wrong with you asking stupid question? Would you please stop asking whether I like you or are you my boyfriend? I'm sick of those!"

"You're sick of me now? Are you saying you want to break up? Don't you like me?" Tears are streaming down his face. He's not good at English. And I know he is not good at making question, but please, what does he want me to answer? What kind of idea is he trying to get across?

I was about to answer when suddenly something dawns on my mind. "NO Niall. NO! I don't like you anymore. I'm sick of you and yours asking things that so obvious. I don't like you! I should tell you earlier... that I DON'T LIKE YOU... I love you." There I said it! It easier than I thought.

"I love you Niall." I move in closer to hold his hand. He bites his lips in attempt to stop those tears and hide that happy smile. I kiss his hair. "I'm sorry to have made it so hard for us. I'm sorry for ignoring you. All these time we've been chasing each other around, I want you to admit that you love me and to see your jealous face, but you, on the other hand, want me to take the first step. But all that matters to me right now is to hold you in my arms, Ni! I love you!"

"I love you too! Thank you and sorry!" Niall smiles. My leprechaun smiles. I kiss him on the lips, first slow but then wild. I've been waiting for this and it's really hard to resist his charming scene.

"My place?" I whisper.

Niall looks at me with the most disgusting expression ever. I know he just pretends it. He's taking it into consideration and I know he will say.... Yup, he nods.

So good night!

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A/N: This is not the one I'm looking for, but... it's... OK I ran out of idea in the middle, so the half is kinda rush and... similar to others... Hope it's not too bad. So vote comment fan?