tap. tap. tap.

those are the only aggressive sounds i hear from my side as kenma was muttering insults to his opponents. he was dead serious on his game and it made me sigh even more at the fact that i can't bother or talk to him.

kuroo on the other hand was held in detention lately for trying to hold off his two classmates from fighting, but ended up getting involved in it. he'll be back any minute soon, but the longer i wait, the more i think about the scenes from last saturday.

'how about now?'

those words entered my mind along with his enchanting yet deep voice, whispering on my ear. i groaned and ruffled my hair in hope that my mind will erase those words. but no matter how much it made me lose my sanity, i can't stop my face from heating up.

if it wasn't for the train that came that day, i would've completely drown in his words and eyes.

i started thinking what i was about to answer if the train didn't interrupt us. i started wondering what else he'll do or say if we stayed there for a bit more. i wondered... if i reached a bit more, will i be able to hear the words that i want to hear?

i groaned in frustration even more, kicking the air and planting my face on the table. kenma seems to be a bit startled at my actions and also annoyed because it kept on affecting his gaming.

"(l/n)... what's wrong?" kenma called out with a sigh, still aggressively playing his game.

i lifted my head up a bit and sighed, "kenma, what would you do if the person you like suddenly confessed to you?"

"shouldn't you be happy then?" he mumbled and i groaned even more, hearing his voice inside my mind made me want to tear myself apart.

"i don't know." i mumbled, "it wasn't a normal confession."

my words came out muffled and my mind was drowning in thoughts. no, it wasn't normal, it wasn't those typical confessions i see in movies and read in fan fictions. his was... strange and mysterious, i knew he was looking straight at me, i knew those words are meant for me, but something about it... was just luring me in a trap.

it was like how the predator finally caught his prey, but he never ate or hurt it. just boring his eyes right into its soul in silence.

and a thought entered my mind, is he hesitating?

"if it's not normal, then shouldn't you be more interested?" kenma mumbled again and my attention went back to him.

"don't i have to be worried?" my eyebrows crashed in confusion at him.

"normal is too boring, experiencing something different is like going on an adventure with a risk."

"what risk?"

"pain."

i went silent at the response and buried my face on my arms even more. kenma just made everything more confusing. his words just messed up my mind even more. but something about it made me think deeply.

"kenma, what if i pulled you by your waist?"

he froze and was startled at my sudden question. his thumbs stopped tapping the device and the word 'game over' was placed on the screen. he went completely stunned as his face heated up.

"w-what are you talking about?" he scooted away from me a bit.

i scooted closer to him, "what if my face was an inch closer to yours and i suddenly whispered something on your ear?"

his eyes widened even more and the panic inside him rises. he scooted away from me again, his face becoming traumatized at each move i make towards him. he gripped his phone tightly and gulped nervously.

"are you drunk?" his eyebrows furrowed and all i could do was stare at him, observing his reaction.

"what if you said that you're not sure about my feelings and i whispered, 'how about now?' while in the process of doing those actions lately?" i continued to flooded him with questions and the more i ask, the more he gets traumatized.

"i would've lost m-my mind... (l/n). now stop." he said while panicking as he noticed that he's already at the edge of the seat.

"exactly!" i beamed and my eyes shined, "that's exactly how i feel!"

he let out a sigh of relief upon seeing my normal state now. but it quickly faded away when i moved closer to him again, just a few movements and leaning and our lips might crash to each other.

"now imagine this, you like me and i did those actions to you."

his face turned into a color of a white sheet paper and the panic rises more inside him. his face started to heat up later and before he can even utter a word, a snap from our right caught our attention.

kuroo was standing there with his phone on his hand. as he lowered it down, we can see his teasing smirk, "oya oya?"

and both of our eyes widened as i feel kenma almost fainting beside me.