He's the vocalist!? I slowly gulped, this is my first time seeing him like this. My heart-

Everyone was screaming and cheering for them.

The lights started to turn red and then I heard his voice.

Even if you want to throw it away

It's like garbage that's piled up

I'm living this "life" today

I didn't know why but my mouth was slightly open, his voice sounded like an angel or what, but the meaning of the lyrics are so sad and

The way his expressions change.. he really is feeling the song.

I want to die.

I want to die.

I want to die.

I want to die.

I want to die.

But.. I can't.

My eyes widened, his eyes met mine. His red ruby eyes was shouting Who is hurting him?

As the song continues, it feels like he was on the verge of crying.

I want to die.

But I hate it.

I don't want to suffer.

But reality is better than that.

Painful and painful.

I want to die.

I was quietly listening to him, everyone was quiet shocked too. He was singing his heart out.

I felt goosebumps as I continuee to look at him, I was staring at him so intently that I saw the tears that was slowly dripping down his beautifuk red ruby eyes.

My heart started to shatter, he continued singing. And when the song ended everyone was screaming.

"Repeat it!"

"That vocalist is so talented!"

"Is that the 3rd year student!?"

"He's a great mage right?!"

I blinked a couple of times, and yet again our eyes met and I saw how his eyes were covered by his black hair but he was looking at me with a small smile plastered on his face.

I smiled slightly and showed him a thumbs up, he bowed and walked out of the stage. Wow.

KYAAAHH!!! I mentally screamed to myself. Okay I wasn't expecting that!

"Athy! Omg that vocalist was great, isn't he?" Jennette who was beside me was also shocked. "He's your classmate right? He's going to be popular now." She chuckled, I just nodded and smiled.

"I guess he will. Oh well, I'm a bit hungry tho. Let's eat and go back to the dorms, shall we?" Jennette nodded, as for Ejikiel he was just beside us all night long.

JENNETTE WAS RIGHT. He really got popular! Why is he beside me again? Why why why--

"Lucas, can I get your autograph?"

"Oh my gosh, you were so good!"

"Your voice was great!"

"Can you come to my tea party and sing us that song again?"

Lucas who just came was quiet shocked, he looks cute tho- HAHAHAHA. "Uhm.. can ya'll chill?" He said with his bored look.

"B-But you were great!" Oh, who is she? Now I remember she's that daughter of a Count! She looks pretty--

"Thank you, but can you guys move? I need to sit down" he said, and everyone did what they were told to. But that one girl blushed and didn't even dared to move.

Seriously? Do you want him to throw you using magic--

My eyes widened when he slowly moved her. Why are you so gentle with her!? What? Am I a joke to you?! Seriously I-

"Just move and give me privacy." He said and she nodded before walking away. He sighed and drooped down his desk.

I shook my head. Athy you shouldn't care right? Yes, I shouldn't. He didn't even bother to go to some stalls with me-

Well I mean it's not like I wanted to go with him but--

"Was the song good?" Being the clumsy princess I am, I almost fell down my chair but he quickly catched me.

Using his magic. I glared at him, so you going to touch them and not me? What-- I'm literally 8 inches away from you?!

"So, was the song good?" He asked me again after I sat back. I looked at him and shrugged my shoulders while answering.

"Well, it was.. nice" I said and looked away, IT WAS PERFECT!!

"Nice? Well, that's okay for a first time." My eyes widened. First time!?

"What do you mean first time?!" Due to shockness, I forgot that I was trying to avoid this smug guy right infront of me.

"Well, I never went to our practice, gave me the role, the instrumental the lyrics that's it." My mouth was wide open. How can you do that!?

"You shouldn't leave you mouth open wide like that." He said while smirking, I quickly covered my mouth. That was embarassing.

"Shut up. Well, atleast you did good for a first time tho." I said and smiled him. "I really felt the pain while you were singing. It was like, you really wanted to die" I said while looking at my book.

Why is he so silent? Am I right--

I stopped when I saw him a little shocked and his mouth was opened slightly. I blinked a couple of times

"Ahem." I said "are you okay Lucas?" I asked him, he sighed deeply and just nodded.

Ever since that talk with him, he tried avoiding me in every way possible.

And I am so done with him! I am currently inside my dorm, in a very bad mood. Why is he avoiding me!? Am I right that he wanted to die?

But why? What's the reason that he wanted to die? There's alot of things that you can enjoy.

Lucas.. What's hurting you so much to the point that you want to die? What is it?

I didn't know why but his voice and the lyrics of the song suddenly started playing inside my mind.

I don't want to suffer.

But reality is better than that.

Painful and painful.

I want to die.

He doesn't want to suffer, is he suffering alone all this time? I walked to my balcony and looked at the night sky and sighed.

Painful? What's so painful that tears started flowing down your eyes while singing that song? What is it Lucas?

I know that I shouldn't mind because it's not my business anyway and we're not that close but why?

My eyes widened when I saw him walking all alone outside, he was looking down. But he suddenly stopped and looked up, he was looking at the moon.

Oh, it's full moon today.

But then, it felt like there was a lump inside my throat when I heard him sing.

I want to die.

But I can't.

I want to help you, Lucas..