Amber -

I didn't think Jayce was serious when he said we were going to a counseling session this morning. He didn't even stay home last night, he grabbed his clothes and left, for all I knew he could of been with some woman. The excuse he gave me was that he spent the night at his mothers to gather his thoughts. Part of me wanted to pick up the phone and call her but that would be childish so I let it be.

I was trying to believe him, but the way his phone was blowing up non stop was telling me different. We were sitting on the couch waiting on our names to be called when his phone went off the hook. I looked over at him but he didn't even seem to care. It went off again and my attitude was starting to get worse.

"At least you can do is turn it off Jayce," I snapped angrily.

"It ain't shit but emails, you wanna check it," he said arrogantly as he handed me the phone. As much as I wanted too, I rolled my eyes and turned my head.

"Mr and Mrs. Taylor, hi I'm Nadine Woods," a tall, dark-skinned woman said as she came from one of the back rooms.

"Hi," I said as we stood up.

"Nice to meet you," she said as she shook hands with both me and Jayce.

"Follow me right this way to my office," she said with a smile while leading the way. We walked to the office and sat down on the couch while she sat in front of us.

"Do you guys mind if I write things down I just want to keep a fresh memory for later on, I promise I will dispose of it after our session, anything you say to me will be confidential," she said before crossing her legs.

"We don't mind," Jayce said as he sat back.

"Well where do you guys want to start? I mean what led you here?" Me and Jayce looked at each other, I was hesitant, and didn't want to say much of anything, I really wanted to know what was on his mind and where his heart was. So I let him do the talking.

"Well uh, everything everything was fine at first, Amber is and will always be the love of my life, we've been together since our twenties, she was in school and I was right there by her side, my mind was on the paper and getting things set up for us to have a good life now in our thirties and forties I didn't want us worried about anything, but now I guess things our going down a different path, and I don't want it to go that way I want us to stay married and to stay happy," he said.

"And what's the path that things are leading too?"

"Divorce, I mean if we keep going about things the way we go about them,"

"Can you be more specific?"

"I kept something from her something that I did, I didn't feel like I needed to bring that up cause every since I was a youngin, I was out here reckless in these streets not caring about what I did, but when I met Amber, I wanted to change cause she deserved better than that, and I I made a mistake, I messed up, and I apologized but now she don't trust me, it's like every move I make I'm lying about it now, and then accusing me of cheating I ain't never cheated on you babe, I tell you everything but that one thing and,"

He paused and looked at me before shaking his head. I was fighting back the tears that were building up. What the hell was wrong with me? I had a good man, a good man who was all about me, all he wanted was me, and I was acting foolish over one mistake he made.

"Amber do you have anything to say ?" I shook my head no.

"Amber how did you feel when Jayceon didn't tell you what he did?"

"It hurt finding out from someone else it made me feel left out like he didn't want me to be involve, it made me question things, him our, our vows, and when I found out what he had done I was scared, I- I didn't know who he was anymore,"

"Did you express these feelings to him?"

"Yes, no, well I thought I did, I told him how I felt but I probably didn't explain it more, because I didn't think he'd listen,"

"Amb really I always listen to you I listen to ev-"

"Hold on Jayce calm down, Amber do you feel like you and Jayceon have a hard time communicating?"

"Yes sometimes, I'm afraid to talk to him," I said honestly.

"And why is that?"

"Because he gets so mad and I know his history, I know what happens when he gets upset in the streets , so I try not to make him angry," There was brief silence, I didn't look over at Jayceon but I knew he was upset I could feel it. I felt like I've said way too much already.

"Amber, is there any thing else that maybe bothering you?"

"Yes his cellphone I mean it's always going off the hook,"

"But baby I tell you everything I tell you that it's work I have no problem showing you what's in my phone cause I ain't hiding shit, When I got the female business partner I told you right away cause I didn't want you to think nothing was going on, I mean women come in and out of my club everyday, but none of them are you baby, none of them got my heart the way you have it babe,"

"I know babe and I'm trying to remember that I mean that's all I mean I love our life, we have a beautiful baby boy, uhm Harlem he isn't my biological son, but I love him like he is,"

"He's your son from a previous relationship Mr. Taylor?"

"Yes, uh his mother and I we were involved before Amber and I got together but we cut things off and she was pregnant and didn't tell me until later,"

"And how did that make you feel Amber?"

"At first I felt some type of way, but it wasn't Jayce's fault he didn't know about him, she didn't tell him, I eventually grew to love Harlem as if he was mine, he is mine, and we're having his little brother, I want more kids and I want to grow old and gray with you baby I love you so much I mean that's why we're here to get past this," I said before breaking down. Jayce grabbed my hand as I wiped away my tears with the other one.

"I love you too babe," he said back.

"Before I give my take, is there anything you want to say Mr. Taylor?"

"Yes, baby what are we doing here, I love you with all my heart Amber, I want to make this work, Ive done my wrongs in the past I've done a lot of things I'm not proud of, but I want you to know that the day I laid my eyes on you, I wanted to do better, I wanted to do right by you I wanted to give you everything all the diamonds and the pearls, the fancy life, I'm not perfect baby I'm trying but I want you to know I'm not cheating on you, Back in the day when you went off to college I fucked around and did dumb shit that I wasn't proud of. But when I stood in front of that clerk and we slid these rings on our fingers, I said I'd never cheat, Id never be dishonest, I was going to keep our vows and honor them, I simply thought that not telling you would keep you safe and out of the heat, not that I didn't wanna keep you involved or round, shit I tell you everything, I always keep you in the loop, but I just want you to know that I love you I do babe," he said as we held hands.

"I love you so much Jayce and I'm sorry for how I've been acting baby, and I love you too, I know you're a good man, God has really blessed me,"

"Mr and Mrs. Taylor, i think that communication is key in any relationship, based off what I've heard hear you all don't communicate well with each other and that will cause a lot of martial problems, here I have a pamphlet on communicating there are several ways to communicate, if you can't talk, write, whatever works but just tell her tell him how you feel don't hold back, marriage is hard sure enough but if you work together and remember it's Us, it's We now and not I things will work out,"

"Thank you," We said as she handed us the pamphlet.

"I want you guys to come once every week let be open space for you too to talk, I see the love I would hate for you to to break up or get a divorce, I don't see many young couples willing to work on their marriage I see many of them ready to quit without even trying,"

"Okay, and thank you so much," we talked a little while longer before leaving. I don't know why but after leaving I felt like a weight has been lifted off of me. We didn't even make it in the door good before Jayce came up behind me kissing on me. He gripped my waist and licked my ear lobe. A moan escaped my mouth as I tried to feel my purse for my keys.

"Baby," I moaned as he smacked my thighs and bit down on my neck. I heard his pants unbuckle.

"Hurry up and open the fuckin door Amb," he said aggressively as he pinched my nipple. We started walking and once we reached the door I felt him slide his hands inside of my jogging pants. I put the key in the door and the minute I opened it Jayce started pulling at my clothes.

Clothes went flying all across the room, we were on the couch making beautiful music. All you could hear was the sounds of my moans and his groans as well as us confessing our love to each other.

"I love you so much Amber Patrice Taylor,"

"I love you so much more Jayceon Terrell Taylor, And I'm so sorry baby for accusing you, and acting so crazy, I promise I'm gonna do right by you baby I promise I don't wanna loose you, ever ," he gave me a long lingering kiss and I ran my hands down his sweaty chest they traveled down to his hips and down to his butt I grabbed it and he shook his head while I giggled.

"Always playing man," he said as we laughed and kissed again.

"I love you so much daddy,"

"I love you too princess,"

Once we were done we showered together, ordered a pizza, turned on Hulu and cuddled in bed. I swear I wasn't going to continue treating him the way I have he was good man. I loved him so much.