Jayceon -

I was blowing Amber's phone up Calling her nonstop, but she wouldn't answer, at first it would ring but now it was going straight to voicemail. I sent text after text but she wouldn't answer me. Tears fell down my eyes and my hands began to shake its been a long time since I felt like this.

I felt like this the day Victoria died damn near lost my mind. I was losing my mind wondering she had made it home if she was okay, luckily Kendrick had been there with Ariel, he came over to the house and told me she was home but she was still crying when he left.

"Man here you need to relax, take yo mind off of shit," Kendrick said as he passed me the blunt.

"Fuck man," I said sitting down while grabbing the blunt and inhaling. All I could do was think about was Amber.

"Man I need to go over there I need her to hear me out man I need-"

"Bro, you need to relax and calm down you don't need to go over there tonight, Amber needs to calm down herself it ain't healthy for the baby just go over there tomorrow man," Kendrick said. He was right but I wasn't trying to hear that all I wanted was Amber right now. I took a few more puffs of the blunt and I was starting to feel a little buzz. A felt a little more relax and I had time to think about things.

Me and Kendrick smoked until we couldn't smoke anymore. It was 3am when he left. "Iight man see you tomorrow," he said as I climbed the top of the staircase.

"Iight bro," I said back.

"Imma lock up everything," I nodded my head and went back in the room. The picture of me and Amber that sat on the night stand was mocking me. I grabbed it and looked at Amber and how happy she was. Sighing I put the picture back down and got in bed turning off the lights. I closed my eyes and drifted off to sleep.

Jayceon's Dream -

Jayceon -

After dinner I got in bed with Amber, drifting off to sleep. I closed my eyes and as I drifted slowly my eyes opened and I saw Victoria. She looked so gorgeous wearing an all white dress with angel wings and she had a crown on her head.

"Vicky?" I asked as I wiped my eyes trying to make sure it was really her.

"Hi Jayceon, it's about time you made it," she smiled.

"Made it where am I?" I asked as I got up and we started walking down a stream of water. It was so beautiful, the mansions that were inline row by row, angels where every where worshipping.

"We're In heaven silly, my new home," she smiled brightly. God she looked just like Cali.

"You look so happy V, more than you did when you were on earth," I said sadly.

"Hey, I was happy Jayce. You gave me a great life, you stood by me and by our children, I'll always love you," She said to me.

"I'll always love you too V I guess that's why I can't move on with Amber, I- I love her so much but it's like I'm holding on to you and-"

"Let me go Jayceon. I'm dead in the natural world, but I'm living in the spiritual world, I'm happy, I'm here with our first born, you remember I had a miscarriage," She said as a little girl ran towards her and held her hand.

"Who is this mommy?" She asked. She looked up at me and she resembled Cali so much.

"This your daddy baby,"

"Hi daddy," she smiled.

"Hi," I smiled back.

"I'm at peace Jayceon, I want you to move on and be happy, I know that you love Amber, and she is a good woman. She loves you, she loves our children, she wants a life with you,"

"Not anymore she won't return my calls she want answer me, maybe I should just not go back I need to stay here with you,"

"Jayceon now is not your time, Amber loves you We hear her prayers about you, and about the kids. You have to go to her Jayceon and tell her tell her how you feel,"

"Everything?"

"Everything Jayceon, But you have to do it soon because she won't wait that long she's growing impatient, don't do her how you used to do me hardhead, don't leave her guessing be truthful and honest,"

"I will,"

"Remember Jayceon, we love you and we're always watching over you, I love you so much go on be happy marry your dream girl and continue to take care of my babies,"

"I will V,"

"Bye daddy," the little girl said to me.

"Bye baby," I smiled and she smiled back. I began walking into another direction. I turned around one more time to take one last look at V but she had disappeared.

I don't know why but I woke up hearing my alarm clock going off. It was 6:30 am. I hurried up calling mama. She came and watched the kids while I got up got dressed and left. I was doing damn near 85 as I rushed to Amber's house I got out parking the car.

I was about to knock when the door opened, Amber came out dressed for work, but she looked like she was crying all night and as if she had been crying this morning.

"Hey," I said to her as I stepped back allowing her to walked out and close the door.

"Hey," she said sadly not once looking at me. I grabbed her in my arms and kissed her lips. I thought she was going to push me away but instead I felt her body release almost like she was giving in.

I pushed her against the car cause she smelt so good. "Baby I'm sorry, I'm sorry," I said kissing her neck. She ran her fingers through my hair as we kissed. She was wearing a skirt so I slid my hands underneath. She moaned and leaned her head back.

"Let's go back in the house," I was so impatient cause I needed her badly. She was looking so good, had the nerve to have her titties out.

"Jayce I have to go to work," she whined as I took the bags out her hand placing them on top of the car.

"You ain't gotta go call off, we got unfinished business,"

"Well it's going to have to wait Jayceon Taylor, I have to go to work,"'she said grabbing her bags and unlocking her car door.

"Wait drive my car today," I said trying to think of some shit.

"Why?" She asked me.

"So I'll know you coming back," I said honestly with my head down

"Jayceon I love you I love you with every fiber in my being, I'm just going to work Okay," I nodded my head and stepped back. She got in the car and drove off. I sighed getting in my car and driving out.

That was three days ago and I hadn't heard from her. I was sitting at my desk now filing my paperwork when there was a knock at my door. "Come in," I said with my back to the door as I reached in the file cabinet.

"Hey," she said to me. I instantly turned around, seeing Amber.

"I uhm.. brought us lunch," she said holding up the subway bag. I told her to sit down and we started eating. It almost slipped my mind but I had to ask her.

"Are you doing alright? Is the baby okay?" I asked.

"Jayce its only been a few days since I've been away, I'm fine the baby is fine silly," she said to me as she laughed.

"I just gotta make sure I mean you didn't call me," I said a little upset.

"If anything was wrong I would of called you and talked to you about it,"

"Damn so why didn't you why didn't you tell me how you really felt Amb we could of we could of talked about it,"

"Jayce I didn't come to argue,"

"Why did you come then?" I said with a tone of bitterness and anger.

"Maybe this was a bad idea," she started packing up and I sighed.

"Wait Amb Wait, I'm sorry. I'm just on edge right now I got a lot on my mind and.. I just I don't know how to handle it right now," I said as I stopped her from leaving.

"I'm sorry Jayceon,"

"Let's finish eating come on," we sat back down and ate .

"Are you busy this Saturday?" I asked.

"No why?" She asked me.

"Normally around the holidays we have our annual Gala, for the company I wanted to know if you could be my date,"

"Sure I don't mind,"

"The theme is blue,"

"Okay,"

We finished eating, it was awkward because I was used to us laughing and talking.

"Jayceon I'm sorry for blowing this up I should of told you how I felt but I didn't want to be selfish you already have so much on your plate and I didn't want to confuse this our overload you,"

"Amber I love you, I love you with my whole heart, I've had a new perspective on things since we've been apart these past few days but I'm all I need is a little more time, please don't give up on me,"

"I won't, Jayce I won't,"

"Come here," I said to her. She straddled my lap as we kissed. I let my hands roam freely under her dress until I found her panties. She moaned when I slid them off.

"Baby, not right here in your office,"

"Why not, I've always wanted to see you on top of my desk," I smirked.

"You are such a bad boy," she laughed as I picked her up.

"I love you with all my heart baby, imma be real with you I was scared to give you all of me simply because I didn't want to give my heart to another woman only for God to take her away from me. But baby I realized I can't live life like that. I need you in my world Amber Patrice Riley because without you in it it's not whole, it's not complete, the Bible says a man who finds a good thing finds a wife, and you are my good thing baby, you are my wife, I'm gonna marry you, I am"

Tears fell down her eyes, as I made passionate love to her. "I love you so much Jayceon," she said in between breaths as I thrusted inside of her. She held onto my arms and moaned out so crazily. It was sexy as fuck to watch.

"I love you too Amb, always,"

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"You look pretty Amb," Cali said to me with a smile so wide.

"Thank you baby," I kissed her cheek and she giggled.

"I'm sorry Amber I didn't mean to hurt your feelings I just wanted to know how daddy felt,"

"It's okay princess it wasn't your fault mama shouldn't have been ease dropping," I said as we laughed.

"You look like Cinderella," she laughed.

"I do?" I laughed.

"Yeah, daddy's gonna be stuck," she said as we laughed.

"Like always,"

"Hey baby... wow you look amazing," Jayce smiled as he came to the door.

"Thank you you look handsome yourself," I chuckled.

"You ready?" He asked me .

"Yeah I'm ready," I said to him.

"Hold on now grandma needs her picture," mama said as we came downstairs. Me and Jayce laughed as we posed for a picture.

"Alright see y'all behave," Jayceon said.

"We will,"

"Bye daddy bye amb," the kids said back.

"Bye," me and Jayce said in unison.

Once we made it to the ballroom all eyes were on me and Jayceon. Everyone wanted to know who was that on Jayce's arm. I felt a few smiles and a few glares but I didn't care I with the man of the hour tonight. My man.

As we sat and ate Jayceon conversed with one of his colleagues while I talked to the mans wife. She was very funny I couldn't stop laughing. An elderly white Man who I later on found out was the VIP of the committee of the Gala, stood at the microphone.

"Good evening everyone," he said into the mic

"Good evening,"

"Tonight like many nights before we come gathered every year for our charity benefit held by The CEO Mr. Jayceon Taylor,"

Everyone clapped as Jayce smiled.

"It would be my pleasure if Mr. Taylor could come and have words,"

Jayceon got up and he went to the podium he shook hands with the VIP before grabbing the mic.

"You all look good in your nice blue outfits," he said as everyone laughed.

"Tonight is such a special night, we have these Galas not just for charity but for everyone to come together during the holidays it's so much violence and hatred going on outside those doors it's my goal to change that, with these Gala's for charity we open our doors to people as well as our hearts and our pocketbooks,"

Everyone laughed including Jayceon.

My heart began to beat fast as all eyes were upon me. I walked over to the podium and Jayceon smiled. "A few years ago if you've known me back then, I was going through a tough period in my life, I had lost my bestfriend my wife and my children had lost their mother, but this woman, she came and restored my broken heart, my children's heart, and in her stomach she's carrying our baby, who I can't wait to meet, it's only right that I ask you baby," He down on his knees and everyone was so shocked and so excited. Including me I felt as if my heart was going to explode out my chest.

"Amber Patrice Riley, will you marry baby?"

"Yes! Jayceon yes!" I said without even thinking about it. Everyone stood and clapped and cheered as Jayce put the 20,000 dollar ring on my finger. He picked me up and we kissed as he turned me around.

"I love you," he said to me.

"I love you too baby, with all my heart,"

We kissed again as everyone cheered. I loved this man so much, I wouldn't trade him for anything in the world.