It's been a few days now, I've gone back to campus seeing as I have healed but not completely. The workload is shitting on me. Siya has been good to me, Jade stays with Siya's mother because she's safer there with all the bodyguards and stuff but I just love how he loves her and always puts her first. He was a great father and I don't think I told him that.

Me: See ya later.

I shout at Mbali as I make my way down the stairs, I have a packed day today with classes and stuff. I grab an apple and the car keys.

Locking the door and sprinting to Mbali's car at the parking lot. Mbali has been sick for the past few days, she looks weak and she pukes a lot. I really didn't want to assume the worst. She has been having sex and I just hope it's been protected sex. She had to cancel her classes for today, all due to vomiting nonstop. I arrive at campus after a 10 minutes drive and jog inside the premises to my first class.

The day flies by quickly. At lunch time I decide to call Mbali to check in on her. I hope she's feeling better.

Me: Hey, how are you feeling?

Mbali: Like shit, listen can you please get me some pain killers on your way back home.

Me: How about I come home and we go to the doctor instead.

Mbali: Your classes?

Me: Don't worry about that, for you I'll do anything my love, so get ready I'll be there in 10.

Mbali: I love you sis.

Me: Yeah yeah I know.

She chuckles and disconnects the call. I finish my lunch and throw away the empty contents. I grab my backpack and walk to the parking lot, driving back to the dorm.

***

Doctor: Okay Ms Ndlovu, seems like everything is okay as of now, it was just food poisoning but I have prescribed some medication for you to take. You should be good to go home tomorrow.

I sigh taking Mbali's hand as the doctor smiles at us. She puts her hands in her white coat's pockets. Mbali looks pale but she's been treated, I think and she's also being asked to stay the night for a normal observation. I called Sanele and Siya, they are on the way. Sanele had panicked the second he heard Mbali and hospital. But I managed to calm him down.

Mbali: That explains a lot.

Doctor: Actually Ms Ndlovu that explains only half of it all.

The Dr says standing straight. A smile on her face.

Me: She's not dying is she? Cause I'd kinda like to kill her myself.

Mbali: Shut up.

Mbali swats my arm playfully as she leans back on the hospital headboard with the support of the pillow.

Mbali: What do you mean Doc?

Doctor: Congratulations, you are pregnant.

Mbali/ Me: What??

Doctor: Ms Ndlovu, you are 3weeks pregnant.

Siya/Sanele: What??

We turn to look at the door as Siya and Sanele are staring at the Dr with wide eyes. Well! I look at Mbali, I think she just got paler. I'm gonna be an Aunt, I nudge her shoulder because she's been too silent and too... Well not happy?

Mbali: T-that can't b-be doc.

Doctor: Well you are, and I'll have to leave you for now but I'll be back to fill you in on your condition.

The Dr smiles at me and nods at the two men stuck at the door with wide eyes and gaped mouths. I snap my fingers at them and they finally blink, shaking off from their little shock. I turn to look at Mbali, to see her crying.

Me: Hey why are you..

Siya: I think we should give them space.

Me: B-bu-

Siya tugs my hand and pulls me out of the room. I glance back at Mbali who's facing the other way as Sanele stands next to the bed looking frightened. I swear if that nigga upsets her, he's dead.

Siya sighs and pulls me to him and I rest my head on his chest, taking a sit on one of the hospital steel benches outside the room.

Siya: Nami ngifuna ingane . (I also want a child)

He randomly says. Does he think getting a child is like buying ice cream from a vending machine. You just put a coin and bang it when it doesn't work then bam, you get a child.

Me: You have a child Siya.

Siya: I want one with you.

I blush, but then I don't look at him to show it. I playfully hit his chest. I feel his chest vibrate with his chuckles.

Siya: I love it when you blush because of me.

Me: Okay Romeo, I'm not giving you a child till I'm 30!

Siya scoffs probably thinking I'm playing. But when I look up at him, he sees that my face is dead serious.

Siya: You not serious are you?

I laugh at him after a while, he seems to relax as he rolls his eyes at me. Does he really think I'll wait that long to have a mini him or mini me or mini us. I don't think I can ever wait. I love this man and all I wanna do is make him happy.

Siya: Sweetheart.

Me: Hmh

Siya: I'm gonna put my seed in there.

Me: I know.

Siya: You not gonna fight me on this one.

Me: It's a losing battle.

Siya laughs and kisses my forehead.

What is this Dr doing, is she trying to ruin my life? How is that even possible? I just dozed off after she left, I couldn't hear anything. I didn't want to hear anything. I didn't even know that I was crying until Sino pointed it out. My parents are going to kill me, my mother will be so disappointed in me. I just gave her more reasons to depreciate me. I feel hands cup my face. Sanele makes me look at him.

Sanele: Sthandwa Sam, why are you crying?

Do I tell him that I don't want this child. Do I have it in me to break his heart in pieces. I can't keep this baby, I'm so young and my parents will... No I can't have this baby, not now. I wipe my tears and put on a poker face, I remove his hands from my face, I see the hurt in his eyes. He glances at his hands then at me. I sit up straight and look anywhere but him.

Me: I don't want this child.

Silence. He's just watching me. Then after a good minute of not saying anything he whispers, I almost didn't catch it.

Sanele: What did you just say to me?

I avert his gaze, still keeping my poker face on. Sanele sits on the bed facing me. He takes my hand, but I yank it out of his grip. He looks at me for a minute. I feel my eyes burn with fresh tears but I don't let them fall.

Me: I'm not keeping it.

Sanele: What the fuck does that mean Mbali.

Me: I'm having an abo-

Sanele: I dare you to finish that sentence.

He grits out. I look at him, his eyes are filled with rage but I can't miss the hurt in them. He's in disbelief. I look away because if I look at those eyes once more, I'll break down even end up changing my decision.

Sanele: Sthandwa sam, talk to me, what is it? Did I do something wrong?

I keep quiet. What am I supposed to say? It's not even his fault but I don't tell him that.

Sanele: I'm sorry, Mbali please don't do this, baby look we can be happy-

Me: I don't want to have this child Sanele, don't you get it?

I half yell at him. Maybe if I push him away, he'll get angry enough to leave.

Sanele: I fucken don't, why?

Me: I just don't okay? Respect my wish please.

Sanele: You want to kill my fucken child, what's there to respect?

Me: Well I don't want it so deal with it.

Sanele stands up. His eye is twitching from the anger in him. I have never seen him so mad in my life. All this yelling at each other, his eyes are so red. I keep wiping my tears that have betrayed me by falling. Sanele looks at me with disgust.

Me: Sanele please don't look at me like that.

Sanele: Like what?

It comes out more like a whisper. His tone challenging me to say the words.

Me: Like I'm some sort of monster.

Sanele: I wouldn't if you didn't behave like one.

Me: W-what?

Sanele: You want to kill our child. What kinda person would do that?

Me: I'm a monster to you now?

No reply! That's an enough answer for me

Me: What does that make you huh?

He looks taken back, and I know I just stooped low, I used his work as a weapon to defend my selfish motives, I hurt him. He chuckles and shakes his head. He walks to the door, but glances back at me.

Sanele: At least I don't kill my own.

With that, he leaves and shuts the door behind him. My hands fly to my mouth to suppress the sobs, Soon Sino burst through the door and I'm thankful when she doesn't say anything, just hugs me and shush's me.

I love him.