Do you believe in werewolf? Well I guess not , even when you ask my friends , they would say that it was just a mere fiction , a creature that was made by a human's imagination and was given life in arts , books and movies. Even me , I might not believe that werewolves exists. In my years of living here in human world , I never meet one , except for myself--- YES , you heard it right. Myself. Cause I am a werewolf believe it or not. And I'm not happy being one. Others might think how lucky it is to be an immortal , but living with bunch of rules , with your fate held by a certain moon goddess isn't nice at all. I might have senses and capabilities better than a mere human being. But still , I do not want to be like this at all.

It has been seven years since I started living here in the human world. I mean werewolves do not live in a different planet. Yet they remained hidden and undiscovered ti'l now , they don't converse with mere human being that much , maybe others who are going out of the pack sometimes and others who are living with humans , like me. But most of them are living somewhere in nowhere , where only them knows the location. I don't even understand why they weren't been caught ti'l now. I mean humans had established high technologies already , why couldn't they locate the packs of the werewolves scattered here in every corner of the world? --- well setting aside the questions , well here I am. Living alone with the humans. Seven years ago , I left my pack. Half was my choice and half was because werewolves on my pack doesn't like me. Who would like someone who has a different belief? A rule breaker? And someone who just caused trouble in pack? Well No one. But everyone are just bearing it until a right time came that they could already petition me to leave the pack.

In other hand I have my twin sister. Unlike me she was loved , cherished , adored whatever you call it. Everyone liked her. She get along with everyone well , from children , to teens , to oldies. Thus we were always compared and of course I am in the dark side. That's one of the reason why I do not want to stay in the pack. In a pack where I have a person with the same face with me. In a pack where people couldn't accept me as I am and are always comparing me with somebody else. In a pack where my own family were embarrassed of me and could not even look at me in the eyes.

I once had hoped that once I found my mate when I turned eighteen , I wanted him to be from a different pack. So I could leave my own pack and go with him. Or maybe I could convince him to leave our pack and live far from the other werewolves. Maybe my mate would love me so much and would understand me as a being. But every hope I had shattered in pieces when I found my mate within my pack. And if I was unlucky enough , it was the son of our Alpha. Means the next Alpha of my pack. Archer Wringgs. Archer is our childhood friend , but I can guarantee he's more close than Allisa as I was a little introverted. I was attracted with him before , but not as fatal as how I became when I was already capable of sensing my mate when I turned 18. But I does not just lost the privilege to leave my pack and transfer on another one , since he is the next Alpha and he is strictly needed in his pack , but also he is the mate I never wanted. Cause He loves my sister. At first when we realized that we are the fated mates of each other. He came to me , sustained our wolf needs. We did every normal mates would do , touch , kiss , cuddle , make love. I even reconsider my decision of leaving the pack , I almost changed. But then.. His humane side love my sister so much. Very much that he managed to ignore the mate bond and continue to love my sister even though I was there. He only uses me to sustain his wolf's need , the ache for my warmt and pleasure I gave caused by the bond. While since my sister in other hand haven't still seen her mate. I know that she also have a feelings for Archer thus she refused to meet other males werewolves of other packs. She never even thought of my own well-being as her sister. Even though she's quite aware that I am Archer's mate , she might won't show it but I know she is certain she could steal him away from me and she did. And that's how I was rejected by my mate.

I know I am not suitable to be the next Luna. Because I posses all the adverse characteristics of a Luna. While my sister is the most suitable one. I was rejected by my mate , and as soon as he marked my sister in front of everyone. I became a big threat of my own sister. People assumed a lot of devilish things I could've done just to take my mate back. Thus I was petitioned to be kick out of the pack. My supposed to be mate agreed. My sister never commented , nor wasn't even sympathetic , that's how I realized that the nice sister I have all this time was all fake. My parents turned their back. And the whole pack pushed me to the edge.

And with that , I know that in this lifetime , I am meant to be lonesome. I am meant to be different. I am meant to be unhappy forever.

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