the night brings with it the moon, rippling waters, and truths silenced with his mouth hot on your skin.

The chilly evening wind of coming spring sweeps a scattering of fallen leaves across the courtyard. It ripples through the sleeves of your jeogori as you descend from the stone veranda of your quarters towards the private palace gardens. The two guards who stand at the entrance move wordlessly aside upon seeing you, offering you slight bows that you return. Past this barrier, the tall, reaching trees hang against the darkened sky, heavy branches scratching invisible marks over the moonlight. You follow the set path with steady footsteps, passing blooming shrubs with a yawn on your lips. The day has been long and your eyes are sore from studying medicine with only a dim lamp for company. But the breeze - it whisks away fatigue with an enviable ease.

The path winds along the expansive pond. Water lettuce and lily pads cover most of the liquid surface, lining the makeshift island that houses your favorite: the grand pavilion. Recently renovated on the king's direct instruction. You move closer, slippers leaving stone to scrape the thin wooden bridge.

Something in the dark shifts.

Your eyes fall upon a shadow. Your steps stutter, then quicken.

"Jeonha."

The king sits on the left bench, near the open front that has yet to be replaced, with a casual arm draped over the intricate banister. He doesn't stir at the sound of your deliberately soft voice, his gaze remaining mired on something in the distance, far beyond the pavilion's, or perhaps even the palace's, reach. His hat is abandoned beside him, the topknot slightly loose where it is bound on his head.

"May I join you?"

He waves his hand absently.

You consider your options, but ultimately take advantage of the pavilion's half-finished state and sit on the very edge with your legs tucked under you in a traditional kneel. You cannot even remember the last time you've sat together like this - out in the open outdoors, away from the tightly-drawn curtains of his chambers and away from prying eyes. Only now do you realize how much it had been missing. "The willow trees have grown out nicely," you offer, what you hope is a safe topic. You watch a lily pad drift idly by. "I hope the lotus flowers bloom well this year. The pond truly felt so empty last season without their color. I—"

"Is it commonplace for subjects to inflict idle chatter on their king?" The ice in his voice is a slap across the face.

You shut up immediately. Nervously swallow too, but the heaviness in your throat remains stuck. You've become uncomfortably familiar with that tone, the quick temper that flares up in seconds but takes its time to dissipate. A part of you wants to retreat and hide; the other can never bear to leave him. Ever so slightly, chewing on the inside of your cheek, you turn your head instead. Take your first good look at him and almost gasp at how gaunt he looks in the sparse light. Nor do you expect the deep purple settled beneath his eyes. If this had been ten or even just two years ago, you wouldn't hesitate to mention it but with things as they are, you are so nervous to speak and...

"What?"

"Have," you bow your head slightly, "have you not been sleeping?"

Silence.

"Jeonha?" You press. "Please."

When he finally looks at you, it's with a glare. "I haven't the time."

"And your meals?"

"Not hungry."

Your fingers knot. "But rest, sleep is essential. As is food. Without it, to make important decisions—"

"Hah!" His scowl deepens, the scar stretching down with his lips. "It would make little difference in how they are received."

Ah.

You should've known it was impossible to miss the rumors rumbling through the palace, their source the restless palace occupants faced with a ruthless king. He can't stop the rampant thievery brought on by the grain shortage, yet executes the thieves themselves. His petty rejection of treaty with Japan left threats of war looming like an open wound that refuses to heal. All this, the former king would never have done. Or so the gossip goes.

"Still... Jeonha, you cannot, simply cannot, live like this. The people need you to be strong. They need their leader. Every hour you spend pushing yourself too far is an hour taken off your life. " Saying the words alone puts a tremble in your fingers. The thought of his death could keep you awake right along with him. Has. But every syllable you speak is an overstep of your boundaries and rank. "I-If something is weighing on your mind, tell me. Use me. Tell me what you need and I'll try to help however I can."

He laughs then, but it's an ugly, mocking sound. With a thud, he drops to the floor. "Spare me your fucking idealism." His tight fist finds the roots of your hair. He yanks, hard. Your plain hairpin clatters to the floor, teetering wildly off the pavilion edge. "You, help me? What power do you have?" He drags you backwards, your eyes wide and quivering as they find fury in his. "What can you really do?"

He all but rips open your sash and you let him. You let him throw aside the layers that cover your chest until you're exposed to him, torn white fabric pooling around your arms. His breath is hot at the shell of your ear as he growls, "this is all I need from you. This and nothing else."

"T-Then use me," you repeat, despite the dagger stab of pain in your heart. If this will lessen his burdens, you'll do it. If this will have him in your arms if only fleetingly, you'll do it.

He grabs a breast and smirks when you tense, then cry out when he pinches a nipple pebbled from the wind. Take it all, you think deliriously when his fingers tighten with an almost unbearable strength, and again when he dips his head low, sucking hard at the nape of your neck to give you a dark ache to remember come morning. He leaves one mark then another, and another, as if threatening to consume you entirely with his desire. And you? You're addicted to that jolt of pain, the heady wetness of dominance that says he wants you. He wants nothing but you right now, and you tuck that precious knowledge away with a moan.

When he flips you onto your back, you don't hear the quiet splash as your hand knocks the pin over. All your focus is stolen by your king between your legs, demanding obedience even from his knees. He wastes no time in forcing your skirt up, undoing the ties of the shorts beneath and throwing them aside. You don't think you breathe until his nail rakes across the scrap of cloth covering your heat. "Look at you," he mutters. "So wet. Shameless." He doesn't bother taking off the sokgot before fucking two fingers into you, deep enough for you to feel the ridge of his knuckles. The way your tight cunt opens and molds to him makes him sink his teeth into his lip in appreciation.

You already feel pressure building when he curls his fingers. It spikes up when he scissors, pushes you apart to hear you gasp. The noise travels far, echoing across the water while he makes a mess of you with each rapid pump. You don't need to see to know that clear arousal is running down the sides of your lower lips. The sound of slick is as lewd as your whines, pitched at a tell-tale high.

"Fast, too fast," you groan. But when you shift back, you're only met with open air beneath your hands. You turn your head in panic and yelp when you realize just how close you are to the edge, with nothing but murky water below. "J-Jeonha, let me bac—"

"No." His eyes glimmer with something possessive at the sight of you stretched out over the precipice, moonlight's glow painted across your bare skin. All that pliant softness for him to ruin.

And you do break, when he hits that spot and punishes it without a second's pause. "Please, oh god, please." You don't even know what you're begging for but his palm slaps against your skin with reckless strokes. Your spine curves back, head going with it until all you see is the night and burning stars and everything in this palace that belongs solely to him. You let go. You cum with an errant hand flung out, fingers skimming across the water, the rest of you pinned beneath him. Uncontrollable.

His smile is sadistic as he leans over you, still fully clothed in his royal robes as he watches you tremble. "Think the guards can hear you?" You want to shake your head but all you do is grind your hips into him. "If they turned their heads, they'd see you like this. Needy. Desperate." He spits the humiliating words through set teeth. "Why don't I call them over and show them what the esteemed physician is really like?" His cocksure grin stretches even wider when he feels you clench in response. It seems to make up his mind; he doesn't extract his fingers even though bliss has turned sharply into soreness. Just fucks you through the last of the aftershocks and then some until he brings you to peak for a second, noisy time.

Only then does he draw back, swiping his tongue slowly up his soaked hand. His eyes never leave you, even as he strips enough to pull his thick cock from the folds of gilded silk. You don't get much of a glimpse before it's sheathed in you, much fuller than his fingers. Your overstimulated cunt reacts despite the sensitivity, wetly clinging to his shaft as he bottoms out. He doesn't stop to savor, doesn't even let you catch a breath before he's moving forward. His thrusts now, angry and quick and deep - they're for him.

The low grunts of effort drop alongside sweat down his neck, topknot bobbing back and forth and he keeps going, nimble hips pistoning with none of the precision of his swordplay. Where that is beautiful, controlled movements, he finds himself the exact opposite when he's inside you. A damn slave to the pleasure surging through his body, and he seems to hate that he needs it. A loathing that he leaves in the bruises on your ass every time you smack to the floor. "Always this tight for me," he mutters in a low register.

You're trying your best to hold on, and survive the acute ache of him battering against your deepest core because you could never ask him to stop. Your fingers cling to the stone boundary, holding you to solid ground when everything feels like it's been tossed clear up into the air. You almost can't bear to look at him like this. It'll make you believe in the intimacy shared between lovers when this is—

He snarls your name, draws your attention back. "Say it."

"J-Jeonha...!"

He must like what he hears and finds in your gaze, for he smirks. "You've become a nice little whore for me, haven't you?"

And that's it. That's when you feel the hot sting behind your eyes finally overflow. It's a word that's you've become well-acquainted with these past few months but to hear it from his lips is... The tears slide backwards down your cheeks, rippling the pond but he doesn't notice. Or if he does, maybe he pretends they're of pleasure. If only you could follow suit.

He takes two almost-unbearably deep strokes and then, suddenly, you're empty. He's gasping, surprisingly undone as his hand slides frantically on his own cock. Sticky cum soon splatters all over your stomach, staining your skirt with his conquest. Panting, he looks at you through loose strands of blonde hair and doesn't pull away. Instead, he leans forward. For a moment, you forget yourself and expect him to kiss you. Instead, he hauls you up from the brink with a sweaty hand on the back of your neck.

"What? Want something else?" He snaps when he finds your puffy eyes staring at him.

You think about asking him if he's alright. Maybe he would listen if you tried again, just once more time. But your body is sore, your thighs and core between them especially so. A lingering reminder that this is perhaps all you are good for in his eyes. Whore.

"No. Nothing."

He stands, wiping dust off his sleeves, but otherwise not bothering to fix much of his wrinkled robes. "Then you are dismissed," he says, then walks off. Likely to his private quarters, the back entrance connected to this garden.

Alone on the floor, you curl yourself up and still feel the emptiness, a dissatisfaction. You hadn't noticed it before, but a songbird has been singing, marking the terribly late hour. On a sigh with fingers trembling, you pull the scraps of your jacket around your nakedness and try to shield yourself from the wind.