'I'm just in the cut sittin sideways

Way that you lookin all the time

Time and it left you with a broken heart

Hardly excuses how you play with mine'

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The club was filled with cheers as me and kb shared an intense new year's kiss.

The new year wasn't brung in the right way without a kiss at the strike of midnight.

We pull back for air holding each other's faces with goofy smiles on our faces.

A glass cup flies between our faces crashing against the wall and I snap my head in the direction it came from.

Shoving kb back for her own safety I scoop onika up just before she could start swinging.

"Don't do this right here" I whisper in her ear holding her tightly in my arms.

I quickly maneuver us through the crowd and into the empty restroom.

Her body went weak as she broke down in my arms, expressing her pain through each tear.

"I'm sorry" I mumble with blurry eyes, just hearing her cries was killing me softly.

Blinking my tears away I comfortingly held her until she couldn't cry anymore.

Once her tears ceased I let her go taking a few steps back, she was real violent when it came to me these days.

Her eyes were trained on the ground and the uncomfortable silence was making me constantly shift in anticipation.

"I could kill you right now" She chuckles finally looking up at me.

"You need to be killing ya friend, since she sent me that picture which triggered me to do what I did" I confess, her face stays blank though so I couldn't read her emotions.

"Who sent you that picture?" She questions staring at me intensely with a slight head tilt.

"Rah, I bumped into her in here just before the countdown and she confessed. You swear they all ya friends but they don't wanna see you happier than them and that's been the problem" I chuckle shaking my head, I could tell I had the wheels in her head turning.

"I'm gone deal with her but that doesn't excuse what you did, what you're doing. I'm not normal anymore because of you, you created this crazy side of me that I can't control. I'm afraid of myself sometimes because I don't know what I'm capable of when it comes to you" Her voice cracks and she looks up at the ceiling holding her tears back.

"I can't even hear your name without this fire inside of me igniting, how can I love you and want to hurt you at the same time?"

"Do you even care about what you're doing to my mental health, to my heart? You're killing me bel" She softly whispers in a shaky tone.

"I never had bad intentions when it came to you, the first time I fucked up that was all me and I take responsibility for my actions I'm truly sorry for hurting you like that but this is different. She purposely sent me that picture to get a negative reaction out of me, I locked myself in a room for 4 days crying over that shit feeling exactly how you feeling right now. Resenting you, and it was all because ya friend don't wanna see us be great. Yes I'm fucked up for not calling you about the picture but you should know better than I do about reacting off of pain and betrayal. I just wanted you to feel that pain I was feeling"

"Well mission fucking accomplished" She brushes past me but I grip her forearm before she could get to the door

I wanted to say something but I couldn't find the words, letting her go I sigh hearing her walk out the door.

A month ago we was on top of the world, how we fall back to the ground this quick?

"Nic what the fuck?!" Cyn shouts as I was pulled out the club by Chyna and Amber.

I went back to our section to confront rah and ended up blacking out, when I came back to my senses my hands were covered in blood and I was being pulled outside.

"Get the fuck off of me, rah was a fucking snake" I snap shaking out of amber and chynas hold.

"What you talking about nic?" Chyna questions confused.

"Rah went out of her way to send cardi a picture in a plot to break us up, fuck her!"

"Wowww" Amber exclaims in shock.

"Take me home now or I'm about to catch a uber" I tell her seriously, I was fed up with everything and everybody.

"I got you girl come on" She says starting to walk to her car and we all followed.

"Damn that's fucked up nic, I'm sorry that she did all that" Chyna says sincerely and I shake my head.

"It is what it is at this point, just take me home" I tell her getting in the passenger seat shutting the door behind me.

The car was silent as amber patiently took us through traffic.

My phone vibrates in my hand and I unlock it opening the message.